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My First Post: Inexperience

I didn’t get into a relationship ti’ll last year (2016) when I was 20 years old. All through out my teens years, I have always wondered what it would be like to date someone. A few of my secret goals (I hate to admit) was to get promposed in grade 12, dance with a guy during prom, walk to class with my boyfriend and other cliche things. I say cliche because I like to pretend I didn’t care much for those little things when in fact I did, I really did. I treated those “goals” as the bare minimum things that I should at least experience so that when I do (hopefully) find someone in university, this is so that I would already know how to deal with certain emotions and circumstances. Another reason, and (I hate to admit p2) the main reason was because I was jealous. Yep, I would always hear stories about guys asking girls out after they were “done” with the other girl, as if they were making rounds. I would actually as my self why I never got asked out. Was I ugly? Unattractive? What was it? I never stressed about academics because I was a good student through out high school, achieved high grades etc. But boys? Yes, I sure hell did which was weird since I didn’t get any action. I also remember this one time where I was getting books in my locker and the girls a few lockers down me were talking about how so many guys are asking for their number and that it was annoying. I thought that was funny, cause I knew that they liked it and it was their subtle way of showing off. At the same time I was jealous that they were even getting that much attention from guys. --