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30+ days clean and doing extremely well now. i’m more stable than i’ve been in years. i think im going to either delete this account or log out of it in 24 hours. i wish you all the best :)

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suspected bpd + aroace culture is being so fucking mad that everyone holds their partners to a higher regard than their friends. if most people lose a friend, they’re over it. if I lose a friend, 11 months later I’m sobbing over them. I don’t even want to know how I’d feel if I were allo and lost a partner. I almost want to date someone so that I can actually be someone’s top priority, but that wouldn’t be fair to them.

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starting from scratch. trying to get to a year this time <3

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-kurea:)

my insta: @alicekcz

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got a post about being annoyed seeing posts that're like "tw sh" and it's just "blurry cat scratches" and look at the comments and reblogs just to see everyone being like "yes makes me want to tell them to go deeper"

congrats you are a shitty fucking person and triggering the people you're talking about as well as others who may see it

cutting is cutting, self harm is self harm, get over yourself and touch some fucking grass instead of your keyboard next time

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bpd culture is being surprised you maintained a friendship for longer than 6 months

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how i treat my piercings vs how i treat my sh cvts

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would you still love me if you knew what goes on in my head?

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how i sleep after slicing my legs open

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Scared the blood will leak though the jeans lol

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sh’ers be like “idc” and then cry when blood gets on their phone

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bpd culture is “they’ve been acting off for a while now” quickly turning into “if you hate me just fucking say so.”

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yeah yeah yeah mortifying ordeal of being known and all that but sometimes a friend mentions something about you that you didn’t think was noticeable and it feels like your heart is being cradled in their hands

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chat there’s nothing more embarrassing than stopping the bleeding after a slip up and being like “oh this isn’t that bad, i’ll be fine,” and then checking on the cvts 2 hours later and seeing deep red 💀

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@ august please be a little gentle with me I’m so tired

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am I the only one who wants a sign that lists out all my mental illnesses to be strapped on my chest so that people who can not handle me leave me the fuck alone