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Nights will always be too short...

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That place in Tokyo //

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I lost count actually lol. Different paras, paracosms, scenarios, vibes and god knows what.

I recently found old playlists on an old laptop and omg it unlocked ancient forbidden long lost knowledge lol

Okay MaDDers I gotta ask, do you guys have different playlists for different paras or paracosms??? Or is it one giant ‘fuck it we ball’ playlist??

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Violet Light, Nerima 練馬

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I sometimes feel like that the world is out to devour me and inside my head is the only safe place to be

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my new apartment sucks! the walls are so thin and I'm worried the same is true for the floors and that my downstairs neighbours can hear me pace around D:

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Green Lanterns, Nakano 中野

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Dreamweb, Shibuya 渋谷

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my trauma didn’t make me stronger it made me addicted to escapism and terrified of facing reality

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"my child is fine" your lonely-ass child has spent so much time maladaptively daydreaming about a nonexistent romantic partner that they've imagined almost every possible scenario and will never be satisfied with any partner in real life because no one will ever compare to their fictional significant other and anyone who could will take too long to reach a level of trust and intimacy that will satisfy their agonizing desire to love and be loved

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I have that a lot! I sometimes wonder if years of day dreaming coded my brain into accepting this state as the default?! Idk. It's really strange. But I rarely ever stop day dreaming in general, it's always somehow going on in the background. Sometimes just not as involved an exciting but it's always there.

does anyone else ever like, wake up and realize that your brain is already in the middle of a daydream? like your unconscious mind was somehow daydreaming without your knowledge and you just woke up to find yourself in the middle of the daydream already? cause that happened to me today and it was weird

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There are two ways I use songs in my DDs: 1. I'm listening to a song and it fits one of my paracosms so it get's to be connected to this specific one and only this one and can only ever be used for that. It is it's only purpose now. 2. I listen to a new song and create new paras or/and entire paracosms just on this one song alone. If the artist is new to me I might check out some of their others songs and use those as ''DLCs'' in tandem with the original one.

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daytime makes me so fucking anxious. can't wait for it to turn dark again today... it always feels like a huge release of pressure.

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I tried to daydream less and was succsessful. There haven been several days in a row where I was able to be without it... but I feel dead inside. I have severe depression, I know that, I have been disgnosed and in therapy for over 10 years... but it makes me unable get any serotonin outside of my daydreams. MaDD has ruined my life for sure but it's a new flavour of awful without. I just wanna be happy sometimes at least so I need to daydream as a consequence. Life is so hollow and dark and I fail to see any positives recently. It's not the time to let go of this shitty coping mechanism. I didn't ask for any of this.

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Underworld Haunt, Namba  難波

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I was asking for pleasant thoughts not imaginary arguments that rile me up, thank you very much...

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switching between paracosms for hours but to no avail, my heart is restless and keeps aching for something strange...