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I am hanging from a hook in the ceiling

like animal carcass.

I am splayed open, salted and tenderized.

My fatty bits sectioned off with bakers twine.

Red juices weep from my wounds.

Not blood, but the meat sweating

for better flavor.

A heavy palm comes down hard on my rump.

He lifts from the flank.

He samples the breast.

Hunger animates his body but he knows he must wait until the meat is ready.

He massages oils into the fibrous texture.

Working it in with the strong flat pads of his thumbs and fingers.

The meat is shivering.

The meat is shaking.

I’m told this is a chemical process.

Even once dead and removed from the body,

the meat dances on the table.

Due to the residual energy and nerve endings present in the tissue.

The flesh will twitch.

But it must be ready.

When it is ready he’ll carve it off in slabs,

and drop them into his mouth;

a mouse falling into the mouth of a snake

hanging by the tail.

He’ll glide the knife under the muscle

and it will slide down his throat

but it must be ready.

The meat is hanging but will not dry.

It drips

and drips

more juices.

The air is escaping.

The tendons are loosening.

He ties her off again and again.

Soon little lamb.

Soon.

- MEAT 2024

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I’ve been on my knees since I was 5.

In the chapel,

in a bedroom,

in an alley late at night.

Always facing an inflated

godlike

version of some guy.

But as a girl you do what you need to survive.

You open wider, take the body.

Thank your father, you’ve been naughty.

2 Hail Marys, 20 lashings.

“I’ve been sent to punish you for daring to exist.

You will never know a love as meaningful as this.”

I’ve memorized

the lines

since I was 10.

From the Bible,

from the playbook,

from the magazines for men.

If you should mess it up, you’ll start again.

But, still, they only want

the women

they condemn.

I think that I’d have too much fun in hell.

With the pagans

and the hedonists

and sapphics there as well.

Purgatory seems the better fit

I can’t stand waiting in the corner,

but I do love being hit.

There’s not a torture you can prescribe

that I wouldn’t find

a way to like.

Every single second I’m alive

I’m sharpening an axe I’d like to grind.

“I was sent to punish you

for the way I was designed.

You will never know a love

that you fear more than mine.”

- “God Fear a Woman” 2023

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No words, just applause and love for this post 🩷

listening to halsey’s discography is like wow i love this song wow i love this song wow i love song i Love this song wow wow i love this song so much oh wow i love this song

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Happy first month to the album that i'll cherish for the rest of my life!!

I can´t stop thinking about it so here is a David Carson inspired poster for Dog Years.

@tiredandlonelymuse

(Photo by: Danica Robinson)

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HALSEY Vevo Official Live Performances (2024)

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To those who were able to hear TGI at the super small show....PLS SHUT UP!!!!:)))))) LET THE REST OF US HAVE SOMETHING

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iamhalsey: covergirl :: @sarahpardini

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when halsey said

if you knew it was the end of the world, could you love me like a child? could you hold me in the dark? if you knew it was the end of the world, would you like to stay a while? would you leave when it gets dark?

and

if there's nothing missing in my life, then why do these tears come at night?

and

when you're done you can discard me like the others always do and i will nurse my wounds until another artist needs me new

and

i'm way too nice and too forgiving, i wanna go back to the beginning when it all felt right

yeah... i know i'm not ready for H5.

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The Great Impersonator.

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I feel like this album is gonna be Ashley questioning if she could have survived without Halsey since Halsey was a sort of coping mechanism or a savior for Ashley

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This in todays perspective 🫠🫶🏻

I wish that I was better, for the kids who emulate.

but they should really all know better,

than to take the fucking bait

that I’ve been dangling from this building

with my goosebumps in the cold.

I am nothing but a story for a man until I’m sold.

and he can tell it in the lobby, to the old men at the bar

they’ll all clink his cup

and make shit up.

to take it all too far,

they’ll tell a lie about the summer

where they “once had me alone”

and I’ll reside inside a sonnet.

I’m a picture in a phone.

I’ve aged beyond the angel they all saw inside me then.

a grotesque and fading memory

trapped underneath a pen.

“MPDG” 2023

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This is how I originally wrote it. One of those that starts as a poem and then begs to be a song. I posted a fragment of this on tumblr a while back, but here’s the initial piece in its entirety 🤍

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Maybe this is the place for this, considering it's where it all started

Halsey does not owe anyone anything first off. I can't begin to imagine how lonely those months and years felt for them, going through the most difficult moments of their life alongside their child and family. I cried for hours when Halsey released "the end" and the "short story long, I lived" post. To know they could have just disappeared without anyone knowing why, to think the most brilliant and creative mind I can think of would be fairy dust in the universe, it's gut wrenching...I completely understand why someone wouldn't want to tell anyone, let alone thousands of fans.

Every single day I listen to H. In the car, on lunch, after work, making dinner, late night drives. I can't ever get enough, but some people continue to be terrible. They hide behind their screens, say horrid things, and somehow continue on their lives leaving destruction in their wake. H is one of the most unproblematic artists out there!! They stand for all the right things, speak their mind freely, promotes uniqueness, and is unapologetically themselves. To say they are someone I look up to is an understatement.

If there's any chance h is reading this please know, there is a community of people who love you as you are, who absolutely adore your mind, please please know the good ones are here for you, ALWAYS! If that means you need one of us, however that may be, we will help you🩷

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This right here, H has always been for the fans and it's now our turn to show them we are here, we may be outshined by the bad ones right now, but we will continue to be the positive light for them through the darkness

This scene killed me like actually took me out back and shot me….h was really afraid we were going to leave her if we knew she was sick and honestly it’s not a stretch considering how people hounded her for content and said she was taking too long to release music.

Even when she was dying she was still thinking of us.

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I cried. That's it. Who the fuck is being mean to them? WHO HAS THE NERVE!??

They almost died, and all they wanted was to come back to the community that supported them all those years ago. Everyday I find myself seeing less and less REAL Halsey fans online, we are outshined by those who continue to be horrible to h :(

I would wait 1000 years if it meant h was able to come back online and be able to interact with those who actually care and admire them

I would die for you Halsey, and I know others would too, please please please know there are many ppl out in the world who want to see you succeed and be HAPPY!!⭐️

My own fans are hands down meaner to me than any other people on the planet. Not speaking for all of you, of course. But it used to be just a minority that were awful to me and now it seems like a majority have only stuck around to chime in occasionally with their opinion of how much they hate me or how awful I am. it’s hard to want to engage in a space that is completely devoid of any kindness, sympathy, patience; or to be honest human decency. Especially after years of hiding from the interactions for fear that this EXACT thing would happen. I don’t know man. I almost lost my life. I am not gonna do anything that doesn’t make me happy anymore. I can’t spiritually afford it.

When I got sick all I could think about was getting better so I could come back and be a part of THIS again, but I don’t even know what *this* is anymore and I want to crawl in a hole and I regret coming back.

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A rollercoaster of ups and downs, the raw pieces of your life, shared with us, we love you so much 🩷⭐️

HALSEY - LUCKY (2024)

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To experience a daydream like this, loved, truly loved. Ash, we see it in your eyes, this one may be....the one?

Halsey and Avan Jogia in New York City.