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hey guys looking for an an@ coach. I'm open to anyone who isn't a p€do 🫶

sweetspo preferable but I'm open to anything. I will do whatever you want I just need motivation.

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hey guys. feeling really helpless right now. ever since late September I haven't been able to stop binging. currently back at my sw and I reached an even higher weight about 2 weeks ago. I really don't know what to do. I'm 14 I've been doing this since I was 10 I feel like I have nothing to live for and I've never felt more disgusting and pathetic in my whole life. It's so infuriating to me that I spend all my time thinking about food and excersise and yet it goes no where and I'm still in the place I was in 5th grade weighing myself on my mom's scale while she was at work. I'm a child and Im already wishing that the end of my life would come. I hate this so much and I don't know what to do. Please help I don't know how much longer I can do this.

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don't binge on fiber bars.

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I can't stop binging please help me.

I hate this. I'm going to fucking kms if I don't stop.

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Any active EDblrs in September 2024 please interact with this post and follow me. I’ll follow back!

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hit my gw for the week!! 112.2 today

been using my parents scale while their on vacation and I'm literally 3 pounds lighter on that one and it's a much better scale so I trust it more. their gone for the weekend hopefully I can convince them to put it in the bathroom so I can use it permanently. idk but anyway my goal was 112 by the end of this week and 110 by the end of next week so I can have lost 10lbs in September. I think I did good.

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honestly like I started my Ed to lose weight but now I get why ppl do it for control like. my life is so chaotic sometimes the only thing that keeps me from falling off the deep end is like, well it doesn't matter I will be a little lighter tomorrow. Idc cause ik I have my Ed and will always have that.

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113.0 today

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I swear to God after binging all weekend i was 117.4 right and i haven't fucking lost since then. I was 117.4 on Monday and Tuesday and its fucking Wednesday. I HAVE BEEN STAYING IN MY DEFICIT. what the fuck is wrong with me I literally want to fucking shoot my brains out. Not a single fucking ounce and ive been doing so good. What's even the fucking point of this anymore I just want to die. I'm so fucking sick of this shit are you kidding me. I've been doing good I get nothing nothing out of it. Can someone fucking kill me I'm going to go lay in a street.

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116.8 this morning. Hopefully a lot of it is water weight

Might take lax idk today will be better.

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I binged

Hopefully I don't gain too much and tomorrow will be better I promise. The retreat was really stressful so I'm hoping that tomorrow I can sort of wake up in a new place and feel better. Anyway let's hope I don't gain much

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Update!

So I js weighed and I was 115.2 which was the same as what I weighed on Thursday, might take some lax tea today not sure. Also I think a bit of it is still water weight so hopefully I can make it to 114.8 by Monday or 114.6 by Monday so I can lose like exactly 1 pounds this week. Again my goal with this is to go slow, because what's the rush if I js binge and gain it all back. Anywayy that's all might update later today or tomorrow idk but love u guys bye bye

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Okay both good and bad updates

Basically retreat went well I ate everything I brought and had 1140 yesterday as planned. Today on the other hand... I did binge but I was planning on having a metab day tomorrow so I'm just switching it around and calling today my metab day. And the metab is already working because I took literally the fattest crap of my life and it def looked like the past week of my life got ejected from my body. I haven't actually pooped since last Sunday and I feel a lot better even though I'm bloated from the binge at least I freaking pooped dude. Anyway I feel better now and I think I will be good to continue tomorrow. I am guessing I will be around 116 tmrw which is okay bc that's my plan, 2 lb weight loss a week and that will be on schedule even though technically I binged + most will be water weight from today. So that's all for now, will hopefully update tmrw with stats. xx

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I genuinely have been so constipated recently because I've been eating in my deficit but I've gained .6 lbs. Also I'm going on a school retreat, I'm bringing my own food dw, and they're taking my phone (I already calculated duh) anyway I'm leaving this morning and getting home Friday afternoon so I won't be able to post. If I don't poop today or tmrw I will take some lax on Saturday. Anyway!! Pray for me xx

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calling yesterday my metab day I ended up with 1460 but I feel better now, I think it was just ill planning. Today will be better.