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hey!!!

I've been on edtumblr since like 2019 and I just relapsed again

please interact with this post so I can follow you and also please dm me if you feel like it bc I'd be happy to talk w anyone !! :)

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Glow up guide

Im looking for moots so if anyone wants to do any of these with me lmk! *a couple things are a little more specific to me (like brands) so feel free to alter whatever u want*

Starting tomorrow (may 18th)

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Wintergirls sure as hell isn't a literary masterpiece, but fuck it sure has some lines that make me feel things.

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PSA

I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.

you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think you’re ugly, MY body dysmorphia and MY ED does not extend to you

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THESE ARE NOT MINE!

she says she's 5"2 (157cm) but she looks so tall :0

credit: ig: @luizacordery

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i have 99 problems and being under 100 lbs would solve 99

thanks for coming to my tedtalk

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reblog to lose 15 pounds by may 31st

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Just close your eyes and imagine how powerful you'll be when you're finally skinny. You felt unaccepted and fat a lot, so unlike all those perfect looking girls, you'll have an actual personality. Do it for yourself. Do it, so that you can be the girl that is not only skinny and cute asf ,but also smarter and cooler than everyone.

Do it for yourself 💗

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Just an experiment. Reblog if you actually give a fuck about male victims of domestic violence and rape.

Of fucking course

What sick bastard doesn’t

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What is this if not the most perfect thinspo ever. Those slender shoulders and that paper thin waist. Jesus.

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non scale victories im hoping for

a squarer face

my binder actually working and not feeling so suffocating

being able to wear my boyfriends clothes

not having chub rub 

all the red angry stretchmarks shrinking down to white lightning bolts

lovehandles shrinking so my hip dips are less noticable

being able to take a bath without my stomach poking over the water

being able to spend less on weed/alcohol because i’ll be a lightweight

finding rings that fit 

being able to get undressed at the end of the day and not be covered in itchy red indents from the waistband 

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Ana Tip #2

Don't eat anything 4 hours before you go to bed. It's makes a huge difference. :)

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I don’t get when people are like “why do you want to look sick/pale and bruised that’s disgusting “ like because my eating disorder is real and not like that time you didn’t eat for a whole 6 hours Kathy

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Just a reminder:

Feeling invalid and like you’re faking your disorder is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Wanting to starve yourself but not actually being able to do it is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Recovery does NOT come easily

Constant binging is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Being able to eat normally without guilt for periods of time is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Being able to restrict easily one day and not the other is PART OF YOUR DISORDER

Please treat your minds nicely

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When you see yourself in online class

But you also have to listen to what the teacher says....istg im gonna go crazy like this lol

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What people think an eating disorder is:

~going straight into fasting for 3 days

~gets up from the table to go purge without anyone noticing or hearing

~runs at night without parents knowing

~it only takes a week for you to get skinny

~you are not tired

~you don’t eat at all

~you exercise for 1 hour a day

~grades stay high

~“GREEN TEA HUNNNNY”

-take your vitamins sweet pea

-parents don’t ask you to eat

-cute outfits

-goes to inpatient and comes out cured

-eats 1 grape a day

~paints nails and smiles

~friends love and support you

~goes out and eats a piece of celery and nobody cares

What an eating disorder really is like

~looking in the mirror and saying you are going fast but never do

~waiting till everyone is away/asleep or you are in the shower to purge

~leaving bags of vomit under your bed

~running in place whenever you can

~staying up late looking at thinspo and crying wish you looked like that

~fasting for 24 hours then BINGING ON 4,000 calories

~grades fall

~everything is secrets secrets secrets

~getting high

~melatonin 24/7

~green tea Diet Coke water

~you sometime spend all of your time exercising and exercising and then gain a pound

~punching your stomach,pinching your thighs, and biting you arms in the the mirror because you are fat

~binge binge binge purge

~purge purge binge

~black tea green tea mint tea

~“sorry cant make it to dinner”

~binges late at night

~weird fucking cravings

~either takes 1000 showers a day or takes one once a week

~HUGE sweatshirts

~goes to inpatient and then goes back because you still don’t know how to eat

~purges 1 grape

~baggy clothes

~paints nails over and over because you don’t want to eat and the smell is disgusting

~STARVE YOU DUMB FUCKING HOE

~biting off your nails

~freaking out over 200 calories but then eats over 1000