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I guess coffee is an actual meal. This cup be enabling my analifestyle

I realize this is my first post after moving to Japan. Japan culture is really thin culture

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So after 7 years, I’m not as jaded. I got my work visa approved and I’m moving to Japan soon. My parents have retired and enjoying their pensions. They moved to a quiet to their old hometown and surrounded with old friends and relatives. My baby brother is now a civil servant and working hard to raise his 7 months old daughter with his partner Donna. My older brother is also married and works hard to provide for his family. All is well

I’m scared. I’m worried.

It’s raining. I just wanna lie on bed.

But there are things I should do.

I don’t mind dying and ruining my life.

But there are people I care about and my death would cause them more pain.

I’ve decided to make it my life purpose to make sure these important people in my life are okay before I take my own life.

My parents should be okay. They have each other.

My younger brother should be fine. He seems to have figured out life.

But my older brother. It pains me that he’s going through difficulties. I want him to be okay. I’m not sure how. But I’m gonna be here for him. At least until he still needs me.

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So I’m actually still alive. I thought I absolutely won’t get past 2024 July 25th. Like my handle suggests. But I’m still alive. I’m 35 years old now. Just snapping a screenshot before updating my profile

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I'm celebrating small achievements. I tried to clean up and organize my room. Yey~

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Why I'm dying sooner than later

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Early morning jog

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Look who

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Well

Just Junkarexic Things

🍭"I’ve fasted all day so I can have a bag of Cheetos"

🍡Probably doesn’t know what a vegetable is

🍦Survives on black coffee and sweets/junk food exclusively

🍫'What did you eat today?’ ‘2 Hershey’s kisses.’

🍰Will save up calories for snack food for days

🍨Probably doesn’t take supplements

🍩Is a shaking unhealthy mess but hey at least I get to eat this half doughnut, if nothing else today

🍪Zero calorie coke all day everyday

🎂"Excuse me, do you have any artificial sweetener?“

🍟Probably has 200 “low calorie dessert” recipes bookmarked

🥞Is going to eat a huge slice of cake at their ultimate goal weight because “fuck you I’m skinny now”

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Thank you sincerely

We finally know.

- from Wes Ball’s official Twitter account

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I weigh myself earlier. 43 kg. I'm not fucking maintaining. I want to fucking lose weight. But I always end up overeating.

At least I'm not gaining?

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Today. After reading this. I will watch the last movie

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Dylan has been chosen since Stiles days

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Been a while. First run of the year

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Finally it's over! The holidays. The eating season. Planning a 24 hour fast.

And I'll weigh for my 2018 SW.

Status: single, unemployed, jaded

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This is page 74 and I'm broken hearted already