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I forgot I'm supposed to return the question-- so what would your favourite type of sky be?

Oh, haha. I don't think that's necessary, but I appreciate the sentiment. I'm indecisive on this matter. All the different skies carry a different memory or emotion for me, but I guess I've always found a lot of solace in quiet night skies or dark, rainy skies. They're probably the skies with the most personal meaning to me.

Anyway, thank you for returning the ask, haha.

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The fact that the bottom left corner image canonically happened will never not be wild to me.

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fair. i cant tell how old you are. my guess is below 18 or above 30?? dont answer that. your interests say young but your ✨aura✨ says older

I've always been aware that the content I produce is pretty child-like, but that it does contradict the way I tend to speak and act, so frankly, this is hilarious to me. There is no in-between. Anyway, thank you for your perspective, lol. I appreciate you indulging me.

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I need this.

i have the sudden urge to make a levi sticker that says "can you lock the fuck in?" fgl;kjdflgkjdfklhfgh

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satsuki92 Levihan fanfic masterlist

I know it's rudimentary at best, but I thought I'd at least compile it all in one place... if any of it interests you, happy reading and I hope you enjoy :)

And of course, please mind the rating and tags of each fic.

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Multi-chaptered fics

📖 Save it for later (read it on ao3)

Rating: Explicit | 22 chapters | completed

Summary:

Levi and Hange somehow formed a friendship during their medical school days that only deepened and stayed well into adulthood. Now, as they enter their 40s, the age where everything (particularly) career-wise seemed to have fallen into place, was there anything else amiss in their lives?

It's a friends to lovers' story, but for two adults well past the rosy blush of youth.

**Ongoing translation in Chinese - Mandarin, by the very sweet Bbangae ❤️ also available on ao3 here

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📖 if only for tonight (read it on ao3)

Rating: Explicit | 7 chapters | completed

Summary:

A modern AU, ‘friends’ to ‘friends with benefits’ to ‘lovers’ shenanigans, or, the both of them being dumb idiots about each other.

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series of one shots

📖 things that are wanted and desired (read on ao3)

Rating: Teen and Up to Mature | 3 one shots | ongoing

Summary:

A series of random one shots, set in the Attack on Titan world. Each fic is a standalone, not linear in timeline, and of course, diverges from canon (Hange lives)

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📖 Ippon! (read it on ao3)

Rating: Teen and Up | 3 one shots | ongoing

Summary:

AU where Levi and Hange are high-school students in a Japanese high school AU. Levi shows up to school just to hit his attendance requirement and is a Judo athlete, while Hange is our ever brilliant top student and budding horticulturist.

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📖 like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-toned loving (read it on ao3)

Rating: Teen and Up to Mature | 6 one shots | sort-of completed

Summary:

AU where Levi co-owns and runs a cafe with his university friends. Hange is the newcomer in town, stumbling into his cafe one day... and well, they fall for each other.

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Standalone one shots

📖 Love Actually (read it on ao3)

Rating: Teen and Up

Summary:

It's the holidays, and New Year’s Eve. And of course, Levi spends it with Hange.

Were they friends? Yes.

Did he like her as more than a friend? Yes.

Does she know? No.

And is he going to do anything about it? No.

Well until... a little leftover Christmas and New Year magic, helps him along.

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📖 War and Peace (read it on ao3)

Rating: Teen and Up

Summary:

In which, Hange is a nurse and Levi is a soldier.

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Moblit x Pieck rarepair fic; a side-story, set within the universe of 'if only for tonight'

📕 bad but sweet (read it on ao3)

Rating: Teen and Up | One-shot

Summary:

Everyone around him is either married, or dating... Far too reserved and never really knowing what to do with the opposite gender, Moblit doesn't think he'll ever get to experience his own sweet love story, and that's fine with Moblit whose life is fulfilling and rich in other ways.

Until, well... until, Pieck Finger.

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What a cool idea. I can imagine not just ODM gear, but other things like pieces of ice burst stone dug from Paradis after they depleted their supply, or the older patches for branches of the military. Journals packed with all of Hange's observations from titan experiments, or Ilse's journal. Maybe newspapers being saved from the war between the Mid-East Alliance and Marley, or from the coup d'etat in Paradis, or the Battle of Liberio, where flashes of Levi in action might've been photographed with captions labelling him as one of the 'island devils' of the time. Or, post-war, he volunteered to be interviewed about his life in Paradis, or about previous commanders Erwin Smith and Hange Zoë and all his other comrades, in order to keep alive their memory, and now you've got video footage of him being shown in schools. There's so much you could explore here.

Listen,,, Levi becoming a historical figure post-war…… I’m shaking…. I want to be a teenager learning about him at school…. (and suddenly I’m interested in history classes again) I want to fall in love with him through history books 🫠🫠

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how old are you? 🔍 old, young?

I'm curious as to whether I seem old or young, so let me know if you come back. Otherwise, I highly prefer not to reveal anything regarding my age, but I appreciate your curiosity anyway.

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I see you like dogs. Do you have a favorite breed or breeds?

Well, I'm pretty bad at identifying or knowing breeds, so not really. I just like the big, fluffy dogs, lol.

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Just doodles. Not exactly Levihan, so I can't say these are their adventures, lol. These are just some veterans.

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This is great.

Did a little commission for @jcmembr !!! I loved drawing this ٩( ᐛ )و

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Don't you ever think of how terrifying it must have been for Colt to be on the battlefield with his little brother all the time?

thinking a lot about the warrior canidates

thinking a lot about the realities of trench warfare and how they were on the front lines for so long

thinking.

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@scarletskiesinthepaths, I like how you worded this. Having an ableist mindset isn't just limited to people who actively despise disabled people. It's more deeply rooted than that, because we live in an ableist society. You can externally acknowledge that disabled people are literally normal people who are disabled but have an ableist mindset due to the discomfort you've been conditioned to feel by associating heroes with physical strength. Even if you're not trying to be discriminatory, it's a microaggression to side-eye Levi for being both a hero and disabled. It's just not something that frequently coexists in media, and, as is said, it is too often portrayed inversely, with scars, disabilities, even being overweight or having sharper features being associated with villains, and with heroes being perfectly sculpted, gorgeous, and basically adored by everyone. On a completely irrelevant note, I like that while Levi is undeniably a hero, he's a good, kind person, but not particularly a nice one. It just goes to show that he defies the usual image of hero even more.

The association of height and strength in relation to Levi is silly at this point, lol. I get that tall men are often viewed as more attractive, probably because it symbolises greater power, but ugh. Come on. This isn't even something that should need to be explained any longer, just do better.

If there's one thing that the ending of Levi's story in AoT has exposed, it's that a lot of people in this fandom have an ugly ass bias toward disabled people.

And if there's one thing that the School Casts post-credit scene has exposed, it's that a lot of people in this fandom have an ugly ass bias toward short people.

Sorry guys, Levi is disabled at the end of canon, and no, he's not taller or "healthier" in the School Casts clip. He's just a short man and there's nothing wrong with that.

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Read anything good, interesting, or enlightening lately?

Hi, anon. Yes, I have. I'll write it under the cut so I don't hijack my account with non-AoT material, lol.

Something good and interesting I found out on Sunday through surfing the news, and talking to someone was that, in Cambodia, the stone body of a statue was finally found after nearly a century of being missing. Its head had already been found, and the body had been excavated from the same area the head was buried in, I believe. Usually, only tiny pieces of statues are found, so it was shocking that an entire body was extracted from the ground. I was very happy that they were able to reunite the pieces.

I also recently finished The Rape of Nanking, by Iris Chang. It's a non-fiction book about the Nanjing Massacre, which, unfortunately, is not very well-known. It's terrible. I highly recommend reading it, just because I think the victims of the event don't deserve to go forgotten or overlooked the way they have, but this book is beyond graphic. It has to be, to capture the horror of the event, and even then, it's a translation. Some people have said Iris Chang toned down the violence of the event, despite how graphic the book already is; I'm sure I'd agree. So if you don't have a strong stomach, obviously, you know what's best, because it also includes photographs from the event. I try not to look at those too much, though, because it actually feels very invasive towards the people in the photographs... I'll share one part of the book that I really felt, but I'd like to give a warning ahead for discussion of sexual assault.

So, the Nanjing Massacre had extremely high statistics of rape. The Japanese soldiers then would rape almost any woman or girl, from very young children to grandmothers, at night or in broad daylight, and would kill them afterwards. This happened on top of the mass slaughter wrought on Chinese civilians, and in order to try to protect them, a group of westerners who had stayed in Nanjing during the invasion set up a safety zone, known as the Nanjing Safety Zone. About half of the Nanjing population fled here; those that did make it in time were massacred. The Nanjing Safety Zone was supposed to be a safe place for civilians, but the Japanese soldiers tried to enter anyway, often searching for 'flower girls,' or pretty women to take away for rape. In one event detailed by one of the westerners, I believe it was Minnie Vautrin, the Japanese soldiers had set up a decoy to gather the westerners in one area (because the westerners were the ones protecting the Chinese in the zone), and while they were distracted, the soldiers scoured the rest of the safety zone to take women hostage.

The part that stood out to me was given by John Rabe, a member of the Nanking Safety Zone Committee. He was also a Nazi, and he used this status to 'scare off' the Japanese soldiers, for lack of better wording. He lived within the Nanjing Safety Zone, and he allowed a bunch of the Chinese women to literally take refuge in his backyard for protection. A system was devised so that at night, when Japanese soldiers tried to enter his yard to take the women away, they could whistle or something and he'd come running out to chase them away. He was on the job 24/7 to protect these women, and that's only part of what he did to help. But getting to the point, John Rabe didn't just protect them; he also did his best to bring some light to the tragedy that had struck their lives, namely by throwing little birthday parties for their children.

That's it. I built all of this up just to that simple fact.

It's brushed over in the book, barely elaborated on, but I imagined that when I read the book and it made me feel very emotional. He was not just trying to cheer them up, but trying to bring some sense of normalcy to their lives when they were being hunted out like prey by soldiers behaving like animals, when he inevitably also felt completely lost. I haven't even brushed over how severe the issue was rape during that event, so I've barely even scratched the surface of the terror women must have been feeling then, but to have someone work so hard to protect you, and to go above and beyond to provide some light in such a hopeless situation—that mention of Rabe's kindness really got to me. In the book, it says, "Rabe tried to keep hope alive for his refugees in the midst of their terror. He hosted little birthday celebrations for the children born to refugee women living in his backyard. Each newborn received a gift: $10 for baby boys and $9.50 for baby girls. (As Rabe explained in his report to Hitler—“Girls in China aren’t worth as much as boys.”)."

It's not a perfect scenario, obviously, but I don't know. He pulled together what he could in some truly, truly disastrous circumstances. Then when Rabe returned to Germany, he and his family faced their own disastrous circumstances. When the news reached Nanjing and "the government announced to its people that Rabe needed help, the response was tremendous... Within a matter of days the survivors of the massacre raised for Rabe’s support $100 million in Chinese dollars, roughly equivalent at the time to $2,000 in U.S. dollars—no small amount in 1948." So. You see why this yanked at my heartstrings so much.

Here's a PDF of the book if you'd like to see.

Anyway, that's a nice story of course, but the event itself is horrid, and an official apology from Japan has yet to be issued. The event itself is concealed, too, a huge form of disrespect towards the people involved in it. I'm really sad that not a lot of people know about it; I hardly knew about it myself, and I'm certainly no expert after reading a total of one book about it, with some accompanying videos. But again, neither the survivors nor the victims should be forgotten, so I must thank you for giving me this space to talk about it, anon, and for reading if you decided to read past the content warning. I'm actually going to fuse part of what I've learned here with a post about AoT, because I like to use AoT as a way to talk about these things. But, yeah. With hope, that was not too long of a response, haha.

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Incognito Levi

Incognito Levi?! You made me very happy with this drawing, actually. So I checked out your account.

Incognito Annie for you.

Thank you for this, haha. I don't know what I did to solicit this, but it really made my day.

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CATS has major character death in it? 😭 Bracing myself

Haha, yeah. I'm sorry, anon, lol. If it's helpful at all, I consider there to be four major characters. They're all up for grabs.

CATS.

I love that we're actually calling it CATS now. The sequel needs to be called DOGS.

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>:)

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Nice aesthetics, bro.

Thank you, lol. I appreciate it.