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Beware of my own rant, because this post reached back into my mind and pulled out my adoration for Blitzstone and my own viewpoint as an avid supporter of Blitzstone's ambiguous nature.

Reading Blitzstone content like this always gets me trembling with some deep feeling of internal satisfaction. You have it completely correct, Aestophobia (or Summer, I mean). I recall an analysis post I had made about them, I believe making a connection between the fandom's desire for Riordan's confirmation of Blitzstone as romantic and a need for external validation of something (in a sense, that isn't articulated as well as I'd like it to be). I had detailed all about how there was no need for a kissing scene or a confession scene, or even any explicit scene which marks the two as "canon." For multiple reasons. For one, what if the nature of their relationship isn't romantic? Or what if it is romantic, but they don't prefer kissing or such? That exists as a romantic relationship, it's just on the asexual spectrum. A lack of kissing doesn't invalidate the romance. Or another, why do we even need such scenes to confirm someone's love for someone else, when it is so clearly shown, as Summer said?

I never cease to get frustrated when I remember how somebody responded to that post, in the most point-missing manner, saying that "kisses are fun to read." It makes me want to tear myself apart every time I think of it, because that wasn't the damn point. From my perspective, just that sentence had cheapened my analysis, and my entire viewpoint, to such a shallow response. If you like romantic Blitzstone, that's fantastic. I do, too, I think it's a really fun thing to explore. But there's so much to be learned from the fact that they aren't confirmed to be romantic in nature. There's so much room for so much else, and in reality, "romantic" is merely a label, and while labels clear things up for sure, they also limit. I really believe we all should be more open-minded towards how the author has truly portrayed them, and really, a lot of characters in general by a lot of authors, instead of viewing them through our biased lenses. That's completely fine to do so, but it has to be kept within fanon territory. Blitzen and Hearth canonically love each other any way, it's incredibly apparent. The only thing we're really searching for here is the label, which isn't necessary.

And then on top of that, I just want to add that a romantic relationship is built off of the foundation of a friendship. This is why romance is something "more than friends." But that also means that a lot of the love in romance is really just pure love you find in a friendship, too. Hearth and Blitz have a lot of chemistry, but they could, literally, be friends. Not "just friends," as they obviously have a deeper connection, but truly, romance isn't the only incredibly intimate connection out there.

ngl one of Rick Riordan's weirdest choices was not having Blitz and Hearth be married. like Richard they're married, they have more chemistry and are more natural and at ease with each other than almost any other Riordanverse characters, they're not made for each other's environments but they both have ways to get around it when they need to and they're both more comfortable mentally in Midgard's middle ground anyway, they're outcasts in their societies, they see the strengths and beauties in each other that nobody else does

literally in every way they're the couple ever

#aestophobia🌌#sorry I just had to agree with you there #blitzstone #blitzen #blitzen freyason #hearthstone mcga #hearthstone alderman #I'm not shitting on their possible romance #I just think there's more to it that we don't often look for

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starshower1215 · 1 day ago

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Adventurous Adventures of Levihan in the Bio Notes Margins [pt. 11]

In order, just scroll left. This has actual plot. Spanning multiple pages of notes is a journey with Levi for Hange.

Ft. the symptoms of a summer heart and a text left on delivered.

#hange zoe #attack on titan #levi ackerman #shingeki no kyojin #levihan #hanji zoe #levi x hange #levihan fanart #adventurous adventures of levihan 🧭#my art 🌛#i killed that subtopic btw

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starshower1215 · 3 days ago

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Thank you for the tag, @sunflowersunite! Yours looks like the Van Gogh T-shirt I'm wearing today which, ironically, has a bunch of sunflowers on it. Here's mine:

Much brighter than I'd have expected, but fitting in a certain manner, I suppose.

Feel free to join in @storiesofaot, @quillsandblades, @corbin-is-sleepy, @aestophobia, and @alexdswfan.

Which oddly specific colour palette are you?

Thank you for the tag, @citrus-moonlight!!! This is... quite literally my wardrobe color on top of the eyeshadows/lipsticks I wear on the daily so this is actually quite spooky skfjsdkf

Link to quiz.

No pressure tags (and you if you see this!): @sixpennydame @nube55 @littlerequiem @pinkberryfox @thechaoticarchivist

#tag game

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starshower1215 · 3 days ago

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After recently beginning to read AOT meta and analysis (intentionally, I mean), I decided to begin going through the manga in a more careful manner, as I've a long break coming up and thus more time. The nostalgia of just the first few pages I've read at such an inappropriate hour, though. Of Eren waking, of seeing Shadis as commander, seeing the Scouts fighting the titans again, Mikasa and Eren especially in their youth. It's all very bittersweet.

#attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin

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Thanks! And "Hehe I should think more before putting words into the world" is really funny to me. Yeah, I don't think anyone really wants that sort of power, but Levi especially would be unfit, given his nature. He can go against it, but why force him?

Your AOT Hange spamming is always welcome, lol.

My waking Monday hours might be bleeding into Tuesday, unfortunately, but I can do this. 👍🏽 I hope your own Monday went well!

Hello, hello. I hope your day has been treating you well. I come bearing questions from this post. Do you have any details or further ideas regarding Hange's crush on Keith Shadis? How they behaved around him, what the nature of the infatuation was, maybe more on why, etc.

Heey there! 😇 Yes, thank you so much - I had a good day with some tea and gingerbread hehe! Hope your day is going or has been good, too! ✨️

Ooh yes, Keith Shadis, our dear sunken-eyed, bald-headed friend 🤭 I actually did some thinking and rewatching this afternoon, and now I do have some more thoughts about the whole Hange&Shadis thing! (Still feeling gloriously inadequate to actually try doing an analysis on them, but it truly was a lot of fun! 😁)

I have my own personal timeline for Hange in my mind, so I created a comparison with Shadis's time with the Scouts. I don't know if it'll matter that much for the following ramble, but I'll share it anyway :)

In that flashback scene from 3x11 (Chapter 48), we get to hear Shadis himself talking about the time he met Grisha, and sharing some of his beliefs with us. He always had the drive to know what was outside the walls; he felt trapped inside and wasn't too happy about everyone living in "comfort", simply accepting the situation without actually wanting to change anything about it. I think Hange was also always curious about the world beyond the walls. Her focus was on the Titans, yes, but she was equally fascinated by the ocean and all the new discoveries they made in Marley = the world outside of the walls. In that sense, I believe she felt a connection with Shadis, as those were likely the values he advocated for during his time as Commander, and they clearly resonated with her.

But Shadis believed that in order to accomplish something, one had to be special. He wanted to be special, and over time, he was even convinced himself that he was special, and even better than the others? I think, though, that the whole feeling special thing might’ve sparked that little crush Hange had on Shadis. This is just my personal opinion - it’s not really based on anything - but I can imagine that when Hange joined the Military, she was already exceptionally smart but maybe lacked a bit of skill when it came to actual combat?

He might have been the one who saw beyond that "lack" - he recognised her curiosity about the world and her genuine desire to understand things. (We know he’s very good at reading people; we saw it when Eren & Co. were training). So he made Hange feel special in a sense, because, as mentioned above, he believed that only special people could accomplish (great) things. He recognised her potential and might've been the one who allowed her to join the Scouts, maybe even pushed her to get a better fighter, encouraging her so that she could unfold her full potential (a little like he did with Eren, he could've made sure he didn't enter but in the end, he yielded; and we know Hange can be very persistent, too!)

This might be a slightly silly thing to admit, but it's all for the sake of this analysis sooo xD I remember back when I was in secondary school - I must’ve been around 16 - there was one moment where someone made me feel "special" in a way that hadn't happened before. It was just a little, minor, innocent thing, not even worth mentioning (he pretty much just opened the door for me 😂) but it was such a nice gesture. Because it was the first time something like that happened, I guess it especially stood out to me, and I will (always?) associate it with that person.

Bringing this back to KisuHan (lol xD), Shadis might have been the first one to truly see her abilities, to acknowledge her amazing mind and not dismiss her due to the way she appeared or acted? That's where her infatuation with him started; she felt seen and valued, he made her feel special, so her 15/16/17 year old brain crushed hard on him 😁 (and he still had his hair, sooooo xD) I don't know if she actually wanted to feel special, but since it kind of happened, in a sense it made him feel special to her, too?

(Maybe that was also the reason why she seemed truly mad or hurt when he told them the story about Eren and Grisha, a story he had withheld from all of them for so many years. She might have always thought highly of him, and the first little damper was him stepping back from his role as Commander, and the fact that he kept all that information hidden was another big damper?)

Now if you've made it this far - thank you!! (this turned out much longer than I thought it would be lol) I know, I could've just said "Shadis made feel Hange special." but where's the fun in that? 😂 Of course, this is just my personal opinion or explanation, but I'm curious to hear your thoughts on their "relationship", too!

As a farewell, here’s a little photo of our buddy Keith. This was so much fun, thank you sooo much for asking, I really loved thinking about this! 🙌🏼

#hange zoe #attack on titan #hange zoe analysis #storiesofaot🍮

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I read the linked analysis, and wow, there's quite a couple similarities lol. But yeah, it definitely seems to stem from his impression of his mother. Thanks for sharing that to me.

That all said about his insanely high level of empathy, he is a very, very good person, as you've said, the purest hero of AOT, but I imagine there's harm in his lack of self preservation. Not for the obvious cases of hurting himself, but also for people who love him. To put it more metaphorically than I would prefer (it's difficult to articulate), then it's like the concept of "giving" someone your heart out of love. Considering the way this is not a thing in a literal sense, then if you think of it the opposite way, you have to entrust the person in possession of themself to take care of themself, because your own effort won't account for everything. Levi doesn't value any one life over any other, save for one exception, in which he values everyone else's lives over his own. This is the one flaw in his system of love, I think, as, if I knew him on a personal level in a world in which he is not a fictional character, but a friend, I would worry after him because I wouldn't trust him to take care of himself. I imagine his friends might feel that way, too. Some level of "selfishness" is necessary.

Hi, Cosmic! I was considering this scene from a Levi story on AO3 which I had read a while ago, where it described his life in the Underground before he met Furlan (maybe it was one of yours, I'm not certain). It talked of how he would often go days without speaking at all, and ultimately delved into his loneliness and how he hadn't realized how alone he'd been until he wasn't. I had also read recently an analysis stating that Levi's attachment style would be fearful-avoidant due to how he grew up, which, I mean, makes perfect sense.

Thus the combination made me wonder: How do you think Levi felt when he and Furlan moved in together? Did it trigger his abandonment issues in any way, letting Furlan in emotionally when his last relationship (that we know of) was with Kenny? Given the concept of attachment styles, Levi was probably both distant and reliant with him, so how do you think Furlan reacted to this?

Hmm, that could have been one of my stories, haha, I've definitely written a few stories (all of which remain incomplete, lol) about Levi's life Underground. I feel like it's a period in Levi's life that's just ripe for exploration, but very few people seem particularly interested in writing about it, for whatever reason.

I know I do explore that idea in "This Life, After", of Levi being sort of functionally mute because he gets so little social interaction, and I think that's a pretty fair assumption to make about him growing up, especially after Kenny left him. As far as we know, Levi didn't have a single friend until he met Furlan, and we know, from the extra stories included in the "No Regrets" manga that Levi met Furlan when he was essentially full grown. I've talked before also, pretty extensively, about how it seems very likely that Levi had no social interaction with other children growing up, even when living with his mother. I don't know if you've read my analysis posts on this, but I'll link you to them here:

Anyway, I'm not a psychologist, so I can't really speak to what specific attachment style Levi may or may not have. In truth, nobody, even an accredited and practicing psychologist could definitively diagnose Levi with any, specific mental disorder or condition, because of course he's a fictional character, lol. But I don't think you need to be a psychologist to make accurate or educated guesses about what sort of mental health issues Levi might be suffering from. For example, I think it's fairly obvious that Levi is suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder, because it would seem to me nearly impossible for him not to have been deeply traumatized by the experiences, not only in his childhood, but as an adult too, and I say that because of Levi's obvious emotional sensitivity. He feels things very keenly and I think more deeply than any other character in the series. That well of emotional depth, along with his immense empathic nature I think renders Levi more susceptible to emotional pain, and more easily given to grief over the loss of his comrades/friends/family than even an average person. I just think Levi feels things more deeply than is common. I think that's also what gives Levi his exceptional emotional intelligence, his ability to accurately read people and understand who they are at their cores.

To get to your specific question, it's an interesting one.

Levi is definitely someone who I think is fearful of getting close to others out of a fear of losing them, knowing the pain it causes him when he, seemingly inevitably, does. No doubt that finds its roots in Levi's earliest childhood experiences. People often talk about Kenny's abandonment of Levi (with good reason), but I rarely see it talked about how Levi's mother, in a sense, also abandoned him. Not intentionally, the way Kenny did, but the fact remains, Levi's mother died and left him alone, which very nearly led to Levi's own death. I think that absolutely must have had an impact on Levi and caused an expectation in him from very early on of abandonment. Levi couldn't have been more than five years old when his mother died, and those are obviously very important developmental years for a child. You add to that Kenny's abandonment, and it seems pretty likely to me that, yes, Levi has a fear of abandonment by the people he loves.

What's interesting about Levi, though, is that even with this fear, and even in his efforts to keep his distance from people in order to spare himself the emotional and mental distress of losing them, I think Levi's higher level of empathy and compassion renders him incapable of escaping that emotional pain, even when he doesn't know a person well, even when he's intentionally kept away from them. I've spoken numerous times of how Levi shows the same level of care and concern, and makes just as much of an effort to save the lives of people he doesn't know or doesn't know well as the ones he does know well and is close to. He even extends that same level of care and concern toward people who have been actively hostile toward him, such as the merchants in Trost who badger and bully him over the failures of the Survey Corps, to the point of even personally insulting him, or in "No Regrets", we see Levi go out of his way to save the lives of soldiers who have both endangered his own and actively mistreated and been cruel to him. We see Levi do this with Dieter, during the Female Titan arc. Despite Dieter's cruelty toward Levi, calling him a heartless monster, Levi gives him Petra's badge and tells him it was Ivan's. He gives up his own comfort to someone who's been nothing but hostile toward him, and who would have rightly been in for a scolding and even punishment for endangering the lives of the unit. But instead of being unkind in return, Levi shows Dieter nothing but compassion.

All this to say, I think even when Levi isn't emotionally or personally close to people, he still feels the weight of their loss as if he were, and he still empathizes with and understands their emotions and thought process as if he were. There's a part in "No Regrets" in which Furlan laments that they had better hurry up and complete their mission to get the documents from Erwin before Levi and Isabel start genuinely considering "dedicating their hearts" to the Survey Corps. I've talked about how this clearly indicates that Furlan is aware of Levi's tendency to get attached to people, even when he's actively trying not to. Levi, for example, doesn't want to teach his combat techniques to any of the other SC soldiers because he knows if he does and then they end up getting killed, he'll hold himself responsible for it. Again, this is indicative of Levi's tendency to become emotionally attached and involved with people, even those he doesn't know well, to the point he would feel responsible for their lives, and responsible for protecting those lives, even when, again, he doesn't know them well, and even when he hasn't been treated particularly well by them. We have to remember, upon entering the SC, none of the other soldiers showed any particular friendliness toward Levi, outside of Hange. He was even faced with pretty blatant classism from some of them, and plain resentment. But he still knew himself well enough to know that he was already beginning to feel responsible for their lives. Even with being treated as an outsider by them, he still isn't able to keep himself detached from them. We see this play out too, in the story's climax, when Levi makes his choice to go after Erwin alone. He makes the choice with full consideration of what he thinks will be best, not just for Furlan and Isabel, but for Flagon and the rest of their squad. He's equally concerned for their well being, and determines that all of them will have a better chance of survival if Furlan and Isabel stays with them. Again, Flagon has been nothing but hostile toward Levi through the entire story, but he still cares about Flagon's life.

So basically, to get to your specific question, lol, I think Levi likely became very attached to Furlan fairly quickly. There's even a similarity to Levi's relationship with Furlan and what I laid out above, in terms of how Levi even cares about people who have been unkind to him. We know from one of the extra stories that Furlan first met Levi by attempting to entrap him and force him through physical assault to join his gang. So Furlan's first interaction with Levi was one of deception and an attempt to use him against his will. We learn later from a conversation Levi is having with another scout that Levi saved his life from his own gang, when they eventually turned on him. This is consistent with how we see Levi make just as much effort to help and show just as much concern for the lives of people who have previously been unkind to him in some way or even attempted to hurt him in some way. Levi saves Furlan's life, despite Furlan trying to deceive Levi and force him into a situation against his will.

So I imagine, once Levi became actual friends with Furlan, and moved in with him, at that point, I imagine the bond between them was incredibly deep and unbreakable. I think over time Furlan would have begun to recognize that Levi's aloof demeanor and lack of expression wasn't at all indicative of the actual depth of attachment and care he felt toward Furlan himself. I always say that I think Levi's relationship with both Furlan and Isabel was more than simple friendship. I think Levi viewed the both of them as his family, and objectively speaking, I think he was probably closer to the two of them than anyone else in his life. Part of that, I think, would come from the fact they were his first, actual friends, and also because they were the only people Levi ever knew and was close to who were from the same world he was. I think Levi likely was fearful at first when he first moved in with Furlan that he might lose him in some way, that Furlan might leave him, or be killed, etc... But I also think it's a testament to Levi's resilience and open heart that, despite having already been abandoned by the two most important people in his life up to that point, he still allowed this new person into his life and allowed himself to grow deeply close to him. I think, also, that's a product of, again, Levi's inability to close his heart off to people, due to his immense empathy. Even though Levi is afraid of losing people and wants to shield himself against the pain of that, he continually fails at remaining detached, because he just naturally cares too much about other people to ever, truly separate himself from them or freeze them out. He's never been able to not care. I think Furlan probably understood that pretty quickly about Levi, and as I already said, he probably understood that Levi's aloof demeanor and seeming distance didn't actually mean he didn't care. I think Furlan understood that Levi would protect him no matter what and would always stay by his side. Isayama even said Levi is extremely loyal. He isn't ever going to abandon anyone himself. So basically, I think Furlan understood Levi, after a time, and would have recognized that Levi's appearance of apathy in truth was just his way of dealing with the fact he actually feels and cares more deeply than anyone. He only keeps his emotions held inside so he can remain reliable to himself and others, because if he allowed himself to fully feel what he was actually feeling in any, given moment, it would be overwhelming. People that know Levi truly know this about him. And so Furlan definitely would have realized that.

Anyway, I hope that answers your question, lol. That got WAY too long. I can never seem to keep my answers short.

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That's actually a really interesting concept, the combination of his empathy and his circumstances. I read this sort of biography on the different ways in which North Koreans had defected from their birth place (it was called "Nothing to Envy" by Barbara Demick), and there was a lot of description about the poverty conditions in the country. One of the women described a feeling of survivor's guilt after defecting, because to survive herself, she had to suppress her own empathy when she saw other people starving or children begging on the streets. I'm sure this is reflected in the Underground. However, Levi's sense of empathy has always been maintained, even with his own harsh circumstances. And I don't mean that like he's so much better than other people, it's just a fact, and a natural coping mechanism that develops, but maybe that's why the concept of his empathy overlapping with his self esteem is interesting. You obviously need some sense of self preservation to be able to disregard others this way, yet Levi doesn't show it, as you've detailed in his passively suicidal behavior.

That is perfectly said, especially the connection of the title to the message. Considering his view of his own mother, where he almost seems to idolize her, there would definitely be some level of shame and desire to act like her. I actually wonder a lot, if this could be a contribution to his cleaning obsession. With the one panel we see Kuchel in from his perspective, with the beam of light shining down, her face out of view save for her smile in the last panel, sitting with posture and holding her cup with poise, she is, even with the surrounding filth and the state of her shawl, the picture of elegance. She's painted as an angel, and in terms of idolizing her as I said, then he might also associate her with some level of purity. Given his background in the brothel, then, and his likely guilt for spilling blood even when needed to protect himself, then I've always considered part of his cleaning obsession as some form of coping with the notion in his mind that he isn't "pure" like she is. By cleaning externally, it's like an attempt at satisfying or an attempt at coping with his need for a sense of internal purity, if that makes any sense.

To get to your specific question, it's an interesting one.

Anyway, I hope that answers your question, lol. That got WAY too long. I can never seem to keep my answers short.

#attack on titan #levi ackerman #shingeki no kyojin #analysis #cosmicjoke🐱

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starshower1215 · 4 days ago

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This is so tender and heartbreaking. They loved each other so deeply. The kind of theme of the video is so well complimented by your art style, by the way. I love them both in your style.

My AOT rewatch killed me 😭

#attack on titan #levi attack on titan #snk #snk levi #snk fanart #fanart #aot fanart #aot #levi aot #aot hange #hange zoe #levihan #levi ackerman #levi #hange aot #snk hange #hanji zoe

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Manga evidence, ooh. Getting serious, haha. Could you tell me what chapters the panels about Keith Shadis' backstory were from? I have to go through the manga again, I need notes, but I loathe reading it on my phone, lol.

Yeah, in regards to the need for hope, the need to move forward, it is definitely a commander thing. That is vital to being a commander, otherwise, who would ever follow you? This is likely why Erwin chose Hange as commander over Levi. Levi is brilliant fighter, but his higher level of empathy wouldn't have been an advantageous asset for a commander. Erwin needed someone who could handle not just the title well, but the machiavellian nature of the role, weighing some lives other others in pursuit of an end goal. Levi is certainly capable of that, but it's not really natural for him. It isn't for Hange, either, but we have seen how they've advocated for their own end goal of a pursuit of knowledge regarding Titan study, with a "the means justify the ends" mindset that means they'd play a better role at commander than Levi.

That was an irrelevant rant. Well, thank you for all this extra knowledge on Hange. I'm going to start trying to accumulate all the Hange information I can find in a document for my own analysis and writing purposes, so if you notice anything, it would be amazing if you could let me know. But thanks for all this, I'm always happy to hear such detailed answers, haha.

As for her fascination with Titans, I can't cite the chapter off the top of my head, but it developed after they joined for sure. It was mentioned at some point that they had a strong hatred for titans upon joining the Survey Corps, but after they kicked the titan's head, their thought process changed, as seen here:

And they go on to say how they want to look at the titans from a different perspective; not one fueled by hatred. I can't seem to find the panel with their hatred stated directly, though, so you'll just have to trust that my sources aren't rooted in delusion.

Thanks! I'll probably get to that. And yeah, you, too, haha. Happy Monday, good luck on the week.

Heey there! 😇 Yes, thank you so much - I had a good day with some tea and gingerbread hehe! Hope your day is going or has been good, too! ✨️

As a farewell, here’s a little photo of our buddy Keith. This was so much fun, thank you sooo much for asking, I really loved thinking about this! 🙌🏼

#hange zoe #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #hanji zoe #storiesofaot🍮#writing reference #writing notes🖋️#hange notes🔬

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I'm not even surprised by how meticulous this is. And in retrospect, it probably is one of yours, I don't recall reading another Levi author. As for not writing about it, from my perspective of a reason why, Levi's past is an interesting but delicate thing. I feel like there's a certain level of writing skill, knowledge, and maturity needed to reach in order to write it properly, because it delves into such dark themes that an accurate portrayal is crucial for the audience. Sometimes there's lingering prejudice or romanticism that you write into your story unintentionally, which is obviously not the goal. Yet the paradoxical aspect of the writing part is that you can't reach that writing level without actually practicing your writing on similar themes, so. Yeah. On to the actual answer, lol.

I really like this response. Very straight forward. Though thinking of how you are describing his levels of empathy, seeing how he responds with empathy still even when the receiving person in question only ever did him wrong, I wonder how his empathy might overlap with his self esteem issues. He's admired a lot for his selflessness, but he's also very self sacrificial. It's hard to tell if there is an overlap, since empathy is so deeply embedded into his nature, but it also doesn't equate to self sacrifice. However, the only context we have is during the canon events, where there's a lot of external variables at play, so I just. My thoughts circle on it.

In regards to his relationship with Kuchel, I'm in total agreement. To add on, though, even parents in relatively normal financial and emotional situations struggle because I mean, they're human, so I can imagine Levi to have been neglected by Kuchel emotionally (not intentionally, obviously). She wanted him, of course, but I can see it being a very unstable emotional setting for Levi, because she has her own emotions. She could be exhausted one day and therefore unable to fully express her affections for him, and then if she's okay, or if she feels guilty for how she neglected him under her own exhaustion, she could have love bombed him to try to make it better. Or under circumstances where she's been bottling her emotions up for his sake, as parents often do with younger children, she could have ended up reacting explosively or unexpectedly. Crying, shouting, whichever it may be. She may have wanted to provide for him in all areas when she had him, but obviously, her circumstances go against that. That's more like a theory, though, but that is what I've observed, and it seems likely to apply to him as well and to be a contribution to his also likely attachment styles issues.

I'm talking a lot now, yet none of this relates to Furlan yet, lol. It's a curious thing though, that you didn't mention that Levi would ever be distrusting of Furlan, especially considering how they initially crossed paths. Only of how he might have been afraid of how Furlan might leave his side. Levi's loyal and empathetic, yes, but he's not foolish, so is there a reason behind not mentioning it? Does Furlan just give Levi brotherly energy, lol. I can see Levi being sort of cat-like in his first maneuvers through social relationships again, like finding food and leaving it for Furlan to show affection, the way cats will drag dead rats home. Or so I've heard, at least.

Last thought: "[Furlan and Isabel] were his first, actual friends, and...they were the only people Levi ever knew and was close to who were from the same world he was." Ow. I never thought about it that way, but that truly does solidify their little found family trio, sharing the same past. He lost them, losing the people who came from his birthplace, then grew older and lost the veterans, losing the people who came from his home. Levi really just... Doesn't catch a break, ever.

Yeah, it's okay, detailed answers are awesome anyway. And you obviously gave me a lot to think about with it, lol. Thank you so much for taking the time to put together such an honest and lengthy answer! It was a lot of fun to read and pick through, thank you again (and for the links, too).

To get to your specific question, it's an interesting one.

Anyway, I hope that answers your question, lol. That got WAY too long. I can never seem to keep my answers short.

#levi ackerman #levi ackerman analysis #cosmicjoke🐱

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starshower1215 · 4 days ago

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Thinking back I come to appreciate Attack on Titan even more. Current running manga series or the ones that came out a few years ago don't give off that sense of grandiosity. That's a personal opinion. Don't get me wrong, they're all very good and cool, but it's almost all they are. None of them are such profound stories like Attack on Titan. Sure they explore some meaningfull themes and touch on philosophical or psychological concepts, but I guess when reading them I don't get that feeling of illumination like I had when reading Attack on Titan. It was like staring at the masterpiece painting in a gallery. Or observing nature in its glory. Just something illuminating that makes you think about your place in the world. When Attack on Titan ended, I think at that time I didn’t fully realize what a grand experience it was to read this work of art. Thank you Isayama!

#“i stopped watching anime after finding aot”#“no anime could compare or surpass it for me”#that's so true #cosmicjoke🐱#alexdswfan🌃

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starshower1215 · 5 days ago

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#puppy #cosmicjoke🐱

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starshower1215 · 5 days ago

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IM SOBBING I WANNA EAT EM

#hange zoe #levi ackerman #erwin smith #attack on titan #aot veterans

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starshower1215 · 5 days ago

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"[A relationship] between [two] very close people, with a potential to blossom romantically sooner or later, [but] there is no rush to grow the relationship for now." I really liked this part. I don't ever like to call Levihan "platonic," because that word always carries a connotation which brings them to this notion people have of "just friends." This "just friends" thing, to me, cheapens their love immensely, whether platonic or romantic. They're more than friends, no matter how you look at it, because at minimum, they're undeniably best friends. On an even deeper, indescribable level, yes, but best friends at the minimum. However, being "more than friends" does not automatically equate to romance, even if generally used in that context. I always considered it to be an... Abnormally (?) intimate relationship (perhaps abnormally just like the both of them are). Or worded in the poetic, metaphorical way which I had it in my head, "On the edge of falling in love." If one imagined love as a cliff, where the fall is romance and the cliff itself is whatever comes before, and the two of them are teetering on the edge. At that point in time in canon, Levi and Hange were never in love, but had they had more time, it would have increasingly become a possibility. I'm not the biggest fan of that phrasing, though, because it is heavy on the romance instead of on that in-between.

I am not your biggest believer in Omikuji, but one thing that had also given me this impression of "Could have" had been Hange's death, which follows that infamous forest scene. As a writing technique to maximize the tragedy of an event, you would precede said event with something softer, creating a contrast which then gives the reader a more jarring impact. Similarly, Isayama precedes Hange's death with the forest scene, where Hange fantasises of what it might be like if they ran from the war together. In context of emotional appeal, then this could be interpreted less as "What if we ran away?" and more as "What if this war was over?" To which Levi tethers them back to the present by saying that Hange cannot stay out of the action.

The tethering of his words here suggest, rather obviously but I'll point it out anyway, that Hange's gotten carried away by hoping for something improbable. That hope is then used as a blade in Hange's death scene, giving off the effect of, "What if." And to me, with the resignation they both display at the "Dedicate your heart" scene, that could be a question of "What if we had more time?" That, of course, lends itself to several possibilities, but to keep it relevant we'll just have to interpret that in terms of romance.

On a last note, the "Dedicate your heart" scene is still kept as it is, and can still be interpreted as Levi dedicating his own heart to Hange, but not in terms of romance. In terms of whatever they're doing at this point (I made a post on that a while ago, it's this one, but it seems to be romance-centric). So in context of their last conversation, this could be Levi giving them his forgiveness for leaving him (whether he truly does forgive them so instantly, it doesn't show, but he's selfless. He'll harm himself if it means Hange can leave the Earth comforted by his blessing), and subsequently, a "push" for them to let go of "What if we had more time?" and allow them to leave it all behind. And as a lasting interpretation, the combination of resignation and melancholy in the scene's mood is an additional aspect rooting in Levi's quote paired with his expression. Both of which could be seen, as some have said, as his "response" to Hange's words in the forest scene, however combined this time with the present situation: "It's clear we won't make it to the end together, but I'll still love you no matter what. So forget about me, go out with a bang, and dedicate your heart."

13 red roses for my friend.

I was wondering what does gifting 13 red roses mean and decided to google it. And this is what I got.

Of course, many people may start to think: "Oh, Levihan is platonic, confirmed"

And then I remembered this amazing omikuji analysis, which all Levihan should be very familiar with now.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=e_Tt3us-Lf8

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And this is Levi's and Hange's omikuji. Also, I love Masta's explanation on Hange's omikuji on the Love section.

"Foster your friendship with each other for now"....

I just want to point out what Masta explained about the Japanese sentence of Hange's omikuji line, that it usually refers to a relationship between 2 very close people, with a potential to blossom romantically sooner or later, and there is no rush to grow the relationship for now.

And we know, Hange is usually the one that is everywhere while Levi is the one always stealing glances and focusing on her, whether it is in the manga, anime or official art/ game/ merch.

And Levi's "unrequited love", missing the timing because of his hesitation. All these adds up to the flavourful relationship of Levi and Hange.

13 red roses for my friend for now.

#hange zoe #levi ackerman #attack on titan #shingeki no kyojin #hanji zoe #eueuphoriaz #levihan #I hurt myself a little writing this #yes another interpretation of “dedicate your heart”#analysis

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