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“Ok, now it’s REALLY time to sleep!

…but it’s almost Xmas.

…..Ok, nighttime Xmas fanart.”

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☀️

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There's also the opposite phenomenon where after weeks of anxiety attacks and downward-spiralling about everything and everyone your brain has a moment of clarity where it just goes "lol what was that. Dramatic much, huh" and then plunges you back into the menty b.

the thing about living with mental illness for decades is that occasionally your brain will be like hey you're useless and should kill yourself and your only real reaction is cmon man right now im in the middle of something

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"should we tell authors on ao3 when we have discord conversations about their fics" i don't speak for everyone here but if y'all ever find a group chat discussing my fics you can should must and WILL send me screenshots of the whole damn thing. inflate my ego. gimme

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DEAR FANFICTION WRITERS

Thanks for existing

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Crowley:

Also Crowley:

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Obviously I don’t love that the UH shooter is an alt right shithead, but I really don’t think we get to be surprised. Nobody does vigilante violence quite like young men who think the Joker was literally about them. That doesn’t change the fact that this one, individual act was based as hell.

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compilation of my favorites so far. this energy for 2025 please

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Crowley in Good Omens (2.02)

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crowley shifting into protective husband mode

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At the Café!

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Crowley in Good Omens (2.05)

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🌟 Before the Beginning 🌟

One side of the endpapers for my artbook "Vavoom"! I still really like how I did the space part in this one 🥰

Ko-fi Shop | Patreon

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I have PMDD - official diagnosis from my therapist and gyn and all - but they keep saying that there is no treatment except for the pill and I don't want that so genuine question because the interneth doesn't help a lot with research too: is there anyone with PMDD who'd getting actual treatment and could you tell me what that treatment is?

Pre-menstrual depression is always depicted as like "He He! I had a box of icecream bars and cried while watching the Titanic!" But in reality, it's more like, "I'm standing the edge of an abyss. There is nothing good inside of me, I'm filled with rage and desperation."

It's crazy that being told how to deal with that is never a part of anyone's menstrual sex education.

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A writer friend told me something that broke my heart a little bit today; they're going to quit publishing their fanfic.

My instant thought was that they had been trolled or attacked or that something terrible had happened in their life because this person is so passionate about their writing. It wasn't any of that. Engagement with their works has been going down, as it has for many of us. Comments are like gold dust a lot of the time, and just looking through the historical comment counts on old fics on ao3 demonstrates this trend very clearly. It was not simply the comments dropping off which caused them to decide to stop posting, however.

My friend came across a discord server for their fandom (I should point out here that their fandom interest and mine diverged a couple of years ago, we stay in touch but don't currently read each other's posts because I'm not into their fandom and they would rather gouge their eyes out with a wooden spoon than read anything Star Wars) and specifically to share fic in that fandom. They joined, because we all love a good fic rec, only to discover that their latest multichapter fic, which has almost no comments and very few kudos, is being hotly discussed in this server as one of the best stories ever. Not one of these people has bothered to say this to them on the fic. When they asked, none of participants could see the point in telling the author of the fic they apparently loved so much that they love it.

This discovery has absolutely destroyed my friend's love of sharing fic. They share because they love seeing other people's enjoyment, and fic writers do that through comments and kudos/reblogs/likes because we don't get paid. There is no literary critic writing a blog post/article about how amazing the story is for us to copy and keep/frame. There is no money from royalties. All we have are the words of the people reading our works.

Those people on that server could have taken five minutes of the time they spent gushing about how amazing my friend's story was to other people and used it to tell the one person guaranteed to want to hear that praise how much they loved it. They could have taken a moment to express their opinion to the person who spent hours upon hours plotting, writing, editing, and posting those chapters. Instead, they deprived my friend of thing that keeps them sharing their writing, and in the process have killed their love of it. My friend now feels used and unmotivated.

I won't be sharing a link to their fic, they said I could share their experience but not their identity. I know they plan to post one final chapter. I know they intend to express their hurt at being excluded from the praise for the thing they created, and I know they intend to announce that as a consequence they will not be posting for a long while, if at all.

So please, I beg you, don't hide your love of a story from the writer. It's just about the only thing we have.