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PREMIERE OF GO FOR IT, NAKAMURA ANIME DELAYED. IT WILL NOT BE RELEASED UNTIL 2026. THIS IS A VIOLATION OF HUMAN RIGHTS (my rights)

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It's funny to see this post when you start watching Avatar for the first time lol! It's going to be a good series, my sister, her husband, and the people on Tumblr can't be wrong

oh to watch avatar the last airbender for the first time again

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Me, my sister and her husband are at war over this card, tell us what color this card is (I mean the background)

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!!!!!!!!!!!

LOOK AT THIS!!!

art blog | ko-fi + commissions

number ten! revenge on @srebrnastal

pinglist: @cinnamon-bunni @nameless-bunny

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Oh my god look at him😭😭

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Thanks for the tag @transparentstrawberrysoul !! 🙏

Currently reading: Do comic books count? If so, I'm currently reading Bibliomulica z Kordoby by Wilfrid Lupano (original title - La Bibliomule de Cordoue. I can't find any information on whether it has been published in English ;-;). If not, then I recently reread the book Never Cry Wolf by Farley Mowat. Love it so so much <3

Last song: Niech Żyje Bal by Maryla Rodowicz (my beloved) or Saikai by Vaundy. Spotify on my phone and laptop are not synchronized, so I'm not sure xD

Last film: Well, technically speaking, this whole Mugen Train Arc in Demon Slayer IS a movie, but I watched it in episodes, sooooo it doesn't count? In that case, probably KPop Demon Hunters. The movie is definitely better than I expected it to be lol <3

Sweet/savory/salty: The legendary battle between sweet and salty!! But just as I can get tired of sweetness in large quantities, I NEVER get tired of salty things, so salty wins!

Tea or coffee: TEA!! I don't like the bitterness of coffee :c and it makes me sleepy (it shouldn't work that way, but somehow it does ._.)

Working on: Currently, I'm trying to make some more drawings for ArtFight, because this month I really didn't have the energy/time to create much for this event ;-; Besides that, I'm slowly but surely working on my silly AU idea where Hange adopts Reiner and Bertholdt (it's not fanfic, but more like a description of what the plot would look like if Hange convinced the boys to stay with the Scouts!!). One day it will be finished xD

Nine people to tag is crazy, man, do I even interact with that many people? LMAO I'll tag these beautiful people, but don't feel obligated, no pressure, just silly game ;D

@eweeka @wolf-in-a-bottle @grubyszopiel @aleja-gwiazd-biegniemy

tag 9 people you'd like to get to know more :3

thank you so much @sweet-samnang for tagging me !!

currently reading: one of my friends is a published author so i am working my way through her ya fantasy books, but she is incredibly niche so i won't name the series bc it might actually dox me sorry :')

last song: 'girl on tv' by chloe moriondo

last film: oh my... don't judge me but it was zombies 4

sweet/savory/salty: def salty !! i love soft pretzels hehe

tea or coffee: tea :)

working on: hmm mostly i just make silly little doodles, i'm trying to do a more realistic/accurate self portrait at the moment tho

idk abt 9 but i will tag a few ppl !! ofc no pressure at all ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡

@celestialselfship @cowb0yluvrr @nyehfully-yours @threevowsdeep

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My honest opinion and yapping about The Summer Hikaru Died anime

TL;DR: I really like it.

I've been trying to organize my thoughts for three weeks, life got busy, but finally I'm done lol

One of my biggest fears about adaptations of series I love is that the people responsible for them will use too much creative freedom - and as a result, stray too far from the spirit of the original. When I heard about the anime adaptation of The Summer Hikaru Died, I dreamed that the whole thing would be adapted as closely as possible to what was in the manga. The manga is perfect. However, after the first episode, I decided that the manga works perfectly as it is, but the anime can work better. By changing the order slightly, informing the audience about certain things earlier than in the manga, or even adding scenes that only enhance the worldbuilding and the characters. At first I was unsure whether changing the order in which certain elements are revealed to the viewer was a good idea. Now I can honestly say that it was a great idea. It only fuels the desire to seek answers, making you realize that the mystery has deep roots in something that will be slowly revealed. The anime doesn't waste any time and introducing us to the main characters' “enemies,” making it clear early on that the potential threat here is not only the thing that has replaced Hikaru, but also an external human force that chases anything that exists beyond our world - namely, "Hikaru" himself. This sense of danger, even though Yoshiki and "Hikaru" are not yet aware of it, adds tension to the story. Something I could only really feel from the second volume of the manga. Besides, I really love Tanaka and Kurebayashi, and I'm glad I can see them in animation from the very beginning <3

Now look, I'm not picky when it comes to style and animation. If I don't like the style of a comic, after reading two pages it stops bothering me. If the series draws me in with its plot and characters, I can watch it as a slideshow in 240p. I turn a blind eye to a lot of flaws. That's why I don't consider myself a big authority on style, animation fluidity, framing, etc. I can only say that I find the character designs really successful, so pretty, so good; the backgrounds are beautiful, and the mood - whether it's a lazy village vibe, a dark, disturbing woods, or a suffocating moment alone with with deep, painful thoughts - it all has been rendered with the utmost justice. And I consider some of the choices to be truly creative. With special mention going to:

-The use of 3D models (probably?) for impurities, which gave them a disturbing vibe that didn't fit "our" world, thus they are exceptionally unpleasant and interesting to watch. -Yoshiki's POVs, covered by his overly long bangs. Just wonderful. -All the close-ups of Hikaru's eyes are beautiful and disturbing. I would die for his red pupil. -Sequences depicting Yoshiki and “Hikaru's” racing thoughts, the panic, despair, and detachment from reality. The grain effect and glitches make it look like the image is distorting and breaking down, just like their minds. They are wonderful - confusing, overwhelming, bitter, and piercing. -All the symbolism, especially the cicadas, which are ubiquitous in the manga, but in the anime they are somehow even MORE ubiquitous, also leaves an impression on me. The transfer of frames from the manga directly to the anime also works very well. Never stop. -The use of real photos or recordings. Something so unexpected in an animated production that its appearance hits you the way it was meant to - evoking disgust or nostalgia, a longing for what once felt so real.

Watching The Summer Hikaru Died, I felt emotions and tension similar to what I felt when reading the manga, but STRONGER - because the images moved, the colors flashed, and the voices, sound and music shook my body, coming together to form a perfect whole. It was as if the anime was trying to capture every one of my senses and use them to make me FEEL the scene. The way it perfectly captures the emotions of the moment; the way I watch the most idyllic, charming slice of life and then am immediately thrown into a young mind twisted by grief, terror, and confusion, is incredible; it was incredible in the manga, but in the anime it's just overwhelming. I devour this shit up, watching each episode at least three times. And my sister is legally prohibited from skipping the opening. I also quietly hope that the little extra stories at the end of each volume will somehow make it into the anime. I love them with all my heart. The team seems to know what they're doing, and I feel like this series is safe in their hands <3

However, it wasn't without flaws, and the biggest one, which I barely survived, was that in the Polish subtitles, Mince the cat is called, well, Mince. In the manga translation, he is called "Grubas" or 'Tłuścioch" (fatty/squab). I will mourn this loss for the next 30 years (I just love calling out fat animals, affectionately). The loss of Hikaru Goku's dead pose is also something I will never get over.

That's probably all. I don't think I plan on writing my thoughts on every episode, because, like, I know all the important events by heart lol. I've read the manga about five times so far. Maybe if something really appeals to me or disappoints me greatly (please, never let that happen). For now, I'm enjoying every Saturday with a new episode, my sister hooked on the story, (she knows NOTHING), and the fact that the characters and the story are being done justice. Really, it's a great time to be alive (all I need is the release date for Go For It, Nakamura!! Where is my pathetic gay boyfailure, hallo??)

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Also, I'm not sure how I feel about this keychain now.

I bought it when I went to visit my best friend, and at the time I had watched only 16 episodes of Demon Slayer. So I didn't know what the scene was about, but I thought it was funny. Now, after starting the Entertainment District arc, I figured out that the boys would be working undercover as courtesans. And just…… now I have a keychain with underage femboys in a brothel I guess??

Zenitsu's ponytails suit him very well tho

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So, apparently I never wrote about my feelings on the first episode of The Summer Hikaru Died, even though I have a vague memory of writing about it on Tumblr? Weird??

Well, I'll just say that so far I've watched the first episode four times. I'll write my thoughts tomorrow after watching the second episode! I can't wait, I'm chewing the wall!! The cold chicken in marinade scene is coming, and I'll have to choose between looking at the screen or at my sister's face LMAO She doesn't know. She only knows that SOMETHING is going to HAPPEN. I've been teasing her about it for three days khehehehe

I'm also trying to convince my boss to watch the anime so he'll give me Saturdays off. Probably will never happen, but it'll be fun to come to work and ask him how much TSHD is ruining his life xD

LET ME IN

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It's literally July 5th in Poland, almost 1 a.m., where is my The Summer Hikaru Died Like A MF

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I'm sorry, I didn't come here to fight 🙏But I don't agree that Annie had it "easy and nice". This girl was abandoned to die as a tiny baby by her biological parents. Then she was adopted by a guy who abused her constantly and trained her to be a killing machine so he could literally sell her to the army and secure a decent life for himself (and then he suddenly realized he loved her and cried, mhm, cool cool…). And all this time, Annie was only thinking about getting home alive, to her father—the only person in the world who "cared" about her. Even if he abused her since she learned to walk. Because she didn't know any other way for a family to be like. All nice and easy, yeah. Then the mission on Paradis went wrong right from the start, and she was forced to continue it by Reiner. During her time as a cadet, she had to work as a double agent or what, and gathering information. Which was exhausting and dangerous in itself (see her encounter with Kenny). She also had to do the dirty work of capturing Eren, which almost killed her. Easy, yeah. She was the only one of the three Warriors who didn't show regret for her actions by crying openly, but she FELT it. She felt guilty. She didn't want to kill Marco. She dwelled on it. She had nightmares about it. She cried about it, alone. She apologized to the bodies of her fallen comrades in Trost. She didn't want to be a bad person, but she HAD to in order to survive. Just like every one of the Warriors. Easy, y'know, and nice. I know that many people are mad that she literally “slept” in the crystal for four years while Bertholdt died and Reiner suffered in the war with his depression and immense guilt. The thing is, Annie wasn't asleep. It is confirmed in the series that she was conscious the ENTIRE time and that it almost drove her insane. Prolonged sensory deprivation IS a thing, and it's incredibly destructive to the mind. And Annie experienced it for four years, non-stop. Her only salvation from going insane were occasional one-sided conversations with Hitch and Armin. It was NOT rest for her. It was TORTURE. Not to mention that Annie was most likely feeling hungry and thirsty and generally slowly weakening in her crystal prison—we see how weak she was after she got out (and she was a strong, trained warrior) and how she threw herself on food when she had the chance. Easy and nice, as always. People are angry that she didn't want to fight Eren to save humanity. And I can't be mad at her. Because I wouldn't have wanted to either. It was never her war. She never wanted to fight in this war. She was forced into it from the beginning. She was a child soldier. She was abused by her father. She was despised for who she was, always. She was forced into missions for the benefit of others, at her own expense. The lack of tears and begging for forgiveness on her knees DOESN'T erase the fact that she regrets it. That she suffered with no one on her side.

I can agree that her relationship with Armin was unexpected and too fast. I fully understand the dislike for this ship. And even for Annie as a character or a person. But. Annie never had it easy. It was never nice. She just didn't scream loud enough about how much it hurt. And saying that a child who was discriminated, abused, used as a weapon and thrown into a war by adults should “suffer more” to redeem herself… it just sounds so wrong to me?? She was 12 years old??? Once again, please don't take this as an attack 🙏 I just love RBA and I have to protect them at all costs 💔

Aiyo 😭 I didn't go to Tiktok to be depressed but now I am. Gotta share the sadness with y'all 🥹

See this post I found on tiktok titled "Sad Facts About Bertholdt Hoover"

😭😭😭 Oh Bertholdt 🫂 i never hated u alone, i actually hated all 3 of u warriors (Reiner, Annie, and You). Even when all shit went down, i blamed Reiner more than i blamed u cause really, u were never at fault alone. I never liked Annie, over her i prefer u. So if I can forgive Reiner, obviously i will never keep a grudge against u 😭

Damnn i feel so bad for him. He didn't deserve all this shit that happened to him. And ngl I do hate how Armin and Annie ended up together, that's just so wrong. Especially as it was said that Armin was affected by Bertholdt's feelings and if that's why he ended up with her then that's all the more fucked. I don't like this ship at all, it feels really wrong to me.

Also thinking about it all, Annie got everything so easy and nice for her compared to Reiner and Bertholdt. Like she didn't suffer as much as she should have in my opinion, the guys suffered way more. Her encasing herself in hardening was nothing, really. It was such an easy way out of the mess and then she show up in the end all jolly and shit and evryone forgives her and her dad's alive too and she gets to live happily ever after with Armin 🤨😒🫠 like WTF?

Bruh I never thought about this much but now I can't stop. God i hate her. Why she got it so easy?!? Not fair! She has also killed her fair share of people, and is hardly deserving of the happily after she got. They didn't even hound her as much as they did Reiner. Ik he was the leader and all, but come on, she did everything willingly and selfishly for herself. She deserves as much blame and suffering as he got!

My poor Bertholdt 😭🫂 he should have been the one alive.

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"She might be a “good” person, but she's not really a real person" OP, give me your address, I need to send you all my money in cash right now.

I fell in love with Ragatha because her way of thinking was, and unfortunately sometimes still is, so familiar to me, and you put it all perfectly into words orz

I'll reblog this 10,000 times. Someone save this girl. Give her therapy 😭

an analysis of ragathas people pleasing.

this is a long one, so strap in.

trigger warning for generally heavy and upsetting topics.

we can assume from what were given that she developed a fawn response because of her abusive mother. she made herself into the most happy, friendly, helpful, and kind thing possible. in an attempt to appease Her. because it was the only way she could survive living in the same house as Her. Her and Her dissapointment, Her judgement, and Her anger. its a response that was developed out of fear.

but it seems like even with her mother out of the picture, shes still fawning. shes still trying to appease some vague threat even if the danger doesnt exist anymore, at least not in the same way. her fear of her mother has shifted into a multitude of different fears regarding the other members. be it hurting their feelings, them not liking her, them abandoning her, her getting hurt in any sense of the word. shes still scared, still that little girl trying not to get hurt and doing her best to be good. but it backfires.

the others are put off by her behavior, all by varying degrees. they think shes disingenuine, annoying, a liar. they think shes manipulative, that she might take advantage. they see her not expressing her emotions, hiding her true feelings and opinions on things, wearing an always smiling mask and think shes secretly malicious and untrustworthy, that shes hiding something.

but they havent considered that ragatha thinks she has to hide those things. that she thinks letting herself think and feel that way is wrong. they havent considered that any “realness” or selfishness they want to see has long been beaten out of her.

theyre wary, theyre scared, theyre fearful. in the way that animals of different species cant understand eachother, that for some its a smile, for others its baring your fangs. theyve mistaken her fear for potential aggression. and sometimes those two things really arent that different. shes pulled out every single one of her teeth, but the others are still afraid she might bite.

its wrong to call her behaviors “toxic positivity” because it implies that she ignores/invalidates others emotions and experiences in an attempt to keep things happy and light hearted. that their feelings are pointless if they dont do any good. she doesnt do that to the others, but do you know who she does do that to?

she ALWAYS puts others before herself. her own wellbeing is never even a dot on her radar. the first thing she does in episode two is comfort pomni and APOLOGIZE for her having a terrible first day even though it wasnt her fault, and then she tells her not to worry for leaving her (for dead) for the exit. and yeah, it was terrible for pomni. and i dont really blame her for going for the exit considering her situation. but it was even more terrible for ragatha.

she had to discover that a fellow member effectively had a mental breakdown, die, and then became a terrifying monster. do you not think that she would feel awful and blame herself? that she wasnt kind enough, or helpful enough to kaufmo? that she shouldve checked in on him instead of introducing pomni to the circus? if she was just nicer, just friendlier, if i did this, if i said that, if if if if, that it was her fault? that despite all her effort, it wasnt enough?

and then after that, she was thrown around and smashed into the walls, had to feel her body disfigure and reconfigure over and over again because she was glitching. all while in excrutiating pain. and then she was left to sit there for who knows long. in pain. and then she had to drag herself all the back to the main area by hand because she couldnt walk. while in pain. and the FIRST thing she does the next day is comfort pomni and apologize to her. she genuinely thinks that her feelings dont matter, that theyre only a burden to others. huh, i wonder where she learned that.

ragathas intentions are almost if not always good. i genuinely dont think theres a mean bone in that womans body. she apologizes even when she doesent need to, even when she shouldnt. the word sorry falls out of her mouth like its second nature, and it probably is. she feels mad and dissapointed in herself before the others get the chance to, so they dont get the chance to.

any “mean” or unsavory thoughts and feelings she has she suppresses, until they eventually come bubbling out when shes in vulnerable state, or when they become too intense and burst out of her in a explosion of yelling, anger, and sadness. much to her horror. much to her fear.

because ragathas fear doesnt only revolve around others, it revolves around herself. she is TERRIFIED of being like her mother, so much so that she will destroy herself to make sure she never is. her “outbursts” negatively affect her more than anyone else because not only are they just really not that harmful, they confirm to her that she really is just like Her. that she really is her just mothers daughter. she is half of her, after all. and that eats at her. that she could make anyone else feel the way she did because of Her if she isnt careful.

and i cant help but think of how frustrated, how sad she is. that despite all of her effort, shes still alone. she seems not only sad, but,,, slightly confused? at the end of episode 5. i think shes been like this for so long she genuinely doesnt know what to do or who she is when she stops. i bet she doesnt relate her loneliness to the others being uncomfortable with her attempts at appeasement, that woman has probably never let herself do even a moment of introspection, because the thought of focusing on herself and not others feels selfish. i can only imagine her mother berating her for that exact same thing the few times shes ever tried to defend herself.

because she really is just a doll, isnt she? something to look pretty, something to be pushed around, something to be broken and repaired but but never considering it to be something to be careful with. because if she gets hurt, it doesnt matter. because she can always be stitched up again. no need to worry! always reliable, always agreeable, always helpful, always nice, always happy, always good.

and she makes such a perfect one, too. because she lets herself get pushed around, she lets herself get damaged and then happily repairs herself, because as long as shes helping, right? shes helping? shes doing a good job? shes a good person, right? if i just keep doing this and never stop ill be good, right? i dont wanna be bad, i really really dont wanna be bad. praise is her lifeblood and any negative feedback crushes her and makes her feel like a failure. because in her eyes, and Her eyes, anything thats human about her does make her a failure.

i bet she relates her loneliness to the cracks in her mask, the few times she slipped, the few times she wasnt careful enough to keep everything tied down. because she would never even consider that her fawning, her people pleasing, her appeasement is the thing that pushes others away because she developed those very behaviors to save herself. from danger, from getting hurt, from hatred, from judgement, from anger, from being alone.

she would never think that. that by saving herself that shes now isolated from everyone else. she jumped from a flaming building into a lake, the burns so hot that she doesnt realize shes now drowning herself.

she would never think that instead of being the most good person she can be, she only made herself into a shell of only politeness and niceties. that she might be be a “good” person, but shes not really a real person. that the only one who she made feel like she did because of Her, was herself.

because if she did, i think it would be what finally makes her snap.

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THE SUMMER HIKARU FUCKING DIED EPISODE ONE WILL BE HERE IN A DAMNIT WEEK GUYS 🔥🔥🔥🔥

i'm normal about it fr

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If Ragatha doesn't bitch slap Jax by the end of the series, I'll rise a riot

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I would join more fandoms and integrate with folks, but there are people there who are unkind to characters I like

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this idea has some supporters

holy

holyyyy

what if

what if i did

annie in black odm gear