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Why is Barrissoka not cannon? It should be, and the only reason it isn’t is because SOMEONE SOMEWHERE was/is too cowardice to do it.

I will start by mentioning the fact that it is heavily implied.

We know that the director of the “Weapons Factory” episode, Giancarlo Volpe, pushed it. That episode was shippy. Very shippy. I think the most shippy thing (outside of the flirtatious looks and them holding hands waiting to die in the tank) was Ahsoka handing Barriss her lightsaber. I know, but hear me out… this is kind of a big deal as we know how important the lightsaber is to a Jedi “this weapon is your life.” This only happens one other time during The Clone Wars series, when Anakin hands his lightsaber to Padme and basically tells her that his life is hers.

The “Brain Invaders” episode was equally shippy. In that one, Ahsoka can’t bring herself to kill Barriss despite Barriss begging her to after a Geonosian worm infects her brain which makes her attempt to kill Ahsoka. Ahsoka ends up freezing out the worms, but she’s a Togruta, and she nearly freezes to death on the bridge while holding Barriss in her arms. Kit Fisto takes the padawans to med bay. As soon as Ahsoka comes to, she asks about Barriss. Ahsoka confesses to Anakin that she couldn’t bring herself to kill Barriss because she had formed an attachment to her. Hmm.

We don’t see much of Barriss in the show for a while after that episode, but there is a Forces of Destiny comic where Ahsoka and Barriss spar, and Ahsoka does some dumb Ahsoka move to try and show off. Barriss was not amused, and she made Ahsoka feel embarrassed about her lack of form. Once again, Ahsoka handed her lightsabers over to Barriss so that she can show her proper form. After they part ways, Ahsoka has to mediate (“meditate”) to clear her head. The artists that created the cartoon makes note of Ahsoka and Barriss’s “magnetic attraction.”

Barriss re-emerges in The Wrong Jedi arc. It’s actually this arc’s sequence that made me ask the question “WTF is going on between the two of them(?)”. Truthfully, I’m daft about picking up on gayness in media sometimes. I always assume people are straight until they do something that makes me say, “wait a minute…” and it usually has to be something pretty blatantly obvious. This arc did that to me.

So, we all know what happened in that arc, but this conversation:

Ahsoka: (running up to Barriss from the left hand side) Company?

*Both Barriss and Ahsoka looking angsty*

Barriss: Sure.

Ahsoka: Every time I think about this, I feel conflicted. It’s…hard not to let feelings turn into attachment and pain.

Barriss: Ahsoka, have you ever wondered if it was right to ignore your emotions?

Ahsoka: My master would say, “Our struggle as Jedi is to move past them.”

Barriss: You make it sound so easy.

Ahsoka: *Heh*. No. It isn’t easy. But, it’s possible. Like, when we were stuck inside the battle tank on Geonosis. It was hard not to be afraid. Still, you and I got past it. And, I guess we’ll get past this.

Barriss: You’ve always been capable of seeing things clearly.

Ahsoka: *Ha ha* I guess I fooled you like I have everyone else.

Um, didn’t feel like they were talking about the bombing…it’s almost as if they were talking about something else entirely.

After Ahsoka makes her way to the lower levels of Coruscant post-prison break, she immediately coms Barriss who acts completely alleviated to be hearing from her. They stare a little too long. Barriss looks as if she’s trying to reach through the holo and caress Ahsoka’s face.

Then, there was that attack. Barriss made her way down to the lower levels and kicked both Ventress and Ahsoka’s ass. Based on the ferocity of her attack (a ferocity she didn’t show in her duel with Anakin), it was jealous rage. I’m not sure what triggered it, I have a theory, but it jives because during Barriss’s duel with Anakin, Barriss mentions that “trust is overrated” after Anakin points out that Ahsoka had trusted her.

Finally, there was the trial. When it was revealed that Barriss was the mastermind behind the attack, Ahsoka practically has to scrape her jaw off the floor. She then can’t bring herself to feel any joy behind the fact that she’d been exonerated by the revelation. It’s like her heart was shattered. I know she was aware of the council’s politics/ blatant stupidity, and I know that played a role in her leaving the order, but I think Barriss betraying her was the straw that broke the camel’s back. As Ahsoka put it to Anakin, “I can’t stay here any longer. Not now.”

It was abundantly clear that Barriss was still living in Ahsoka’s head rent-free in the seventh season. The Walkabout arc, which most of us refer to as the Rebound, had many moments which would suggest this. For instance, when Rafa tells Ahsoka what happened to their parents during Zero’s prison break, you can tell that Ahsoka knows exactly what she’s talking about. That “green alien in dark robes”. When Rafa and Trace ask her why she left the order she replies with, “it’s complicated”. Yeah. Her girlfriend was a kind of crazy. And on the bridge after the Siege of Mandalore, Ahsoka tells Rex while clearly trying to digest everything “As a Jedi, we were trained to be keepers of the peace, not soldiers. But all I've been since I was a Padawan is a soldier.” It was originally a Mace Windu line, but it was also a kick back from a conversation that Barriss and Ahsoka had during “Brain Invaders”. So… do with that what you will.

I would argue that the chemistry between Ahsoka and Barriss was far more convincing than that between Ahsoka and Lux. I would also mention that if Barriss had been a male character, the fact that Barriss and Ahsoka had something romantic going on wouldn’t have been questioned. It’s abundantly clear to me, and anyone else that paid attention.

I say all of this because we deserve more serious representation in Star Wars cannon… ESPECIALLY after retconning Kaeden Larte. And lesbi-honest, Ahsoka is ours. She’s been queer-coded to death, and honestly, any other options at this point would put Disney into baiting territory (which is a fancy form of gaslighting). Barrissoka would be an easy out… if Disney / Lucasfilm / Filoni had balls. I won’t hold my breath.

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Another Day

Summary: Been a little over a decade since Cid turned in the Batch. Life in the parlor is quiet, dull, and mundane. And Cid does what she does every day--lie to herself that she doesn't feel guilty.

Word Count: 893

Notes: hiii !! Been a while since I've written something. Got the idea for this a while back and decided to finally write it. Cid is really interesting to me and I wrote her as best I could. Hope you enjoy!

Cid stood at the electric blue bar table, absently running a sponge over the grimy surface. A few glasses sat down on the counter, most were only half finished. She sighed. Another boring day. Most days had been boring for the past decade, ever since…well, you know what. Since she’d turned in the Batch. Serves them right! They’d been out of contact with her for weeks, and went MIA on a job! She had no clue what happened to them, and couldn’t really care less. Maybe. If it wasn’t for the kid. The only thing she could bother to feel remorse about was whatever happened to Omega. Tiny was tough, but from the way those Imperials had spoken, it didn’t sound like they were planning on leaving her alone.

Yeah, Cid hoped the kid was okay. And that was it. That’s what she told herself, at least. But deep down, though she’d never admit it, she’d felt bad about turning in Muscles and Bandana. Especially right after Goggles had died. It was a shitty move, yeah, and she’d say they deserved it. But she didn’t spend too much time even lying to herself about it. Cid didn’t like thinking about her feelings. But what else was there to do when you scrub tables silently all day?

Cid stood at the electric blue bar table. Another day. Another drink. Something different did happen today, though. Some stranger came into her bar, cloaked with some blonde hair peeking out. A young woman by the looks of it, and looking for trouble. You always know it’s bad news when they show up in a cloak. Beside her walked a lurca hound, large and menacing. Cid really needed to put up a “no pets” sign. The woman had sat in a booth for nearly the whole day, watching Cid. Cid nearly went over and asked her why she was being so creepy, but Cid just didn’t have it in her. Witty remarks and shouting people out of her bar were a thing of the past.

The woman sat in the bar until some Stormtroopers walked in, they’d been frequenting this side of Ord Mantell for a while. The two troopers ordered some drinks, and the woman got up, lurca hound right behind her. She walked past them, and though they didn’t notice, Cid saw her walk away with something in her hands. It had to be small, maybe a data chip or a comm link. But Cid wasn’t paying too much attention to her. The woman left the bar, hound close behind, looking over its shoulder at the troopers. The troopers then got their drinks and left without noticing anything amiss. Cid came to the conclusion that the woman was some kind of rebel, and she wouldn’t care to report her. All the Empire had done for Cid was put her nearly out of business. Maybe the next time that woman came around she’d give her a drink, on the house.

But the woman didn’t come back. Cid spent more time thinking about her than about the parlor. That blonde hair. That cloak. Never seeing her face. Typical troublemaker, never to be seen again. Sat in the bar all day, watching Cid. Her mind wandered to Tiny. Omega. That blonde hair. That optimism she carried. Cid knew that if the kid was alive, she’d be doing something exactly like that woman. She’d like that hound too. Omega had an affinity for the strangely vicious creatures, like that Rancor from their first ever mission.

Cid scrubbed the bar and scrubbed the tables and scrubbed the drink glasses. The only reason she bothered to keep up with it was because it felt like somehow, someway, she was scrubbing away her guilt. But she wasn’t. No, it would always be there. It was right behind this counter she’d watched Muscles try and fight off the Stormtroopers when he’d been freshly injured. Right behind this counter as she’d watched them cuff him. Right behind this counter when Dark and Broody came running out, panicked, having sent the kid on her way. And then she’d taken the payment and just left. She had left the parlor and gone to a nearby hotel, staying there for a few nights with only the company of a briefcase of credits. She’d come back to a fully empty bar. Not even Bolo and Ketch were there. Nowadays, she only had five people at most in the bar, half of those were usually Stormtroopers. They knew nobody went here, and all the other bars were typically full. Business was bad. And by the looks of it, wouldn't be better.

Cid scrubbed the surface of the electric blue bar table. It’d been a few months since that woman had come into the bar. She still hadn’t come back. Things were picking up in the fight against the Empire. Cid knew that woman was out there, fighting off those bucketheads with her lurca hound. She couldn’t help but imagine her with a bow like Omega’s, it just seemed like it fit. Or maybe she was just feeling guilty again. No, she couldn’t be. She didn’t feel guilty. Not for them. For her? For Cid? She felt guilty. Guilty for ruining her already shit life. But what could she do about it? Stand there a scrub, like she always did.

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More Long War!Ahsoka bc you guys loved the last one. I tried to make her whole vibe more flowy, plus I used Rebels!Ahsoka as a reference, so some of that vibe crept in.

AU lore here

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The muse comes out at night 🌙✨

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I believe in Santos Dumont supremacy, fuck the wright brothers

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I need a week on Rio de Janeiro to start 2025 I'm a good mood. It would actually fix me.

It's been so long I been on a beach I look white, I want to go to Parque da Cidade and Museu do Amanhã. Why did I even left again???!!!!

(Oh, right. Someone wanted to beat the shit out of me)

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Poesia

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Niterói, RJ

2023

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Caralho eu amo meu país 🤣

Original

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Jar Jar has a gf arc be like:

Chancellor Palpatine: The Queen has asked for Representative Binks.

Obi-Wan: Jar Jar Binks?

Yoda: A deep connection to the Force her people have.

Obi-Wan: Jar Jar. Jar Jar BINKS??

Chancellor Palpatine: Yes, it seems weird that they didn’t want a Jedi to come.

Obi-Wan: JAR JAR BINKS???

Mace: They think we kidnapped their children.

Obi-Wan: Sorry, just to make sure I heard correctly. You mean Jar Jar Binks??

Chancellor Palpatine: He is probably in over his head. One of you should go make sure he doesn’t fuck this up.

Obi-Wan: *immediately* NOT IT!!! Mace! You go. Yeah, you can go. You go.

Obi-Wan: it’s fucking Jar Jar B I N K S

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the Ti family - Shaak, Ashla, Codi and Vaash

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Ok, I know they not confirm to be Shaak kids, but if they are what would be their father situation?

Shaak has a spouse? Or from time to time she goes visit Shili/Kiros and go like "Hey stranger, you are cute, want to make a new Jedi with me?"

No shame here, she should be able to make as much Jedi she likes, I just got curious.

the Ti family - Shaak, Ashla, Codi and Vaash

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Everytime I seen one of those on my Portuguese test I wanted to cry.

calvin and hobbes

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Ahsoka doodles I did today

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Sometimes...I just feel like drawing something really stupid

[tip jar!]

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found this crusty roach sketch in my computer files

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🏝️ for the ask game

Thanks for asking!

🏝️ - If you were stuck on a desert island, and you could only have one Star Wars related media, what would it be?

Oh boy, I glad it says media and not movie, bc I wouldn't know how to choose other wise.

That being said, The Clone Wars series (2008) all the way. Every time I feel depressed I go watch either Naruto or The Clone Wars, and guess I would feel a lot depressed in a desert island.

(Or maybe not, maybe I would find peace on living away from capitalism. Either way is safe to get my comfort show with me)