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Little puppysona I've been playing with lately !

drawing myself feels so low pressure for perfection, so i like to do it as a warm up or stress relief lol

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may 15th

i keep finding myself falling out of art. i have the week off my job, since I'm sick, and have found creative joy stirring inside me once more coincidentally....or not lol. I've been looking to go back to school lately! I want to pursue art seriously, but I feel quite a bit lost I suppose. In many ways, I feel like it's "too late" for me (even though I'm not even 21 yet). "If I'm not a superstar whose career took off at 14, I must be a failure right?," so my brain says.

but anyway, I loved using this blog as a casual way to engage with art, as a sort of diary, so I hope I continue to remember it exists and use it to my advantage for motivation!

What I've been working on today

I started the day with ordering in a coffee and pastry, since I was craving a sweet treat! I've been sick and not eating much the past few days, so having more appetite back today is a good sign :)

I spent most of the morning listening to music and researching what sort of things should go in a portfolio. I'm thinking about going to school next year, and giving being a professional designer a serious go, so I want to prepare myself thoroughly.

I wrote the 34th episode for Monochrome Photograph, my webcomic, which is so exciting! I've spent years working on this webcomic, and I've learned so much with it. Even though I know nothing will come of it really, I want to honour the comic that's gotten me through some of my roughest patches by finishing it. Plus, it'll be fun to look back on. I like to imagine 10 years from now, laughing and cringing at this work of learning, deep down feeling warm and fuzzy from my growth...

Anyway, that's my wishful thought process lol.

I updated my carrd's aesthetics a little further, and am looking forward to the rest of my day! :}

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September 15

Hello! I’ve spent the last few days quietly, mostly busy at my full-time job. I updated my Etsy shop with a few newer sticker designs, and my new moth prints, which I’ve been putting off quite a bit haha

I’ve also been trying to get back into traditional art lately, and find myself interested especially in alcohol markers again!

I find it easier to draw myself sometimes, because I’m not as worried about making mistakes, or not adhering to how I want the image to look, the way I am with my OCs. It’s also interesting trying to draw myself, since I don’t know what I look like! I have facial blindness, and while it’s something that minorly, if at all, affects my life, it’s something I think can impact my art.

Anyway, after this, I’m going to continue working on Monochrome Photograph; I’m hoping to have the next episode up around the end of the month.

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September 11

I think my life is quite boring to onlookers; I'm not sure if there's much entertainment to be had reading a blog about me, but I want to try, anyway. Today, I work a nine-hour shift at my full-time job. It's not truly full-time, since my hours fluctuate between 20-35 hours a week. I don't know that I'm ready for the commitment of working 40 hours a week, every week... I like getting lots of time to myself, not just to work on my art, but also to rest. I'm someone who would sleep 14 hours a day if left to my own devices haha.

I've also been completely obsessed with the Build-a-Bear Pumpkin Vault cat... I called all the BaBs in my state, and none of them had her, so I resorted to buying one off a reseller for an extremely inflated price. I'm usually quite good with money, and I feel absolutely no regret for purchasing her. :) As a child, I had an intense obsession with BaB, and as a 6-year-old saw a dog BaB that I wanted in a magazine--and proceeded to tape that magazine page to my wall, and would stare at it and cry for hours, because I wanted it so bad. My parents caved after a week and took me to go buy it after this went on for a week, and I even still have it to this day. I was usually a very quiet, easy child but I'm very passionate and refuse to give up an interest, even to this day.

Anyway, there's not much for me to do today aside from work. I made a TikTok promoting my new rosy maple moth print. I've got quite a bit filmed that I need to edit and post, but I've been depressed and unmotivated, so it's hard to do things that I perceive as any sort of work right now; I should at least start, though, and try to get through editing little by little. Usually, starting something is the hardest part for me, and then I'm able to focus when I finally sit down and start.

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Working on lineart today :)

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i created this blog a while ago... and promptly forgot about it! But I've been wanting to get back into blogging, and with the work I'm putting into my art again now is a great time. I find the blogging experience to be much more comfortable (and less social lol) than social media platforms, so I hope this is something that's more comfortable for me to keep up with :)