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A piece I made years ago when I first started my conversion to Judaism ✡

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*cracks knuckles* time to make a new pinterest board for the new story

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OC: Ts'avi

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I'm wondering is this is an autism thing: one of my biggest struggles irt art has always been posing and expression. Posing not as much as expression because if I have a reference and I know how a pose works I can draw it for the most part, specifically my issue with posing is whenever I want to come up with a scene to draw with OCs for example, I know what I want to convey, I know the emotions the characters are feeling in the scene, but I always get stuck at how to convey those feelings. What poses would work? How do people do things when they feel something? What is their body language?

Logically I know the answers. I can tell you someone widens their eyes when they're surprised or frowns when their sad. I can tell you that someone who's closed off typically will show it by crossing their arms or leaning away from the person, etc. I can tell you these things, I write these things all the time.

But when it comes to drawing for some reason I just can not? Like I could describe what I want the pose to be in vague terms but I can't like. IDK. Idk why drawing is different to writing it's so stupid lmfaoo

like the thought process will literally be "I want to draw the scene from the RP where character x is yelling at character b. Okay. So place them here and here, the bg looks like this." But then it just feels like I'm standing unposeable Barbies around or something. I can't imagine in my head what they're doing enough to draw it.

I've always been more of a word person. I can articulate myself better through writing than I can when speaking (by far, speaking I am a whole ass mess), I can remember words from my dreams fairly well (spoken or written), I can remember whole movie scripts. But I couldn't tell you what the character looked like when they said whatever line it is I repeated.

Expressions are just face poses, but they convey so much emotion, and I know they do. But I don't know how to put that onto my characters. Whenever I manage to put emotion in my faces it was entirely by accident I promise lmfao

IDK I just. IDK lmFAO and I'm just realizing now today that this is probably an autism thing. It's just really frustrating for someone who wants to draw things like comics, or visual story telling with poses and expressions. But most of my art centers around symbols and stuff, which are just "picture words". Or sometimes literal words.

IDK I don't know what to do with this either. I know practice is a thing, but I've been drawing people since I could pick up a pencil and I feel like I still have no grasp on how to convey emotions through a character. And when I do manage to in the rare instance, I just feel so clinical about it lmfao like I don't furrow their brows because it feels angry, I furrow their brows because that's what people have told me anger looks like.

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finding out there's a keyboard short cut for changing the brush size has changed me lmfao

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The people of Israel live, and we will never stop dancing.

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The muse from Jak and Daxter has always been the DREAM pet lmfaoo

I really wish the series spent more time exploring them and we never really learn what they are. IMO it's a manifestation of inspiration conjured by the person its attached to. The green and yellow colors: green eco being life and yellow being ? whatever it is LMFAO something with drive or intention, etc. IDK

I love them though auGH - I can not draw animals though omfg lmfao

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I used to love making digital collages and haven't in a while so to get back into it: Have a Dark Jak themed collage!

Image Sources Below:

Had an awful time trying to find a lot of the sources of the images (mostly of the lightening) I used so if anyone knows please let me know! The Facility by Tarmo Juhola Astrology by Lisa Stardust Lonely Tumblr Eyes by aartmoore Zaha Hadid architects

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also made these bad boys

for a change into jewish positivity for a second: I made these clip on earrings to go with my magen david necklace!

I have a bunch of piercings so I don't need clip on but my grandma found a bunch of blank clips from when she used to make them so my partner and I decided to fuck around lMFAO

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It's so hard for me to accept that I can just draw whatever I want - which is so dumb because I KNOW that I can draw whatever I want, and I constantly tell people that. But when I go to draw I get art block because the things I want to draw I feel like I can't because it's not like. IDK. ITS NOT LIKE BLANK ENOUGH ITS NOT EVEN A FULL THOUGHT I HATE IT HERE LMFAO

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a commission for @naomilibicki 's book cover and chapter headers! This was my first ever commission and she was beyond patient with me, and very pleasant to work with. I appreciate the opportunity!

If you're interested in commissioning me, feel free to message :)

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omfg I started this piece months ago and I am so sick of it lmfao I spent maybe 30 mins on the bg after avoiding it for weeks because I was sick of it not being done so its as done as its gonna get LMFAO

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Drew a hamsa for a friend :) - the bg isn't a part of it, just didn't want a blank white behind it lmfao

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Kill what kills you

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I made this character back in August 2023 but it was a big step for me: as a Trans artist, I've never actually made a trans character before ahhhh

ANYWAYS to the actual character - his name is Dvichi Rizkiy (Двічі Різкий, twice and sharp in Ukrainian), a knight in the world called Mei Sentire (Mei - Sentire) which is a Fantasy world - I contemplated giving him an actual Ukrainian name but I tend to gravitate towards naming characters/places/etc in world building with words that show their personality as opposed to real world names.

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The first piece I did with alcohol markers in YEARS, back in august 2023 Clothes loosely based off of Saka-Yakutsk wedding clothes

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OC: Ram Boy; ie - currently nameless lmfao