songbirdofgolddust

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I wish I was more like my partner.

Everyone just loves her so easily. And I’m impossible to love.

Everyone showers in her gifts and praise and compliments. And I’m left in the shadows unimportant and and empty handed

Getting anyone to do anything for me feels like I’m asking Herculean tasks of them.

Everyone is too busy… so I waste away knowing I cut myself into a million pieces to appease everyone. And no one would do the same for me

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This is the only public forum where I can truly express my every true thought

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I wish I didn’t let everyone walk all over me. I’m pathetic.

I wish I was dead most of the time this week.

My girlfriend plays her cheery music in the car and I want to throw open the door and let the pavement make me nothing but a splatter on the road.

I wish I wasn’t so empty

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mental illness experience

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by Jonas Jaeken

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I wish I was dead

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Richey Edwards

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2 hours of crying later.

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I wish I was dead

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What’s the point if they won’t listen.

You love them so fully and you tell them how they hurt you but they don’t listen.

They don’t care.

I want to die.

It hurts to think of a future without them.

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This is the only place I feel safe to say what I really feel. Because everywhere else I’ll upset someone.

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Sometimes when I’m driving home late at night… i think about driving until I hit something so I’m not a burden and villain anymore.

I know I shouldn’t feel this way… but it happens more often than not.

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I wish I was dead

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I wish I was dead right now

I don’t know how to make it better

It feels like everything I do, I somehow fuck up. I let everyone down around me.

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Spring poems... again

We screwed up our first try, here's a second attempt at sharing some spring poetry for everyone. All free and open, no login needed!

Image by Yunyao Chen from the SVA COVID Collection on JSTOR

Spring William Carlos Williams (1919)

Spring Symphony Walt Whitman (1919)

One Spring Eda Lou Walton (1920)

Early Spring John Moreland (1923)

Spring Poems by a Fifth Grade Elsa Miller (1907)

Ode to Spring Henry C. Watson (1866)

Spring Has Come Eleanor Hatch (1922)

Spring Fever Faith Shearing (2002)

Spring in Canterbury Charlotte F. Babcock (1927)

Pulse of Spring Mark Turbyfill (1917)

Spring Albrecht Reu (1915)

An English Spring S. F. Hopkins (1907)

A Forward Spring Lisa Williams (1988)

A Spring View Kokan Shiren, translated by Marian Ury (1992)

The flower at the spring Mangareva poem

Spring Sounds Mercedes de Acosta (1925)

Arpeggio—Spring Winifred Waldron (1923)

Spring Morning Marion Strobel (1922)

One Spring Eda Lou Walton (1920)

Spring Torrents Sara Teasdale (1919)

Spring Day Grace Hazard Conkling (1917)

And we end with:

The End of Spring Lisa Williams (1988)

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I Love when you literally say “look it up yourself. Do your own research” and people say “provide me links”

🙄🙄🙄

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I need to stop starving myself