somebody-else18

[somebody-else18]

Magical Madeira, Portugal

michaelkagerer

[somebody-else18]

oh I see. it was the crime of wanting. that's why I deserve it.

[somebody-else18]

writing advice for characters with a missing eye: dear God does losing an eyes function fuck up your neck. Ever since mine crapped out I've been slowly and unconsciously shifting towards holding my head at an angle to put the good eye closer to the center. and human necks. are not meant to accommodate that sorta thing.

[somebody-else18]

i cannot hate myself into a version of me i will love.

[somebody-else18]

hello character who is desperate to be a good person; i want to play a game. in front of you is the one person you will never be able to save. you have the rest of your life to make peace with this. there are no defined repercussions if you fail, but we both know you're going to attempt to win regardless. your time starts now

[somebody-else18]

— fatima aamer bilal, from being unwanted is a language

[somebody-else18]

[somebody-else18]

I think what hurts me the most is that my place in your life, everything i clawed and fought for, every miserable inch i had to win over, to scrape by is given to someone else so freely and more! Without any fight at all whatsoever. And honestly sure- good for you, great for them that's fine but the part i just can't bear that truly kills me is that you felt the need to take me off my spot- to take back from me the place i had made in your heart with so much love and care, to put someone else up. Like there can't be two number 1's or- theres not enough place in your heart for me. Like my existence is a convenience for when you don't have somebody else and the second you do I'm trash, I'm not as good, not good enough, I'm second place (at best, on a good day), if I'm there it's fine if I'm not thats fine too.

I truly do think I'll live my whole life wanting to be somebody-else.

[somebody-else18]

someone just said that when nicholas ran away and said "my mother wants me home" agatha freaked out because she knew he was talking about rio and not her.. goodnight.

[somebody-else18]

"This walk with another woman's son on a road that doesn't exist."

Are we really suprised that Rio crashed out at the end? Not only did Agatha reject her once again and say she never wanted to see her again. Rio was jealous as fuck about her care for Wanda's son when she's a single mom in the afterlife raising Nicky because Agatha's avoiding them both.

[somebody-else18]

Nicky was always meant to be stillborn. He was never supposed to live after birth, but Rio gave Agatha more time with him, and in turn he got more time with Agatha.

Whether it was implied or not, he was always the son of Death. He was always supposed to go home to his other mother. When Death finally beckoned him home that night, Rio wouldn’t allow him to join her until he kissed Agatha’s cheek. And he knew, instantaneously, to kiss Agatha not once, but twice.

Once from him, and once from Rio.

Though he was always meant to join Death at her side, Rio gave Agatha the chance to be his mother, too, and now I am a mess about it and will be thinking about this for a long time.

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11/4 edit: Wow, y'all have completely overwhelmed me with your love for this little meta, so as thanks, I turned it into a bit of fic we can all cry together about.

Read "Once (Twice) from Nicky" on AO3.

[somebody-else18]

mind your manners, sweetheart

[somebody-else18]

Lmaooo the real bad boy was Agatha all along ✨

[somebody-else18]

KATHRYN HAHN & AUBREY PLAZA in Marvel Studios' Assembled: The Making of Agatha All Along

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[somebody-else18]

not a single reliable narrator in sight

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I hate that thing some people do where it's like. "I left my wallet on the table to see if you'd say anything" or "I wanted to see if you'd wash the car if I stopped doing it"

Cause like

I dont know about anyone else

But I am perpetually hovering three inches above the strong subconscious belief that everyone knows what they're doing at all times except me, so if you change your normal patterns and I notice, then I will assume it is an intentional choice with a thought-out plan behind it and I will avoid interfering

And if I don't notice, because I won't, because why would I, because not much bothers me and if you don't say anything to indicate you are bothered then how would I KNOW