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Hi everyone!

I’m sorry I’ve been a little MIA. I have all of your requests, but I’m just a little stressed out because I just started my junior year of high school and it’s been a lot on me already.

Please be patient with me!! I promise that once I have the time, I’ll start posting again :) I love you all so dearly!

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we’re almost birthday twins! september 21!

yess virgos!!

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Ah Thanks for tagging me!!

1) All Time Low - Jon Bellion

2) Body Talks - The Struts

3) Gasoline - Halsey

4) Live in the Moment - Portugal. The Man

5) Woman - Kesha

6) Stardust - New Politics

7) Lost in Japan - Shawn Mendes

8) Heaven - Julia Michaels

9) King of the Clouds - Panic! At the Disco

10) Twentysomething - Jamie Cullum

I tag: @andrewsiwickislaugh @gigglysiwicki @laughs-in-andrew @i-like-the-sound-of-that @nighttimeblurbs @shanescameraman @xsiwickix @mrsstarkpotter @oliviaisnotlistening (sorry if you’ve already been tagged hahaha I’m not expecting you to do it again :))

Playlist tag!

I got tagged by @mymagicsquad !!

RULES: We’re Snooping your playlist!! Set your entire library on shuffle and report the first 10 songs that play; then choose 10 victims.

Two Black Cadillacs- Carrie Underwood

Sober II (Melodrama)- Lorde

Sweater Weather- The Neighbourhood

Take A Chance on Me- Little Women the Musical

Instead- Blake McGrath

Is There Somewhere- Halsey

T.N.T.- AC/DC

Guys My Age- Hey Violet

Skinny Love- Birdy

Thnks fr th Mmrs- Fall Out Boy

I’m tagging: @shane-has-friends @shanescameraman @ryanbergara @buzzfeedunsolvednetwork @sizequeenbergara @mukshane @sunshinebergara @unsolved-tryguys @zyxult @crying-unsolved

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Genuine

If you had to use one word to describe shane.. which word would you use?

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i absolutely love your blog!

You're the sweetest! Thank you so much!!

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Yeah.. that was also my reaction when I woke up from that dream.. I am still very confused lmao 😂

I feel like that’s more of an accurate representation of Garrett than Andrew

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Starting Fresh - Pt 4

Surprise!! Part 4 is here! I was thinking about making a tag list, so if you would be interested in wanting to be on it, let me know!! xx- bina :)

A solid chunk of the next day was spent at Shane’s..planning the video I was going to be featured in next week. Gosh, I’ve never ever considered what even went into making these YouTube videos until now. There’s seriously so much to consider: cameras, equipment, what to wear, renting, and planning the day as a whole. It was a little intimidating to be honest. I’m not usually the center of attention and for the video to be based on me teaching...I felt like I needed to portray my best self. 

We spent about 3 hours planning the video, and the rest of the time we just decided to hang out. I was sitting with Andrew on the couch as he scrolled through his camera roll on his phone, showing me some of his photography. I was so fascinated by it. Not just by the pictures (although they were stunning in every way), but him as well. The way his face lit up when he talked about the locations and how proud he seemed of himself when he was finally happy with his final results. 

We came across a series of photos taken at a dock and I couldn’t peel my eyes away from them. I never thought that any place in LA would hold such peace and tranquility that could be captured by a camera. 

“These are gorgeous, Andrew” I gawked, staring at the reflection of the boats in the water and how far the dock stretched into the distance, sunlight beaming down on the wood.

“Thanks. It’s one of my favorite places to photograph..”

Andrew paused for a moment and inhaled deeply.

“I was going to go tonight..do you happen to be free? I’m sorry to be abrupt but you have to go there and bring your camera. The best time to come is around when the sun goes down. I can take you if you want..” Andrew trailed off, his voice heightened with anticipation.

I grinned and nodded “I have no plans, that sounds awesome!”

“Awesome! Can I pick you up around 5?”

I nodded quickly and my heart started to flutter. “Sounds great!”

This couldn’t be a date..can it? He could just be being friendly..maybe that’s what guys in LA are like. We literally just met. 

Here I go again with overthinking everything. I didn’t want to make a big deal out of this, but my brain can’t help it. I couldn’t tell Morgan, because that wouldn’t help me at all. 

I took a deep breath. It’s just going out to photograph. With someone else. Who happens to be a boy. You do it all the time with your friends back home. And plus, isn’t this one of your favorite ways to relieve yourself of stress? So why are you stressing over it?

This was the inner monologue I was having with myself as Morgan and I left Shane’s, walking up the hill and getting to the car. 

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As soon as I got home, I rushed to the bathroom to take a shower. Truthfully, I had no idea if this was a date or not, but I was sure acting like it was one. Plus, I’m not gonna lie, it’s fun to get just a little primped up once in a while. 

I rummaged through my clothes and managed to find my light wash skinny jeans as well as a white t-shirt with red and yellow detailing. Perfect. I put on some light makeup and waved my hair. 

I slipped by glasses back on before taking one last look in the mirror. I’m not really one to toot my own horn, but I felt pretty. I was by no means “dressed up”. This is just everyday attire, but it’s always a good feeling to go out in public feeling good about yourself..especially when your with a guy you may or may not have a slight interest in…huh?

I grabbed my camera and started to head out the door. Morgan was spread out on the couch.

“Hey, I’m gonna go get some fresh air and photograph for a few hours.” I half lied. I told her I was photographing but I forgot to mention Andrew. If she knew, she would go crazy, which would make me even more nervous.

“Okay. You wanna take the G?” She asked.

“Nah, I’ll über. Thanks though.” I wink, grabbing my keys from off the table. “Ill text ya!”

“Later!” I heard her voice call out as I close the front door behind me. Andrew picked me up right on time, having no trouble finding my place. I lived with Morgan after all so this must be familiar to him.

“Hey there” I greet, strapping on my seat belt.

“Hey. Did I rescue you from Morgan?” Andrew joked.

I laugh. “Eh she’s alright without me for a couple of hours” 

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The car ride was about 15 minutes and was quite enjoyable.  The scenery was beautiful while rolling past the beach which calmed my nerves greatly. Andrew and I talked about music genres and what made them so great. I quickly learned that he was a big fan of Drake and we bonded over his new album and our thoughts on it.

We soon arrived at this gorgeous dock. Seeing in in pictures was one thing, but seeing it in real life was a whole different story. I know, I know. It’s a dock, but it was the perfect place to watch the sunset. The sky was all different types of oranges and yellows and pinks, bouncing off of the reflection of the still water. The air was crisp and whistled in my ears as I watched the boats float across the horizon. 

“It’s so calm here” I say softly and observingly, taking in my surroundings while strapping my camera around my neck. “Yeah” Andrew agrees while taking a few test shots. “LA can be really hectic. Especially when you’re running all over the place filming your friends acting crazy” he chuckles. “Its nice to come to places like these and recoup once in a while. That sounded cliche as hell, but you know what I mean.”

“Yeah, no definitely” I agree, focusing my lens. “I had no idea places like these even existed here!” I giggle.

“Tell me about it! They’re such hidden gems!” He smiled from ear to ear. 

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Andrew and I had the best time with each other. He was such an easy person to talk to. These kinds of people were rare for me to come across. Maybe it was my anxiety that made it so difficult for me, but surprisingly not with Andrew. I always stress about the tiniest things while socializing: what to talk about, whether or not to crack a joke, what the next topic will be. Even talking to Morgan sometimes I get nervous that we won’t have enough to catch up on, and she knows me better than anyone else. Everything seemed to flow normally when talking with Andrew. We talked about college, photography, transitioning to LA, the youtube world..all of that. Our personalities were so similar and clicked almost immediately, and I could tell that this could eventually lead to a great relationship in the future and not really caring if it would end up romantic or not. I was just glad that I had someone that got me. 

“So, I’ll see you on Tuesday?” He asked as we rolled up in front of Morgan and I’s.

“You betcha” I exhale with a nervous chuckle while undoing my seatbelt.

“You’ll be great. To be completely honest, I was nervous about being on camera at first too.” He admitted. “I didn’t know how to act in front of it and sometimes I still don’t” 

We both laugh, both of our awkward personalities finding and relating to the other. 

“Well you’re used to it by now, right?” I ask, getting out of the car.

“Exactly! And you will too eventually!”

We share another giggle.

“I’ll see ya around, Andrew.”

“Ditto, Olivia.” And suddenly, I was more excited than nervous for Tuesday.

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I had this really weird dream about Andrew last night and the only thing I vividly remember from it is walking down a street with him at night and he was kicking his phone and I was like “wtf stop” but he said it’s okay and showed me his phone case and it was bright pink and very glittery. I’m still very confused about it.

LOL WHAT

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Can there be a discord server for Shane + friends bc I have nobody to talk about them with. And with them I mainly mean Andrew.. lmao (also agreed with everybody, you’re super awesome and your writing is great! I loved the 2 muse imagines so much!)

I have no idea what discord is but I'd happily join! Thank you thank you thank you!!

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Update!!

- Today I’m working on some of your requests and Starting Fresh pt 4 while waiting for the final Jeffree video!! I’m trying to make this a long chapter for you guys and I’m workin hard!

- I’m trying to get a bunch of stuff up this week/weekend because school starts up again for me on Monday, so I probably won’t be as active, or if I am, I’ll be posting pre-written stuff that I have saved.

- I hope that you all are having a lovely day!!

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Aw I’m sorry you’re also suffering from depression, it really really sucks.. if you ever need someone, we’re all here for you! :) xx

Ah it’s okay..some days are worse than others but hey, isn’t that life? Of course and vice versa with you guys

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I absolutely love your writing! I check your blog everyday (I don’t use tumblr anymore haha) to see what new imagine you posted and they make my heart feel rlly light and soft and you’re a great person and a talented writer :)))

You guys are seriously so freaking sweet! I’m so glad I can put a smile on your faces ❤️❤️

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Can you make another one like the queen Mary imagine but with the Texas trip? Like reader being there too and getting her nails done (obviously in Andrews favourite Color duh) with Garrett and Ryland and just hanging with them and Andrew and being cute? I don’t really have an idea but I hope you can make something out of this hahaha

Yes! Added to my list!!

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Hey! Could you maybe write one about Andrew and the squad helping the reader through her rough days? I have depression and I’ve been feeling super down the last few days and I wish I had someone to just be there for me? If you don’t feel comfortable writing about depression then I completely understand of course! xx

Yes of course! I have depression as well so I’d be more than willing

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I just wanted to pop by and say that your reader inserts are all so adorable and well written! I have read all of them like, twice, and I can't wait for more!! (No pressure of course- take your time). Thank you for sharing your talent with everyone

Thank you!! Messages like these make my heart so happy! More content definitely soon to come, love

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hey, hi, hello! how’re you? i just wanted to let you know that i stumbled upon your blog looking for reader inserts and i saw your andrew x reader and asjgkfjddjdks it’s so pure and beautiful and sweet and sgdjshd

Hey! I’m great! Thank you so much! I made this blog to share my soft heart with the world and I'm glad you’re enjoying it :,)

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Can I make a request for Andrew? Inspired by Shane’s video of visiting Queen Mary the haunted ship, going with the squad to film but getting really freaked out so staying close to Andrew and cuddling into him because he makes you feel safe? If you can do this, thank you!

Posted!!