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it was different

i don’t remember a timewhen i haven’t thought about changein some form, i remember each one my memoryholds them stationary, inspect it under the lightclosely, my younger thoughts echothe hours of tomorrow it might be different tomorrowi might wake up on timei might not entertain the echoof yesterday’s devastating news, i might not changetoday, but i might light a candleand let your memory dance…

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race for life

Hi all! This is different to my usual posts, but I had to mention it. When I first did the Race for Life a few years ago, I was extremely fortunate to not know anybody personally affected by cancer. Fast forward and I now know too many people who have been affected by this disease. I’m now teaming up with my partner to take on the 10K race for life in Chelmsford together later this year to…

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exercise

i remember when i first started traininga few years ago, long before i invested in runningi am a person that lives by routineit keeps my head clean, my mind is calmedby movement, i didn’t care for stretchingat the beginning, i pushed myself to the limit, then i pushedeven harder, trainingbecame part of my personality, i stretchedmyself thin, i wanted to try everything, i thought about runningi’d…

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i'll be there on thursday

i’ll be there on thursdaythe one at the backtraditional dressthe usual, black i’ll sit there on thursdaythe seat by the dooruncomfortable plastici need a quick exit in case ipanic i’ll stand there on thursdaythe grave marked with your namefluorescent flowerstwisted twigsregretful rain i’ll leave there on thursdaythe time to go homebut i’ll carry your fingerprinteverywhere i go

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here and there

i am with youevery day in thesalty blue sky i followed yoursleepy secret flighti took your footstepsone by one i chased puffy cloudsand unequal amounts of starsuntil i found yourresting placewhere you belong i am there on the pathit’s 7am coldand i haven’t slept we meet at the usual cafea latte, sweet treatand a natter time isn’t noticed by usit doesn’t matterbecause you never leftand…

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she's still in there

she’s still in therethe little girlwith short brown curls the shy onesitting at the back of the classshe could never raise her hand she’s still in therefull of swirling daydreamsof roses and lillies the quiet girlthat never said a wordbut wrote every single one she’s still in thereunder the musclebeyond the stubbornness she’s still in therehiding behind the stressthat resides on her…

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oh january

you bring coldlet me introduce comfortyou’re icylet me gift you a blanketyou have bad newslet me not hear ityou’re dark and poorly litlet me light my pathjanuary, please get out the way

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2025

welcome to the new yearwe have been locked init’s here, there is hopein the air and a changefelt in the atmosphere, last year’s dreamshave long been forgotten, this time i’m crossing my fingers, this timewe will leave no one in a different yearwe will allow our dreamsto carry us to not hold us back, we won’t be lockeddown, there doesn’t have to be changeat every turn, but we must keep our…

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your mum called

she remembers youas a childdiscovering, learning, questioningshe remembers youas a teenagergrowing, trying, creating she won’t know youas an adultfloating, watchingleaving her denying she can’t remember youleaving the hospitalshe can’t rememberleaving her babyan odd flashbackmaybe your mum called yesterdayi thought i should say

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getting lost

there isn’t an arrowthat points youthe right way there isn’t a voicetelling youall will be okay there isn’t a signdirecting youastray there isn’t a straight pathguiding youto your destination there isn’t anyone elsewalking in your direction this is your journeyyou’ll find where to gowe all get a little lostbefore we’re ready to go home

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but I said no

i face you dailyone side of the mirrornaturally i stand straighta right anglea slight rotate i turn lefti turn rightthe same spots still in sight i breathe ini tilt my chinlet it begin i posefor the camerain golden hour is this good enoughto get a likehave i done it right have i made them thinkthis is what they should bea complete lie just like me but todaytoday i said noi’m not joining in…

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paddle on

paddle on till sunrisecircle these waterskeep an eye on the skythe boat may rockbut you won’t falli am watching you may not see me, but i am watchingi am the orange pink swirls at sunrisei am the invisible arms that catch your falli am the soft ripples bubbling the wateri am the ladybird walking the rocksi am every cloud in your sky they tell you a grey cloudy skyis scary, but you don’t need to…

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death says you're early

death says you’re earlydon’t rush to hang your coatyour stay has been interrupted death didn’t hear you knockdon’t wipe your footyour shoes won’t come off death didn’t see you comingdon’t say goodbyelooks like you’ll be staying

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i worry

i worry that after12 years have passedi might forgetthe way you made melaugh, i am scaredthat one day i’ll wake and your face willbe blurred and i won’t rememberwhat if i forget that you taught meto swim, what if i lose every photoyou were ever in how can i remember, how can i forgeti go into the next room come out andforget  here’s what i rememberi know your love, i knew it thenbut i feel it…

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here's what i remember

the sweet wrappers waitingto meet the bin, the TV on highestvolume, the way you could touchyour toes at 97, can you still do thatcan you still do that in heaven curlers waiting in line to spin and twirlevery white hair, kettle boiling for thetenth time, glasses upon glassespiled up all for different purpose, andyour smile, yes, your smilethe littlest things that made you chuckle

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Content Writing & Poetry Services

Hi there! If you are in need of content writing or poetry, then please check out my gig below on Fiverr. https://www.fiverr.com/s/ZmBlj8Y See you on the next page, Mel:)

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tomorrow

i can’t promise youit’ll be an easy ridebut i will hold your handand dance with you when your time comesand the music stopsplaying, i’ll bring you flowerseveryday and decorate your grave and when tomorrow arrivesand you’re not herei’ll cry, i’ll say goodbyebut tomorrow won’t die