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skijumper · 7 days ago

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New years resolution: Making sense of being in a relationship with your teammate

Ships: Lellinger, Kraftböck

For @masonjarsmoments

Heyy Anni,

I had a lovely time writing my first ever Lellinger oneshot that somehow ended up with Kraftböck in there as well. Since I really wanted Hille to be in this story ever since I got your favs, I made him the support character I guess. It's kinda hard to write a story that takes place in the future, but I went delulu and don't care what the real-life will bring us for four hills. Anyways, I hope you enjoy this story <3

Stefan and Michi were about to go to bed the day they arrived in Engelberg, when a loud knock at their door made them freeze in their movements. They both looked at each other in confusion, sure that there most certainly was no one that would need anything from them this late. The person outside knocked again, louder this time. ,,Michi, Stefan?", the person outside asked loudly. Michi and Stefan looked at eachother with confusion. ,,Hille?", Michi mumbled. ,,Go open the door before he has punched through it.", said Krafti and sat down on the bed. Michi nodded and opened the door. Hille almost darted past him. ,,I need your help! Stephan and Andi exasperate me.", he stated and dropped onto the desk chair. Michi sat down beside Krafti. ,,Ok, what's the matter?", Stefan asked and tilted his head. He still was confused and rather wanted to go to bed, but since Hille really looked desperate he decided to not be bothered to much. Hille sighed. ,,I need them to talk. I rather want to just call them oblivious idiots and then run off, but that won't help. So I...we need to make them talk and be a couple.", Hille explained. Stefan chuckled. ,,So you are asking us to help because we are the only gay couple?", he asked. Hille grinned. ,,Kinda. In all honesty I thought and hoped that you two might see what I and some of the other jumpers my age see.", Hille answered.

,,Wait, the other guys on the german team don't see it? They really don't see the heart eyes all the time?", Michi asked and looked at Hille in utter disbelief. ,,I think Pius knows, but I am not sure and Adrian asked me about it, so he see's the obvious. I am absolutely unsure about Karl and Markus as well as our staff, but I don't think they see it.", Hille replied. Stefan sighed. ,,They must be blind then.", he said and looked around, lost in his thoughts. ,,But what are we going to do now?", Michi asked after a moment of silence. Hille took a deep breath. ,,I really want them to get it sorted out before the end of the year, before the Vierschanzentournee at best since I have a feeling they think about the 'what if' so much that it affects their performances. The problem is that right now it is not set in stone who of the team has to leave for the upcoming period, since we loose a spot.", Hille answered and sighed. To say, he didn't feel presure to deliver a good result this weekend, would be a lie.

,,But Andi is set, isn't he?", Stefan asked. ,,Without a doubt I'd say.", said Michi. Hille nodded. ,,So if Stephan is going to be the one who has to sit out the tournament and has to do the COC instead, we at least could try to talk to Andi and see where this leads us. I don't know who of us would be the best for this, but we can think about that some other time.", Michi suggested. Stefan and Hille both smiled. ,,And if he doesn't have to sit out, we'll or more likely, you two will talk to both of them?", Hille added. ,,Sounds like a plan. As long as Stephan is there, we'll talk to both of them and if not, we are only going to Atalk to Andi and hope.", said Stefan. They talked some more until Hille went back to his room and to bed.

The weekend went by fast and so did Christmas and soon they found themselves in Oberstdorf. Despite the stress especially the germans and the austrians felt, Michi was able to catch Andi in a quiet moment, away from the others. ,,Do you by chance have a moment? I need to talk to you about something.", he asked quietly, so that only Andi would hear it. ,,Yes, but...Is it something private or not?", Andi asked, looking back at the dining hall were some jumpers still sat at their tables. Michi nods slowly. ,,Let's go to my room. Stefan is still busy anyways.", Michi suggested as they walked towards the elevators. ,,Okaaaaayyy.", said Andi and followed Michi until the door to the Kraftböck room closed behind them. ,,Sit down.", said Michi and pointed at the small seating area in the corner of the room. Andi sat down. ,,So, what's going on?", Andi asked and looked at Michi who had sat down opposite of him. Michi grinned. ,,I want to get to know something and if what I think is true, you should talk to someone else.", he said, well aware, that Andi probably won't understand what he means. Andi looked at him with expected confusion. ,,You are talking riddles, Michi.", Andi exclaimed. Michi chuckled and didn't know how to say what he wanted without fully losing it.

,,You know that...if you are in love with someone from the same gender as you and don't know what to do, you could just talk to me and Stefan, don't you.", Michi stated and smirked slightly. Andi's eyes widened. ,,How...what...shit, is it that obvious?", Andi asked and blushed. ,,I wouldn't say it's full blown obvious for everyone yet, but I think if you don't do something about it, it might become more obvious.", Michi answered. Andi sighed loudly. ,,But I can't just walk up to Stephan and...wait, did I just say his name out loud?", Andi muttered and got even redder. Michi grinned. ,,Yes you did. And I know that you can't just walk up to him and drop this bomb out of nowhere. Nonetheless, I'd really advise you to talk to him and tell him how you feel. Hille, Stefan and me all see how the uncertainty affects you.", he said. Andi nodded slowly. ,,The uncertainty kills me.", he muttered. ,,But I am scared that if I tell him now or the next few days, it will affect my performance too much if he reacts badly.", he added. Michi sighed. ,,You don't have to believe me, but I can promise you, that he is not going to react negatively.", said Michi and petted Andi's knee. Andi sighed loudly. ,,But how can you know for sure?", he asked. ,,Gay intuition.", Michi countered and grinned.

Andi looked at Michi with a lot of visible confusion, but decided to neither question what Michi said, nor get to hopeful that Stephan might like him back. ,,So, when do you think is a good time to tell him?", Andi asked after silence was hanging between them. ,,My suggestion would be to do it before the new year starts. I just know that given the circumstances we are in, it's easier said than done, because of the busy schedule. In the end it's up to you, but I personally would at least try to do it before the new year starts.", Michi suggested. Andi nodded to himself. ,,I might try that and if it doesn't work out, I'll do it another time.", said Andi and looked up at Michi. Once Andi left the room, Michi immediately messaged Hille about the conversation and told him how he was confident that Andi would actually let actions speak.

Two days later, Andi was pacing up and down the room he shared with Stephan, only wearing his dressing pants, while Stephan was in the bathroom. He had buried even the tiniest thoughts about telling Stephan how he felt, in the back of his mind, but over the last few hours they were coming back up again and he knew, he had to do it. Andi just still didn't know how. ,,Andi, is everything alright, you look lost.", Stephan suddenly said behind him. Andi stopped in his tracks. ,,I...No...Yes...I don't know.", Andi mumbled and suddenly really felt the need to continue getting dressed. ,,You don't have to tell me what's going on, but if I can help, I want to help.", said Stephan and sat down on his side of the bed. Andi sighed. ,,I need a moment.", he said, avoided looking at Stephan and put his shirt on.

As Andi was done, he rubbed his face. ,,I need to tell you something and I hope you are not going to hate me afterwards.", he said and turned around to face Stephan. Stephan looked at him, confusion visible in his facial expression. ,,I could never hate you...", he mumbled and kept looking at Andi with a more serious expression. Andi sighed. ,,I am...gay. And...I...", he stated and took a deep breath. Stephan's eyes widened in surprise. It suddenly was hard to hide the hope. The hope that maybe, just maybe, Andi would like him the way he did like Andi. ,,Thank you for trusting me with this. You don't have to say more, if you don't feel ready to do so.", said Stephan. He really wanted to know what's on Andi's mind apart from this, but he also didn't want to pressure him into telling. Andi sighed. ,,Over the last few months I came to the conclusion that I can't deny my feelings for you anymore. They've gotten so much and so strong that I even am overwhelmed by them.", Andi confessed and looked down at the bedsheets below him.

Stephan needed a moment to process Andi's confession. ,,You are...you...oh my...", Stephan stammered and grinned awkwardly. Andi looked up at Stephan and the shimmer in his eyes didn't make sense to him. ,,Yes, I am. Have been for years, actually. I just was too scared to admit it for a long time and then you were in a relationship and I was hopeless, but...I just love you so so much.", said Andi and stared at Stephan. Stephan's grin widened and he had a hard time forming a coherent sentence. Was this real? Was Andi really confessing his love just now? ,,You...I...Fuck, I love you too. So much, so so much. But this feelings scared me for a very long time.", Stephan confessed. Andi jumped up from the bed and smiled. ,,Oh my godness, is this real! Am I not having one of those annoying dreams again?", he asked himself. Stephan chuckled and got up from the bed as well. He walked over to Andi and stopped in front of him. ,,I certainly hope that this is real.", said Stephan and pulled Andi closer. Stephan slowly closed the gap between their lips, giving Andi enough time to pull back. But instead of pulling back, Andi placed a hand at the back of Stephan's head and closed his eyes.

The kiss was shy and slow at first, both feeling overwhelmed by the new found sensation of kissing eachother. After some moments, Stephan deepend the kiss, pouring all the pent up love into it. ,,Holy shit.", Andi whispered against Stephan's lips. Stephan just smiled and blushed more. ,,It feels good, doesn't it?", he asked and just kissed Andi again. They shared a few more kisses in close embrace when suddenly someone loudly knocked at their door. ,,Andi, Stephan. you two are late.", they heard...Michi...say on the other side of the door. ,,Shit.", Andi mumbled and immediately let go of Stephan. ,,Do we really need to go there?", Stephan asked and sighed. ,,Yeah I think so. But we are going to be fine and at midnight we sneak away and kiss, okay?", Andi suggested and opened the door. Stephan blushed and nodded. He'd be able to get through this somehow, but it already felt hard to go without kissing Andi for some hours.

,,Don't you want to question why we get you and not someone from your team?", Stefan asked, after both Stephan and Andi had stepped out of their room. ,,I assume you two were running late as well and someone messaged you to get us on the way.", said Stephan while trying his hardest not to be too close to Andi. Michi and Stefan both nodded. ,,Yes, but also...did you two talk?", Michi whispered. Stephan and Andi both blushed, a confirmation to Michi and Stefan. ,,See, it wasn't bad.", said Stefan and petted both Germans on their shoulders. Michi just smiled beside them and said:,,I'm so happy for you two. And Hille will be too when you tell him." ,,And the others will be too once you are ready to tell them.", Stefan added. Stephan looked at them with a hint of confusion as they stepped into the elevator. ,,What's going on?", he asked. ,,Hille was exasperated with you two and that lead to me talking to Andi about his feelings and I guess that conversation helped for you two finally getting together after so long.", Michi explained. ,,Yes. Thank you and I think I...we also need to thank Hille then.", said Andi and gave Stephan a quick kiss just before the elevator doors opened. ,,See you two outside later.", Michi and Stefan both said and walked to the room their team would eat and celebrate in. Andi and Stephan walked into the opposite direction and after they sat down with their team the little new years eve party started.

During some down time, Stephan whispered into Andi's ear. ,,How about we send Hille a picture later? Our hands or a selfie or something else.", he suggested. Andi grinned. ,,Yes, that sounds good.", he said and put his hand on Stephan's knee under the table. Some minutes before midnight, everyone went outside. While the others were busy talking and setting up sparklers, Stephan and Andi stood a little away from their team and some of the other nations. ,,You know...", Stephan started after they had watched their teammates in silence for a while. ,,Yeah?", Andi whispered and turned a little to face Stephan fully. ,,I think my new years resolution is that I want to make sense of us, develop our relationship, be with you and be true to myself. And finally tell more people that I am not straight.", Stephan explained and smiled. Just a few seconds before it was midnight, Karl handed them sparklers and lighted them up.

10...

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Andi and Stephan managed to walk around the corner of the hotel.

5...

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1...

They heard a lot of Happy New Years in different languages and some fireworks, but it all felt distant for the moment.

Stephan stepped closer to Andi who immediately put a hand at the back of Stephan's head and kissed him. The kiss was long, deep and full of emotion and love. ,,I love you so much.", Stephan whispered barely audible. ,,I love you too.", Andi whispered. For a moment they just looked at eachother. ,,We should probably head back now.", Stephan mumbled after some seconds and sighed. Andi sighed just as loud and they took a step back to the others. ,,Wait, let's take a picture for Hille.", Andi said and quickly pulled out his phone. They leaned against eachother and took a selfie, their hands intertwined in the middle of it. "You can stop being exasperated now :D" Andi sent the picture to Hille and put his phone away.

Back with the others no one really questioned why they were gone for some minutes. Not long after they came back it was time to go to bed anyways. There was a comp to jump in tomorrow after all.

,,Hille sent an audio.", Andi said as they were sitting on their bed. ,,Let's listen to it.", said Stephan. Andi tapped play and after they heard an undefinable sound, Hille started to talk:,,I am so happy for you two and so happy that my efforts helped you two to finally talk about what has been evident for ages now. You two have been oblivious for way too long. I had the feeling you'd never be true to your feelings. Congratulations and happy new year."

,,I'm looking forward to spending it with you.", said Stephan and kissed Andi deeply.

#wsss24 #so good #ski jumping

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skijumper · 7 days ago

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Tähdenlento (Shooting Star)

Ship: Niko Kytösaho × Artti Aigro

Fandom: Ski Jumping RPF

Note: Dear Merle (@merlesrandomstuff ), this year I was your Secret Santa. I was so happy to write you a little fic. I know how much you like Artti and Niko together. So, I tried to write something wholesome with them. I hope you like. I also wish a wonderful Christmas around your loved ones. Stay safe and take care.

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Artti Aigro and Niko Kytösaho were sitting in the snow at the ski jumping hill of Titisee-Neustadt. Everyone left but they stayed for a few moments. Just to reflect on the competitions they had. They had been a couple for quite some time now. One of the key foundations of their relationship was communication. They talked through everything. On that snowy day, Artti was frustrated. Not with Niko but with his ski jumping performance. He did well, but according to him, not well enough. He had troubles of putting two great jumps together. The Estonian wanted to win a competition. He wanted to prove himself that he was good enough.

Niko had noticed the mood of his beloved. He tried to reassure Artti to no avail. He showed him unconditional support. The Finn kept telling the Estonian that he was already good enough. Artti was thankful for that. Niko told him that his time would come. Maybe sooner than later. He genuinely believed in his boyfriend and wanted to help. When Artti wanted to go back to their accommodation, he asked for some alone time to think. He wanted to figure out a way to help him. At first, he thought that he should go to the Norwegians to make Artti believe in his potiental. He had also thought of leaving him little notes. However, the Finn quickly scrapped the idea.

As Niko was heading back to Artti, something caught his eyes. On the night sky, a shooting star passed by. He quickly wished the best for his love in the form of claiming a victory. He hoped that it would come true. He wanted to see his beloved Estonian free from the burden he carried with himself. When Niko got back, he rushed to his love. He didn’t hesitate for long. Niko wanted to share the little magical moment with Artti.

“Oh, you say that you also saw the shooting star…” Artti sighed, “Did you wish for something?”

“Actually… yes. I did. However, I don’t want to tell what my wish was,” Niko added as he was stroking the Estonian’s face, “If it comes true, you will be the first one whom I tell.”

“It would be nice…”

“Of course, darling,” Niko kissed Artti’s forehead, “Maybe my wish comes true soon. It would be a small Christmas miracle.”

“I just hope that you wished for something.”

“I did. I wished for the best for someone close to my heart.”

Niko didn’t tell Artti purposefully that he meant the love of his life. The following days, he tried to keep it a secret. He hoped that not a single soul would notice. Keeping this little secret made him smile often. If Valentin Foubert or Roman Koudelka asked the reason of his happiness, he answered that the thought of being loved made him smile. They knew that Artti was his special person so, they just wished him more happiness. This way a big rock fell off his heart every day.

Unfortunately, during the weekend, Niko had to see Artti broke down again. He messed up his second competition jump. He fell from 7th to 18th. It broke Niko’s heart seeing his love cry. Artti started to think that the problems were with him. Normally, he would have been satisfied. Not that day. He knew that he messed up and lost a place on the podium. Niko tried to cheer his love up but Artti was inconsolable. Niko hugged him and stayed by his side. Artti looked up with tears his eyes. Little did he know that he would have a chance again.

A few days later, in Engelberg, Artti almost put a lot of pressure on himself. Niko lifted the weight from his shoulder. He kindly asked his love to take a deep breath and focus on his jumps. He didn’t want Artti to fall into a deep spiral. Artti finally listened to his love and did as he was asked to do so. Artti shot a faint smile and they started training together. Niko tried to take Artti’s mind away from his worries hoping that it would pay off. Before their qualification jumps, Niko pulled Artti away from the others and had a little pep talk with him. He looked deep in his love’s eyes and said with confidence:

“Just do it like we did at training. Please take a deep breath and focus on the good before you jump. Don’t let your worries overshadow your thoughts.” Niko started his little talk, “We both know that you are capable of it. Maybe this is your time. Don’t let it vanish. Be my Christmas miracle. I know that it is hidden deeply in you. Now, please shine bright, my little star.”

With that, Niko kissed Artti’s forehead and went to do his jump. Although, he didn’t make it to the competition, he focused on his boyfriend. He didn’t know how his words worked for his love. Soon, he got a part of the answer. The Finn’s words worked like some kind of magic on the Estonian. Artti finished 2nd at the qualification. Artti felt himself again and was optimistic. Niko saw the hope in his eyes. They went back to the accommodation together. Artti had his signature smile on his face after a long time. Niko was pleased to see his boyfriend in a cheerful mood. For a small moment, he looked up and saw the shooting star again.

“Artti, quick! Look up!”

“Oh?” the Estonian gasped.

“Wish something.”

Artti listened, kissed his partner and promised to tell Niko once it turns to reality. The Estonian ski jumper was delighted to share a magical and romantic moment with his love. They were little children at heart. This was the reason why Niko hoped in a little Christmas magic. Maybe it still existed in this world. Before their dinner at 8 pm, Artti asked his boyfriend if they could go on a small walk. He wanted to see the Christmas lights and the market of the Swiss village. Niko asked their trainers if they were okay with their little program. They nodded and wished them a good time.

Niko and Artti walked through Engelberg as it was snowing. The snow was crunching under their feet. They checked the tiny Christmas market. As time passed, the Estonian started to get cold. So, Niko got a cup of hot chocolate for them. He chose a pure chocolate one for himself and a vanilla flavoured one for Artti to warm him up. They sat down on a bench near the ice skating rink to enjoy their little free time. As they were drinking their little treat, Artti asked Niko if his wish from Titisee came true. It took Niko by complete surprise as he totally forgot about it. He shook his head and said:

“Unfortunately, no. I wonder if it ever will.”

“Maybe tomorrow, it will.” Artti grinned, “Also, thank you for the hot chocolate.”

“Maybe. I am glad that you love it.” Niko sighed as he thought of his wish. Did the Christmas miracle really exist?

“What’s wrong?”

“Oh… Nothing… I was just deep in my thoughts.”

“That’s okay. I am just happy that we are together,” Artti admitted and took a sip from his drink, “You know what? I let go that I have to win a competition. It has put a lot of pressure on me. Maybe it would help with my performance. I realised at the qualification that I made a big mistake.”

“You have just grown in my eyes. I am proud of you.”

“It means a lot,” Artti told his love, “I am so grateful to have you in my life. I am gonna support you the same way as you do me.”

“Thank you…” Niko hugged his love and checked his phone, “It’s 7:30 pm. Don’t we have go?”

“Right. We don’t want to miss dinner.”

They stood up and left for their accommodation. They shared the dinner with their teams. They chatted and started preparing for the night. After their quick showers, Artti and Niko decided to watch an episode of their favourite TV series. The Estonian put his head on the Finn’s chest listening to his heartbeat. Although, Artti dozed off shortly after 10 pm to wake up in time. On the other hand, Niko’s thoughts raced. It seemed that Artti’s worry found him. He couldn’t fall asleep until midnight.

The competition day arrived. Finn wake up around 7 am. Just a tiny bit later than their usual. He saw Artti being angry at something or someone. He was a little grumpy as he was awoken by a sound. He, however, didn’t channel his anger on Niko. Instead of asked his love if he slept well. Niko nodded and yawned as he was getting dressed. Artti followed suit. As they were getting ready, the Finn asked what the matter was. Artti answered that he was awoken by Karl Geiger’s laughter. It pissed him off as he had been awoken from a nice dream. He quickly shrugged it off. Artti decided that it wasn’t worth it to worry about it. He wanted to focus on the competition.

A little time later, Artti suggested to have breakfast and a coffee together to help him to calm down. They rushed to the breakfast hall. They ate together Niko even brought Artti a cup of coffee to wake up. When they finished their meals, they rushed to get on the ride to the hill together. Once there, Artti started training. Niko told him his plan. He decided that the best was probably to stay around the leader box. Artti gave him a hug.

“Good luck. You can do it,” Niko smiled and hugged Artti, “Now, shine bright, my little star.”

“Thank you,” Artti smirked and went to do his job.

Niko started to worry. He knew well that Artti might relapse if something didn’t go his way. So, he stopped. He didn’t want to let Artti seeing his worry. Like always, history repeated itself. The competition’s first round went well for Artti. He reached a solid 5th place. He had a chance again to be on the podium. Niko knew that he had to talk to him. He quickly walked Artti to give some comforting words just in case. The Finn asked the Estonian if he needed some before his second jump. Artti politely refused and went on his way.

The second round had started. Niko’s anxiety rose by each jump. When Artti was about to jump, he had to take deep breaths calm down. Artti didn’t mess up his jump. He took the lead and had to go to the suit control. Thankfully, he passed the check and had to wait. The first two jumpers were easy to handle as they were a point away from him. The last two were tougher. One of them was Karl Geiger. Not even 5 minutes later, he secured the podium spot. Shortly after only Karl was left to jump. Artti knew that he had no chance. He was already happy with his new personal best. He thought that he would be second. While he was packing, Niko was looking up and he was packing his stuff. To his everyone’s and his biggest surprise, the German landed shortly before the green line in Simon Ammann’s style. Niko waited for the results. All of the sudden, a quite loud disappointed roar pierced his ears. Karl lost the victory by a teeny tiny margin. He needed half of a meter. He rushed to Artti who didn’t know what had just happened.

“You won, my love… you won!” Niko exclaimed, picked Artti up and started spinning around with him in his arms.

“Whaaaaaaaat?” he asked with disbelief in his voice

“My wish! It came true. You won. Karl messed it up a little.”

Tears were forming in his eyes. Artti didn’t want to believe his ears. It wasn’t about winning a competition. He didn’t believe it for a moment because of what he had feared. Quickly, Artti realised. His wish also came true. Previously, he had feared of not sharing the winning moment with Niko. When they had seen the shooting star, he had wished for a tiny thing. He wished for sharing the special moments with his love. He wished for wonderful memories. Together. Memories with his beloved that couldn't be taken away from anyone. Maybe it was the Christmas miracle he had been waiting for. Maybe it was magic but… With being wrapped in Niko’s arms celebrating his first victory was just the beginning.

#wss2024 #so nice #ski jumping

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