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I’m putting it out in the universe:

✨I will be my goal weight by summer. Losing weight will be so easy because I am disciplined. I love restricting because I see the scale lower every day. My quality of life is better when I’m thinner. Everyone will notice my hard work in a short few months. ✨

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Things i’m looking forward to:

🖤wearing a bikini

🖤not looking fat in group photos

🖤doctors asking how I lost all the weight

🖤being the thinnest one in my friend group

🖤sweating less

🖤being able to be picked up by people

🖤looking small in oversized clothes

🖤fitting in size S easily

🖤no rolls

🖤being able to post full-body pictures without feeling gross

🖤posting more pics of myself in general

🖤wearing tight clothes without worrying about how I look

🖤wearing cute dresses and outfits i like

🖤not having to worry when i eat that people are judging the fat girl for eating

🖤my friends and family being impressed with my weight loss

🖤people wanting me to eat cause i’m small rather than judging me for eating cause i’m big

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posting this here to hold myself accountable, this is the third day in a row i ate like this smh

scared to gain again

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my friend just asked me to get lunch from the dining hall and i said yes because i haven’t seen her in a little while. do i play it off and say it not hungry or do i get food and keep it low cal?

i hate making these decisions.

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i was really good all of last week, fasted most of the week and wasn’t craving anything too bad. this weekend i kinda fucked it up so i’m hoping that 1) i don’t gain too much & 2) im able to get back track as soon as possible.

need some motivation & tips right now, please help<3

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today is lepreCON at my college, so basically an all day drinking fest.

i want to participate but all i can think about is the amount of calories in the drinks & how bad i’ll feel if i drunkenly eat something. i’ve been so good this week i don’t want it to end.

AND i heard alcohol consumption can stop your body from working off cals for up to 36 HOURS.

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idk if it’s just me but when i stop eating, my overthinking goes away (somewhat).

not about food, but about life. i haven’t been stressing about whether people like me, or whether i’m saying the right thing all the time because i don’t have the energy.

it’s actually so nice…

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serious question. will i lose more weight if i,

-completely fast. don’t eat for a few days have a few hundred cals here and there every other/every few days.

or

-follow the abc diet or any other diet like it

please lmk

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Sex is ok but have you ever been complimented on your weight loss

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yesterday i fell back into my old routine and it was WAY too easy, which i’m not complaining about. i just feel like it’s gonna be very easy to fall back out of it again.

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resurrecting this account after a few months, except now i’ve got more trauma to motivate me so that’s cool

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unfortunately 😪

reblog if u fuckin LOVE potatoes

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i started to black out when i was in the shower earlier and that hasn’t happened to me since march. it’s honestly terrifying and always gives me a panic attack resulting in me not being able to see, hear OR breathe (a fun lil trio). in a sad way though i’m happy that it happened bc it makes me feel like i’m doing something right:/

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why does it take so long to get skinny it’s boring and when i’m bored i eat 😐

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i’m so tempted to doordash food to my dorm rn someone come knock my phone out of my hand plz

update: i did order some food but i’m starting my next fast tmr so we are going to hope that helps with the guilt

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so i got up this morning and went to class, got a small lunch afterward, and walked around campus so i’d feel better about it but then i realized i wasn’t wearing my FUCKING. FITBIT.

charged it last night and forgot to put it on again this morning…rip

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about to break my current 35 hour fast for a 460 cal poke bowl. i haven’t even eaten yet and i alr hate myself…oops