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So, I wanted to make this post for a while now. There is some issues I have to address in this post! I’ll be all over the place to be exact.

1. I just wanted to talk about my issues. I know I do post some really triggering or upsetting things that are just ooc things. I do have severe depression and anxiety. Sometimes it’s really hard for me to manage, and that also includes BPD. I get super self conscious, I dissociate a lot, I stress out a lot and I always feel as if I’m not good enough. Sometimes I just want to stop breathing and just leave for good. I feel like absolute shit sometimes and I’m filled with absolute guilt after making you guys care about me. I feel selfish as if I’m just using your words to fuel me. I really am trying to not post ooc things or really upsetting often so I don’t hurt anyone’s feelings or make them worry about me. I appreciate all of you and I just want you all to know I do cherish all the words you give me and I love each and every one of you. This website is amazing, where I can socalize and have fun with some friends. So this is just an apology for just being a bit spacey these past few days!!

2. Uh, this isn’t super serious!! But now I will be preferring he/him/they/them pronouns!! So yeah. I hope you guys all have a good night!!

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Hi

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So, I wanted to make this post for a while now. There is some issues I have to address in this post! I’ll be all over the place to be exact.

1. I just wanted to talk about my issues. I know I do post some really triggering or upsetting things that are just ooc things. I do have severe depression and anxiety. Sometimes it’s really hard for me to manage, and that also includes BPD. I get super self conscious, I dissociate a lot, I stress out a lot and I always feel as if I’m not good enough. Sometimes I just want to stop breathing and just leave for good. I feel like absolute shit sometimes and I’m filled with absolute guilt after making you guys care about me. I feel selfish as if I’m just using your words to fuel me. I really am trying to not post ooc things or really upsetting often so I don’t hurt anyone’s feelings or make them worry about me. I appreciate all of you and I just want you all to know I do cherish all the words you give me and I love each and every one of you. This website is amazing, where I can socalize and have fun with some friends. So this is just an apology for just being a bit spacey these past few days!!

2. Uh, this isn’t super serious!! But now I will be preferring he/him/they/them pronouns!! So yeah. I hope you guys all have a good night!!

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this is making me sick even by writing it. it hurts to ask again but i have to try anyway.

if anyone follows me on @absrbs, you know that there was an issue with money revolving a mistake that my roommate made & it almost caused a lot of issues. he screwed up with the money that myself & my boyfriend (who is my third roommate) gave him and it got lost. we had to come up with more money to make sure that our rent was handled, but it caused some other issues.

those were settled, with the help of a lot of folk on here, we thought all was fine. until my landlord just emailed us & gave us this ultimatum. my boyfriend & i have no fucking clue what’s going on and it’s pissing us off because this is the second issue within a month… and, on top of that, apparently this isn’t my roommates first lapse when it comes to rent payment.

i don’t get paid until next thursday, my boyfriend gets paid next wednesday & the fuck up doesn’t get paid until next friday, which makes it ten times worse because this is his fucking fault. my boyfriend has $175, my roommate has $200, and i only had $100. my mom gave me $150 and that was a crunch for her. that’s, unfortunately, only $625 out of the $1200 needed. my roommate is scrambling to fix his shit and my boyfriend is trying to see what he can do. but i have no one else to ask and i can’t believe this bullshit is happening again.

i can only ask & see if anyone could help out. i’m ready to move out because this is ridiculous. i’m tired of the chaos in my life. when i think things are okay, shit like this happens. i shouldn’t be twenty-six fucking years old & struggling like this, especially when it’s not my damn fault. i’m sorry… i’m just stressed. i can make icons, i can make graphics as best as i can, i can sing, i can do whatever. i just would really appreciate some assistance, if you find it within your heart to do so. you don’t know how much it would mean to me. if you can’t, a simple reblog will mean more than you could possibly imagine. i just… yeah.

my paypal link is here. seriously, thank you from the bottom of my heart. i’m going to go drink myself into oblivion now while i figure out what to do next.

- Judas.

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Happy valentine

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Which one?

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You fucking idiot ‘hands crossed’ U MEAN ARMS CROSSED

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I'm gonna continue my starters tomorrow but ,,, pls ignore this

STARTERS :

@jocktm

@smaraa

@vowet

@shootcool

@howlgrief

@spreadstruth

@zhumer 

@bratsitter

ASKS :

@notlikepapa

@fangsgraced

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BLOOD ! Is what gathers around in the alley way. The carcasses surround them. A TWITCH ! Boot crushes, blood squishes under her. Following the girl with blonde hair, arms crossed, she isn’t uncomfortable, just CURIOUS. 

“Dead rats?” 

“ Cool.”

@mcreadies / CALL.

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A GIRL In a bright blue dress, a glass heel is what she is wearing, brown curls fall at her shoulder. Kali watches curiously from the woods. Suddenly a handsome prince appears before the girl ! He moves in Kali’s dance, but reaching for the girl he fades ! ( This is what YOU want don’t you, Cinderella ? )

The girl finally approaches confidently. 

“Do you miss the ball, Cinderella ? Is this what you wanted ?”

@madepossible / CALL.

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can u believe I made 2 starters already

next one is for @mcreadies

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“ Nancy. . .  isn’t it ?? I’ve heard some things about you.” the words slip out of her mouth so carefully, as she takes a step closer to the girl. ( —— is that a new blood stain, kali ? ) EYEING THE GIRL CAREFULLY, the bright outfit, hands are held together TIGHTLY, Kali takes a gentle step back.

“ I promise I won’t bite.”

@screwcool​ / CALL.

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“HENRY BOWERS, right ? ” a voice comes from down the alley way, the blood on her jacket is dry, a solemn expression crosses dark features. Her eyes are dark, almost midnight dark. The kind of dark at night in your room. Or the dark of the abyss. As you stare into it, it stares back. Quick eye movements ! She notices the pocket knife. GOOD GOD BOWERS !! Killing your own FATHER ? She senses the GUILT. A shadow casts over her, so she remains hidden. 

“I’ve heard a lot about you.”

 @knifegifted / CALL.

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I rly wanna make a IC chat on rabb.it or something

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I don’t want to lose you.