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IGOR IS OFFICIALLY MOVED TO A SIDEBLOG:  silverlozhka.                                    follow backs come from ainthero.  

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IGOR IS OFFICIALLY MOVED TO A SIDEBLOG:  silverlozhka.                                    follow backs come from ainthero.  

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IGOR IS OFFICIALLY MOVED TO A SIDEBLOG:  silverlozhka.                                    follow backs come from ainthero.  

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IGOR IS OFFICIALLY MOVED TO A SIDEBLOG:  silverlozhka.                                    follow backs come from ainthero.  

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IGOR IS OFFICIALLY MOVED TO A SIDEBLOG:  silverlozhka.                                    follow backs come from ainthero.  

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my boyfriend is washing the dishes and I just heard him say "who do you work for? who's your contact???“ while repeatedly pushing a glass under water

at least he's having fun???

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wow i’m actually online....

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me: oH MY GOD YAAAAAS LETS PLOT IM SO EXCITED them: haha sure me: 

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     ———–         it’s hard to resist a bad boy who is also a good man.

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they’re the failing letters of the dull neon sign, outside the motel, on the state road, that lost relevance. […]  they can hear the spasms of the N and the top half of the second C of the 𝐍𝐎𝐕𝐀𝐄𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘 sign’s 𝙸𝙽𝚃𝙴𝚁𝙼𝙸𝚃𝚃𝙴𝙽𝚃 𝙱𝚄𝚉𝚉 against the distant traffic¹s roar as they vainly try to light, occasionally flaring disturbingly, like my thoughts, before the first good jolt of caffeine kicks in.                         - exerpt of  vacancy by tony gruenewald.

                       a multi muse account.  ———-     developed by jay.                                                     personals please don’t interact, thanks.

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dads will see their kids and be like “is anyone gonna emotionally damage that” and not wait for an answer

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with all due respect--which is none--

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this fucker…

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talk about that moment igor knew he had to kill stas in order to stop him. what was that moment like? was it a difficult decision given their history or was it easier to accept because of what he's done? talk about your bby @ us thanks

I’m going to start off by saying,    wow how dare you,   but also thank you,  I love you, I can always count on you.

and the second thing,  I’m leading with is that the show didn’t really give us much to go on with it, but judging from the first episode, they were relatively close. igor of course ends up proposing to his sister, lera so that kinda gave me the sense that they’d known each other for a long time.  they said since school but i’m thinking igor never went to university because the law degree he does have was bought by his father, vladimir.   so I’m going right here and saying they’ve known each other for probably 20 years.

I want to say it was shortly after his mother died because igor was no longer home-schooled after that,  his father mostly just sent him to school and hired people to take care of him-----  he’s a very absent father and when he’s there it’s not exactly the best relationship verbally or physically,  he usually just threw money at igor,  just basically used his money to  ‘ parent ‘  him.  it definitely unironically led igor down that self-destructive path he was on, while he did have a choice, he chose a bad one.  I also don’t think though that he let it escalate too far,  in which it was probably him being the voice of reason for stas unless that day he was feel particularly destructive.  but stas was definitely the wilder of the two of them,  I’m thinking they also had a reputation of being the two guys in school you don’t mess with:    aka the popular rich kids. it was very, and is very much as the richest people have the most say in things,  and while igor himself wasn’t rich,  nor stas or lera,  they were the children of oligarchs,   both stas and igor set to inherit whatever their parents riches were.

anyways unbeknowst to igor, stas had his own issues with drugs, that started in the equivalent to high school. he didn’t know about it until recently just before his father forced igor onto the police force.  of course it started off with small things,  weed mostly because that’s about as far as igor had gone.  there was a night where igor did in fact get caught up in it. it was a night in high school, where stas took igor to   ‘ a party ‘  while igor is fine with drinking and weed and naked girls,  the whole stronger drug perspective was not on his idea of fun.  he ended up giving into peer pressure and snorting cocaine,  the reaction he had to it wasn’t exactly positive.  he didn’t like the way it made him feel or think, so drugs had never really been something that igor wanted to dive into.   stas, of course had other ideas.  igor could put up with it to a degree,   he loved stas and he loved lera but the pair of them were not good for his health in any shape or form.

igors belief had always been that weak drugs lead to strong drugs, to stronger drugs like heroin that can consume your life,  it’s why he drew the line for himself at weed---  knew that if anything wild happened,  it wouldn’t be because he was trying desperately to get a fix.  there was also a part of him that cared slightly about his fathers reputation,  about his own reputation. it’s seen in season one episode one,  stats pulling out pills right in the middle of the club and igor trying to shut it down,  he fails at it because he knows it’s pointless to try and stop him.    LATER ON IN THE EPISODE HOWEVER,   igor gets set up by the police in a heroin and drug den,  witnessed someone overdosed on the couch.    it doesn’t take long to shape igor up and its something he envisioned happening to stas if he didn’t stop.

once igor is on the police force he makes stas promise to stop the drugs:     a little perspective,    stas is not a good friend.  the night where stas pulled drugs out in the middle of the club, stas ended up getting pulled over by the police, the very same ones that igor ends up forced into working with them.   in some effort to help,  igor tries to bribe them because honestly it’s all he’s known his entire life by his father,   have a problem, need something fixed,  throw money at it. it doesn’t work and igor ends up attacking them because well he was drunk and the urge he had to get his friend out of trouble was stronger than his voice of reason.   lera contacts him after, mostly at igors prompting and she gets back to him because she’s marrying him.  stas made no move to contact igor back and just completely acted like igor didn’t exist.  which   eh   /:       [ I didn’t like stas from the moment I saw him,   I’m like he’s a douchebag and I already know this is going to end so poorly ]

anyways, farther into the episode  after igor makes stas promise not to do drugs anymore because of that set up scare to try and get igor kicked off the force.  igor storms off and leaves lera and stas at the club.   the next day,  igr goes with zhenia, danila and vika to a crime scene where a nine year old girl was killed in a hit and run.  and what does igor find at the crime scene but a piece of stas’s license plate.   he goes straight to stas and confronts him about what he did after the club and told him not to do anymore drugs.  they go to his car and there is blood on it,    ie this gifset.   igor is furious. lera is stupid because she insists they get the car cleaned and detailed and try to cover it up and igor just,  the dead look he gives her is whew.   he tells her he’s never seen her before until now and wow it hits home.  he technically wasn’t  ‘ in love ‘ with her but there was a part of him that did love her, and to have her only want to protect her brother and not care about the girl who lost her life was yet another eye-opener for him.   so he ignores that and tells stas he has two hours to turn himself in or he’ll do it himself.

and i think it’s a big development compared to before, and how just a few hours seeing the death of the little girl just triggered something in him.  igor ends up turning stas in because he doesn’t do it himself.  lera calls of the engagement by throwing the rings at igor.  after that he lost contact from them for a while.  lera just hated that he became a policeman.   and stas fell deeper into the drugs. he got really bad and when i say i mean he went through kidnapping someone and blackmailing his own sister for money just to get a fix.  they found him but it was too late and he appeared to have died of an overdose of injected heroin. despite the distance, he put between himself and stas, despite their issues, he felt deep sorrow and regret that he didn’t try to do anything more, but what they always say:   you can’t help someone who doesn’t want to be helped and stas was one of those people.

in season 2, we find out that stas didn’t actually die, he was just sent to  montenegro for ‘ healing ‘  however,  he doesn’t at all wean himself off the drugs, in fact,  he moved from heroin to other drugs,    I’m thinking meth or pcp because he is essentially crazy in season 2.  his only goal in season is to torment igor and eventually kill him.  so stas plants a bomb on igors car, does go after  and threatens anyone who even remotely comes close to igor.   he kills someone who was helping igor simply because she knew igor.  he threatened,  katya and vika  (both women he loves). it’s generally a miserable time on that front,  igor does his best to handle it himself, to try and talk stas down from whatever he was trying but the minute someone physically died was when he knew he couldn’t keep it to himself anymore. it took him a little before he finally accepted help and told the police lieutenant,  who of unknown to igors knowledge was having stas killed.   stas escapes and as a result of it vikas fiance danila, who is also the father of her baby gets killed because he was driving igors car. after that all bets are off,  they find him and danilas and igors friend zhenia,  vika and igor all shoot him.

a lot of things were running through igors mind because he mourned stas, when he thought he was dead.  and despite everything they had been through, he still cared about stas, still hated the fact that he turned into this monster,  that he couldn’t save him,   and stas couldn’t save himself.   there is also a part of him who accepted it,   hated stas for hurting vika.  for killing danila, a man who they had a rocky start, but he had so much respect for danila.  and stas just had to be stopped,  there was no way around it,   he had to be killed or it would never end. by the end of it all he was so angry at stas that shooting him felt right.   igor has only had a had in killing two people,  and stas was the second.  he felt peace once stas was dead,  then again, even though he felt sadness for this moment, he knew that stas had died after that overdose, at least to him,   stas was already dead.

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Мажор 2 Сезон 4 серия .  just remember you have beautiful eyes.

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… my mother’s voice, flapping in my blood: If you need to run, run.

Eugenia Leigh, from “The Morning I Abandoned My Father, Angels,” Blood, Sparrows and Sparrows (via lifeinpoetry)

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I want more things with igor, interact with this post and I'll come to you.