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I got some very good news medically (this cancer is going to be SUPER treatable, I have the best possible markers!) and I recovered well enough that I was able to go see GQUX last night so I think things are looking up! quick update <3

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cw: medical details, depressing, this is not a good post

so if you’re wondering why I’ve gone really silent on social media everywhere including bluesky, I’m dealing with some big problems right now and there’s no nice way to say this.

I have cancer.

I’m lucky in that it got caught surprisingly early in the spread because the second tumor pressed against my spinal cord in a way that sent me to an emergency MRI and then emergency spinal surgery to get part of my sacrum (and the tumor) removed, all my genetic markers for treatment are the good ones, and I have so many local friends and family supporting me. The doctors have been using the word “curable” and not just “treatable” since I woke up from getting part of my spine taken out. But.

But.

I’m sick, in pain, recovering from a very difficult surgery, drained from having to talk about this everywhere because talking about it is hard but letting people just plain not know feels even worse, I’m having the worst anxiety of my life while I wait to find out what exactly my treatment plan is going to look like, I feel guilty for thoroughly triggering people because this is so scary (and I’m also still dealing with the loss of my aunt about a year ago from cancer too so aaaaa), and if that weren’t enough, every time I go anywhere online I am at constant risk of having even more bad news shoved in my face.

I know it’s selfish of me to want to pretend other bad things aren’t happening, but god, there is only so much I can handle and I’m using about 190% of my ability to cope just waking up in the morning. I’ve never felt more overwhelmed just existing and there’s so much more “being brave” to go and I don’t know how I’m going to handle it.

I haven’t even known about this for two weeks and it still feels fake. Like I’m about to start a classic LJ era faked cancer scare. Except unfortunately this is happening and the constant pain I am in is here to let me know about it.

I’m sorry to overshare so much, but well… I have to get this out publicly somewhere and tumblr feels like a place I can do it safely without being overwhelmed.

If you got this far, thank you for reading and I’m sorry for making such a depressing post.

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And yang continues to be the hottest character in logh

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I love how varied and universally weird the circumstances for making lifelong friendships are. Here's this guy I accidentally messaged once and I could not imagine my life without them now. Here's this girl I was so scared of when I met her, I would kill for her and remind her to rest on the regular. Here's this other guy we have so much in common we used to joke we were the same person in different timelines. It took us years to meet in person and I attended his wedding. There are also people who entered my life in absolutely unremarkable ways but changed it forever for the better. It's wonderful how easy it is to find people to love.

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Hello! First of all thank you for your wig seller master list post. It has been absolutely invaluable and introduced me to quite a few suppliers I’d never heard of. One issue!… I’ve fallen in love with a wig from cyperous… and I live nowhere near Japan. So I wondering if you have any advice/resources you could point me towards in regards to ordering wigs (specifically from Cyperous and Classe?) through a shopping service and if there’s anything in particular I should be aware of?

thank you so much!

Oh man, glad to help (?)

You can use services like From Japan, Japan Rabbit, and Buyee to handle buying wigs. Each site has its own tutorial but basically you tell them what to buy, they get the package, you pay fees and second shipping, they ship to you.

I do this a lot because UNFORTUNATELY Classe’s build model has my exact measurements and the comfort for me is unparalleled

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I referred to something as a "real Darmok and Jalad at Tanagra moment" in conversation with someone who has never seen TNG, and let me tell you, that was a real Darmok and Jalad at Tanagra moment

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got this truly incredible delivery confirmation pic taken through the glass door tonight (cropped to hide personal info)

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what if venusaur with tiny rainfrog ass

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"He would not fucking say that" --Reinhard von Lohengramm

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Everyone needs to watch Zenshu (episode 3 just dropped!) or else I risked damaging this real Dio Brando genga for nothing

Thank you to @fabrickind for taking these pics and helping pose me because I sure couldn’t see anything behind that wig!

seriously though I can’t recommend Zenshu enough, even though we’re only three episodes in. yes it’s an isekai yes I’m a notorious (modern style) isekai hater yes I haven’t been as insane for an anime original since Brave Bang Bravern. ooooo you all want to watch the show about creative burnout and anime history starring a prickly adult female lead character I know you want to watch it so bad

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weeeeeeeird science (ooo)

gotta remake some parts of this for reasons but I got to debut Lucca Chrono Trigger at Anime Los Angeles and y’all I haven’t had this much fun in ages. I wasn’t ready for how many Chrono Trigger fans we’d find, nor how much I enjoyed wearing this costume! It was fully worth the helmet bruise (that is the reason the helmet is getting remade)

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i have a rare form of synesthesia where i can hear music

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I’m crunching for Anime Los Angeles so here’s three Chrono Trigger wigs I cranked out

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12 - Faithful

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FELT IS THE WARMEST PLACE TO HIDE