siffleur
siffleur
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sometimes i think i'm a different kind of monster. unfit for life, unfit for death ; somewhere in-between and nowhere at all. ind. vampire original character, based on various vampire lores, written by marta. for more info please read the rules and the dossier.
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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iā€™ve said it over merlin already, but iā€™m gonna slowly work my way back into rp world. iā€™ve been just doing blog maintenance for now, and iā€™m gonna be doing the same for here when iā€™m back, but my vampire baby is not gonna disappear.
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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like this for a thing. Ā might be slow because iā€™m a moron.
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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servingliesā€Œ:
guys, sorry for a bit of delay again, but honestly a) i had a wedding this weekend b) iā€™m trying to handle my own health and set my god awful hospital stay date which i apparently need, so thatā€™s a whole thing.
#i'll be active tomorrow after i'm back from the doctor's and uni #bc they fucked up our grades in the system somehow??? lmao #whatever rly #i will be back to write the rest of the starters and also memes
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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like this for a thing. Ā might be slow because iā€™m a moron.
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like this for a thing. Ā might be slow because iā€™m a moron.
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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i just want to say i really love cecilā€™s pride icon thanks.
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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there really should be what we do in the shadows blogs and iā€™m not being dramatic, iā€™m being perfectly reasonable as itā€™s the one true vampire fandom. especially that cecil also (usually) lives in nyc.
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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Dark greetings of the night to all members of the Vampiric Council.
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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very big side note, but idk why no one told me that the what we do in the shadows spin-off show was already out. best movie, great tv show, i put it on when i was drawing for my design class. truly the best vampiric universe and a big inspiration.
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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ahhh guys, i honestly actually have muse after all this time and for both of my blogs, but finals are coming and this very week my after effects decided to fuck up and corrupt a part of my animation, and to those of you who know how long this shit takes, you may feel why iā€™m just here freaking out.
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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iā€™m off the hiatus and trying to get back to writing, slowly, soĀ  SEND ME MEMES !!
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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āœ§Ā  Ā  Ā CRIMSONĀ  Ā  Ā PEAKĀ  Ā  Ā SENTENCEĀ  Ā  Ā PROMPTSĀ  Ā Ā !Ā  Ā 
* Ā A MIXTURE OF CRIMSON PEAK PROMPTS , TRIGGERS MAY APPLY , CHANGE ANY PRONOUNS AS NEEDED .
ā They take the heat from the sun, and when it deserts them, they die. āž
ā Theyā€™re dying.Ā  āž
ā Youā€™re monsters. Both of you! āž
ā Itā€™s a world of everything dying and eating each other right beneath our feet. āž
ā Surely thereā€™s more to it than that. āž
ā Beautiful things are fragileā€¦ āž
ā At home we have only black moths. āž
ā Formidable creatures, to be sure, but they lack beauty. āž
ā They thrive on the dark and cold. āž
ā What do they feed on? āž
ā Youā€™re soā€¦ different. āž
ā Ghosts are real, that much I know. Iā€™ve seen them all my lifeā€¦ āž
ā It is a monstrous love and it makes monsters of us all. āž
ā But the horrorā€¦ The horror was for love. āž
ā The things we do for love like this are ugly, mad, full of sweat and regret. Ā āž
ā This love burns you and maims you and twists you inside out. Ā āž
ā There are things that tie them to a place, very much like they do to us. āž
ā Will you still like to know my thoughts? āž
ā The aches that you describe with such earnestness, the pain, the loss. āž
ā In fact, you only seem to know what other writers tell. āž
ā You clearly have not lived it at all. āž
ā Where I come from, ghosts are not to be taken lightly. āž
ā You are nothing but a SPOILED CHILD! āž
ā What do you dream of? A kind man? A pure soul to be redeemed? Perfection? āž
ā I advise you to return to your ghosts and fancies. āž
ā A house as old as this one becomes, in time, a living thing. āž
ā It starts holding onto thingsā€¦ keeping them alive when they shouldnā€™t be. āž
ā Some should never be spoken about again. āž
ā You will stay here, with usā€¦ wonā€™t you? Ā āž
ā A man that feeds off land that others work for him. āž
ā This parasite is perfectly charming and a magnificent dancer. āž
ā I cannot leave you here. āž
ā I find myself thinking about you even at the most inopportune moments of the day. āž
ā I feel as if a link exists between your heart and mine. āž
ā The first time I saw one I was ten years old. āž
ā There were to be no parting kisses. No goodbyes. No last words. āž
ā You lied to me! āž
ā You poisoned me! āž
ā You said you loved me! āž
ā Iā€™ve always closed my eyes to things that made me uncomfortable. āž
ā I donā€™t want to close my eyes. I want to keep them open. āž
ā It makes everything easier. āž
ā I heard you the first time. āž
ā Itā€™s an excellent likeness. āž
ā The more the house sinks, the worse it gets. āž
ā Goodness. How many rooms are there? āž
ā We must do something about it. Ā āž
ā Others that hold onto an emotion. A drive. Loss. Revenge. Or love. āž
ā The spilling of blood. A terrible crime. āž
ā I donā€™t know. Would you like to count them? āž
ā Do we have to do this? Must we? āž
ā She stopped drinking her tea, but I poisoned the porridge. āž
ā Thatā€™s exactly what our mother told us in her last moment. āžĀ  Ā 
ā This is your home now. You have nowhere else to go. āž
ā Perfection has no place in love, [Name]. āž
ā You know precious little of the human heart, or love, or the pain that comes with it. āž
ā I canā€™t. I canā€™t. āž
ā This place is hundreds years old. Souls come and go. āž
ā Some of them are good; some of them badā€¦ āž
ā You insist on describing the torments of love when you know NOTHING about them.Ā āž
ā Iā€™M NOT DONE YET! āž
ā How do you manage this house? āž
ā Actually, Iā€™d rather be Mary Shelly; she died a widow. āž
ā Perfection has no place in love. āž
ā Perhaps we only notice things when the time comes for us to see them. āž
ā In [Country] we bank on effort, not privilege. āž
ā The men at this table, all of us, came up through honest, hard work. āž
ā Well, maybe not all of us. [Name] here is a [Occupation]. Ā āž
ā If thereā€™s one thing I know, itā€™s the importance of the right tool for the job. āž
ā Iā€™m a builder, dear. āž
ā Everyone falls in love, dear, even women. āž
ā There are things that tie them to a place.Ā Ā  āž
ā The marriages were for money, of course. āž
ā You need a measure of bitternessā€¦ Not to be eaten.. āž
ā Nothing gentle ever grows in this land. āž
ā My heart would cease to beat and I would die. āž
ā I wonā€™t stopā€¦ until you kill meā€¦ or I kill you!Ā āž
ā So itā€™s all out in the open. No more secrets! āžĀ Ā 
ā I feel as if a link exists between your heart and mine. And should that link be broken either by distance or by time, then my heart would cease to beat and I would die. āž
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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āœ“Ā  Ā  QUEERĀ  Ā  EYEĀ  Ā  SENTENCEĀ  Ā PROMPTSĀ  Ā !Ā  Ā 
* Ā A MIXTURE OF QUEER EYE PROMPTS , TAKEN FROM SEASON 1 , CHANGE PRONOUNS AS YOU WISH .
ā God forbid you drink something at [Name]ā€™s place.. āž
ā You put a living room where the crack den used to be! Ā āž
ā I see straight people! āž
ā Itā€™s 1984. They want their decorations back. āž
ā My God, itā€™s like a Toys-R-Us crack den. āž
ā Aww, pearl earrings to go with my pearl necklace! āž
ā I need a ritalin smoothie to remember all this. āž
ā I thought they would have made you into some corporate yuppie type.āž
ā Whereā€™d you get this shirt? āž
ā Donā€™t use that kind of language around me. āž
ā See? Everything is better in cashmere. āž
ā Can I call you my bitch? āž
ā Can I put my clothes back on? āž
ā Are you guys going to be offended if you come back and itā€™s likeā€¦ āž
ā What are the other three guys doing back at my house? Ā āž
ā I was just thinking about something.Ā . Ā āž
ā Wow, maybe back up singing isnā€™t such a bad gig after all. āž
ā You only have two pairs of pants! āž
ā I was like, ā€œWhoā€™s the homeless guy stealing the camera?ā€ āž
ā You donā€™t have a complete inventory of all your couture? āž
ā You look like Ben and Jerry Affleck. āž
ā Whatā€™s this, your dreamcatcher? āž
ā Your boyfriend is working on my last gay nerve. āž
ā I could get any gay man to cuff me any day of the week.Ā  āž
ā Now turn, turn, turn to the camera. What were you doing? āž
ā The vagina is leaving the building. āž
ā Do you know what the magic word is? āž
ā You know what, weā€™re laying in a random guyā€™s bed.. āž
ā Thatā€™s gonna shut the party down like a bad ferris wheel. Ā āž
ā I think youā€™ll find itā€™s a better investment in the long run. āž
ā I know all about good blow jobs, and this isnā€™t it. āž
ā No, it was a shithole. Can you say that? Shithole? āž
ā Whoā€™s that much of an idiot that they need a whole guide to beer? āž
ā Life is to short to drink cheap booze. āž
ā One straight man, thatā€™s all it takes, just one dirty straight man. āž
ā Iā€™m feeling my inner Pochantas. āž
ā Heā€™s neurotic and needy. God heā€™s like everyone I date! āž
ā You could put a harness in here. Good times. āž
ā I think heā€™s got something heā€™s not telling you. āž
ā These shoes wonā€™t make me gay? āž
ā Who says there are no gays in the military? Someone designed the outfit. āž
ā Remember when you told me youā€™d make out with me if I got you a flat screen TV? āž
ā I canā€™t believe I asked an ex marine to make a chocolate souffle.. āž
ā He called you pretty boy. Are you going to take that? āž
ā I put in a clear shower curtain. āž
ā Repeat after me - I am worthy of highlights.Ā āž
ā Iā€™ve died and gone to gay-menā€™s heaven. Ā āž
ā Finding the porn is always a heart-felt moment. āž
ā This means I wanna give you a handjob. āž
ā Theyā€™re a little bit like a cheap hotel ā€¦ no ballroom. āž
ā That means I love you in sign language. This means rock and roll. āž
ā You know what this means? Clean your toilet! āž
ā Lions and tigers and bad taste, oh my! āž Ā 
ā You live in a dump like a crazy person. This is freaking me out. āž
ā Iā€™m sorry youā€™re stuck here with these smelly straight folk. āž
ā I think he wrote this book. He wrote this book after living here for a year. āž
ā Were you high? āž
ā Itā€™s like taking a wire hanger from the cleaners and faux-painting it wood. āž
ā When you look at this color, what feeling does it evoke? āž
ā Hereā€™s a tip for you: when buying a velour tracksuit, stop. āž
ā Now does he climb the poles and stuff? āž
ā Now letā€™s go try something new. Letā€™s make out! āž
ā If I didnā€™t know you, Iā€™d try to lure you to a wayside rest area. āž
ā This is my pile of stuff I donā€™t like. Is it getting too big? āž
ā You know, if you donā€™t have a male role model in your life, bad things can happen. āž
ā Are you checking out my ass? āž
ā Thirtyā€™s an important time in your life. Iā€™m looking forward to it. āž
ā Look at all this wood. Itā€™s definitely getting me in the mood. Ā āž
ā Just because you get your hair frosted doesnā€™t mean youā€™re gay. āž
ā I wonā€™t call you a pervert if you wonā€™t call me a big homo. āž
ā Letā€™s not worry about labels. āž
ā Thereā€™s no ā€œIā€ in team. āž
ā They have the best tube socks. Ever. āž
ā Are we really throwing it over? āž
ā Did you break something? āž
ā Donā€™t worry man, I got your back. āž
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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Ā Send for your muse to do one of the following to mine.Ā 
Carries, bridal style.Ā 
Kisses cheek.Ā Ā 
Tickles sides.Ā Ā 
Growls atĀ 
Tackles to the ground.Ā Ā 
Slaps.Ā Ā 
Cries in front of.Ā Ā 
Holds and refuses to let go.Ā Ā 
Protects.Ā Ā 
KICKS.Ā Ā 
Bites.Ā  Ā 
Holds hand.Ā Ā 
Winks at.Ā Ā 
Steals a kiss.Ā Ā 
Dances with.Ā Ā 
stabs.Ā Ā 
Yells at
stares at.Ā Ā 
Sniffs.Ā Ā 
pats head.Ā 
Pins down.Ā Ā 
Blocks their exit.Ā Ā 
Glares at.Ā Ā 
attacks.Ā  Ā 
gives flowers.Ā Ā 
sings to.Ā Ā 
proposes to.Ā Ā 
gazes into their eyes.Ā  Ā Ā 
blushes at.Ā Ā 
asks out on a date.Ā Ā 
breaks up with.Ā Ā 
runs away fromĀ  (flustered)
chases.Ā  Ā 
begs for forgiveness.Ā  Ā 
rejects them.Ā  Ā 
Sneaks up on.Ā Ā 
gets caught following them.Ā Ā 
Hides from
Scares them.Ā Ā 
comforts them.Ā Ā 
headbuttsĀ Ā 
nose boop.Ā Ā 
forehead flick.Ā  Ā 
runs away with.Ā Ā 
shares a treat.Ā Ā 
flirts with.Ā  Ā 
BADLY,Ā  flirts with.Ā Ā 
breaks down in front of them.Ā  Ā 
Cuddles with.Ā Ā 
shoves away.Ā Ā 
pulls in closer.Ā Ā 
leans in to kiss but then stops themselves.Ā  Ā Ā 
Tries to confess their feelings but chickens out.Ā 
reads to them
whispers into their ear
Invades personal space.Ā Ā 
tries to make them laugh.Ā Ā 
apologies to.Ā Ā 
trips them.Ā Ā 
catches them.Ā Ā 
eyes them up and down.Ā Ā 
smirks at
rolls eyes at
playfully shoves.Ā Ā 
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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ā€œĀ  i wish i knew how to talk about it.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  you donā€™t have to talk, we can just sit together.Ā Ā ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  i donā€™t want to be alone anymore.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  i wish i could hate you.Ā  ā€Ā  ā€œĀ  take a seat, weā€™re gonna be here a while.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  i need you to trust me.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  i missed/miss you.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  she/he wonā€™t listen to me.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  let me do this for you. please.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  is there anything else you want to say to me?Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  tell me something happy.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  promise me.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  i just want/wanted to help.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  let me explain.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  i didnā€™t/donā€™t need you to understand, i just wanted/want you to support me.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  iā€™m on your side.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  iā€™ve got your back, okay? ā€ ā€œĀ  please, tell me you have a plan.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  stay with me tonight.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  donā€™t go. please.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  iā€™ve been alone for so long iā€™m afraid i donā€™t know what itā€™s like not to be.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  talk to me.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  i did what i had to do.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  we canā€™t keep going on like this.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ Ā iā€™m just tired.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  iā€™m scared.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  itā€™s okay to be afraid. fear can be good. use it.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  itā€™s better to expect disappointment.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  hope is dangerous.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  i like seeing you smile.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  you look beautiful.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  be patient with her/him. theyā€™re trying.Ā ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  iā€™m trying my best and itā€™s not good enough. itā€™s never good enough. ā€ ā€œĀ  iā€™m starting to think iā€™m just fucked up.Ā  ā€Ā Ā  ā€œĀ  have a drink with me.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  she/he is better off without me. but i guess thatā€™s their choice.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  you canā€™t dictate whatā€™s best for someone else. ā€ ā€œĀ  can i help you?Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  i thought youā€™d like this.Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  do you wanna get out of here?Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  walk with me?Ā  ā€ ā€œĀ  well, shit.Ā  ā€
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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(Ā  Ā  *Ā  Ā  & .Ā  Ā AĀ  MILLIONĀ  LITTLEĀ  THINGSĀ  Ā  /Ā  Ā  SENTENCEĀ  STARTERS .
ā€˜Ā  youĀ  mightĀ  notĀ  haveĀ  beenĀ  ableĀ  toĀ  saveĀ  them ,Ā  butĀ  youĀ  sureĀ  asĀ  hellĀ  savedĀ  me .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  youĀ  areĀ  notĀ  theĀ  bestĀ  partĀ  ofĀ  myĀ  life ā€¦Ā  youĀ  areĀ  myĀ  life .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  delicious ,Ā  delicious .Ā  thatĀ  manĀ  isĀ  delicious .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  heā€™sĀ  likeĀ  aĀ  chocolateĀ  georgeĀ  clooneyĀ  withĀ  aĀ  caramelĀ  goslingĀ  center .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  lookĀ  atĀ  youĀ  beingĀ  theĀ  biggerĀ  man .Ā  iĀ  mean ,Ā  smallerĀ  biggerĀ  man .Ā  heā€™sĀ  taller .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  iĀ  knowĀ  thisĀ  soundsĀ  crazy ,Ā  butĀ  thatĀ  isĀ  notĀ  theĀ  worstĀ  thingĀ  thatĀ  everĀ  happenedĀ  toĀ  me .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  iā€™mĀ  happierĀ  thanĀ  iā€™veĀ  everĀ  beenĀ  andĀ  iā€™mĀ  notĀ  playingĀ  byĀ  theĀ  rulesĀ  anymore .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  itā€™sĀ  perfectlyĀ  normalĀ  toĀ  changeĀ  yourĀ  shirtĀ  fifteenĀ  timesĀ  beforeĀ  goingĀ  toĀ  playĀ  videoĀ  games .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  youĀ  sayĀ  everythingĀ  happensĀ  forĀ  aĀ  reason .Ā  iĀ  canā€™tĀ  findĀ  aĀ  reasonĀ  forĀ  this .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  itĀ  absolutelyĀ  killsĀ  meĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  wasnā€™tĀ  thereĀ  forĀ  you .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  thatĀ  wasĀ  oneĀ  time .Ā  andĀ  iā€™mĀ  soberĀ  now .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  happyĀ  birthweekĀ  isĀ  notĀ  aĀ  thing .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  iĀ  trulyĀ  believeĀ  everythingĀ  happensĀ  forĀ  aĀ  reason .Ā  theĀ  challengeĀ  inĀ  lifeĀ  isĀ  toĀ  findĀ  thatĀ  reason .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  itā€™sĀ  notĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  wantĀ  toĀ  live .Ā  iĀ  justĀ  donā€™tĀ  wantĀ  toĀ  liveĀ  likeĀ  this .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  iĀ  dareĀ  youĀ  toĀ  goĀ  stealĀ  herĀ  micĀ  andĀ  singĀ  ā€˜ ( insertĀ  songĀ  here ) ā€™Ā .Ā  yourĀ  version ,Ā  wrongĀ  lyricsĀ  andĀ  all .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  iĀ  haveĀ  soĀ  manyĀ  feelingsĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  canā€™tĀ  processĀ  becauseĀ  iā€™mĀ  tooĀ  ashamedĀ  toĀ  admitĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  haveĀ  them .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  whenĀ  iĀ  firstĀ  metĀ  you ,Ā  youĀ  saidĀ  whatĀ  youĀ  neededĀ  wasĀ  aĀ  timeĀ  machine .Ā  whereĀ  wouldĀ  youĀ  goĀ  ifĀ  youĀ  hadĀ  one ?Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  sometimesĀ  iĀ  getĀ  reallyĀ  sadĀ  forĀ  noĀ  reason .Ā  actually ,Ā  aĀ  lotĀ  ofĀ  times .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  iĀ  tried .Ā  iĀ  triedĀ  toĀ  beĀ  theĀ  manĀ  youĀ  taughtĀ  meĀ  toĀ  be .Ā  iĀ  triedĀ  notĀ  toĀ  askĀ  forĀ  help .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  youā€™reĀ  allowedĀ  toĀ  beĀ  angry .Ā  youā€™reĀ  allowedĀ  toĀ  feelĀ  whateverĀ  itĀ  isĀ  thatĀ  youĀ  feel .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  iĀ  canā€™tĀ  doĀ  this .Ā  iĀ  canā€™tĀ  hurtĀ  you .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  ifĀ  youā€™reĀ  inĀ  there ,Ā  canĀ  youĀ  justĀ  knockĀ  threeĀ  timesĀ  please ,Ā  soĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  knowĀ  thatĀ  youā€™reĀ  stillĀ  alive ?Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  listen ,Ā  iā€™mĀ  sorry .Ā  iĀ  tried .Ā  iĀ  canā€™tĀ  notĀ  care .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  notĀ  thatĀ  youĀ  needĀ  myĀ  permission ,Ā  butĀ  youĀ  deserveĀ  toĀ  beĀ  happy .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  youā€™reĀ  right ,Ā  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  knowĀ  whatĀ  iā€™mĀ  talkingĀ  about .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  iĀ  alwaysĀ  thoughtĀ  theĀ  nextĀ  apartmentĀ  iĀ  wouldĀ  rentĀ  wouldĀ  beĀ  forĀ  us .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  iĀ  haveĀ  seenĀ  pornĀ  flicksĀ  withĀ  moreĀ  plotĀ  twistsĀ  thanĀ  yourĀ  loveĀ  life .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  maybeĀ  youĀ  shouldĀ  stopĀ  takingĀ  shotsĀ  atĀ  meĀ  andĀ  getĀ  themĀ  back .Ā  orĀ  isĀ  itĀ  yourĀ  planĀ  toĀ  standĀ  thereĀ  andĀ  doĀ  nothingĀ  andĀ  loseĀ  themĀ  forever ?Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  youā€™reĀ  alwaysĀ  soĀ  fastĀ  toĀ  assumeĀ  thatĀ  itā€™sĀ  myĀ  fault ,Ā  butĀ  guessĀ  what ?Ā  youĀ  donā€™tĀ  know !Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  youĀ  knowĀ  whatĀ  lifeĀ  isĀ  reallyĀ  about ?Ā  friendship .Ā  youĀ  andĀ  me .Ā  rightĀ  here .Ā  yeah ,Ā  us .Ā  thatā€™sĀ  whatĀ  itā€™sĀ  about .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  ofĀ  courseĀ  iā€™mĀ  scared .Ā  iĀ  thoughtĀ  youĀ  ofĀ  allĀ  peopleĀ  couldĀ  understandĀ  that .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  dareĀ  meĀ  toĀ  doĀ  anythingĀ  andĀ  makeĀ  itĀ  reallyĀ  hard .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  iĀ  wasĀ  here ,Ā  dammit ,Ā  untilĀ  iĀ  wasnā€™t .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  youĀ  canā€™tĀ  worryĀ  soĀ  muchĀ  aboutĀ  tomorrowĀ  thatĀ  youĀ  forgetĀ  toĀ  liveĀ  today .Ā  beĀ  here .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  itā€™sĀ  gotĀ  toĀ  beĀ  theĀ  hardestĀ  thingĀ  iĀ  didĀ  inĀ  myĀ  life .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  sometimesĀ  youĀ  canā€™tĀ  doĀ  theĀ  funĀ  thingĀ  ā€“Ā  theĀ  thingĀ  thatĀ  makesĀ  youĀ  happy .Ā  youĀ  haveĀ  toĀ  doĀ  theĀ  rightĀ  thing .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  whateverĀ  weĀ  did ,Ā  whateverĀ  happened ,Ā  weĀ  alsoĀ  createdĀ  aĀ  life .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  howĀ  canĀ  somethingĀ  soĀ  smallĀ  causeĀ  soĀ  muchĀ  pain ?!Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  theĀ  thingĀ  isĀ  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  haveĀ  timeĀ  toĀ  beĀ  angryĀ  becauseĀ  iĀ  haveĀ  toĀ  useĀ  upĀ  allĀ  ofĀ  myĀ  energyĀ  toĀ  makeĀ  sureĀ  thatĀ  heĀ  isĀ  okay .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  youā€™reĀ  notĀ  theĀ  bossĀ  ofĀ  youĀ  anymore .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  slightĀ  problem .Ā  heĀ  foundĀ  theĀ  pregnancyĀ  test .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  justĀ  becauseĀ  youā€™reĀ  scared ,Ā  doesnā€™tĀ  meanĀ  youĀ  shouldnā€™tĀ  doĀ  it .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  thereā€™sĀ  nothingĀ  youĀ  canĀ  sayĀ  toĀ  changeĀ  theĀ  factĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  loveĀ  you .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  thisĀ  isĀ  yourĀ  baby .Ā  itā€™sĀ  just ,Ā  itā€™sĀ  tooĀ  much .Ā  weĀ  hurtĀ  tooĀ  manyĀ  people .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  itā€™sĀ  badĀ  enoughĀ  youĀ  wreckedĀ  yourĀ  marriageĀ  butĀ  donā€™tĀ  tryĀ  toĀ  wreckĀ  mine .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  youĀ  mayĀ  thinkĀ  youĀ  haveĀ  aĀ  bulletproofĀ  relationship ,Ā  butĀ  soĀ  didĀ  i .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  wow ,Ā  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  wantĀ  youĀ  toĀ  takeĀ  thisĀ  theĀ  wrongĀ  way ,Ā  butĀ  iĀ  reallyĀ  wishĀ  youĀ  hadnā€™tĀ  metĀ  me .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  youĀ  donā€™tĀ  getĀ  it .Ā  iĀ  knowĀ  youĀ  thinkĀ  iā€™mĀ  distant .Ā  iĀ  amĀ  justĀ  tryingĀ  toĀ  survive .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  thereā€™sĀ  aĀ  historyĀ  ofĀ  ā€˜ weĀ  donā€™tĀ  talkĀ  aboutĀ  that ā€™Ā  inĀ  myĀ  family .Ā  ā€™
ā€˜Ā  asĀ  badĀ  asĀ  itĀ  seems ,Ā  thereĀ  isĀ  goodĀ  andĀ  youĀ  willĀ  findĀ  it .Ā  iĀ  promise .Ā  ā€™
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siffleur Ā· 6 years ago
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alright, well, iā€™m willing to try this. i cleared out my inbox to start fresh, iā€™ll message some people i just started having things with if they still want me to reply after this time, but overall i guess this is a semi-hiatus now?
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