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I haven’t made much art lolz. I would say I’ve been sewing a doll instead of drawing, but honestly I still haven’t even fully flipped her inside out :(. Now that I look at my account my art is kinda bad! That makes sense since it’s a couple of months old but wowie, it looks messed up XD! I should probably post the only other art I’ve made which is art of my cat being crucified. Anyways I’ve been felling like my art that I make now is really bad, it’s like I’m drawing with my left hand and my eyes closed! I hope that goes away!

Here I present … Sailor Moon Monika!!!!

I love sailor moon!

I’m on episode 35 [?] out of 400 O_o. So far Jupiter is my favorite, I wish I was strong like her even though she’s a magical girl XD. I should probably stop watching it for now because I have 72 overdue assignments >~< XD. It’s really easy to just think about stories for 8 hours straight when you’re online schooled [damn you autism! >:(]. When I was a little kid I used to wish everyday, every hour, that I didn’t have to feel the way I did, and that I could just be friends with the other kids or even get along with teachers [I get I didn’t know how to talk until 5 but that doesn’t mean I’m stupid!]. Something that shocks me a lot is that I am even capable of being creative because I was not so ever as a child. All I ever did was draw my dog in the same way, with the same background, in the same colors, multiple times a day, for years lol, or play Pokémon on my sisters 3DS [Hearth gold is best because of the plants]. I talk too much :(, bye bye! Hope to see you soon!

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OHHH YEAHHHH!!!!! ITS GETTING EPIC NOW!!!!! 😎😼

haaaapy birrrth, dayy, tooo meeey! XD I got an amazing bag to bring my cat Frankie to home depot and to random restaurants ^^ Next week I get my *5* wisdom teeth out because they hurt so much and they punctured through to my sinus, so we have to sew that up >n< also first animation?!? I also got some bite polish so my nails stop getting enveloped into my skin. Anyways I must add my new found (month old) love of kitty from msi, she is so pretty and nice AND super good at drumming!! I love drumming too! See you soon!

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Just took my first bath/shower of the month 😎. Don’t read the next part if you get grossed out by.. uh.. descriptions?

I got nervous when I say the water turn pink when I hopped in the tub but it was just my hair dye XD. The only good thing about not being clean is my hair dye stays twice as long. The amount of dead skin I had to scrape off the tub in the end was scary, it was like little flesh worms ( ⚆ _ ⚆ ). Bathing is normally hard for me because I feel different afterwards, like sticky and dry, it’s weird. This was also the first time I changed this month (please congratulate me it was hard). That’s probably why people where looking weird at me for a while because I wear the same shirt all the time, my family has just been used to it now for the past around 4-5 years. At least my hair isn’t matted into bouncy balls anymore! No wonder I can’t make friends with normal people because I don’t know what to talk about besides my greatest achievements of the month! When I was going to CBT my doctor kept trying to get me to shower like everyday, and I know he meant well but was like he couldn’t comprehend that it was too much to feel different in my skin, yknow? I know my cats are proud of me because they have been smelling me like crazy because I smell like soap now (or at least not like dirty wet dog corn chips XD). I’m so happy I’ve been doing better actually!!!! I remember when I was like 10 I would go much longer with showers and would just wear a big hoodie so that I wouldn’t have to change, and besides that mentally I’ve been much better! CBT is so stressful but it really really helped! I hope it only gets better from here!!

Why is the image so big XD?! Also sorry bot followers for not posting for a month, I’ll update you on some exciting things that happened this month but I got to do my assignments from a couple of days ago (⋟﹏⋞). Hope to see you later!

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Hi Hi! This is my oc Monika! I've been working on her since around 2020. Can you guess what she started out like? She was a horned alien! Its crazy how we develop things we hold dear to us! Her name didn't even start off like that! Anyways, I like to draw drawings a lot, however I feel that most of my art is too cringe to show, even if I'm proud of it. :( I hope that can change and this can serve as a log of my life and feelings, as well as art. I also hope to make friends along the way! ( besides my stuffed animals :D).

Please show Monika some love! Its her favorite thing!

Here is her in scene fashion, egl fashion, and yumikawaii! She normally wears different stuff but I'm trying to take her out of her comfort zone! Tell me if her if you want her in anything else! I've never made a oc sheet if that isn’t obvious. >~< see you soon! X3