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What people think why i became a bookbinder: Oh she wants to explore her artistic horizon with those pretty leather bound books of hers. She even gives them out as gifts to her friends. It most likely helps her with anxiety or maybe she just wanted a more special costume made notebook.

Why I actually became a bookbinder: I just illegally downloaded and printed out several of my favourite fanfics and books and started binding them into books cuz I love reading them but looking at screens for too long gives me headaches.

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Skip Google for Research

As Google has worked to overtake the internet, its search algorithm has not just gotten worse.  It has been designed to prioritize advertisers and popular pages often times excluding pages and content that better matches your search terms 

As a writer in need of information for my stories, I find this unacceptable.  As a proponent of availability of information so the populace can actually educate itself, it is unforgivable.

Below is a concise list of useful research sites compiled by Edward Clark over on Facebook. I was familiar with some, but not all of these.

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Google is so powerful that it “hides” other search systems from us. We just don’t know the existence of most of them. Meanwhile, there are still a huge number of excellent searchers in the world who specialize in books, science, other smart information. Keep a list of sites you never heard of.

www.refseek.com - Academic Resource Search. More than a billion sources: encyclopedia, monographies, magazines.

www.worldcat.org - a search for the contents of 20 thousand worldwide libraries. Find out where lies the nearest rare book you need.

https://link.springer.com - access to more than 10 million scientific documents: books, articles, research protocols.

www.bioline.org.br is a library of scientific bioscience journals published in developing countries.

http://repec.org - volunteers from 102 countries have collected almost 4 million publications on economics and related science.

www.science.gov is an American state search engine on 2200+ scientific sites. More than 200 million articles are indexed.

www.pdfdrive.com is the largest website for free download of books in PDF format. Claiming over 225 million names.

www.base-search.net is one of the most powerful researches on academic studies texts. More than 100 million scientific documents, 70% of them are free

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Oh my gosh. I just found this website that walks you though creating a believable society. It breaks each facet down into individual questions and makes it so simple! It seems really helpful for worldbuilding!

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Help me xD

find out which homestuck kid you are

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The Loss of a Son

Major drama, lots of trauma, and not what you would expect. @memurfevur owns the troll Omnius that is mentioned by name enjoy

Shuska sighed softly, looking down at the picture of her little family in her hands. It was from back when her two older wrigglers had just hatched from their coons, Anvala still a grub in her lap.  Everything had been so sweet back then, so simple. She chuckled and perked up when she heard a door open, a worried chirp in her throat when she noticed the time. Almost midday….

“Serthi? Serthi is that you?” She called out, standing and moving towards the laundry room through her kitchen in hopes of meeting her son before he could sneak off to his part of the apartment. The jade turned a sneer to his mother and pushed past the smaller troll with a soft’ yea it's me get out of the way’ as he did.

Shuska managed to barely catch herself against the counter with wide eyes as she looked after the jade with a scowl on her features. “ ‘cuse me? Ya aint aboot ta knock me over an no’ chat fer a sec!” she quipped angrily, having to clear her throat before she spoke again, Serthi having stopped  in the opening of the hallway. He groaned angrily and whipped around with a snarl on his features “Don’t get in my fucking way when I’m coming through the kitchen then hmm?”  

Shuska crossed her arms and looked up to Serthi wit a mixture of anger and confusion on her features. “What has gotten into ya? Serthi ya used-ta be a sweet wriggler, wha’s with the sudden change in attitude?” she asked curiously, her accent still trying to run away with her tongue as she attempted to push down the anger she had felt in her chest.

“What happened to me? WHAT HAPPENED TO ME?! My life is trapped in a fucking library where I hate everyone and everything around me! I want to be out there where I don’t have to follow a goddamned curfew or else I get a new sphincter chewed into my by a little Scottish cunt!” he snapped suddenly enough for Shuska to need to take a step back, even with the space that was between them. “Serthi you don’t have a curf-“ Serthi was quick to cut the little lime off with a quick step towards her. “yes the fuck I do apparently Shuska! Or else you wouldn’t be waiting to snap at me whenever I get home from a date!”

Shuska was at a loss for words. She hadn’t ever had an issue with Serthi before the drones had been called on them…..was this just a lash out about the whole situation? “Serthi I don’t make you have a curfew. I stay up an worry about’cha because I’m yer lusus!”

The jade rolled his eyes so hard his head tipped with the force in turn. “oh here we go again. You aren’t a fucking lusus, you’re a troll who shouldn’t even fucking be alive because of your color! You should have been a fucking jade if you wanted to help with lusii or grubs, but no you decided to just steal us from our ACTUAL lusii” he growled, pushing Shuska to back up until she was against a cabinet. “I didnae STEAL ya fr’m anything! Ya were LEFT at the library steps and I took you in because I didnae want ya to grow up without a lusus or worse yet not even make it!” she snapped back, screaming when Serthi suddenly launched his hand out from under the thick coat he wore for sun protection to grab her by her throat.

“I should have fucking called those drones sooner than I did. You’re a PARASITE on this planet. You and that freak you made me call a sister for almost 11 fucking sweeps.” He growled lowly, Shuska gripping at his wrist  with wide, fearful eyes. Serthi was a good foot and a half taller than her, and built to match even with how much he ate he never seemed to gain a pound.

“You called the drones on us?” came a soft voice from behind them, Serthi throwing Shuska off towards the sink as he whirled around to see Cerium standing there in her pajamas with wide eyes. “you called the drones on us? You…you think i'm a freak?” she asked again, tears welling in her eyes as she slowly backed away again. No one had known Serthi to be a cruel man. He’d been standoffish yes, even snippy and rude at times, but not cruel like this.

“Serthi what's gotten into you?!” she asked, confusion and sadness in her voice as serthi started to stalk towards her. In his eyes, neither of them should be here anymore, they should have both been taken by the drones and that should have been that! “you know…. Omnius was right. You have to take what you want before people try to fucking walk all over you Cerium….. Doing exactly what you and mom have been doing for fucking sweeps” he growled, pulling a Ruger out of the back waist of his slacks and pointing it directly at Cerium as she screamed.

Shuska had managed to get up and grab a knife from the drying rack without alerting the jade. She saw the gun come out and screamed for Cerium to run as she ran up behind Serthi, stabbing him in the shoulder and causing the gun to go off and break the curtained window at the far side of the living room.

Cerium took no time in following what Shuska said, scrambling towards the door and out into the library's main hall to hide between the shelves as Serthi and Shuska fought. He had dropped his gun and after a rough tussle that left serthi with a gash down his bicep as well as the stab to his shoulder, found himself staring at the barrel with Shuska at the trigger.

“Get out” she whispered, trembling as she stared at the man she had called her child. “put the gun down mo-“

“NO” she shouted, tears welling in her eyes as a sob rips its way through her chest. “No….you. don’t. get. To call me mom anymore” she managed to force out, teeth clenched as she cocked the revolvers hammer “Get. Out.” She repeated a bit louder, Serthi standing slowly and raising his hand as he backed away from the short lime  “alright…..alright i-I’m going….i'm backing away see?” he asked softly, only taking his eyes away from her to figure out where he was and how to grab the door since his dominant hand was currently useless.

Once he was out the door, Shuska took the chance to lock and deadbolt the back entrance that usually was left unlocked so her children could get in quickly during the day. Only once she was sure it couldn’t be opened, even with the key Serthi knew of, did she sit the weapon down on the kitchen counter and fall to her knees sobbing.

He wasn’t her baby boy….

Not anymore….

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World Building

Creating Land

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⥇ agriculture

⟿ what is grown in abundance? how common is farmland? where is the farmland?

⥇ architecture

⟿ what kind of buildings? how tall/spacious? what are they made of? how well made? how well planned?

⥇ animals

⟿ what wild animals are lurking in the area? hunting? any animals affecting the livestock or agriculture?

⥇ biomes

⟿ desert? tundra? grassland? forest? savanna?

⥇ bodies of water

⟿ seas? lake? ponds? rivers? fresh water/salt water? fishing? keep in mind, settlements are often built near bodies of water

⥇ climate

⟿ dry? rainy? temperate? tropical? polar? how have people adjusted to this climate?

⥇ elevation

⟿ altitude? how does the altitude affect lifestyle?

⥇ geology

⟿ rocky? types of rocks?

⥇ landforms

⟿ mountains? valleys? plateaus? plains? hills? glaciers? peninsulas? volcanos? canyons?

⥇ latitude / longitude

⟿ location on planet? how does it affect other elements of land?

⥇ livestock

⟿ common domesticated animals? common animal usages?

⥇ minerals

⟿ any valuable minerals / metals? are they mined regularly? how are they used?

⥇ natural disasters

⟿ earthquake? tornado? volcano? duststorm? flood? hurricane? tsunami? how often do these occur? protocols?

⥇ population

⟿ how many people? how dense is the population? how does the population affect surrounding nature?

⥇ resources

⟿ what is abundant? scarce? how are they used? how available are they?

⥇ sacred land

⟿ religiously important land? historical importance? widely accepted as sacred? how is it honored?

⥇ soil

⟿ good or bad for vegetation? rocky?

⥇ tectonic activity

⟿ earthquake frequency? volcano frequency? trenches?

⥇ topography

⟿ how common are maps? how accurate? how long have they been around? who makes them?

⥇ vegetation

⟿ what is abundant? scarce? what grows easily? with difficulty? what is commonly foraged? who forages? plant types? tree types?

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Types of intelligence for your OCs

What kind of intelligence does your character posses? Based on theory of multiple intelligences, these are some ideas what kind of smarts your characters might posses that aren’t the typical academic or street smarts. 

1. Visual-spatial (space smart)

These people are good at visualizing things, seeing in 3D, being able to imagine how things look even out of sight from the information they have about it. They are good with directions, maps, charts and pictures. Eye for drawing, patterns and puzzles. 

Especially useful for: architects, engineers, artists, pilots

2. Linguistic-verbal (word smart)

The ability to use words well, when writing and speaking. Typical strenghts are telling stories, memorizing information, love for reading, skill with words, debating and persuasive skills, adept at explaining complicated subjects. Also tend to be great at languages. 

Especially useful for: writers, journalists, lawyers, teachers, public speakers

3. Logical (reasoning smart)

Not necessarily but possibly mathematical, these people are great at reasoning, pattern recognition and logical analysis. Enjoyment for abstract thinking and ideas, excellent problem-solving skills and logical argumentation are other common traits. Pattersn, categories, relationships. 

Especially useful for: mathematicians, accountants, scientists, and detectives.

4. Bodily-kinesthetic (body smart)

Great hand-eye cordination, physical movement, often skilled at sports, dancing and creating things with their hands. Learn and remember rather by doing than listening or reading. Sense of timing and mind-body union excellent. 

Especially useful for: dancers, sculptors, actors, athletes, surgeons, crafts people, soldiers, police officers

5. Musical (sound smart)

Sensitive listeners. Thinking in patterns, recognizing rhythms, notes and melodies, good at remembering tunes, these people often enjoy singing or playing instruments. Often show great understanding of musical structure and know quickly when they hear someone going off-key. 

Especially useful for: musical teachers, composers, musicians, 

6. Interpersonal (people smart)

These people are very good at understanding and interacting with others. From verbal to non-verbal communication, they are proficient at assessing motivations, moods and desires of others and seeing things from multiple perspectives. Great communicators, create positive relationships with others easily and solve group dynamics and group conflicts well. Also enjoy discussions, debates and teamwork. 

Especially useful for: psychologists, counselors, salespeople, politicians, philosophers, teachers, managers, team leaders

7. Intrapersonal (self smart)

The opposite of interpersonal smarts is the intrapersonal intelligence, where people are very in tune with themselves and their feelings. They are honest with themselves, enjoy self-reflection, analysing theories and ideals, love daydreaming, and show great self-awareness and assessment of their own strenghts and weaknesses. 

Especially useful for: writers, philosophers, theorits, scientists

Bonus types: 

8. Creative (ideas smart) 

People that show exceptional curiousity, get inspired by little things around them and connect ideas and concepts in an unsual way. It’s a more feeling-based, spontaneous type of intelligence that gets less recognition, but brings immense benefits in all fields. 

Especially useful for: artists, marketers, scientists, concept artists, 

10. Abstract (concept smart)

Drawn to abstract ideas, these people enjoy deep discussions, don’t like to settle on one truth and ask questions that have no easy or no answer at all. Connecting, conceptualizing, analysing, listening and putting things together, they are great at seeing things from a distance, seeing the whole and not just the pieces. 

Especially useful for: scientists, philosophers, researchers, theorists, designers, analysts

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I may write something up with this later on today. It struck a cord I haven't heard in months

You save a mob boss from mortal danger and he says he “owes you a favor” and gives you his personal number. After years of unfortunate events, you text the number “I want to be happy” as a joke. “Understood” he sent back.

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Just like this

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Art/Sauron/Cyrusk all belong to @clockworkreapers​!!!

This story is a fusion of two songs to try and get a good mix of both of the characters personalities.  Saurons song was ‘One last time’ by Jaymes Young and Cy’s song is ‘just like this’ by the chainsmokers/coldplay 

This is my half of an art trade with one of the best artists I have the honor of calling a friend and I hope that I’ve done them, and her, justice with this story. 

PLEASE NOTE Sauron is a MUTE character and is thinking all of his parts. As such I have them in ITALLICS  to help discern their parts of a conversation

please enjoy~ and Thank you so much to Clock once again for allowing me the honor of writing about these lovable dorks!!!!!

((minor spelling errors now corrected))

Two shadows could be seen passing through the abandoned part of the old town, soft whispers heard as one seems to be reading the other's thoughts. The darkness didn’t bother the two males, in fact it was comfortable for the two as they worked themselves into a long forgotten  apartment building. With the comfortable closeness they had, even with the muted troll carrying a couple bags of goodies they had a good clip to their pace. “Come on Sauron, we're almost to the top'' The leader said softly, a chuckle in his throat as his rust companion rolled his eyes.  

Yea yea I know we are Cy. We've come up here how many times now? Sauron thought to his companion, smiling a bit as Cyrusk laughed at him. “I know I know. And you know how much I love coming up here!” He hummed in return, opening the door to the roof and taking a deep breath as he stepped back out into the cold night air. 

The two were now far above the abandoned streets of the ghost town and able to really see the stars that twinkled in the sky above them. Sauron gave a soft sigh and closed his eyes for a moment before moving over and settling himself on the edge of the roof  with his feet hanging off the edge.  This feels nice. A good breeze, no neons blinding us to the stars… “No one to bother us as we just watch the sky till daylight” Cyrusk finished for his mate, a sweet smile on his lips. The rust blood looked up and let an unfamiliar quirk of a smile to grace its way over his features. 

You know, Ive been reading a lot of old books in my spare time recently. All about the old legends and myths like that of Achilles and his gold and Heracles and the gifts he received  “yea? I personally would rather read about Spider-Man’s control and Batman training with his lusus” Cy rambled in response, making a few joking jabs at Sauron's shoulder with a happy smile. The rust just rolled his eyes and let out a silent little sigh.

Cyrusk was about the only person he ever smiled for nowadays, and in all honesty that’s sort of how Sauron liked it. He hated to really show his soft side to those around him and Cy? Cy was a special case that was just for him. A special person that he could properly trust with his red quadrant. 

Of course I’ll never see myself on any lists like this, My caste doesn't really show up in the history books after all  Sauron thought to the other, shaking his head and jumping a bit as Cyrusk reached out and  carefully cupped his lover’s  cheek. “Hey…..Where do you want to go?” he asked, leaving the mute completely flabbergasted  what?

“Where do you want to go Sauron. How much do you really want to risk?” he continued to ask, his eye  lidding half way as he offered a sadly sweet smile. “Because I’m not really looking for anyone with superhero gifts. No superhero. Just us” he said sweetly, Sauron tilting his head and offering a small pout in return 

No blissful fairy-tale?.....Because in all honesty I don't want that either….I just want someone I can turn to when I’m depressed again and…..someone I can kiss when I’m feeling happy.. Cyrusk smiled and nodded, leaning in to press a soft little kiss to Sauron’s head. “I want something exactly like that Mr. Yetzar” he chuckled, getting a raspy little groan as the rust rolled his eyes, and honestly his head as well at the sappy little piece of sass beside him. 

They sat there and Cy eventually got Sauron to smile again with his shenanigans, the two of them drinking and smoking through the next few hours as the sun began to rise. With it being a weekend for them, the couple had planned on just staying in the abandoned apartments to wait out the burning rays of their world’s sun. Cyrusk managed to pass out long before his lover and it allowed Sauron to relax a bit….not have to guard himself and worry about what thoughts were running through his mind that could have accidentally been ‘seen’ by Cy’s ability. 

The rust sighed and sat up from the pallet they had managed to set up so he could turn his eyes over to the window that was covered up with black curtains to block out the light of day. You know Cy...I’m fading… and it's much, much too fast for me… God, I could drop off the face of the planet right now and… Cy’s voice rang in his head from earlier  “I want something just like this Sauron. Just the two of us here on this rooftop. Nothing special, just us and a couple good drinks” 

I’m fading much too fast for you...you deserve so much more than my love. The rust looked back to his lover and took a chance to reach out and lightly caress the bronze blood’s cheek with a sad little smile. I’m waiting for it to pass… When I’m with you I don't feel like I'm about to fade away into nothingness, that I'm going to just slip away. He admitted to himself. The heat of Sauron’s fingers caused Cyrusk to groan softly and shift to his side, prompting Sauron to finally lay back down against his lover. These days were always so long, always full of sleeplessness for the rust….but with the warmth of another beside him that he trusted he was able to fall into a mostly restful sleep.

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“You know Sauron, last night's conversation kinda niggled at the back of my mind all night…. And it reminds me that I read a few older comics recently you know?” Cyrusk hummed as the two of them were settled right back on the rooftop with a fresh bag of drinks and snacks. “ and even though they were just comics you could really recognize the testaments they told and what legends and myths they actually followed” he rambled, Sauron rolling his eyes a bit and taking a deep drag of his cigarette as he continued to listen. 

“They went through this one arc where the moon was eclipsing and superman had to fully unroll a costume to change into instead of just having it ready under his normal suit! It was so interesting to see that differential!” he hummed, eyes turning up to their moons with a smile. You know I'm not the kind of person who really reads comics right? Cyrusk sighed and shook his head a bit with a pout “you realize that I don't care about that right? We ramble back and forth and that’s just our way of showing our love right?” he asked, head tilting to the side lightly as he reached out to move some hair out of Sauron’s face. 

The rust was spooked a bit at the sudden hand in his face but relaxed a bit as he turned a tired little look to the other. He took a deep breath and put out the end of his cigarette before pulling his legs back off the ledge of the roof and facing the bronze with an oddly forward motion of reaching out to cup Cy’s cheek

Cyrusk....we only have one more night before I have to leave on an assignment for a while…..Can I just….feel your skin against mine for the day?..... Before I have to say goodbye? He asked curiously, a tilt to his head Or just…. I don't know…. I feel like I can't breathe tonight. I want to breathe one last time, I want to be able to feel your breath  against my skin, share your breath again…..before I have to go on my assignment. Cyrusk just listened in confusion before melting at his matesprit’s words. He leaned into the touch and kissed Sauron's palm with a sweet smile “of course…..Where do you wanna go for this? Do you want to lay down and cuddle? Do you want to take a risk and go on a joyride with a busted drone?” he asked, trying to offer Sauron something that wasn't just wallowing in the despair and anxiety he could see settling in his love's eyes. “You know I'm not looking for anyone with special gifts or a high position in life so even if we just sit here it’s all I could ever ask for” he hummed, shifting over to press his thigh to the rust’s gently.

“You don't have to make our lives some kind of fairy-tale, you just need to stay here and stay alive so I have someone to turn to… and someone I can miss when they’re out on assignments” Cy chuckled softly, leaning in and pressing a kiss to Sauron’s cheek gently as the rust wrapped his arms around the others waist in a tight hug. 

I feel like my world’s been losing its light Cy… “well then let it loose light. I’ll be here with a flashlight and a candle for when the batteries die” he hummed, pulling Sauron in for a tight hug “I want to stay just like this…..”

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The day had passed once more, leaving the two with precious few hours to spend together like this. Sauron woke up first of course, not really having been able to sleep through the day and just listening to Cyrusk snoring seemed to help the day before. He sighed and closed his eyes as he allowed himself to have a moment of peace. His arms wrapped around the bronze as he buried his face in that fluff of hair that always seemed to hide that eye that he loved to see. 

I have to leave soon…..pack my bags and get on the train....this is a cold, cruel world we live in huh Cy?  He thought to himself, sighing and staring off at the far wall as he just let himself sit in the relative silence of their embrace. 

“Hey Sauron? Where’d you wanna go if we could just risk it all and leave right here and now?”

Sauron turned his eyes down to Cy’s sleeping face and smiled a bit to himself as he listened to his memories. No pleading could turn back time for us to redo this weekend….. I’m glad I spent it with you Cyrusk… You mean the world to me, even if I don't tell you or show you as often as you deserve. You tell me you aren’t looking for someone that has super powers or a lot of money but…. I do want to at least bring your life a bit of joy from time to time

Sauron hadn't noticed Cyrusk waking up, having zoned out as he thought and got settled with his chin on the other’s head again. The bronze smiled a bit and nuzzled up into Sauron's touch, accidentally causing the rust to jump and pulling a sleepy little chuckle out of the bronze’s chest. “You don't gotta be so dour…. You just gotta be someone I can turn back to and kiss when ‘m happy” he hummed softly, Sauron smiling sadly. 

Good evening Cyrusk….. He thought in return, honestly happy to just be there for once. Cy….is it ok that I can feel your skin against mine? He asked softly, head tilting lightly as the bronze in his arms stretched a bit he got a nod in return and relaxed again with a rumbly little hum in his chest that wouldn't really have a sound anymore. I’m safe….I have someone to kiss before I have to say goodbye again….. I can breathe again tonight…..as long as I have you in my arms I can always pull through and breathe so much easier than if i was on my own he thought to the other, getting a sweet smile in return

“And you know what? I want nothing more than this right here. I want you to be right here, happy, safe, and feeling like you are free as a bird” he hummed sweetly, the alarms on Sauron’s phone starting to go off to warn them of their time together dwindling. The rust glared at his phone as though it had told him he was unlovable and reached over to smack the screen so it would shut up. 

“Hey Sauron?.....Can we share one last cig before you go?...give you a chance to calm down again before the walk home?” he asked softly, sitting up with a soft groan and another stretch to pop his back. Sauron nodded and stretched out now that his lover was sitting up instead of being curled into a singular position against his chest. 

Yea…. I’d enjoy one last chance to take a deep breath of you so I don't curl up and die on the ride to the next town over. Cy frowned “How about lets don't? I’d like you to come back so I can hug you and tell you how much I missed you while you were gone!” he huffed, poking his love in the side and getting an almost squeak out of the lanky male.  Sauron pouted and glared at the other with a huff as he sat up and crossed his legs before getting a good look at his lover and giving a small little smile. You know what Cy….My world might be losing light but….I think it’s just so you can burn a little brighter…..

 I love you

“I love you too”

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I can't finish reading the story bc I keep fangirling like a 13 y/o reading their fav anime/manga fanfic

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

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Just in case

A short story based on the song 'In case you don't live forever' by Ben Platt

This story was a winner from my tumblr raffle quite a while back

Thank you so much for your patience with this piece @solaredarisen

A loud, whooping holler could be heard through the forest as a duo stood over a group of highbloods. The lime shook his head and chuckled as the fuchsia gave another holler and jumped about over clubs and other weaponry before looking to his partner. “Felide we did it! Holy fuck he did it!” he called out, spinning and turning to face his lime partner with a bright, toothy smile adorning his face. The fight with the purples had been a long one, and just the two of them against about 9 or 10 of the crazy sons of bitches. “Stelsa, you need to shut up before any more get the bright idea to come for us” The lime hissed softly, looking around and panting softly. While the fuchsia had more energy than one should after a fight like that, the lime hadn’t the extra ability to bounce about.

“Oh come on Felide, you have to loosen up a bit! We just beat the shit out of the only troupe in the area! They won't be getting up any time soon” Stelsa quipped with a bright laugh, head shaking a bit as he moved over the corpses. “You did an amazing job man, I’m proud of you!” he quipped, head cocking to the side lightly as he stopped in front of Felide.

“A good job or not you know we have to hurry through the area. If anyone sees us gloating over this mess we're going to be added to it!” the lime snapped. “I’m just trying to be safe dumbass,” he continued, his voice softer as he lifted his eyes to the surrounding area. Stelsa just brought a hand up to wave at the shorter male with a sigh. “Come on, you’re just being too over cautio-”

Time seemed to slow suddenly as Stelsa’s long hair was grabbed by a troll they thought was dead. Felide lurched forward as the fuchsia was jerked off balance towards an upraised weapon. The lime managed to push his partner out of the way as a bloodied clown thrusted his other hand forward, a long, curved blade being stabbed cleanly between his grubscars.

The fish quickly turned and lifted a busted javelin to shove the shattered end of the wood through its throat. “FELIDE!” he shouted, forcing the body away and dropping to his knees as he reached out for the lime. “F...Felide?” he asked softly, hands trembling as he reached out towards his partner. Felide himself was curled up, softly gasping for breath as he gripped the handle of the blade. “S-Stelsa….fuck, Stelsa are you alrihgt?” he asked, eyes turning over with a pained whine at the movement. “Shh! SH-shut up Felide….oh shit we, w-we have to get back to base! W-we've got to get you back!” Stelsa rambled, Felide shaking his head with a pained groan. “Shut up!” he snapped, struggling up to a sitting position as he trembled. Stelsa shook his head and just watched for a few seconds before bringing his friend against his chest with a pained hiss from the lime.

“I’m sorry, I-I’m so fucking sorry I didn't meant for this to happen!” he whimpered, leaning his face down and pressing it into the mass of black fluff atop Felide’s head. The lime took a few shaky breaths and shifted, whining as he settled more on his side than leaning on Stelsa with his front. “Come on….you can't keep screamin and cryin over me” he whispered with a soft laugh, hissing softly at himself.

Stelsa looked around for a few moments at the carnage around them and finally dawned on the safety that his wounded friend had wanted. They were out in the open, a troupe of purples dead and the both of them bloody from the fight. “This is all my fault…. Oh my god what have i done” he whispered, tightening his hold on the lime in his arms.

Felide listened to the other and frowned. “You put your faith in my dreams. You gave me a world that I could want and strive towards” he stated, getting a shocked stare from the fish. “What do you mean by that Fe? Actually, no. Don't answer that I-I’ve got to get you to camp!” he retorted, looking around once more before carefully lifting his partner up and holding his mostly limp form close to his chest. “Just stay still, and don't talk”

The catlike troll snorted with a wince, humming and reaching his hand up to press against the others chest. “What did i do to deserve you?” he asked, the rocking of Stelsa’s running helping him pass out and putting trust in his partner.

******************************************************* Stelsa sighed softly as he looked at the sleeping form of his close friend, a frown on his lips. He had gotten to their camp as quickly as possible and tried his all to bandage up the lime properly. “Fe you’d better wake up….. You know I follow every one of your steps with my feet…. I-i follow every road that you start…” he whispered into the silence between them, not wanting to let the other hear him and yet so desperately wanting it.

He sighed and shook his head, bringing a hand up and pushing his hair away from the patch of his eye. “Felide I need you to know that I've heard you…. Every single word. Every time you wanted to get away from a situation, every time i was being a fucking idiot….. Every time you told me to be careful, that something was too hot to bite into…. Everything.” he stated, turning his eyes down to the floor instead of at his friend's sleeping form.

“And now I’ve probably waited way too long to tell you everything you mean to me….. I know life ends eventually but…. Just in case we don't live forever I want to let you know I love you more than you could ever wrap your head around Fe…. I’m still having trouble wrapping my own dense skull around this” he said with a laugh, shaking his head and wiping a bright pink tear off his cheek. “Fe...in case you don't live for-”

The lime had woken up during his friend's emotional speech but couldn't listen to the other repeating how he could die. “Stelsa let me tell you the truth” he stated, the other startling and turning a shocked expression to the other, his fins flared out in surprise.

“Listen to me Stel, I am everything that I am, because of you.” he retorted softly, a small smile spreading over his lips. “And ever since I met you there's been...something like a song in my head. And I’ve carried this song in my mind, trying to put a reason to it” he continued, Stelsa moving over and kneeling beside the bed so he could bring Felide’s hand up to his chest.

“I think I’ve had the same one echoing in me” he replied softly, a saddened smile twitching at the edges of his lips, “But I haven't helped you to hear it… B-but, we've only got so much time now a-and if i don't tell you I’m pretty sure it would kill me if you didn't know that the pieces of me are pieces of you too an-” Felide reached a hand up to lightly place his fingers over Stelsa’s lips, effectively silencing the talkative fish. “We’ve both waited way too long to say everything each other means to us….” He said with a smile, deciding to let Stelsa know exactly how much he had heard and moving his hand to cup the others cheek. “In case you don't live forever I want to tell you now, that I’ll love you more than you’ll ever wrap your head around. And in case you don't live forever, just let me tell you the truth Stelsa, I’m everything that I am because of you” he hummed, moving his thumb over to wipe away a tear that was falling from Stelsa’s eye.

The seadweller laughed softly and shook his head a bit, swallowing thickly and leaning down to press his forehead against Felide’s. “I have a hero whenever I see one you know” he hummed, The lime chuckling softly. “Yea? Well I just look up to you and I see one” he retorted, Stelsa shaking his head and sitting up to push his hair out of his face. “I’m only a man ‘cause you taught me to be one Fe” he hummed, tying his hair back and sighing. “Come on man…. Lets try to rest a bit more. It’s becoming daylight and I don't want you to get hurt any more than you already are” he said softly, standing and putting out the lantern that hung above them.

He moved over to sit on his own cot when Felide hissed softly, struggling to turn himself onto his side. “WHOA WHOA WHOA What do you think you’re doing?!” he asked, rushing over and putting a hand on the lime’s shoulder. “You shouldn't be moving!” he scolded, eye wide as he carefully tried to get him to lie back down.

Felide smiled sadly, laying down on the edge of the cot at the others urging before patting the bed beside him. “Why….why don't you lay down with me?” he asked softly, his voice tired and his eyes drooping. Stelsa sighed and smiled a bit, head shaking as he ever so carefully laid himself down beside the other. With a sigh he closed his eyes, arms wrapping around the other carefully and letting his lime relax finally.

They laid there for a while until Stelsa was sure Felide was almost asleep before humming softly. “ In case we don't live forever let me tell you now that I’ll always love you more than you’ll ever wrap your head around.” he said softly, pressing a soft kiss to the others forehead softly “I’ll always be here for you” he whispered, letting himself fall asleep with a soft mutter. “Everything that i am….’s ‘cause of you” he muttered softly.

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The next evening when Stelsa awoke, it was to a soft little groan of his partner shifting into a new position. He smiled and waited for him to settle back down before sighing and pressing back into a careful little cuddle, carefully trailing his fingers over the others cheek and hair to help calm him. The seadweller smiled and laid his cheek against the other’s forehead with a content little sigh. “In case we don't live forever….let me tell you the truth Felide….as long as I’m here as i am…...so are you” he purred, sighing and letting himself relax, knowing that with Felide by his side, everything will turn out alright.

[shuskas-story-book]

Beside Me

Based off the song Mother Mother by Oleander

This story was a birthday present for @brinytrolls.

Faldur and Sarky both belong to Freddie 

"Thanks for watchin dudes, seeya in the next video" Sarkan chirped, a bright smile on his lips before hitting the end button on his recording system. "Well....looks like another succesful run eh Sarks?" he asked himself, shaking his head and letting his ears droop a bit. He sighed and looked out the window to the storm before frowning. Out on the road closing in on his borrowed vacation house was a familiar shape, one of the only people who would know where he was spending the perigee in quiet solitude.

"Fal? What in alternia's grey biosphere are you doing out in the rain?!" he asked aloud, quickly pushing back from the desk his computer was stationed on and quickly hurrying his way out to the front porch. He looked around, panting for breath as he tried to catch sight of his Kismesis through the thick rain.

"Faldur! Where are you?!" he shouted with worry, trying to find the violet seadweller with the darkness being illuminated with a massive flash of lightning. His teal eyes went wide when he finally spotted the sea dweller, covered in mixture of rust and gold and cerulean blood and wandering down the road as though he didnt know where he was. It took just moments before Sarky had his shoes on and was pelting down the road in his pajama pants, his favored hoodie, and a pair of flipflops.

"Faldur! Terrors above what are you doing out here? I know your a seadweller but this isnt like yo-HOLY SHIT IS THAT BLOOD?!" he nearly screamed. Faldur's eyes were tinted a bloody orange, not even caring about the brightly colored blood on his suit jacket or the fact that his typical fedora was missing from atop his head. His hatesprit gave a soft little whine, the teal reaching out and carefully wrapping his arm around Fal to help support the seadweller as his knees buckled. Fal could be heard muttering things about what had happened, the dark growl in his voice causing the fur along Sarkan's back and ears to rise. "Lets get you upstairs and in bed" he said softly as he guided the seadweller back to the house.

The day was a long one, Faldur shattering plates and cups as he went on his angry little tirade. It wasnt like he couldnt replace the things in his own house, it was more the fear that Sarky felt watching the highblood destroy things and not bother with the damage he was leaving on himself. Dark fingerpads sliced open, jacket sleeves shredded by talons and glittering porcelain and glass pieces from what was just in the kitchen.

Faldur wound up falling asleep curled up in the corner of the large dining room, his thin form trembling lightly in the aftermath of his rage. Sarky sighed when he noticed this and gave a small little smile, moving over to drape one of his extra hoodies over his kismesis to try and help give him some comfort as the teal worked on cleaning up the shattered remains of what was once a set of dishes.

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"Come on Fal, lets get you in a tub" Sarky sighed, having stayed up the entire day to make sure Faldur didnt wake back up and get hurt. The violet gave a confused little noise as he felt the warm hands under his arm and around one wrist as he was guided to his feet. "Sark..... when did.... why are you here I went home?" he asked, mostly to himself in his tired state.

"Well....I mean when you come wandering down the road half the town away from your place I'd guess you didnt go home" Sarky teased softly, not doing much more than that as they stepped into the downstairs bathroom and settled faldur on the closed toilet. "What happened last night man? You were shamblin around like a day walker!" Sarky commented, his long ears lowering. He worked quickly to get the water started and to the right temperature for the seadweller.

"I.....I went on a date last night....was supposed to be a possible matesprit" Fal replied with a shaky breath, tears starting to well in his eyes. "I....Sarkan I dont.....Why does everyone decide I'm nothing? Th-that I'm only good for my money?" he asked.

sarky was taken back by the question, a hand moving to rub at the back of his neck. "I....I dont think I can answer that for ya Fal.... Alternia's a cruel place, we all know this but the fact that you came home covered in blood is....more than what I guess was just a date gone south" he said softly, sighing and kneeling down beside his kismesis. "But no matter what I'm right here for you. Quadrants be damned for tonight, you need someone with a gentle touch" he stated, Faldur blinking and looking to his kismesis with a confused little chirp in his throat.

"you heard me fish face, now come on. Lets get you out of these bloody clothes and into a nice cold bath eh?" he offered, standing up enough to help remove the tattered cloth from the seadweller. It was a long process, Sarky taking extra care around the gills and fins and making sure to check the other for any cut or scrape that could have been worse than first thought.

"Sarkan.....why do you do this?" The seadweller asked, Sarky's ears perking up a bit as he looked over his glasses. "Why wouldnt I Fal? We may be kismesis, but that's just a rivalry thing more than anything else. Rivals can still care for one another and help them to be stronger than what we were before" he explained softly, tapping the other's hip lightly as he nodded towards the tub "Come on. Get in so we can get the rest of this blood off you"

Faldur pinned his fins back, turning his half blind eyes away. "did....did you find my glasses anywhere?" he asked instead, trying to get the old feelings to squash down enough for him to look Sarky in the eyes again.

"No, you didnt have them on when I found you last night" came the soft reply, Sark guiding the fish down into the water with careful hands as though he could break at any moment. "I know where you keep your backup pair at this place, so i'll grab them when I get you something clean to wear. " he hummed, grabbing a rag and starting to carefully run it over Fal's shoulders.

They worked like this in silence for a few moments before Faldur spoke up with a shaky, qiet voice "Sarky....you always stand beside me.....even when I'm out of my mind" Sark blinked and tilted his head a bit with a confused little pout. "Hmm? What do you mean by that?" he asked, Fal shaking his head and bringing one hand up to nervously fiddle with one of his fin piercings.

"I-i shattered all that glass...dont pretend i didnt, I saw it in the trash bin when we passed by" he muttered "Yea fal you did....but i'm right here to sweep it all up" Sarky hummed, shaking his head a bit with a chuckle. "Why are you smiling Sarkan?I-i made a huge ffffucking mess! I-i-i was acting obscene!" he blurted out, hand dropping into the water as Sark carefully cradled the fish's cheek in his hand "Yea...But I'll be right here to help you clean up and destress....You can be the anger and the rage, and I'll be all the rest" What Faldur didnt expect was the soft kiss to his forehead, fins flaring out a bit as he looked up to the other with wide eyes. "W-what? What do you mean by that? Where are you going?!" he asked, hands moving to grasp at the side of the tub.

The teal just offered a small smile "I'm just getting you something to wear Fal, I'm not leaving you here alone" He replied softly, trailing his nails along Faldur's hornbed in an attempt to calm the others nerves. It worked for the most part, Fal letting his fins droop back into a comfortable position before sighing and closing his eyes.

"you know Sarkan.....If you leave me, I think it would kill me"

"I know fal.....I know"

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The two were bundled up in comfortable pajamas, faldur having been patched up from his wounds and now clean and cuddly against the larger troll. They were quiet as an old movie played, something the both of them would enjoy so as to not cause any major issues on the film choice.

A scene had the characters passing through a large garden and had Sarky perking his ears with a small smile as he broke the comfortable silence they had settled into. "You know....You're like a Wisteria Fal" he hummed, reaching up to trail his fingers through the other's lightly damp curls. "Bright petals, beautiful hues~" he cooed, fal blinking and turning up to the other with a pout. "A Wisteria? Bright like me?" he asked in reply, Sarky chuckling and nodding with a soft kiss to his violets forehead. "Yes like you~" he hummed.

"Sarkan....I'm more like a vile little child stuck in a farm sty!" Fal huffed, arms crossing over his chest as he turned his eyes away from the other. "So? you know I love playing with my vile little reptiles~" Sarky teased, sticking out his tongue at fal playfully and getting a swat to the shoulder.

"Difference is I'll burn you out!"

"So? I remember burning your diary that one time Higgins~"

Fal puffed out his cheeks and growled softly, turning away and just going silent as Sarky moved his hand down to pull the other into a hug instead of just lounging across his lap. "But, just like back then Fal, if you start to cry I'll work to put a smile back on that horrid face of yours" he purred. Faldur smiled a bit at the memories he had with the teal that held him, his own arms moving around his shoulders to return the hug tightly. "Yea.....If you left me rest assured I'd perrish... it would kill me to loose someone like you" he muttered against the fuzzy ear next to his cheek.

Sarky just chuckled softly and shook his head, swaying along lightly to the music the movie was putting off "Your my little wisteria, bright beautiful petals" he hummed, fal pulling back and offering a soft little smile "A wisteria.....bright and beautiful" he replied with a happy little purr in his chest, Sarky touching foreheads with him

"Yes, just like you Fal"

"just like me~"

[shuskas-story-book]

Leave it to the Bees

Based off the song "Let it Go" by James Bay.

Eridan smiled over at the Asian male next to him, miss-matched eyes smiling back over the table back to his own odd violet ones. He couldn't help the small quirk to his lips as the waitress came over and sat down a set of drinks for the boys to enjoy, Sollux taking his drink and taking a drink with a soft little 'ah' afterwards. "Tho..... Friday night, and I'm already theeing a bunch of Thirtth jutht waltzing into the bar." he commented with a smirk as another male walked into the bar, his tie undone and a 5 o'clock shadow highlighting his jawline.

Eridan couldn't help the soft giggle that escaped him with a nod, reaching out and taking his own drink with a curious sniff at the strawberry filled liquid. "Sol...what did you order for me again?" he asked, head tilting to the side as he took the straw between his lips and tasting it with a shocked little hum. Eridan hadn't expected it to be so good, his boyfriend having been bad about ordering a strong drink and not warning him about the bitters or the high alcohol content of the drink in question.

Sollux smiled a bit and watched eridan over the edge of his sunglasses with a curious gaze. "It'th called a midthummernight dream. Got'th vodka, two Ruthian alchoholth, and a thit ton of thtrawberrieth" he explained. Eridan nodded and looked to the pink drink in his hand again. "Well for once, it tastes amazin and I'm glad I let you choose my drink" he replied with a small hum in his throat.

"And what, pray tell, did you choose for yourself?" he asked, folding his fingers together and resting his dimpled chin upon them. Sollux blinked and looked at the amber liquid in his glass. "uhh....I think it'th called a 'headleth horthman?" he asked himself, head cocking to the side slightly as he took another sip and nodded "yea. think that'th what it'th called. But anywayth, we have a lot to talk about." Sollux cooed, resting his chin in the palm of one bony hand as the other reached out to carefully rub against Eridan's arm.

The Ampora arched a brow and watched the computer calloused fingers as they trailed over his pale skin. "Oh? and what would we need to talk about Sol? Did I do something wrong to one of your builds?" he asked, unfolding the well manicured fingers and moving them to hold his lovers. "Or....is it the fact that were moving in together?" he asked with a small smile, head tilting to the side.

Sollux couldnt help but snort softly and nod. "of courthe it'th the move Danny. Jutht think, we'll be in our own plathe. Cronuth can fuck off, Tuna wont be able to barge in on our cuddle thethionth......or....anything elthe" he teased with a wink that caused Eridan to blush dark. That inuendo had happened more than once to the duo and had ended in a very embarrassing conversation with Psiimon over what was not allowed in his house.......again.

"W-well....I still say that wasn't our fault. He should know not to barge into his big brother's room....Mituna is 13 now after all!" he huffed softly as Sollux just laughed and shook his head. "Yea yea yea. But you know my dad'th thuper protective of Tuna" he hummed, moving his hand to rub a thumb over Eridan's knuckles.

The conversation slowly trailed off between the two as they finished their drinks off, Eridan still being a lightweight even after Cronus and his military drinking habits dragged the younger along for the ride. Sollux wound up taking the keys away from his lover and hooking an arm around him in order to help walk the short distance to their taxi.

Time passed very differently for them during times like this, soft kisses and gentle touches that had them both calm and comforted as they fell asleep in one another's arms. They were still tangled up with one another, light dancing across sleeping limbs when they're woken up by a hyperactive little brother. Mituna was more than excited to see Eridan again, almost pulling the Ampora from his still sleeping lovers arms in an attempt to get someone to play a video game with him.

Sollux wound up being woken up and games played as breakfast was made and plated. Eridan couldn't help but think of how cute it would be to have their own little family like this. He sat his chin on a palm and watched the two brothers bicker over the fact that Mituna did not, in fact, need half a bottle of syrup for his stack of 5 pancakes with a smile on his face. "You two are so cute together like that you know?" he mentioned softly, a loving look on his features that had Sollux blushing a bit and Mituna puffing up his cheeks with a defiant little 'nuh uh!'.

Eridan laughed softly and shook his head. "Sorry. I guess I'm just holding on to that old dream of having a family. Deffinately something we dont need right now," he cooed, looking up to Sollux who rubbed the back of his head nervously. "heh....uh...yea Danny.....That'th thomething that can wait a few yearth to make thure were actually ready" he agreed softly, both of the older boys jumping when something shattered over near the sink.

Mituna was standing there, hands over his mouth, eyes wide, and one of Sollux's favorite mugs in pieces on the floor. The poor boy looked like he was about to burst into tears when Sollux knelt down to pick up the largest piece with a sigh. "well....tho much for that one" he muttered, head shaking a bit.

"I-I'm th-th-thorry Th-Thollux!" Mituna sobbed softly, backing away against the cabinet as Sollux frowned. " Woah woah, hey.....Tuna no come on. Let it go. Thith broke, jutht let it be. It'th no ithue tho jutht keep being happy little you and I'll be normal grumpy me. It'th jutht a mug, and like everything elthe that breakth, we'll leave it to the beeth." he stated with a smile, collecting the broken shards before stacking it in a pile and sitting it in a bin dubbed 'for bee houses'.

"thee? Nothing wrong. They'll love that blue color" he continued, Mituna nodding along with the fear of broken glass long behind him."Yea! I'll be me and you be you! We can make bee houtheth later!" he rattled off, the older boys easily falling in behind his enthusiasm for the day.

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Time passed quickly, the apartment being gotten and their shared world slowly coming together. But things seemed to sour at the drop of a hat once Sollux started doing computer repairs from home more and more. Things seemed to jump back and forth from throwing clothes on the floor at the end of the night, to slamming doors and the two of them sleeping in separate rooms almost nightly.

Sollux had brought home something from his dad's house, just trying to bring some home cooking back into their lives and give a bit of color to the drab grey things had gotten to. Of course, shit hit the fan pretty quickly when the wrong things were said and a fight ensued. in the end, they were sitting at different ends of the dining table so they could eat. Eridan had his head in his hands and Sollux had his nose in his phone to try and just keep his mind off the fight they just had.

Eridan spoke up first, voice shaky as he tried to keep from crying. "Sollux.....if this is it...if these fights are all we're living for......why do we insist on doing this anymore?" he asked softly, sniffling lightly as he turned his eyes up to his lover. "I used to recognize myself but now I feel like I'm just a husk of who I used to be" he continued, jumping a bit when Sollux pushed his chair back with a snarl.

"Well it'th funny how our reflectionth fucking changed now ithnt it? Thinthe we're becoming thomething elthe, I'll jutht leave you here for a while." he growled, storming off to the room. Eridan moved in after him, watching the thin bee lover packing a backpack with tear filled eyes. "S-Sollux.....No come on.....I-I didn't mean it like that, please just let it go!" he begged softly.

"No Eridan!" Sollux snapped, turning to the other with a snarl. "Jutht let it be. You can thtay here and be you. I'm going home, thpending time with tuna, and I'll be me. Everything here ith fuckin broke tho leave it to the beeth alright?! " he snapped, slamming the door to the apartment after pushing his way past his lover and out into the hallway.

By the time he made his way to the lobby the storm outside had finally come to a head, rain pouring down and making it quite hard to see even if you had headlights on. Sollux stood in the lobby for a moment, pausing himself to just think about the situation for a few moments before he heard Eridan's voice call out from the elevator. "I'm not fucking dealing with thith!" he growled to himself, glaring back at Eridan as he pushed through the doors and out into the pelting rain.

Things happened too quickly to really realize what transpired, A bike rider rushing by, a driver going too fast on a slick road, and the crunch of bone and glass before everything just froze around Eridan. Sollux was laying in the middle of the road, a terrified teen getting out of her car with a terrified scream as the rain started to soak her and the male she hit through to the bone. Eridan's blood ran ice cold as he shook his head and ran out into the storm screaming Sollux's name. trying to get some form of reaction from his lover.

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"He's not going to wake up for quite a while Mr. Ampora. Please, make yourself comfortable and dont touch any of the wiring near him. " the doctor stated softly, patting Eridan's shoulder with a broad, gentle hand. The smaller male nodded, puffy red eyes locked on the sleeping form of his one and only.

He waited for the doctor to leave him alone to move over and sit next to Sollux's bed with a sniffle. His hand reached out to carefully settle into Sol's, a sob escaping him as his normally warm fingers felt ice cold against the Ampora's.

"This feels so wrong Sol....y-your way too cold" he whispered aloud, tears already welling in his eyes and falling over his cheeks. "God.....There's no force on earth that could make this feel right......" he whimpered, laying his head down on the white sheets of the bed and squeezing Sol's fingers tightly.

"C-come on.......Just....I'm letting the fight go. You're right a-and I'm not being responsible enough with what I've been spending lately...W-we've been pushing this problem uphill and not taking a chance to really.....really talk it through" he whimpered softly, mostly just rambling on to himself in the silence. "I guess it just.....got too heavy to hold tonight and look at what we let happen.....what I let happen" he whispered to himself, head lifting so he could see his lovers face as a tear fell down his cheek. "I think it's time to let our words slide......please....forgive me"

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A few months after the wreck, Eridan was settled in his old room, snuggled up next to Sollux as they looked through a thick picture book. "Oh, remember when we went to Alternia beach? That was the best date I think we've ever had" he said, both boys laughing a bit. "Yea....It wath a fun date...Thtill think we thould have left Tuna at home for that one though. We could have gone through and done the turtle thnorkling" Sol purred at his little lover as he stretched out and closed the book.

Cronus came by the room and knocked on the frame of the open door, offering a small smile. "Hey Danny-boy.....Feel like going up to Star Touch Point with me tonight? We can go watch the star shower together like old times....you can even bring Sollux if you want" he offered, the look on his face growing even sadder as Eridan looked up at Sol with a smile. "Yea.....We would love to come watch the shower with you Cro....I'll grab my bag and shoes and we'll meet you out there!" he chirped, sitting up and stretching before reaching over to grab his shoes and socks.

They all piled into Cronus's old pickup, the military boy making sure things were tuned up before the drive to their secluded 'brother zone' as they had called it in their youth. They made it right around nightfall and the two younger boys were quick to abandon Cronus at the car to run up to the top of the hill with cheerful laughter. Cro just shook his head with a soft chuckle and let them go ahead

Time seemed to stand still once they made it up overlooking the town in the distance. Sollux smiled and moved over in front of Eridan before waving his hand to the bag. "Tho ED......you ready to let it go?" he asked softly, Eridan's smile faltering a bit "I-I dont know what you mean Sol....Let what go?" he questioned, Sol shaking his head. "Come on ED....Danny.....jutht....let it be"

Eridan started shaking his head a bit "N-no....Sollux I.....Please dont make me do this" he begged softly, Sollux just smiling sadly and tilting his head to the side. "Why not tonight?.....It'th our anniverthary after all. Why don't you be you for tonight. I'll be me jutht like old timeth" He offered, taking a few steps backwards. "Everything broke Danny....."

"NO! Sollux please don't make me do this! Please y-you made it out of the hospital, y-youve been weak but you made it.....please!" he whimpered, head shaking as tears started welling in his eyes. "Eridan pleathe....leave it to the beeth for a while....let them take your worrieth and tearth" Sollux whispered softly, Eridan letting his hand reach down into his courier bag to pull out a silver and gold container.

It was a pretty little thing, Bees etched into the metal and accentuated with gold leaf over the silver of the body and Sollux's name etched into the base gorgeously. "No.....please....I'm not ready to let you go" Eridan whispered, turning his eyes out over the cliffed edge of the hill that separated him from where Sollux was floating over thin air. "Eridan...Let my atheth fall here.....You've held on for tho long....."

"Sollux.....I dont want to let you go! I love you....Please just.....J-Just come back please!" Eridan begged, soft sobs wracking his chest as Sollux shook his head. "No Eridan.....You need to forget m-" He was cut off by Eridans loud sob "NO! NO NO NO.....no....."

"Come on Danny.....don't make thith harder on yourthelf. Let me go.....Jutht....Let me be" he continued, slowly stepping forward to kneel where Eridan had fallen to his knees, clutching the urn to his chest. "Why don't you go live your life.....Go be you.....and I can be me" Sol whispered, Eridan not looking at him anymore as he carefully opened the locked top to the urn and pulled a bit of ash out to cradle in his hand.

As he carefully let the ash sift through his fingers Sollux smiled again, leaning over and hugging his love tightly. "Thank you Eridan......I love you......Thank you for setting me free" he whispered, pulling back and pressing a soft kiss to Eridan's forehead for a final lingering bit of warmth on the Ampora's skin as he faded away in the soft breeze that carried his ashes down over a large field of flowers.

Cronus waited a bit longer after hearing Eridan stop screaming no before moving up to kneel beside his little brother and rest a large hand over the smaller boy's back. "hey.....He's still here.....look, he even sent a little friend to say hello" he offered, a small bee buzzing softly as it landed on Eridan's hand for just a fleeting moment before continuing off towards its hive for the night.

For the first time in four months, Eridan didn't feel that deep stab of guilt in his heart. Instead he felt the light breeze around him, the warmth of his brother's hand, and more importantly, the soft kiss of the night as the first of the stars began to shoot through the night sky.

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Location

This story is based on the song Location by DJ Khalid 

A quick thank you to a good friend of mine who offered the song and story idea. 

Karkat stood in the living room of his and Gamzee's shared apartment, flip phone held to his ear as he paced the indigo blue carpet. "common common common...." he muttered, stopping near the window to look out at the thick sheet of rain that was pouring down outside. The phone call ended on him, a loud groan coming from the short albino. He shook his head and went back to pacing as he continued mumbling under his breath.

"Pick up fuckass come o-Gamzee?! Holy fuck, Gamzee where have you been?!" he called into the phone, eyes tearing up as he heard the chuckle of his drugged out lover. Gamzee had been doing so well up until now with staying away from the drugs and managing his anger issues on Karakts request, but with the lazy tone of his voice Karkat knew that he was on more than pot.

"Heeeeey Karbro~ Fuckin wonderful ta all up an hear your voice man," he hummed, Karkat shaking his head. "Gamzee.....Send me your location....'m coming and picking you up!" he insisted softly, voice wavering lightly with emotion at the 'snick' of a rubber band being heard in the background.

"Nah bro, with the way ya sound we jus' need ta focus on communicatin" Gamzee hummed softly, giving a soft hiss before a low moan escaping him. "I jus' need the time an place ta come through ta you" he hummed again, shuffling down into a more comfortable position.

" A place to come throu- Gamzee no! Fucking....Send me your god damned location!" Karkat shouted again, receiving a soft laugh from his boyfriend. "nah, le's jus' ride on these vibrations~" Gamzee continued softly, seeming to growl at someone who came too close to him as Karkat started to cry softly.

"Huh? Kar you ain't cryin'......is ya?" Gamzee asked softly as Karkat started to full on sob. "Gam......Why are you doing this? Y-you were doing so well about the drugs, I thought you were completely independent of them!" Karkat whimpered, his lip trembling as he stopped and sank onto the comfort of the futon.

The junkie was quiet for a moment before speaking ina voice that was barely there "Kar.....yo-....you's right.....I don't need anythin' else but you!" he insisted softly, grunting as he struggled to his feet "Common Kar.....Don't be like this you know I ain't ever needed anythin' else but you!" he insisted. Karkat just replied with a scoff.

"At times I wonder why i fuck with you, but you know what? This relationship is new to me, and new to you." he quipped, taking a deep breath and shaking his head "you know.....We were best friends Gam and......initially I didnt want to fall for you. But you fought and fought to gather all of my attention for you. The therapy and the addiction groups and what? So you could take advantage? Even though you promised and promised not to leave my heart damaged after the hell I went through in life already?"

Gamzee was quiet for a few moments, having started crying as well. He started looking around the hovel he had come to to shoot up with a few of his buddies from the Juggalo crowd. "N-no Kar....your right a-and I just needed to understand......I know things go a little bit better when you plan it out.....an'......I obviously fuckin' didn't plan this out......I-i hurt you..... Fuck Kar I'm so sorry your right what the fuck am I up an' doin'?!" he asked softly, voice shaking softly as he wiped the tears from his face and rushed out into the rain.

"please Gamzee.....I hear the rain on your end of the call now so.....why don't you send me your location. Your right and we need to focus on communication and you know what? We both need a time and place to come through to one another" Karkat said in a broken, defeated voice. "please just send me your location. Neither of us want to just keep this love on sub-tweets from one another so why don't we get personal again? Actually talk this out?" He asked

Neither of them could have forseen what happened before Gamzee had a chance to reply. All Karkat could hear was a sickening crunch and the squeal of tires on a wet road before he screamed.

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Things had happened so fast that Karkat could hardly remember Sollux rushing into his apartment to help call 911 as he freaked out over the sounds he had heard. Time had passed by so quickly and now that he was sitting at Gamzee's bedside in the hospital, Karkat wished time would just speed up again. That time would go back to save the lanky male who's hand he was clutching as tightly as he could.

The nurses that passed by had been hearing Karkat mumble and cry for hours at this point, a mutual pity for the albino having spread through the entire crew as they heard his voice starting to crack with the harsh emotions.

"y-you know....I've got a bunch of cool places we can go once you get better, a-all you gotta do is wake up and tell me where you want to go...." he sobbed softly, not seeing that Gamzee had started to shift and open his eyes " Gamzee....I-I'm so sorry that I yelled at you and got angry b-but......I'm only acting like this cause I love you" he said softly, lifting his head just enough to wipe the tears off his cheeks.

Gamzee smiled a bit at what he heard, his voice nothing more than a raspy croak as he spoke up. "then jus' give me a vibe to slide on then" he croaked, Karkat perking up and covering his mouth for a moment before leaning in and pressing his forehead to Gamzee's "oh god Gamzee, I was so fucking scared you weren't waking up!" Karkat whimpered, trembling lightly

Gamzee coughed softly into his mask and shook his head "no. I aint leavin anytime soon. You're all I need ta get better Karkat.....An if you thought I was gonna die then we really do need to focus on communicatin' cause we just need to get through to one another" he whispered, smiling up to his angry little lover. "I don't need anything else but you. And if they'll let you, ride the vibe with me tonight....We can work on talkin' out our feelins an' have a proper jam like when i was first gettin' off the drugs in the first place...." he continued softly.

Karkat gave a small smile and a nod as he sniffled. "y-yea......Gamz.....I love you so much" he whispered softly, Gam chuckling and pressing his mask to the albino's forehead. "love you too Kar......I don't need nothin' else but you"

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4/13/18 ‘Hello’

An EriSol Humanstuck fanfic written off the song 'Hello' By Adele

Hey thith ith Thollux. Thorry I couldn't anthwer your call, tho go ahead and leave a methage after the beep *BEEP*

Eridan sighed softly, listening to the message that he had almost burned into his memory. He felt it was finally time to actually try to talk to Sollux again.

"Hey, Sollux, I-it's me Eridan. I was uh...I was wondering if you'd want to meet up? I know we left off pretty bad all those month's ago, so we can...maybe go over everything" he said softly, taking a deep breath and looking off to the side and sitting the picture of himself and Sollux on a pier . "You know...they say that times supposed to heal you but...I haven't healed much......."

He lifted his head in shock as he heard a sudden click on the other end of his line. "h-hello? Sollux is that you? Can you hear me?" he asked, heart racing and his voice shaking a bit as he heard a deep breath before a sigh on the other end. "Yea...I can hear ya ED" Sollux replied softly. Eridan started to tear up a bit and covered his mouth, a soft whimper escaping him as Sollux spoke up again.

"Lithen ED, I'm home....You caught me in a daydream honethtly. How we uthed to be when we were younger and didn't have tho many thingth holding uth down. Before you dethided to call....I had forgotten how it felt before my world thatered around me" he said softly. Eridan automatically felt his heart drop to his stomach.

Sollux was referring to the night Eridan had gone out to Cronus's Bachelor party and gotten drunk before having sex with a few different people. Granted it was all instigated by Cronus that night, but when Sollux had tried to get Eridan to have sex with him a few nights later, just to make him feel better about accidentally cheating on him, but it all went downhill when Eridan called out another's name. Things had happened so fast and he couldn't do anything to stop the pain he caused with that one word.

Eridan quickly came back to when he heard a soft hello from the other side of the phone. He could partially feel the tears that were rolling down his cheeks as Sollux spoke. "ED? Hello? Can you hear me? ED pleathe I mutht have called your name a thouthand timeth!" he whined softly as Eridan gave a sniffle and nodded. It took a moment before he realized Sollux couldn't see him. "I-i'm sorry Sollux....I just....I-i just called to tell you that I'm....I'm so sorry for everything that I did....that I HAVE done." he replied softly.

"But....Every time I called you you...you were never home I-i just.....I even came to your apartment and banged on the door....just shouting your name from the hall" he continued, sniffling as the tears started to freely roll down his cheeks. "At-at least I can say I TRIED to tell you I was sorry for breaking your heart Sol" he sobbed, looking away from the photo he had been looking at.

He heard a snort from the other end of the line before an overly sarcastic reply was given. "Well it don't matter now doeth it ED? It CLEARLY doethn't tear you up like it doeth me." Eridan couldn't help a soft, almost bitter laugh as it escaped his trembling lips. "Tho....Eridan pleathe.....Letth get thome coffee alright? Fill'th Cafe?" Sollux asked, a small mile in his voice. "Let'th thay in thirty minuteth leave your apartment and we'll meet up like we uthed to."

Eridan agreed and the call ended, quickly going around the apartment and getting himself ready. He paused to catch a glimpse of himself in the bathroom mirror and he could see the bags under his chocolate brown eyes, the way his clothing just hung on his slim form and the now pale purple puff of hair he had always managed to convince his boss to let him keep. He looked like a mess.

Thinking quickly, he managed to get himself in the shower and actually gel his hair back in the way he knows Sollux likes it and grimaces. When was the last time I did my hair? he asked himself, shaking his head. He got things settled and donned a dark purple shirt and his favorite pair of dark blue jeans before pulling his shoes on. Damn, five minutes late to leave already.

He darted out of the apartment, locking it in his wake and hurriedly walked down the board to the cafe. Fill's Cafe had been the place they met, the place that Sollux had proposed. Eridan's eyes started to water as he ducked his nose down into the red and blue infinity scarf he wore. The wedding would have been set for the next day had Cronus and his own fucking marriage that sent Eridan and Sollux down this path.

Eridan shook his head and tried to hold back the tears as he looked up to the faded green and yellow sign to the cafe. He could hardly think straight as he stepped into the cafe and looked around. Sollux was sitting over in their usual spot, two coffees in front of him and an empty seat. He looked up to Eridan with a small smile, waving him over and watching the younger male.

"Sollux I-i-i'm so sorry I-I was I mess I had to take a shower a-and-" he froze as Sollux raised a hand, moving towards the seat in front of himself. "Hello ED....." he said softly. Eridan nodded and sat down, looking off to the side. "I-I'm sorry Sol.....it's so typical to talk about myself like that......i-i'm so sorry" he whispered, shaking his head before turning a sad smile up to Sollux.

"I-i hope you've been well" he said softly. "Did....you ever make it out of that dead end job?" he asked, tilting his head as he carefully took the cup in his hand. Sollux let out a shaky sigh of his own and nodded, throat tightening at the sight of Eridan's engagement ring still settled neatly on his finger. He reached out and took Eridans hand, pulling it over and turning it over in his own, computer calloused hands. "ED.....ith no thecrete that the both of uth are running out of time....It'th what humanth do, get mad at one another, leave, and grow old with that bitter feeling in their hearth" he said softly, taking a deep breath and looking up to meet Eridans with his own bi-colored eyes. "I'm thorry I broke your heart Eridan" he whispered.

Eridan's heart nearly stopped as Sollux removed the ring. He couldn't put two and two together at this moment. He came here to tell Sollux he was sorry, to beg for forgiveness and yet, Sollux was pulling the ring off his finger. Eridan let the tears he was holding back roll down his cheeks as he softly started to sob. Sollux looks up to him and frowned, moving out of his chair before getting down on his knees with Eridan's hand held to his chest.

"Pleathe don't cry ED, you know I hate theeing you cry" he whispered softly. "I'm not trying to puth you away. Eridan pleathe, give me a thecond chanthe to forgive you. I know thith ith a weird way to do it but....I-i jutht want you to put the ring on a chain.....Give me a chanthe to forgive you properly and we can try thith again later on" he said softly, holding the ring up for a moment before placing the golden band down in Eridans palm.

Eridan watched him closely, putting the ring on the table and nearly jumping into Sollux's lap as he pulled him into a hug. "Thank you sol.....thank you" he whispered, hiding his face against Sollux's neck and let his boyfriend shush him softly and enjoy the feeling of the other's arm around him like they should be.