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#HYOYEON

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sometimes you think you'll be fine by yourself.that you don't need someone to depend with.but still you'll realized that you were pretty incomplete

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People are not that aware when a man and a woman love each other and they can't get involved in each other's life deeply,

they'll become lonely.

so it doesn't matter who were the first one starts the fight. because blaming each other,fighting together,upsetting, or arguing, those are normal to experience in a relationship. you are fighting because you LOVE each othe

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TRUE LOVE

True relationship can change people. The person you're involved with can transform your life. That is why people can be both source of hope and despair.

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Making decisions and taking responsibility is a man's duty.

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Entering the life of your love requires remaining oblivious to the silent but apparent scar in his or her life. And not asking about it. It's about being by the person's side in quiet support. First, the scar must be identified.

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Meant to be. People never expected to meet someone in life. That it started out as a coincidence first and then became inevitable. until it became...fate.

that's how works magical the Destiny is.

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Trusting too much is the same as Loving so much. And it can blind you no matter what happens

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SUFFER. Suffering is one of the universal conditions of being alive. We all suffer. We have become terribly vulnerable,not because we suffer but because we have separated ourselves from each other. ~ShiWrittings <3

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some people said this "there's lot of way to be healed" then some people asked me this "how do i heals myself" I gave them a big smile and put my earphones on . Yes i am healing through music. Sometimes we don't do usually appreciated the inside meaning of why do music exsisted. Music can't lies . Music is true Music is life There was once a man said this " Where words fail, music speaks" and that's the good thing on it That music is the stories between our life experiences but when it do starts hit you, you were feel no pain . Just listen.♬♩♪

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If I had not met him I would not invested for him If I did not know him I would not think of him so much If we had not been together I would not have to miss him so much If I did not treasure him so much I could not have so many memories And If I did not loved him I could not have to disappear If we have not been face to face We would not need to throw each other away Indeed, if I would not met you for the second time at all I would not have to continue walking away.

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By: aeiou♡ ShiWrittings~~~ Dear You, It's been a while since I wrote a letter for you. I don't mean any harm, alright! I just want to vent this out because I feel like I'll burst If I won't write this tonight. I won't let this reach you just like the other letters so don't worry. I saw you today. Our eyes met each other but our hearts doesn't anymore. I keep my head locked in order not to think of you but in my mind,was the memories of you, doing this same thing in a different situations. That simple gesture made me think of the old times I tried so hard not to remember. That simple gesture made me remember the things you've done for me. That simple gesture brought the pain of yesterday that I tried so hard to forget. That simple gesture made me want the answers from my unanswered whys and; That simple gesture made me remember how in love I was with you. I have loved you for a long time. I have loved you for giving me the attention that I need. I have loved you for noticing me and I have loved you for listening to me everytime I was sad and problematic and happy. I have loved you for being someone who would be there when I was so lost in everything. I have loved you for understanding me.

You made me happy but it was the terrifying kind of happiness. I was glad for you are with me. I was overwhelmed with the thought that you love me. I was happy but along with that happiness was the terrifying thought that you might find someone better. That I am not enough. That you'll get tired of me and my childishness and that you'd disappear once you'll realize that I will never be enough. And now, all of that thoughts had happened just on one blinks of my eye,You already gone went away and found someone better. A complete opposite of me. Someone who isn't me. And I hate you for that. I wanted to get mad. I want to throw a table at you. I want to hurt you. But do I have the right to do those things to you? I wanted you to know that I am mad. I am mad at you for breaking me. I am mad at you for making me feel like am not good enough. For making me feel that the time spent with me is a wasted time. I wanted to get mad at you for throwing me to the sea of insecurities and for letting me drown in your memories. I wanted you to know that I abhor you for leaving. I abhor you for not choosing me. I abhor you for letting me jump alone in that peril sea. You are the reason of my escape. You are the reason why I resorted of being away. Of being so lost and not wanting to be found. You are the reason why I hate reality so much. You made my reality a disaster that I can't face it anymore. I can't face the reality knowing that I am not enough. I am not enough for you. I am not enough with everything that I do. And I am not enough for anyone. Whatever I do. I will never be enough.

My mind despised you for killing every muscles in my being. The girl you knew faded away. I was glued for a long time. Glued to a mirror's reflection I can't anymore recognized. Pieces of the broken heart was lost. I was lost and I didn't mind because I felt that it was better that way. I lost the will to strive hard with everything that I do because in my heart, I will never be enough. My efforts will never be enough. But then, with just a gentle tap on my head, I realized everything. With that simple gesture, I got a glimpse of my old self. With your simple gesture, i was dragged back to the reality after seeing you again. It felt... Good. I don't know how it happened. I felt like I have redeemed myself and realized what you were to me. I now know what you are to me. I now know why I hold onto you so much. You were my motivator. You are the opposite of me. You were my cheerleader. When I thought that striving hard is futile for I was gonna lose everything, anyway, you were there to tell me that I should do my best in everything that I do. That whatever happens you don't want to see me tearing.That it'll supposed to hurts you not only double or triple but more but you were the one who made me cried. That losing is not a bad thing as long as you gave your all. As long as you gave your best. And I'm sorry for I lost you without giving my all. I lost you without giving a fight. I lost you and all the things that you have taught me was stamped out by my rage. I lost you and all the efforts you have made to make me feel better and wanted had been wasted. I'm sorry for when I lost you, I lost the will to stive hard, just like what you've told me. I'm sorry for when I lost you, losing without giving in so much effort has been a normal thing for me. I'm sorry for when I lost you, I threw all the things you have taught me. I'm sorry for when I lost you, I lost myself even more - to the point that I tried so hard to change just for you. And I am so sorry for letting this anger killed what was left of us. I'm sorry for thinking that you broke me when all you did with the times together was to fix me. I was the one who broke myself. I'm sorry for blaming you. I'm sorry for my shortcomings and more importantly, I'm sorry for thinking that I should be the one for you. I don't deserve you. You deserve the best. This is my letting go of you and the pain of loving you letter.I am now well moving forward and it's for the best. I'm letting my feelings for you go. I need to fix myself. I need to fix me. And these feelings won't let me because they might trigger me to wait for you to fix me.

This isn't about you anymore. This isn't for you anymore. This is for myself. Thank you. You are my lesson. I've learned from you. I've learned from whatever happened to us. Thank you. So this is my temporary goodbye. The day I'm gonna see you again, I'm gonna pull your hair and kick you and you'll know the reason why because you are you. And I'm already me. Until that day come!Hello, Goodbye.

You will always be my disaster. A worthy disaster that is worth remembering. ------ 121816

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THEY DON'T CARE YOU ARE SIMPLY BEAUTIFUL

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Sometimes we are afraid to let go of something we already have and invested a lot on that thing is the harder you don't want to get lost it. But the more you're getting attached with it is the more you no longer wanted it to be gone. Just like loving someone. You were afraid to have that person because you knew that even if it's not today or right now but, sooner or later that person would be gone too. because everything and everyone has its own ending even a relationship.And just like catching a butterfly and let it be with your hands that once you let it flew away,the most beautiful thing that you were already holding is now a big beautiful goodbye happened. So better never let it go. F r e e t o f l y~~~~ #나비 ♡♡♡ #Captured #butterfly #photographylover #photograph

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