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Please remember this during the holiday season.

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that isnt descent anymore that is surpassing and ascending into status of Mad God. 

I’d just like to show you my friend’s decent into insanity ——– Oh my god.

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2 am midsummer (paikassa Livo, Oulun Lääni, Finland)

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((for the record im not what even i’d call a good writer but still felt like trying to write the scenario that popped up in my head from reading the prompt)) i carefully walk into the corridor and crane my neck to peer dark mass in bottom of the stairs. -”I said are you ok?” slightly louder this time just to ensure i’m heard. the monsters black mass stops moving and voice sounding like ground glass in a blender speaks out. -”Yeah. i’m fine  just not having best of days” monster responds sounding distraught. i cant help but chuckle slightly. -”I feel ya buddy.. So whats the protocol in these kinds of situations?” -”I  dont know. its my first week on the job and nightmares don’t really gather themselves.” monster sounded almost meek. -”Wait ? Nightmares?” i ask in confused manner taking few steps forward and taking a seat at top of the stairs. -”My job is to come to this world induce a nightmare in your kind and gather the energies into this.” monster pulls out a silvery cylinder with some kind of gems on its side. i cant help but to smirk. -”So you’re saying Monsters inc. was right” my smirk turning into a smile. -”Monsters inc.? whats that?” monster asks. -”you come into our world but  you dont know what... ok this needs correcting.” i stand up and walk downstairs and reach my hand to the monster. -”come get up we’re gonna watch monsters inc.” i state plainly the monster hesitantly grabs my hand with its claw, tentacle? clawtacle? helping him up and escort him to my living room. -”It’s a visual recording?” he asks tentatively. -”it is a fantasy animation of sorts.” i reply while starting up netflix and looking up the Monsters inc. monsters looking somewhat confused while looking for a comfortable position on the couch. roughly hour and half later -”I had no idea..” monster said in awe. -”and this is a work of fiction?” monster asked. -”yeah. so what do you think?” i smirk and ask it? -”... well we dont use doors and we dont collect screams or laughter but principles are astoundingly similar.” monster replied awestruck.  

You have a security monitor in your bedroom so you turn it on to check the house before bed.To your surprise you see a monster crawling up your stairway.All of a sudden the monster slips and falls back down the stairs. You can hear it faintly crying.You find yourself calling out to it “You ok?”

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TODAY IN HISTORY: Gemini 7 as seen from Gemini 6 as the two attempt to rendezvous in space, December 15, 1965. (NASA/ASU)

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reblog if you’re part of the holy trinity of unrecognized and dismissed sexualities

bisexual, pansexual, and asexual 

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propably agreed to worse things but shoot.

Reblog if you want a "why are you so..." in your ask.

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ah crap Humons on to us

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atleast its friday *cracks open a metaphorical beer tin*

Shitty week. Bad people win. Good ones fall. Opportunities lost.

But there’s the sea and the sunset.

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and thats why stopped drinking coffee and swapped into black tea.

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In the dark

There’s one thing i like about warm spring nights and bitter cold winter nights. its the stars and the fact that i can stare into the velvet black of the night sky and see stars. albeit somewhat strained in the south too much light not enough darkness. i think a lot of my fellow people here are uncomfortable looking up because they fear they’ll feel small in was scheme of the universe. because everything is distant far and beyond reach.  i feel the need to rail against this idea every time i look up at the stars and the moon is to remind my self to rant and rave at our earth bound limitations. since i think with out that ranting and raving even thought its a quiet personal thing i fear i’ll become like others staring down at the earth that birthed our kind long ago fearing my small meaningless existence on this spec of dust in the infinite unyielding universe. in truth i don’t want to be confined on this small mote of dust, i want to be out there amidst the stars staring into the black abyss.

but honestly i doubt that i will ever reach that high. so all i can do  is dream of that vast desert of black and starlight.

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this whole episode made old splinter scar at base of my palm tingle 

How dangerous is it to leave a splinter in your skin?

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finnish recipies: a fistfull of butter in the kettle and vodka in the freezer and then we’ll see what we can make out of rest of this stuff.

french recipes: if you’re not making this in paris then what’s the point. fuck you

italian recipes: use the left leg meat of a pig from one of three farms in this specific area of tuscany, or from this day my grandmother will begin manifesting physically in your house

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Kiitän :D

Hyvää pidennettyä viikonloppua!

Muut tekemäni: [x]

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In the dog world, humans are elves that routinely live to be 500+ years old.

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ooooohhhhhh now im sorta tempted.

Would you get this solar system tattoo?

[http://bit.ly/2dCQ7nl]

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usually when i get days like that i’ll settle for a nice sauna and hot shower followed up with ice cold beer and something nice/easy for dinner (ie fried sausages and fried potatos). after that world doesnt seem as wrong anymore.

Today is not a good day.

I sit outside relaxing. I’m working from home but taking a break while the missus eats an apple because I can’t stand the way it sounds I moved outside.

Today my head is full of scorpions. Despite the breeze being cool. The shade is nice. Everything is okay. Nothing is coming to get me.

Yet I still feel like i fucked up everything I’ve ever done.

I have a job, a house, I’ve got people that care about me and here I am feeling like I don’t deserve any of it. Feeling like I should suffer for some reason.

Everything annoys me. Her sneeze. The sounds, the radio is loud even when it is all low. The birds warble and it’s just annoying. The buzzing of a fly. The neighbour folding his newspaper.

Everything is loud. Everything hurts my brain today.

I try to centre and ground myself as much as possible but I am restless. I want to be elsewhere but I don’t know where. It’s like going through a playlist of your favourite songs on shuffle. And no song fits at the moment.

Coffee doesn’t taste good, the bread tastes stale, the cookie I had felt odd and crumbly. I hug the dogs and they just feel off. There is no comfort for me today. Not in things that normally comfort me like music, eating, affection.

Touches bother me yet she insists on cuddling. That’s fine. I can pretend. For her I can.

Today is not a good day.