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... i'm realizing this also means taizi's 6th birthday was also in june and hyroh is turning 7 this december. what the fuck.

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izvoye's 5th birthday was on the 26th :') happy birthday my angel my beloved

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SCORPIO: Odd time for an attempt at levity.

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(barely awake) mm …. swtor “retelling” of sorts … same sandbox, same ocs, but trying to .. not Lower the Stakes, but i think as fun as it is to play & think about, operating within the bounds of the class campaign is also a little limiting in some respects & we can only save the galaxy so many times before i start getting bored.

in a way i feel like taking taizi, izvoye, and hyroh (who lbr are my only consistent player characters - everyone else has been overwritten at least twice) off the Plot Rollercoaster might give them a lot more Room to do the things i’d like to do with them.

hmm. much to think about.

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really i want izvoye, hyroh, and taizi to be a dnd party but i don't want it to be dnd. you understand

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anyway. before i was interrupted. i don't necessarily want to Change shadow of dread to make them besties4eva - it feels crunchier that it's something that's doomed to end eventually, at least between taizi and hyroh & izvoye. i also just crave a playground where they get to be friends.

and turns out xiv is a really good setting for that, as well as a place for me to play with their characters in ways i haven't really had ideas as to how to do in swtor. #1 being it's izvoye's turn to play with dark forbidden powers, hyroh and taizi don't get to have all the fun!

the appeal of an xiv au for the big three is because i really, genuinely want nothing more than to have a reason to stick them together to go through horrors and joys alike but it feels hard to figure out how to do that in swtor's playground & the timeline juggling + all of them having their own roles post-base game. not to mention that they're going to be eventually divided by faction lines eventually because taizi is never going to go to the republic, neither hyroh or izvoye would leave for the empire.

and, i mean, i do not have Narrative Issues with these three having their weird coworkership & the bittersweet farewells after SOR / whatever the hell i figure out to do with the alliance. i like that too - SPIDER ON MY DESK

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the appeal of an xiv au for the big three is because i really, genuinely want nothing more than to have a reason to stick them together to go through horrors and joys alike but it feels hard to figure out how to do that in swtor's playground & the timeline juggling + all of them having their own roles post-base game. not to mention that they're going to be eventually divided by faction lines eventually because taizi is never going to go to the republic, neither hyroh or izvoye would leave for the empire.

and, i mean, i do not have Narrative Issues with these three having their weird coworkership & the bittersweet farewells after SOR / whatever the hell i figure out to do with the alliance. i like that too - SPIDER ON MY DESK

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refraction -

in physics, refraction is the redirection of a wave as it passes from one medium to another.

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want to post the big three (taizi izvoye hyroh) but dont know how to explain or put down all the thoughts that have been brewing in the back of my brain for multiple years. might make an xiv au for them altogether . maybe that will do it -

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long time no broody hyroh doodle

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Can you not see it? The past looms over us all ... a shadow of unchanging history. There are fools who believe they can outrun the shadow. Without a flame to chase it away, it will consume them - they are doomed to repeat the same failures.

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asking "who would win" between the big three (taizi, hyroh, izvoye) is actually so much more difficult than i thought it was, no wonder i've just kind of avoided thinking about it. sure, taizi's a really beefy dps / basically a tank, but hyroh is prodigious when it comes to lightsaber combat. both taizi and hyroh have izvoye beat in the close combat department, but she's far more skilled with using the force as a weapon and defense i.e. with telekinesis than either of them. taizi can't lift anything bigger than a large rock - hyroh's about the same, but it takes more concentration than he can afford as a dual-wielder. and yet, taizi's survived having a cave dropped on him. it's not canon anymore, but hyroh has too, and as part of one of my bajillion AUs, he even miraculously survived falling from a star fortress as it was crashing to the planet below.

i think hyroh could beat izvoye by account of having insane dps and being way faster than he has any right to be. whatever advantage of distance she might be able to get at the start would be negated fairly quickly because of hyroh's agility.

taizi and izvoye would probably just be stuck in a stalemate for awhile, because unlike hyroh, taizi would have a harder time closing the gap if she just keeps throwing shit at him. though eventually, if it went on long enough, izvoye would run out of mana - er, i mean, she'd become too worn out to keep up. so she'd be forced into lightsaber combat sooner or later, which while her skills are nothing to sneeze at, i don't think she's quite a match for taizi.

i have no idea who would win between taizi and hyroh. that would be an eternal stalemate, because although hyroh's primary style is something incredibly fast-paced and draining, he's well-versed in the other lightsaber forms. and unlike izvoye, hyroh's a little more tanky than your average dps, so he could take a few hits too before he gets in trouble.

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fanfic writers will go "anyone gonna explore the kinda fucked up or emotionally impactful implications of this minor canon detail?" and then not wait for an answer.

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childhood best friends to lovers to bitter enemies desperate for each other's blood back to desperate lovers again, and all the fucked up shades of devotion in between <3

aka I'd pose this in swtor if we had gpose, but until then. @shadowsofdread gave tyr fhyren and he hasn't been the same since etc etc.

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Big fan of characters who “kill” their younger selves. Characters who resent the past version of themselves for letting them get hurt, who look at that kid and feel revolted by the foreignness of it. Characters who feel they have to cut the child out of them like a tumor because it’s hurting them too much and if I don’t kill you you’ll kill me. Nearly nothing remaining of that past self but for the little connections and mannerisms they can’t kick, and when it shines through, it’s a terrible, tragic thing, because the child is still in there. It’s in there and it’s grotesque in its suffocation. But it’s there.

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do i have ideas? not exactly. but i think i want to start writing again. regularly. i miss that.

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played through forged alliances again LMAO