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This is my home now I should be raving in a fursuit

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Please, spread this for those who might need it right now

U.S. suicide hotline: call or text 988 (available 24 hours)

U.S. trans lifeline: (877) 565-8860 (when you call, you’ll speak to a trans/nonbinary peer operator. full anonymity and confidentiality)

Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (SAMHSA) National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357) – provides 24/7 confidential support and referrals for individuals and families facing mental health and substance use disorders, including panic attacks and anxiety.

LGBT National Help Center: (888) 843-4564

Trevor Project: Call (866) 488-7386, text START to 678-678, or chat online.

Take care of yourself and each other. Please stay safe ♡

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wheres seasons greasons

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There will never be a tiktok as good as this one I think about it all the time it is VISCERAL

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>Hit pedestrian

>Check engine light turns back off

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homusif based on this tumblr post

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i’d better be seeing cousin oskaar on my dash this morning

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garfield could probably understand the mechanics of driving a car but his legs are too short and stubby to reach the petals. this is also known as "Yoda's Quandry"

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recovered anti's be like

ex-Anti: hey guys remember that time where i pretended not to like bapplesnapple and tomjeff? Haha that was so funny. It all totally happened in a vacuum and effected no one but me whatsoever. Anyway im totes over it now isnt that great? Arent you happy For Me? Meanwhile the rest of fandom:

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2 genres of fanfiction:

1) put that guy into situations

2) take that guy OUT of situations for the love of GOD let them REST 

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Idk what trans man needs to hear this but you're NOT evil or disgusting for being a man. You do NOT have to suffer for the sins of the patriarchy committed by cis dudes. Being a man doesn't invalidate the misogyny you experienced growing up or experience now. Being a man doesn't mean you deserve to be isolated. Being a man doesn't mean you're inherently predatory or scary. You didn't "choose" this, and finding your true self is NOT "betraying the community" because you happen to be a man and/or masculine rather than a woman and/or feminine. You ARE allowed to be upset when people "affirm" your gender by malgendering you.

You DO deserve a community that uplifts you. You DO deserve to experience trans joy. You DO deserve to have your voices heard and your struggles recognized. Wanting the bare minimum of solidarity is NOT "making everything about trans men".

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ISAT and The Making Of An Actor

eyo who wants to talk about how siffrin/loops "actors in my stage play" analogy perfectly slots into a very specific unhealthy behavior Some People Do when theyre having a bad time which involves turning the people around you into Concepts and Ideas in order to make them easier for you to manage and feel like you're more incontrol of them because the truth is that they're extremely afraid of losing control and feel like they have no control in their lives?

Author mentioned that making this game was some kind of therapy and this is very apparant in many ways but I haven't seen anyone discuss This particular way and I've got a lot of thoughts and feelings about it.

Me and the psuedo psych nerds in the typology community already know this behavior well and who is applies to, and its not the only beavior reminisint of Siffrin (and You Know Who's) particular type, by a long shot.

So I kind of wish that this analogy of "keep to the script" "keep in character" "dont deviate from the play" "thy are but actors on a stage" had been taken to a more extreme stage.

Or actually, IS this what it looks like, to have someone be so insecure about their control insecrities that they just, become a jerk to you, because theyre convinced they're not in control enough? I've heard that in real life it looks much different and happens, not when the individual is simply going through a hard time and breaks down, but when those around them start to deviate from their roles.

If the actors are a means of compartmentalizing people into concepts to make their chaos of your life easier to manage, then I wouldve loved to see siffrins reaction done towards his family not simply because he was having a hard time and a breaking down, but because he cant handle it when The Actors Deviate From Their Roles. When they step out of the box Sifferin has put them into inside his head by saying or doing something that breaks one of the patterns Sifferin sees in their behavior.

Those pattern breaks often scare the shit out of people like sifferin because they suddenly think that their actor has lied to them, become something different, or that something is wrong or breaking because something new happened that they didnt expect. And it can create this feeling of being betrayed or lied to, and that wouldve made a lot more sense for an outburst from sifferin than simply him saying some of the meanest shit to his friends and family suddenly just because he was not okay.

If youve played the game then you already know that during the loops, sometimes the characters say and do different things seemingly at random, but no break down was had at any point when the Actors deviated from the script at those points, so it makes me think that maybe this isnt a Control issue at all and it was always a people issue instead. Maybe the control was always FOR the people in the first place?

"I have to control you so that I can save you and im mad youre not doing exactly what i expected you to do"? Maybe?

So many possibilities man.

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im almost thirty im weird im here im queer and im stupid and i wanna talk about isat and i got absolutley nothing going on and i have weird sleeping hours and if all of that is cool with you hit me up and talk about isat with me. im particularly dying to talk about post game stuff, au's and isafrin

consider this a flyer for friendship

you can also add me on discord @shadowlflight

perks of talking to me

been told i am easy to talk to

im not anxious and if you are i can crush yor anxiety beneath my heel

im not afraid to be weird or stupid around you so please be weird and stupid around me, itll be funner that way

if youre scared of looking stupid, dont worry because i will look stupider

i will say so much stupid things in fact i might make a whole stupid fanfic out of it or even a stupid drawing who knows the possibilities are endless

former homestuck, multishipper, cosplayer, dancer, fic writer, fanartist, idk are these enough nerd credentials

talk to meeeeeeeeeeeee

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tired of everything i say to anyone online being perceived in the most negative light regardless of what i say from now on im just going to communicate with people in the public space that is our internet and i dont care if you think its annoying or stupid or that im not srious or what fucking ever framing you decide to place around whatever i have to say because you cant handle public interactions on public spaces. i am a human i will be human with you and if you dont like i you can block me but until then i dont give a shit anymore

im annoying im serious im stupid im all of these things you can take it in the worst faith possible if you want to, i can make mistakes i can ask stupid questions i can get stupid answers i can make serious arguments i can make unserious arguments but i am gonna fucking talk god dammit, if youre gonna complain about people interacting with you point blank in ways that fall short of mind reading then idf know what to tell you, its gonna happen, im gonna do it, it will continue, deal with it

im a stupid member of society illc ontinue to be a stupid unwanted member of society

can you tell im depressed? sorry

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are these two emotions mutually exclusive? its fine if its not done the way youd like it to be, but that doesnt mean theres anything wrong with the way others do it either. the hatefuck and the hatemance have existed long before today, heres your opportnity to expand your horizons

girl what is fandom's obsession with headcanoning all romantic feelings as being there the entire time they've known each other. you guys are like "enemies to lovers" except as enemies they were in love. is the point not the development.