Thinking about how Cas was in love with Dean far before he was in love with humanity. Thinking about how Uriel would talk to Dean without Cas there because Cas stopped being devoted to God the second he saw Dean Winchester. Thinking about how Cas was willing to give up the only life he’d ever known to save Dean Winchester. Thinking about how when given the choice to go to Heaven or be with Dean and betray who he’d always been he chose Dean. Thinking about how Cas KNEW that the only way he’d ever be at peace was to tell Dean he loved him. Thinking about Cas seeing Dean bruised and bloody and his internal monologue being ‘still beautiful still Dean Winchester’. Thinking about Cas going through the parts of Dean’s routine that he has no need to be in (food runs, motel room stops to sleep, etc) just so he could spend more time with him. Thinking about how no amount of pain or fear or torture could ever make Cas love Dean any less. Thinking about how Cas went off on his own in Purgatory to keep Dean safe even if it meant never getting out himself. Thinking about Cas thinking Dean would be able to understand Enochian when he had no proof but he just thought that highly of Dean. Thinking about Cas smiling as he died because he knew Dean knew he was loved. Thinking about how Cas must’ve been so scared during the MOC arc but still thought about how to save Dean from an impossible situation instead of just leaving. Thinking about how Cas would look at Dean everytime he told a group of people he loved them. Thinking about Cas doing everything in his power to show Dean that he was loved even when he wasn’t a soldier. Thinking about Castiel and his love and how he loved without knowing how it worked and how he loved in spite of himself and in-spite of God. And thinking about how Cas was love and did everything for love and only knew love because he knew Dean Winchester.