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I remember you! How are you?

I am good. Life is crazy, so much has happened and changed in the last few years. Back in the US now. I survived the pandemic in Korea and was over it as of last year. I'm figuring out how I can readapt this blog for my current personal/professional interests.

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Well hello, You...

I have no idea what to do with this blog now. 

Not in Korea anymore, haven’t been able to keep studying either. Life is crazy when you have to actually adult in 2023 America. 

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“The real hopeless victims of mental illness are to be found among those who appear to be most normal. Many of them are normal because they are so well adjusted to our mode of existence, because their human voice has been silenced so early in their lives, that they do not even struggle or suffer or develop symptoms as the neurotic does. They are normal not in what may be called the absolute sense of the word; they are normal only in relation to a profoundly abnormal society. Their perfect adjustment to that abnormal society is a measure of their mental sickness. These millions of abnormally normal people, living without fuss in a society to which, if they were fully human beings, they ought not to be adjusted.” -Dr. Aldous Huxley

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Sometimes I don’t miss them. And sometimes I do…alot. Especially my 6 year old kindergartners and my 2nd graders. The 2nd graders I taught in 1st grade too so we knew each other well and had a great classroom dynamic (most days) and enjoyed learning together. I’ll definitely take the experiences and memories I had from working as an ESL teacher, even the part-time gigs I did as a student, with me as I move forward. #teachinginkorea #lastday #hagwon #expatinkorea #esl #korea #seoul #goodbye (at Seoul, Korea) https://www.instagram.com/p/CatNXNKPQh8/?utm_medium=tumblr

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So glad I never deleted this blog

A long time ago a lot of people advised me to delete the blog and just get off the internet because I was met with a lot of toxic people/cyber bullying/anonymous hate mail etc that was very overwhelming.

I am so glad I never listened to those people and stuck by my own resolve - the reason I wanted to keep MY blog was for MYSELF. so I could look back and see my memories. Find references. And guess what? Today I needed those.

I spent half this afternoon looking up everything I could find from this blog, my old Facebook posts, and emails etc to find out exact dates I was doing certain things here in Korea, when I traveled home, when I started working in certain jobs etc. because I was working on the paperwork to file my US taxes. 

It was brought to my attention recently that if I wanted to make my transition back into life in the States easier, having all my IRS shit taken care of and stabilized would be extremely helpful. I wasn’t aware that while living abroad I could even still file my US taxes, even if I wasn’t employed in the US. So for now, I’m working on filing the year 2012 for the last year that I worked before coming to Korea, and for last year 2020, because I was working full-time since I graduated. I can’t wait to stop being a teacher though. While I am quite good at it, I hate it. It’s too overstimulating for me and messes with my mental health and nervous system so much that I’m experiencing a lot of high-functioning anxiety that drains my body too much. I want the degree I spent the last 5 1/2 years busting my ass for to be worth something. I want forward progression. And I want out of this bubble in Korea. 

I am grateful for my good and awful experiences here and everything I have learned and all the people I have met and bridges I’ve burned and everything in between. it has made me the person I am today. It has shaped my mind and resilience incredibly.. But it’s time. 

So I’m spending this next final year taking the steps to move forward. I’m studying for the GRE. I’m going to apply to Grad Schools for Forensic Linguistics just to see if I can get it and what kind of programs I can attend/afford. Get my US taxes in order. Now that I’m gainfully employed, I can also make regular payments to my student loans that I couldn’t defer due to student-status because Korea University didn’t count apparently. So I’m going to get my credit fixed. I’m more focused on tomorrow and each day after that. I’m comfortable and prepared at work even though I dislike it and feel it sucking the life from me. But I’m making progress and taking steps. 

Taxes suck.

But I read alot of old posts from here and just WOW did I feel nostalgic. I have lived her since 2013. that’s more than 8 years! A lot of my feelings and thoughts and ideas haven’t changed much either. Evolved a little, maybe. But I’m still me. I spend so much time worrying that while I was focusing on all these goals and overcoming my struggles that I was losing myself. But I haven’t really lost myself. I’ve just sort of thrown a blanket over her and listen while she yells at me from under it lol

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Hey Seouliloquy, do you still sell girl scout cookies?

I Never did, so no.

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I’m a work in progress

Every day matters

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So...i abandoned tumblr for a few years.

I want to write a memoir so I was thinking about how I could use my old posts to recall stuff since I used to blog so adamantly about everything.

Really ought to lay off social media though instead of using more.

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Linguistics takes on the “What’s something that seems obvious within your profession, but the general public seems to misunderstand?” quote-tweet meme. 

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WAKE UP EARLY. DRINK COFFEE. WORK HARD. BE AMBITIOUS. KEEP YOUR PRIORITIES STRAIGHT, YOUR MIND RIGHT AND YOUR HEAD UP. DO WEL, LIVE WELL AND DRESS WELL. DO WHAT YOU LOVE, LOVE WHAT YOU DO. ITS TIME TO START LIVING.

GO GET IT, GIRL BOSS (via likemygirlofthesummer)

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The olympics...so close but so far...

I’m literally less than 3 hours train ride from the olympics in Pyeongchang and its so conveniently scheduled during the lunar new year holiday when foreigners in korea literally have NOTHING to do and like nowhere to go because Seoul practically shit down like a ghost town...

But there are no more free shuttle bus spots left and ktx train tickets are booked until at least sunday and cost like 40,000 won one way and tickets to some of the events are between 30,000-100,000 won!

And a bunch of people I know are going and i’m so jealous. This is a once in a lifetime chance and i cant use it because i literally have to survive for the next two weeks until payday next friday on 10 bucks, which i need to keep for transportation to and from work ㅠㅠ

This sucks.

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Reblog if you are determined to accomplish your health goals in 2018.

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i think it’s a shame that so many people speak perfect english just from the internet/tv and get no real recognition for it. there’s this horrible assumption that being fluent in english is just a given (propaganda from americans in cargo shorts i believe) and english is brushed off as an “easy” language. that isn’t the case at all and if you’ve learned english that’s amazing and im honestly in awe. i hate that people achieve so much to reach the minimum expectation, and then english speakers will pat themselves on the back for being able to count to 10 in french

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when u show ur parents an Amusing Thing on ur phone and they like “who is that? who wrote that? did ur friend take that pic? whos pet is that? where is that?” like i dont KNow fam its just floating around cyberspace and i caught it in my Blog Net and bestowed the Amusing Thing upon ur eyes i dont know the specifics my guy