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Still sick (going on 3 weeks of the same illness) and still not watching, but going to start writing a crack fic about The Great L.A. Flour Shortage where Buck has cleared the shelves of every store in the city to stop himself from calling Tommy and everyone has Had Enough.

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So I wrote heavy Tommy angst today, complete with inner turmoil and self-loathing.

I think it’s about time I get back to the fluff and ignoring 8.06.

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So I had an extremely awful month, and totally fell off of posting this. Got sick, overworked, then sick three more times. And the election happened and 8.06 happened and my motivation was dashed. So I thought I’d finish this off today, and I’m going to try to write more, both from this universe and outside of it. I hope you enjoyed it!!

Title: Bonds Woven Eternal

Rating: T

Relationship: Evan “Buck” Buckley/Tommy Kinard

Chapters: 8/9 and 9/9

Summary: “Two years later, Buck’s relationship with Tommy has grown so strong that he wants to propose to Tommy in their anniversary date. He has a plan: buy Tommy his favorite dessert from a nice restaurant along the shore.

The only hiccup in this plan: Tommy has the exact same idea.”

Sequel to: “A Life Woven Together”

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Posted my fix it fic to AO3.

If you haven’t read it, it does spoil 8.06, but if you haven’t, I hope you enjoy!

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Spoilers for 8.06 under the cut but I have a hastily written idea of what should happen, even if it seems likely that it won’t…

Buck is left broken from the breakup, spends weeks doing nothing for himself and dreading his own loneliness. His family at the 118 are concerned at his lack of joy and energy, but not one thing they do snaps Buck out of it.

A couple months pass and Buck decides to finally get back out there, maybe take Tommy’s advice. He has been openly queer for longer, maybe there is something to that advice. Maybe he will be able to connect with them like he used to. Back to Buck 1.0, he thinks. So he matches with a few people, and makes plans to meet up with a really hot guy.

The date goes really well. The guy is interesting. No cleft, but that’s not what he’s looking for. He needs different. Something that isn’t going to remind him of the pilot-shaped hole in his heart. He decides to go back to the guy’s place and see how compatible they are in bed. But as soon as things get hot and heavy with him, Buck realizes he doesn’t want this. He wants something deeper, something that this guy doesn’t have. He doesn’t want this. So he leaves without sleeping with him. Buck 1.0 reversion is a total failure.

His next match is with a girl. She’s gorgeous, dark hair, green eyes. She’s a total catch. Best thing, she’s not a guy. Guys remind him of someone he doesn’t want to think about. The date comes a couple nights later and Buck feels anxious about it. She is super interested in him, but the closer the date gets, the less interested Buck grows. He doesn’t cancel the date and tries to get to know her anyways, tries to feign interest as she talks. He can’t stop thinking about how this parallels Abby’s relationship with That Man, how he’s treating this girl the same way That Man treated Abby. At the end of the night, Buck decides against another date and returns home alone. He cannot bear to put either of them through a relationship that he does not want.

But what does Buck want?

What does he need?

The attraction was there with the man he met a couple nights ago. And it was there tonight when he was with the woman. He isn’t repelled from them. They’re just missing something.

Something like a cleft.

A flight suit.

Henleys.

That amazing cologne that Tommy put on before they go out on a date night.

Tommy.

He wants Tommy.

He needs Tommy.

His phone buzzes. Eddie texting him to come to the hospital. Apologizing for ruining his date. Buck scoffs, thinking there’s not much to ruin at this point.

He rushes to the hospital, expecting something with Bobby, Hen, or Chim. But finds Tommy.

“Why is Buck here, Eddie?”

“Buck has every right to know. Didn’t think you were going to cut him off completely.”

“We broke u-”

Buck isn’t going to let him finish this sentence.

“You broke up with me. This wasn’t mutual. How did this happen anyways?”

“That’s-”

“He fell out of the helicopter while servicing it. Banged his head pretty hard, bruised his neck. Nothing broken, don’t worry.”

Buck is seething. Tommy is not that careless.

“I’m okay, so you can leave, Buck. Eddie can take me home.”

“Enough with calling me Buck. Only my friends call me Buck. And you are not my friend. You never were just my friend. You were so much more. That’s why I wanted you to call me Evan that whole time. That’s why I hate it when you call me Buck!”

Tommy opens his mouth to speak and like hell Buck is letting that happen.

“And one more thing. I love you, Tommy. I didn’t want to say it like this, when I’m begging you to give us another shot. I wanted to say it when we were at home together, watching a movie, or lying in bed together after an amazing night. But it’s how I feel - I love you, and I don’t want anyone else. I don’t need anyone else. I just need you to love me back.”

Tommy looks at Buck, stunned into silence, the fight and belligerence from earlier dissipating rapidly as Buck speaks.

“What brought this on?”

Buck takes Tommy’s hand in his own.

“I came here from a date with a girl. I wanted to like her, but she wasn’t you. Neither was the guy I saw the other night. Couldn’t get out of his place fast enough.”

“You ended a date for me?”

“Well the date was over. I couldn’t even pay much attention. And the guy from the other night? Didn’t even make it to the bedroom. I couldn’t get you out of my head.”

“Why, Evan? I broke your heart…”

“Because, you idiot, I love you. And I thought I was the idiot.”

“Maybe I am an idiot…”

Neither noticed the moment when Eddie left the room, but both men look around for him, only noticing that they are alone, the monotonous beeping of the heart rate monitor adding to the silence in the room while neither man talks.

“Is that an apology or regret I hear?”

“I don’t know. Both? Do I even have a right to ask for forgiveness?”

“Why don’t you try and see? Make an effort like I did for you after you left me not once, but twice?”

Tommy stares intensely at Buck, trying to read if that challenge was playful or-

Is Buck the kind of person to goad him into asking for forgiveness only to deny it?

He has to try. Things haven’t been the same without Buck.

“I won’t leave you again…if you take me back, that is…”

Buck surges forward and kisses Tommy aggressively, stopping only when Tommy winces as his head throbs in pain.

“Fuck, I’m so sorry, Tommy. Is your head okay? Neck?”

“Yeah, I’m fine, just sore. In fact, probably better than I’ve been in the last couple months.”

Eddie wanders back in, finding Buck and Tommy almost cuddling in the hospital bed.

“Fucking finally. You two have made me miserable for two fucking months.”

He snaps a picture and sends it to a group chat. Buck’s phone buzzes, irritating him briefly.

Then Tommy’s phone buzzes.

Buck opens the text and it’s an empty chat history.

A new group text.

One with Tommy in it.

Only texts there being a pic of him and Tommy cuddling, captioned “Fucking finally. You all owe me $20!”

And Buck knows everything is right with the world.

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Work has been so brutal lately that I only just got to watching 8.01-8.04 last week and haven’t had time/sanity to finish uploading Bonds Woven Forever. Now I’m reading about what happened in 8.06, and coupled with Election Week and the fact that I’m sick? I feel so beyond nauseous. What the fuck???????

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New chapter of Bonds Woven Eternal later tonight! Resuming my daily posts (hopefully) and will (ideally) finish uploading fic by Tuesday!

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So life and work overwhelmed me and now I’m not feeling well. I promise I haven’t abandoned fic. Last 3 chapters will go up as soon as I can get a moment to breathe and feeling a bit better. Thank you to all who have been reading and who have been patiently waiting for the last chapters!

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So I was right. Work did make me miss a day. That means you get two chapters before I sleep, and another chapter in under 24 hours!

Time for Eddie’s POV, then back for more Chimney!

Title: Bonds Woven Eternal

Rating: T

Relationship: Evan “Buck” Buckley/Tommy Kinard

Chapters: 5/9 and 6/9

Summary: “Two years later, Buck’s relationship with Tommy has grown so strong that he wants to propose to Tommy in their anniversary date. He has a plan: buy Tommy his favorite dessert from a nice restaurant along the shore.

The only hiccup in this plan: Tommy has the exact same idea.”

Sequel to: “A Life Woven Together”

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And with Chimney’s point of view, the plot really starts to unfold. Enjoy!

Title: Bonds Woven Eternal

Rating: T

Relationship: Evan “Buck” Buckley/Tommy Kinard

Chapter: 4/9

Summary: “Two years later, Buck’s relationship with Tommy has grown so strong that he wants to propose to Tommy on their anniversary date. He has a plan: buy Tommy his favorite dessert from a nice restaurant along the shore.

The only hiccup in this plan: Tommy has the exact same idea.”

Sequel to: “A Life Woven Together”

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It’s that time again! Time for Maddie’s POV!

Title: Bonds Woven Eternal

Rating: T

Relationship: Evan “Buck” Buckley/Tommy Kinard

Chapter: 3/9

Summary: “Two years later, Buck’s relationship with Tommy has grown so strong that he wants to propose to Tommy on their anniversary date. He has a plan: buy Tommy his favorite dessert from a nice restaurant along the shore.

The only hiccup in this plan: Tommy has the exact same idea.”

Sequel to: “A Life Woven Together”

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This time it’s Tommy’s point of view! Hope you enjoy today’s chapter!

Title: Bonds Woven Eternal

Rating: T

Relationship: Evan “Buck” Buckley/Tommy Kinard

Chapter: 2/9

Summary: “Two years later, Buck’s relationship with Tommy has grown so strong that he wants to propose to Tommy on their anniversary date. He has a plan: buy Tommy his favorite dessert from a nice restaurant along the shore.

The only hiccup in this plan: Tommy has the exact same idea.”

Sequel to: “A Life Woven Together”

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So this took 2 months to fully write, and another 2 months to finish editing and post the first chapter, but I am finally ready to publish my new fic! I hope you all enjoy! Chapters will be uploaded daily (as long as my job allows it)!

Title: Bonds Woven Eternal

Fandom: 9-1-1

Rating: T

Relationship: Evan “Buck” Buckley/Tommy Kinard

Chapter: 1/9

Summary: “Two years later, Buck’s relationship with Tommy has grown so strong that he wants to propose to Tommy on their anniversary date. He has a plan: buy Tommy his favorite dessert from a nice restaurant along the shore.

The only hiccup in this plan: Tommy has the exact same idea.”

Sequel to: “A Life Woven Together”

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Looking for a beta for a BuckTommy Fic!

Warnings / potential triggers: None

Length of the fic & status: ~11,100 Words (9 Chapters), Complete

What you're looking for from your beta (Spelling & grammar, plot wrangling, vibe check, characterization etc etc): Looking for characterization checks, spelling and grammar, and a general check of the fic to make sure things flow nicely.

Summary under the cut:

General summary is that Buck is planning to propose to Tommy on their 2 year anniversary. He recruits Eddie and Maddie to help him. The only thing he doesn’t know is that Tommy also plans to use the same night to propose to Buck, recruiting Hen and Chim to help him. Soon everyone knows what is happening except for Buck and Tommy and their new job is to make sure the proposals go smoothly without letting on about the other proposal so the two men propose to one another at the same time. Fic shifts POV between Buck, Tommy, Maddie, Chimney, and Eddie.

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Editing on this fic is going very slowly due to IRL obligations and other crap keeping me busy, but I promise it’s coming! Also might not have a beta reader for Reasons. Might skip that step, might put feelers out to see if anyone wants to beta a 10k fic. I don’t know yet. Anyways though, I’m very sorry for the delay!

New BuckTommy Fic Coming Soon

Just finished the first draft to my new BuckTommy fic! Going to read through it a few times, edit things, then get my beta reader to help me edit it and check for characterization, then I'll throw it onto AO3, post it here, and update my Master List! Keep your eyes peeled!

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New BuckTommy Fic Coming Soon

Just finished the first draft to my new BuckTommy fic! Going to read through it a few times, edit things, then get my beta reader to help me edit it and check for characterization, then I'll throw it onto AO3, post it here, and update my Master List! Keep your eyes peeled!

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My 9-1-1 Fics (Master List)

A Life Woven Together (BuckTommy - 2114 Words)

"'Love you, babe!' Buck called as he left the apartment, freezing for what felt like minutes, hours, as he realized what he said.

His worries were put to rest immediately as Tommy walked over, gave him a chaste kiss, and responded, 'Love you too, Evan.' The words slipped out so effortlessly for both men, neither surprised the other said them. It felt natural, right."

After accidentally telling Tommy he loves him, Buck reflects on their relationship and realizes how deep his feelings for Tommy run.

Season 7 Introspective Drabble Series

One Fic is from Buck’s point of view, the other from Tommy’s. Can be read in either order. Each chapter depicts an introspective look of what Buck and Tommy were thinking during canon events.

Will be updated as I publish more Fics.