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할수없는 상황 제일 잔인하다

오늘 의 답답한일이 좀 많았어. enough to make me feel like writing a post in such a long while.  

was gymming today when I saw this kid jump into the pool while it was still raining. at first i thought maybe he was bullied into doing it cos there was a whole group of them playing and he was the only one in the pool picking up the bullets that they were shooting in. but it looked like he was having fun too so perhaps that wasn’t much of an issue. 

however the thunder sounds were still going on in the background, and while we couldn’t really see anymore lightning flashes, it’s still a possible danger. furthermore it was in a pool, how much better can the conduction get?! so at the end i really couldn’t hold it in anymore, as i was leaving the gym, i went up to the kid and told him that he shouldn’t be playing in the pool while it was raining because its very dangerous. but all he did was so quick to utter a ‘sorry’ and then didn’t seem like he was interested in anything other thing i was saying. however the point here really isn’t the sorry, it’s not even something to be sorry about because i wasn’t scolding him (i was really saying it very nicely). it seemed like he missed the point entirely and after that when i looked at the pool he was still in there, so it seemed like the message had not gotten through. his friends reactions were: guys just tried not to look me in the eye, girls frowned at me and looked at me like who are you to tell us what to do. but really kids all i wanted to let you know and prevent any possible guilt that you might have to bring with you for the rest of your life if something really happened to that friend in the pool. that you were there playing with him and you were a part of it, but that friend will never be the same. sigh i honestly wonder if i had done enough by just talking to the kid in the pool alone, or if i should have tried harder and tried talking/reasoning it out with the rest of the group.

thankfully though now the rain has stopped and nothing will happen. thankfully.

 another issue is this kid (perhaps upper primary or lower sec?) i see in the gym almost everyday and his extremely fierce and loud father. seems that his dad is desperately trying to get him to exercise (kid is not really on the fat side, but of course i wouldn’t say he was skinny either). and i would fully understand if his dad loses his tempter/shouts at him to get him to exercise cos i guess that’s how asian parents tend to act anyway. but the thing i really couldn’t stand was on one of the days i was there, the kid was exercising on one of those bicycle things, and the entire back of his shirt was soaked in sweat. so it clearly showed that he had been hard at work exercising. then suddenly his dad came in and shouted at him (yes with other people in the gym as well) and asked him why he was not on the treadmill. i mean if he was slacking off and not doing anything then yes perhaps that was called for, but it was clear that he had been hard at work exercising even if it was not on the treadmill. not only was it not an encouraging gesture to shout at him, it’s also embarrassing for the kid to be shouted at in front of everybody. not to mention at his age, even young kids who are shouted at in public know how to be embarrassed, i can only imagine how hurting it can be for his self esteem for his own dad to be doing that to him. sigh. it’s clear that this may not work out well for the kid but what to do :/ i can’t remember who mentioned this before but sometimes i really wish they do teach parenting in school. i mean it’s a seriously necessary life skill that nobody actually teaches you how to do but just expected to do a good job of it and raise great kids. 

그래도 한일이라도 좀 해결했으니까 좀 조으다. finally booked an overseas trip for this semester break, because i finally decided yesterday night that no matter how much i try to relax in home ground it’ll still not be the same. also i would choose not to go so far if i could, but our country is just that small and i can’t just go away to rural areas for a weekend trip, and our neighbouring country is too dangerous for that too. so ohwell. i did though try to go to a country that i haven’t been to before, although lol now more worries to come since i know nothing, nothing at all about where to visit or where would be good to stay lol. 

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no thanks korea for being so tourist unfriendly. never mind that you don’t have sites offered in English already, because I have already tried to pick up your language and can at least navigate my way around the site to find stuff that I want. now I can’t even pay for what I want to book? 이거 말이 되냐?? been trying for the past 3 hours (which could have been better spent studying for my finals in 2 days time tyvm) to book a package and failed, so decided to plan out the whole route myself instead, and failed again because I simply cannot book the train ticket (which would be wonderfully sold out by the time I get to Korea because I went to check just a few days ago and there were still 42 seats left for the day and time I wanted but today I check again and it’s all gone, so I can’t imagine how it would be when I reach there then book lol). 

v thankful that I have Korean friends who can help me out here and there but I really really don’t like inconveniencing others zzz. is it so hard for you to just include some international banks/cards like VISA or mastercard in your payment options lol. I see citibank too but all i get from the payment screen is forever an error message that the connection can’t be loaded lol. 

plus it’s not like I’m not stressed out enough w my 2 upcoming finals already that I have to deal w this shit right now omg. 미치겠네... 

and also tbt haeundae beach 2 years ago during the summer! 

//please can I escape for awhile 

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every time I'm here these days it's just to complain lol should seriously ditch this habit but what else to do in this time of misery. yep i have not taken a step out of the house since last weekend ever since the school term ended lol. not that I've been studying very hard either what with me finishing an entire drama series this week at one go. ohwell. what i thought was the worst module turns out to be the easiest module to study right now (although ok i must admit it makes my head hurt trying to figure things out but at least i feel like i make good progress when I'm done not like my other mods...) can't even be bothered to plan for my upcoming trip cos figuring out what to do is troublesome too esp when you go with someone who only knows what they don't want to do after you've suggested them but don't give suggestions on where to go. idk why i didnt insist on going on a solo trip especially since she'll just be coming back from london for 1 full day before we fly off again which i seriously swear its impossible to adjust to the time difference in that short a time (even i took a week to adjust when i got back..) oh whatever tickets have been booked and so has most accommodation and i should get around to booking the last 2 days but oh so lazy to plan. and also idk why the korail site is failing on me and telling me there are no trips on the day i want to travel because if there are no trips out then i shouldn't be booking the accoms lol. 피곤.

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The Hive (or more informally known as the Dim Sum building) introducing the prettiest building in my school haha finally washed my trauma psych essay off my hands (although physical submission isn't until tomorrow) but I've emailed the prof already so no turning back now haha. honestly the 1000 word limit is way too short for a proper research paper format style and everything just feels like touch and go. also because I'm not good at writing I can't fit my ideas well into few words ): oh well i hope it meets his expectations... also lol my progress for finals is really going very terribly zzz what's new lagging behind in my schedule already. i should seriously consider locking up all my phones and laptop. 잘생각해보니까 넌예쁘다라는말 한번도 들어본적이 없습니다 ㅠ 속상하다...

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Riga, Latvia, from the top of St Peter’s Church (November 2015)

the sky is too pretty omg <3

because doing my trauma psych essay brings up memories of this place so why not look at some photos while we’re at it. although lol doing trauma psych essay is traumatic in itself man zzz. i dont understand the requirements, the prof has specific things that he wants us to write, but what he wants doesn’t fit the style of a proper psych paper which is also what he wants... wrote out a first draft but keep putting it off in editing lol. only 2 days to deadline. 

너무 답답해, it’s ok just 2 more semesters of exam to go you can do this!! (assuming I dont go on to grad school immediately that is..) spent the weekend only going through 2 lectures 이게 뭐냐 ㅠㅠ and i was still so ambitious about finishing the entire module this weekend HAHAHA. only like 8 lectures more to go LOL. i love learning about environment microbes yay. 

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Just when I thought things couldn’t get any worse - drugs prof uploaded 6 new readings for the last teaching lecture, one of them being a 458 page textbook. like as if one textbook wasnt enough to kill us already. - wrote my entire essay in first person perspective only to clarify with the prof today and was told to write in 3rd person (that and im already way beyond the word limit and im not even done writing all sections yet hahaha)

what a trying week 12. (not looking forward to next semester either 😔 when I still have 5 core modules to take and my friend only has 2…. like what) . oh that reminds me I better find a fyp prof soon sigh

FNC is also crazy, how can they have Korea and Japan comebacks so close to each other seriously wtf. I guess they won’t learn their lesson until someone finally collapses from exhaustion on stage man.

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dayummm its exactly 3 weeks to finals from now and hurhur am seriously slacking wayyy too much for my own good (like wtf im currently following 4 dramas and 2 variety shows does that even make any sense 😕) but seriously every time i pick up my drug textbook it just makes my head spin instead and the amount of information to know and remember is overwhelming so i definitely have to do filtering and that in itself is time consuming and the text is difficult to understand so i have to keep rereading and also makes me doubt myself all the time if im filtering the right things to remember (THIS is why exams is about luck too unless maybe you have photographic memory then ooh joy good for you). judging from the results of my midterms clearly my choice of filtering didn't go well zz 😧 for now I've seriously given up on that book since the exam for it is also only in the 2nd week of finals. (besides finals for that is only bloody 30% and we have to remember 13 chapters of the textbook and 12 student presentations and an additional lecture the lecturer has not done yet to answer 80 MCQ questions and 5 essays in 2.5 hours i dont even.) but i do really need the grade too to pull the currently crappy grade (i mean midterms had a standard deviation of 13 marks like whut.) also immunology is worrying me again cos even though ive cleared up most doubts by studying for midterms (although my grades dont reflect that zzz) and can finally understand lectures much better now it just reminds me of how much i do not remember when ive just studied for those stuff like omly 2 weeks back? lastly i clearly regret my choice of UAEB, why was i adventurous to go pick one that seemed interesting but is obviously detrimental to my GPA but should have just gone w the safer option where i already have much more knowledge and lab skills in but dont like the prof ughhhhh. why why why. dumb decisions in life. also because i have no nice photos, this awesome picture taken by dear Mr Kang will have to do 😊 민혁아 고마워~ 드라마도 컴백도 힘내라!

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spent the weekend only reading 2 chapters of my drug textbook (T.T there's way too much to remember seriously and how to remember all the drug names and match them to their function when one drug has so many names?!) so screwed for this mod seriously idk how people managed to get over 90 marks for midterms (out of 100) i feel like my hair is all falling out for real spent the entire night doing translations and updates for CNBLUE's comeback today lol I'm hopeless. that's the entire night burnttttt omg. can we please dont have comebacks so near to finals period in the future? 😅 i think i should just delete social media for now and totally abstain from it. oh yea for the 1st time I actually bothered to watch their Vapp broadcast but lol I thought it was a waste of 1 hour 너무 심심해 and it was very unnerving that the subs were sometimes lagging and sometimes accurate. on the bright side i did spent half of Saturday somewhat fruitfully? going back to Eden and volunteering for their Autism Awareness Day carnival event and meeting some students 😊 although most of my dearest students have already graduated 😢 Light it up Blue for World Autism Awareness Month! ugh finals is creeping closer and closer but seriously am not working hard enough yet. really really cant afford to let GPA drop class 너 진짜 정신 안차려?! 더 더 더 열심히 공부 해야돼 ㅠㅠ 한국아 우리 곧 만나자~

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빅버스 송신

빅버스 응답하라

빅버스 넌.. 누구세요

clearly watching a drama based largely on romance is doing no good to me at all HAHA. also really doesn’t help when the main male lead is so damn hot ohwell. (speaking of hot when is this hot weather ever going to leave like seriously sweating buckets while trying to fall asleep)

only 3 weeks left to finals, have a seriously ominous feeling about GPA this sem sigh. can’t come so far to only have it drop class last minute right. worries don’t ever stop do they haha. why didn’t I consider going for exchange for 2 sems lol have enough graded credits to graduate already and allows for more GPA freeze AND can lead a less stressful life with more time for play (then again almost every weekend since semester has somehow been packed anyway). idk if it’s just me but time seems to go by so much more quickly during the sem here than on exchange. I mean where did those 3 months go seriously. It felt like forever for exchange to end lol. Not that that was a particularly bad thing. 

today is a pretty dreadful day of the year where you have to doubt everyone that you talk to and think twice to make sure you’re not getting tricked. sure must be hard to live in a world where no one can be trusted. speaking of trust… really wanted to rage at 강모연 for saying all those stuff to 유시진 especially after he had just lost a once friend that had betrayed him. killing someone who was once your friend is seriously no easy feat (which reminds me of the video prof showed in class today about how soldiers on opposing sides ceased fire on Christmas Day to celebrate together during WWII but continued their warfare after that. killing someone whom you’ve made merry with already is probably going to be tons harder than fighting with someone you don’t know??) 

also of course when I have nothing better to do tbt Jigokudani in Noboribetsu, Hokkaido, Japan

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iLight at Marina Bay

played my entire weekend away gosh. the best thing about having fun the whole weekend is well fun is self explanatory but lol it also means starting the new week feeling unrested hahaha. i actually planned to write this post on Sunday night but then i got lazy so finally found time during class (ironically because my profs this sem are srsly so zzzz).

had been wanting to go to iLight for quite some time now and thankful i managed to catch it on the second last day of its run! (didn’t know until i went haha so lucky)

the light displays were not too bad haha, reminded me of the light festival i went in Amsterdam but oh the weather is a world of difference. there were some interactive displays and the kids were having a whale of a time at the bubbles making station haha. oh the angel displays were nice too but didn’t get a photo there because the queue was just too long (i read somewhere that people queued for half an hour lol).

there was also Uncle Ringo carnival haha which my friends went around to every booth determining why it would be very hard/impossible to win the games LOL. honestly i think most people go there to have fun without thinking so much. but there werent many rides at the carnival although what was i expecting since its a temporary carnival anw how can they possibly have huge yet easily movable rides lol.

also remind me again never to get the matcha freeze from GongCha because its so terrible zzzz it tastes exactly like those instant matcha latte and it costs 5.50 zzzz. somehow it's always a bad idea to try new stuff from gongcha cos they turn out so bad lol.

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because how can i post about minions but leave out the gudetama exhibition that I saw in Hong Kong too haha (Langham Place- Aug 2015)

how can anyone not love him (come on be honest we are all naturally lazy to some extent) 

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throwback to Minions galore in Hong Kong (New Town Plaza) 

친구들 보고싶다. 

(also hate it when my parents have such double standards for my sibling and I zzzz. why must i get a job that is of prestige, why can’t I get to do what I like to do too and helping to improve the lives of people that i want to help without caring if it pays very well.) 

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오늘 저녁 Redpan at Marina Square 

its been awhile since the whole family ate out together, everyone is so busy with their own stuff (yes myself included i contribute to that terrible schedule) so it was nice we finally had a chance to do this thanks to Good Friday #TGIF indeed haha 

anyway we ordered:

-Char Siew Chili Fries (top left)

i would say it was a fresh innovative idea but mehh i wouldnt eat it again and i dont think the combination really goes that well. the fries at this place is good though that i would admit. 

-Pork Pops (top right) 

i would say this was the best dish out of all haha, although i would have preferred if the mango sauce wasnt that cold, and if it wasnt so fried but it was still deliciously sinful nonetheless 

-Portobello burger 

can totally give it a miss although it’s a recommended item on the menu i think, or maybe the leaf on the menu meant it was a vegetarian choice and not a symbol of recommendation?? hahaha 

-Prawn Hae bee hiam pasta 

it was okaaaay but wasn’t that fantastic, the pasta was kinda hard imo but then again i like soft pasta which i think most people dont like cos they think its overcooked haha. i would rather overcooked than undercooked (especially rice omg half cooked rice is the worst thing ever). i think this dish is the pretty hyped up dish at this restaurant so we couldn’t give it a miss haha. 

- Calamari rings 

the spice taste in the batter was pretty strong i didnt liked the dish all that much but it wasnt bad tasting haha 

also the worst thing was the thing i wanted to try the most at the restaurant was sold out LOL- their green tea matcha cake ohwell.. and their coconut panna cotta was sold out too.. honestly get quite annoyed when you go to a shop and they tell you this sold out that sold out way before their closing hours then lol i come for what haha. also apparently they have a secret/special menu that only their regulars know haha, so maybe can consider asking what their special is so you dont miss out on any good dishes. their service was good though (and they had eye candy waiters HAHA)  

most probably wont be going back to this shop except to try their matcha cake hmm. oh ya i drank their lychee earl grey tea too and that was a good combination (: but then again im really a sucker for earl grey so haha take it with a pinch of salt i guess. 

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저도 사랑하지말입니다. idk why this sentence is stuck in my head haha maybe i just like the rhythm of it. and i still can’t figure out the grammar structure of it so that i can form new sentences with the same form. anyway meet the hands down most popular guy in the K-universe right now. and hence the reason to look forward to Wednesdays (more like Thursdays since I still have to wait for subs ):)

anyway in the middle of a crazy week right now, there’s something due/to worry about everyday i feel like I’ve stopped caring already HAHA. a very good example would be how i should be doing my 10% assignment due early in the morning tomorrow but here i am typing this post.

in any case today seemed to be a good day (hence the happy guy above) because immuno midterms actually didnt go too badly (i think.) and my first interview (and currently only one sobs.) for internships went okay as well (although there’s a bunch of things i wish i didnt say and wished i said as well haha). in any case now that I’ve finally got to meet the people in the job and also got the chance to find out more about what exactly they do im seriously keeping my hopes up about getting this internship, so please fingers crossed and give it to me haha

oh ya another happy thing today is that CNBLUE announced their comeback for 4th Apr (which is all too soon but gives me the hopes that i can maybe take part in some comeback activity if I can finally decide if im going to Korea in May lol) and i seriously wanted to laugh out loud while waiting for the bus today when i saw their album title: Blueming (played on the word blooming) like are you serious guys hahaha. i just can't help but to keep seeing the word 'ming' as hanyupinyin

ok time to start on that horrid tutorial now about some weird plant in a harsh environment that i really dont want to know about lol.

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had pre ampted the shift back to mugger mode would not be easy and boy unfortunately was I so right about that. its not like I really miss exchange or anything but my mind feels so all over the place these days and I’ve been finding it so hard to just buckle down and study without being distracted or checking my phone every other 5 minutes. there’s this constant feeling of something that needs to be done but just not being able to accomplish anything/ having no energy to do it. i should really stop signing up for ad hoc stuff but it doesnt make sense cos the more packed your schedule is, the more you should be able to be more efficient cos there’s just more things you need to do in that same amount of time. but no somehow everything is just not working out. also with graduation drawing nearer and nearer that’s just another huge chuck of worry and i wonder if the day will come where i can actually do things without ever having to wonder if it will look good on my specs even if cross my heart and honestly it was not my original intention when i first took it up. but you just always somehow end up thinking about it anyway. especially when you’re forced to think about life after graduation you really start to realise that grades is seriously not everything and rather it is actually nothing in the whole grand scheme of things, but then you’re still stuck at the stage where you still have to care about grades so its like this limbo state just floating about not here nor there ugh. i feel so much connection with IU’s song now seriously. it is weird though that she feels the same way given that she already has a great career path set ahead of her. since the rest of Asia seems to be having lots of trouble with the sudden cold front recently what better than to reminisce about the cold that will never ever reach us haha because we are (un)fortunately protected by the sea. also the tortures of being awake at this hour are the hunger pangs. 난, 그래 확실히 지금이 좋아요 아냐, 아냐 사실은 때려 치고 싶어요 아 알겠어요 나는 사랑이 하고 싶어 아니 돈이나 많이 벌래 맞혀봐

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Lapland (in Northern Finland)! 

we went up to Rovaniemi during the Christmas period and boy were the airplane tickets expensive. (when I told my Finnish friend about the price he didnt believe it and said I got cheated LOL) 

we stayed there for a week and did quite a number of activities, most memorable ones would be snowmobiling and husky sled riding. snowmobiling was less smooth than I imagined it to be haha it was a pretty bumpy ride. husky ride was soooo cold seriously our feet froze even though I was wearing 3 layers of socks already and had to take so long to defroze them (didnt help that it was the coldest day when we were there when we did this activity -18oC without including the wind). the huskies were really enthusiastic about running though and they were really quite powerful, a tug from one of the pack is enough to jerk your entire sled forward. would have liked to stay w the huskies longer but it was way too cold for us to handle. 

after the adrenaline rush from the huskies ride the reindeers ride was no kick because we went at the pace that humans walked lol. but apparently reindeers can run really quickly too just that we didnt maximise their potential. 

we also did walking in the snow with snowshoes (and i mean literally walking in piles of snow with no proper path in sight at all) which was kinda dangerous cos there were rocks all over the place that you couldnt see buried under the snow and wouldnt be nice if you fell straight on one. we also went to Santa Claus village on Christmas day (this one is really worth skipping if you plan to go even though it’s the main attraction of Rovaniemi cos it’s like the true Santa’s hometown but it’s just a really commercialised place). 

we also did ice fishing where we had to drill a hole in the ice (the ice was actually not that thick? but luckily no one fell in hahaha) and nobody got any fish either lol. we also went to an ice restaurant which wasn’t a big deal to me either cos there weren’t many nice ice sculptures, but apparently someone was scheduled to have a wedding there that night (they have a wedding hall and even a room with a bed made out of ice blocks for the newly wedded couple). 

it was definitely a once in a lifetime experience (considering how expensive all the activities were as well haha) oh yeah and we got reindeer meat at almost every meal that we had there LOL. to me it smelt and tasted like mutton so maybe mutton lovers will like it. 

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because i haven’t been here in ages again and its exam period now (what’s new) time to post a short update (what better way to procrastinate studying) because of the lack of good food here I am seriously so dreading meals everyday now (especially since I have to cook myself and honestly only started cooking since I came to Finland no prizes for guessing how my cooking skills are) throwback to Korean food party 2 weekends ago! went over to my Korean friends’ dorm for lunch and they made 짜장면 (after seeing that picture of my epic failure in making it how embarrassing hahaha) 잡채 & 짬뽕 (oh how i missed it omg its so spicy and i suck at taking spice but i still love it so much anyway whats wrong with me) and we made 호똑 together i didnt know it was so easy to make haha. my friend even went to find paper so that i could hold it the traditional way LOL. Also watching all these korean shows is not helping one bit in the lack of food and i seriously need to go back to Korea soon!!! should start making a list of restaurants i want to go haha (and also go back and catch a 나쁜오빠 performance hopefully since their vocalist is now gonna be out of the army!) ok i wasted enough time very high chance I’m going to fail my music psychology exam on Friday obviously i overestimated my knowledge of music theory because i am seriously not getting all the technical terms and worse we have to read papers on them. please just let this be over smoothly thank you and let the holidays begin!!

제가 보고싶은 사람이 하나도 없겠지 ㅠㅠ  저도.. 연애하고싶다