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more cecil stedman doodles (i physically can’t stop)

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my very quick WIP attempts at drawing comic cecil 😔 not the best BUT IT’S something

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doodled my favorite little guy cecil :^))

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my main fursona/oc’s 2025 ref finished ! nothing major changed, just a few tweaks

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these two 🙏🙏

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redrew my main fursona/oc’s father after like 3 years LMFAO here’s the (not so) happy family !

little lore drop, main fursona/son is on the bottom, his name is Dark Frithswith Merik, or Dark for short, and his dad on the top is Kastor ! (in short their names spell Dark Caster bc i based them off the dark casters from terraria) (i know the resemblance is NOT there but they’ve been through a lot of character development trust😔)

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REPOSTING MY GEAR CAUSE I REMEMBERED THE other accessories LMAO

here’s some of my gear as an orc nonhuman + little roach therian <3

(if you’ve recently seen me in my gear i apologize for the double posts💔 these are better though i promise LOL)

(TW for (sheathed) knife under the cut!)

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i’ve been asked what being an uruk nonhuman is like, and it’s essentially just the same as being a wolf nonhuman. but you have two legs and opposable thumbs.

you want to eat meat. you’re a carnivore. you want to be part of a pack. you find safety in numbers. you want to bite your friends and use your teeth and bare your fangs. you growl a lot and love running around. you naturally want to travel long distances. you have an odd fascination with the moon and the night. you want to chase down your catches. you have a strong prey drive. you’re often nonverbal and just communicate through chuffs and nips. you want to smell like the forest. you want to mark your territory. you want to patrol said territory with your brothers and sisters. you want to twitch your big ears and sniff the air when you sense something.

but it’s also the sensation of balancing on two feet, having a flat face and ten fingers. and you get to drink alcohol and dance around like a fool

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NEW CLAWS

dude i’ve wanted claw gloves FOREVER i’m so glad i finally caved and bought them LOOK AT these guys i’m gonna be wearing them absolutely everywhere omg all the euphoria is lovely🙌🙌

edit : (got these from amazon)

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your daily reminder that it’s 100% completely OK to be a physical nonhuman, delusional nonhuman, clinical zoanthrope, clinical lycanthrope, holothere, transspecies, etc. and anyone who says otherwise needs to sit tf down LOL. try not to let other’s negativity get to you! i love you and you’re safe here :^) keep being you please

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Having a nocturnal type is so wonky sometimes. Like is this insomnia or just me and myself LMAO i can’t tell i just know I don’t want to sleep and i also suddenly have the intense urge to go foraging for food in the dark

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Sleeping and going to sleep are some of the most species euphoric times for me. Every creature sleeps yknow?

laying down, stretching my legs out, yawning and showing my sharp canines, burrowing into my den and nuzzling my blankets, my eyes closed, chest rising and falling with each breath, making little grunts and chitters as i get comfortable and move around, flicking my tongue out, ears pinning back, tail wagging slightly…

no one is there to judge me, my mind is blank and tired, i can feel all of my phantom limbs clearly, all i am in these moments is an animal. Nothing more.

I’m not sure how else to describe it. It’s like as I’m falling asleep I’m just fully shifted into my true form and I’m purely an animal. And all i know is that Ive never felt more like myself then when i burrow down and let out a sleepy sigh. Moments of pure animalistic bliss.

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people are so used to online content being curated for their consumption that they forget tumblr isn’t like that… this is my diary. I don’t post for other people. if you find the stuff I post depressing or annoying or too much or u don’t agree or whatever whatever…. that’s fine it’s not For You? it’s for me. there is no audience I’m performing for. feel free to unfollow me if u don’t like, I’m not a carefully crafted online persona I’m a real person

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Any other nonhumans who have never met another one of their species? goddamn it gets so lonely sometimes. feeling related to so many creatures, but not quite there. not quite fitting in. other specific monsterkins and demonkin where y’all at😭😭

Because I am definitely a pack animal, even if I’m not even an animal at all. I very much long for and dream of some type of connection with my own species. Humans constantly say it’s cruel to separate members of the same species, that, “a human could never replace what another ——— could” and we’re unfairly the exception

I feel like I’m lacking social skills. Not social skills when it comes to humans, but social skills when it comes to interacting with my own species😭

Anyways use this post to find more creatures like you if you can!? What are you? What’s your species?

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we always talk about how hard it is admitting to or coming out to a human that we’re different, that we’re animalistic or a different species than their own, but never how hard it is admitting to what we actually are.

maybe it’s just me. i have a lot of shame hanging around my nonhuman identities. i’m a demon, of sorts, a very specific type of demon, but a demon nonetheless.

admitting to people that i’m nonhuman, that i’m different has become a sense of pride. something i’ve gotten better at. but when it comes to admitting to what i actually am… shame. guilt. tail tucked between my legs and all.

they now know what i’m capable of. or what i’m not capable of, not anymore. something to be laughed at. or maybe i’m something to be feared. or maybe i’m just here to be looked down upon. depends on the human.

it never gets easier. it’s never gotten easier. i physically have trouble saying what i am out loud sometimes, which is strange.

because i accept myself. i have for a long time. i’m proud of myself, at that. i’m proud of my identity. i’m proud to be a demon. i’m so happy with myself, i would never change myself or ever choose to be anything else.

but it’s just… admitting that to someone else. when they can see me for who… or more so what i really am.

when i admit what i am, i fear there are only two reactions. fear, fear for what i am, fear for what these claws and teeth are capable of, or humiliation. the chance to be laughed at and prodded and made fun of.

not the fact that i’m nonhuman, the fact that i’m this… specific creature.

does anyone else feel this way? or is this just a very… personal matter?

this is also the main and possibly only source of species dysphoria for me. the fact that i’m… perceived in ways. i wish i could just shut my brain off sometimes lol

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wanting to do some art trades!! i can draw pretty much any creature whether humanoid, human, more animalistic or just an animal or furry. will do nsfw and gore. will NOT do anything morally wrong (anything racist, anti-lgbtq, antikin, anything involving children, anything nsfw involving feral animals or animals in general, etc.)

willing to do fully rendered pieces of artwork.

would like anyone interested in a trade to be over 18 please.

would prefer one of my humanoid orc characters to be drawn, so if you can do humanoids pls hit me up!

some examples of my work under the cut.

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drawings of my baby sylvester who passed away several days ago. i now have these pictures up by his memorial/altar