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NEW CLAWS

dude i’ve wanted claw gloves FOREVER i’m so glad i finally caved and bought them LOOK AT these guys i’m gonna be wearing them absolutely everywhere omg all the euphoria is lovely🙌🙌

edit : (got these from amazon)

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your daily reminder that it’s 100% completely OK to be a physical nonhuman, delusional nonhuman, clinical zoanthrope, clinical lycanthrope, holothere, transspecies, etc. and anyone who says otherwise needs to sit tf down LOL. try not to let other’s negativity get to you! i love you and you’re safe here :^) keep being you please

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Having a nocturnal type is so wonky sometimes. Like is this insomnia or just me and myself LMAO i can’t tell i just know I don’t want to sleep and i also suddenly have the intense urge to go foraging for food in the dark

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demonkin love

(some writing for my mate/partner👁️) (cw for religious mentions)

to love you is a sin i wear proudly.

for you are my most treasured salvation, my only redemption. your heartbeat drowns out the eternal screams of my existence, your love overwhelming my every thought and carrying me when i slaughter my own sanity.

for in your arms, even i, a creature of despair, find the echos of safety, the scant scent of heaven. it’s alluring. how could it not be, for a beast like me? we both walk in shadow, you and i, but when you look at me, the darkness suddenly feels holy.

i can’t promise anything. i am what i am… a demon, a monster, a creature born out of twilight. i have a past as dark and as bloody as your winding veins. as twisted as our broken minds and as corrupt as our sacred bodies.

but i know this… i never want to be alone. i never wish to know the silence, the emptiness that would echo inside me with your absence.

so stay with me. let me worship you the way i have never been worshipped. let me bow to you and allow you to be my god. let me show you the depths of my own devotion.

stay with me, and let me impale myself on this sharpened blade you call love. i will gladly fall on it again and again to be with you. i love you to the point of pain and i crave more. more love. more you. i love you.

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HAPPY DEMON HAPPY DEMON YALL

i finally gave in. i finally did it. I BOUGHT NEW ACTUAL GEAR. all my gear thus far has been shit i’ve scavenged from renfair, clothing, jewelry etc.

but i finally gave in and i bought a SCARY COOL ASS MASK AND A TAIL AND SCARY DEMONIC CLAW GLOVES AND NEW EARS (and new glasses too!) and i just RAGGHHH RAGH RAGH

i am ready to cause DESTRUCTION and i can’t WAIT FOR MY SHIT TO ARRIVE

WOULD YALL WANNA SEE MY NEW gear when it gets here i’m desperate to show it off pleasse say yes i’m actually dying with excitement and joy

sorry i just needed to share this information with someone i’m so happy

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Sleeping and going to sleep are some of the most species euphoric times for me. Every creature sleeps yknow?

laying down, stretching my legs out, yawning and showing my sharp canines, burrowing into my den and nuzzling my blankets, my eyes closed, chest rising and falling with each breath, making little grunts and chitters as i get comfortable and move around, flicking my tongue out, ears pinning back, tail wagging slightly…

no one is there to judge me, my mind is blank and tired, i can feel all of my phantom limbs clearly, all i am in these moments is an animal. Nothing more.

I’m not sure how else to describe it. It’s like as I’m falling asleep I’m just fully shifted into my true form and I’m purely an animal. And all i know is that Ive never felt more like myself then when i burrow down and let out a sleepy sigh. Moments of pure animalistic bliss.

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kinda bored and wanting to draw, so taking art requests now?! Need the practice loll. Would like to draw anyone’s kintypes or theriotypes ^^ can draw both humanoids and animals so don’t hesitate to reach out !! my asks are currently closed, but feel free to leave a comment under this post if you want :^) will tag you when i finish your request !

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people are so used to online content being curated for their consumption that they forget tumblr isn’t like that… this is my diary. I don’t post for other people. if you find the stuff I post depressing or annoying or too much or u don’t agree or whatever whatever…. that’s fine it’s not For You? it’s for me. there is no audience I’m performing for. feel free to unfollow me if u don’t like, I’m not a carefully crafted online persona I’m a real person

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Any other nonhumans who have never met another one of their species? goddamn it gets so lonely sometimes. feeling related to so many creatures, but not quite there. not quite fitting in. other specific monsterkins and demonkin where y’all at😭😭

Because I am definitely a pack animal, even if I’m not even an animal at all. I very much long for and dream of some type of connection with my own species. Humans constantly say it’s cruel to separate members of the same species, that, “a human could never replace what another ——— could” and we’re unfairly the exception

I feel like I’m lacking social skills. Not social skills when it comes to humans, but social skills when it comes to interacting with my own species😭

Anyways use this post to find more creatures like you if you can!? What are you? What’s your species?

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we always talk about how hard it is admitting to or coming out to a human that we’re different, that we’re animalistic or a different species than their own, but never how hard it is admitting to what we actually are.

maybe it’s just me. i have a lot of shame hanging around my nonhuman identities. i’m a demon, of sorts, a very specific type of demon, but a demon nonetheless.

admitting to people that i’m nonhuman, that i’m different has become a sense of pride. something i’ve gotten better at. but when it comes to admitting to what i actually am… shame. guilt. tail tucked between my legs and all.

they now know what i’m capable of. or what i’m not capable of, not anymore. something to be laughed at. or maybe i’m something to be feared. or maybe i’m just here to be looked down upon. depends on the human.

it never gets easier. it’s never gotten easier. i physically have trouble saying what i am out loud sometimes, which is strange.

because i accept myself. i have for a long time. i’m proud of myself, at that. i’m proud of my identity. i’m proud to be a demon. i’m so happy with myself, i would never change myself or ever choose to be anything else.

but it’s just… admitting that to someone else. when they can see me for who… or more so what i really am.

when i admit what i am, i fear there are only two reactions. fear, fear for what i am, fear for what these claws and teeth are capable of, or humiliation. the chance to be laughed at and prodded and made fun of.

not the fact that i’m nonhuman, the fact that i’m this… specific creature.

does anyone else feel this way? or is this just a very… personal matter?

this is also the main and possibly only source of species dysphoria for me. the fact that i’m… perceived in ways. i wish i could just shut my brain off sometimes lol

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wanting to do some art trades!! i can draw pretty much any creature whether humanoid, human, more animalistic or just an animal or furry. will do nsfw and gore. will NOT do anything morally wrong (anything racist, anti-lgbtq, antikin, anything involving children, anything nsfw involving feral animals or animals in general, etc.)

willing to do fully rendered pieces of artwork.

would like anyone interested in a trade to be over 18 please.

would prefer one of my humanoid orc characters to be drawn, so if you can do humanoids pls hit me up!

some examples of my work under the cut.

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drawings of my baby sylvester who passed away several days ago. i now have these pictures up by his memorial/altar

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i unfortunately just pace a ton, but driving also puts me at a sense of peace when it comes to my zoochosis. just take my car out for a little longer than i need to if i have to go somewhere. it fills the need for repetitive and self destructive actions well

My living situation is making me develop some kind of zoochosis I think.

Physical nonhumans and clinical zoanthropes, how do you deal with it?

I've been wondering if I have some kind of clinical zoanthropy going on as well. I'm not sure, but I've been thinking about it a lot. My shifts as of late are turning into transformations and it's distressing. It usually happens at night when I try to sleep. It pains me that I can't go outside and disappear into the wilderness.

It's probably my body's way of protecting itself when I'm vulnerable, and I know it's some psychological thing, but I'm becoming more and more aware of just how nonhuman I am.

There isn't any humanity in me left.

I'm afraid nobody will understand.

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WoF/dragon oc :)) (tw for blood under the cut) colors are kinda based off the dragon mounts legacy ghost dragon LOL iykyk

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i’ve seen a lot on the topic of nonhuman packers and sexual wellness the last couple of days, but what about reproductive wellness as a whole?

any other nonhumans crave pups? to have children with another partner of the same species?

and by that i mean another consenting human with the same nonhuman type.

cause oh hell, i do. i already have a packer from my own species, so i’m well off in that area. but pups? i would die to have a litter of my own. opinions on this? on wanting to nurture children the same way your species would? about pregnancy and birth as a nonhuman? about partnership? i think these are also important opinions and thoughts to spread around as well, within adult alterhuman spaces

this is something I've personally been struggling with. i’ve seen many people, even other nonhumans calling these odd or wrong thoughts to be having, about not wanting human kids unless they’re actually your pups.

i think it’s a normal thing to want, as a nonhuman. as long as everyone is consenting and comfortable. what do y’all think? is it wrong to want to have a nonhuman partner? the same nonhuman type as you? and to want to reproduce with that consenting partner?

i’m genuinely also asking for therian’s opinions on this. i have a more humanoid type (orc/werewolf mix), so i can’t speak for nonhumans with full animal types. genuinely curious to hear other thoughts on this. (and anytime i talk about nonhuman reproduction in this post, i’m specifically talking about humans who identify as nonhumans, not actual animals, obviously.)

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”who tf ate my last cookie”

my devious fatass

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reminder that animal genitalia packers are cool and awesome and great at relieving species dysphoria and you are NOT a zoophile for wanting or having one!

and for the record, minors should stay out of discussions like this :) it's okay to be uncomfortable with packers and animal genitalia but it is NOT okay to harrass people who utilize them!