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Individuals born under Purva Phalguni Nakshatra have a strong inclination toward partnership and marital stability. They often view solitude unfavorably, which motivates them to actively seek companionship and committed relationships. Establishing a secure and harmonious domestic life seems to be deeply rooted in their psychological makeup, representing a key aspect of their perceived well-being.

Indeed, individuals with Purva Phalguni Nakshatra frequently prioritize cultivating marital happiness, indicating that achieving a fulfilling conjugal relationship is central to their sense of purpose and overall life satisfaction. This inherent drive for connection and domestic harmony highlights the importance of interpersonal relationships in shaping their values and motivations.

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2️⃣Planetary Conjunction Observations - Mercury Edition2️⃣

Note: These are all my personal observations and patterns I've noticed over the years. Take what resonates with you more and leave the rest. Lemme know in the comments if it hits home!

Sun - Mercury conjunction natives speak boldly and hold their head high. They are well-mannered and won't tolerate anyone disrespectfully treating them. Can get support from father or uncle. Will be close to their sibling if they have any. A tight conjunction can point to identical twin siblings in some cases. Can become famous for their personality.

Moon - Mercury conjunction natives are flirty and know how to seduce their partner. These natives are conventionally pretty. If they have a sibling, they might not get along well with them or may have conflicts in their relationship. Can be good at science or fond of knowing about the universe. Some with this placement can become a scientific researcher. They can understand complex formulas or could be in search of finding the truth about aliens, the paranormal, death, or what lies beyond this 3D plane. Sometimes, they can get obsessed with certain thoughts and can be seen as weirdo. They can be hilarious to talk to. In some cases, it can point to neurological issues or mental health issues if afflicted.

Venus - Mercury conjunction natives are attractive, sweet, and are experts in dealing with finances. For men, they can become friends with women more than men, and for women, they can become friends with men more than their own kind. Has a natural ability in fashion designing, singing, dancing, or drama. Would be blessed with abundance and creativity. If it's in the 5th house, it can indicate giving birth to twins.

Mars - Mercury conjunction natives are straightforward and fast thinkers. Talk first, think later. In some cases, can have a raspy voice or issues regarding their speech if afflicted. Can be quite aggressive in nature and can be quick to react. In some cases, might face issues regarding their education or could even drop out, or could have been homeschooled or studied part-time. Can have issues with their sibling if they have any. Good placement to pursue medicine, architecture, the manufacturing industry, athletics, etc.

Jupiter-Mercury conjunction natives are educated and possess worldly knowledge. Jack of all trades. Can become friends with people "in the know," or they can be self-made. Has natural ability in filmmaking, photography, or culinary arts. Potential to win a lottery. Rags to riches. Would live a comfortable life after 25. Can speak more than one language. Spouse can be of a different nationality. Can be involved in animal rescues, planting trees, or in some form of volunteering for the underprivileged. Can be a collector of some kind.

Saturn-Mercury conjunction natives are reserved and can have a dry or dark humor sense. They are good at standing up for others rather than standing up for themselves. Can face a lot of maltreatment or discrimination at work or in society but would win over them later in life. Can become a motivational speaker or can write an autobiography. Can have conflicts with their father or male authorities.

North node - Mercury conjunction natives can speak to the dead or can sense things beyond our realm. Can experience psychic visions or have the ability to predict their future. Lucid dreamers. Good placement to pursue a career in astrology, tarot, UFO researcher, paranormal investigator, crime investigator, detective, researcher, etc. Good at following a path that the majority won't. Can be good at writing, coding, or math. Can have little to no friends.

South node - Mercury conjunction natives can change their career or their major at university. Can have a degree in a certain field of study but can work in a completely different profession. Can be blunt and can come off as rude or aloof. Can have some psychological issues in some cases. Could have been betrayed by their best friend or partner. Trust issues level 99. Good placement to pursue a career in horticulture, gardening, and electronic engineering. Might not get along with their relatives. Can get in panic mode in 0.3 seconds.

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Moon Oppositions: What Do You Need to Balance?

Moon opposite Sun

That’s like having your heart and your head playing tug-of-war—on a seesaw—in a windstorm. It's the classic internal “Should I stay or should I go?” kind of energy. On one side, your Sun represents your conscious self, what you want to become, how you shine in the world. The Moon? That’s your emotional core, your needs, your instincts—basically the cozy blanket you wanna wrap yourself in after a long day of pretending to have it all together.

With the opposition, those two aren’t exactly sending each other birthday cards. It can feel like you're constantly choosing between pleasing yourself and pleasing others, or between doing what you want versus what you need. Like, your Sun says “Go out and chase the dream!” and your Moon’s like, “But... snacks and Netflix?”

So how do you balance this? First off: self-awareness. Realize that both sides of you are valid. You don’t have to suppress one to live out the other. It's not a cage match, it’s a collaboration—like peanut butter and jelly. (Okay fine, maybe more like pineapple and pizza... not for everyone, but somehow it works.)

Make time to check in with yourself emotionally before committing to things that push you toward your Sun's goals. Ask: "Am I doing this because it truly aligns with me, or because I’m trying to silence my inner Moon-child with productivity?" And when you’re deep in your feelings, maybe crying at a car commercial, ask: “Is this just a mood swing or is my inner self needing attention I’ve been avoiding?”

Another trick: externalize it. Journaling, therapy, long walks where you talk to yourself like you’re in an indie movie—anything that helps you mediate the internal Sun-Moon debates.

And give yourself some grace. You’re literally wired for complexity. You’re not “too much”—you’re just multidimensional. You’re the human equivalent of a moody playlist that somehow always hits the vibe.

Moon opposite Mercury

That’s like your brain and your heart sending each other passive-aggressive texts. Mercury is all, “Let’s talk this out, be rational,” and your Moon’s like, “I don’t feel like it.” Classic head-versus-heart vibes, but instead of taking turns, they talk over each other—loudly. In different languages.

So here's the deal: your mind wants to analyze everything, probably while pacing or talking a mile a minute. But your emotions? They’re more like, “Can we just sit in this feeling without turning it into a TED Talk?” And honestly, sometimes you're not even sure if you're feeling a thing or just thinking about feeling it—which, let’s be real, can be exhausting.

This opposition can make communication with others a bit tricky too. You might express your emotions in a way that doesn’t quite land the way you meant it to. Like saying, “I’m fine” in a tone that makes people wonder if they need to call backup. Or you try to explain your feelings in such a logical way that people are like, “Wait, are you feeling this or writing a thesis on it?”

To balance this, you need to pause. When emotions come up, let yourself actually feel them before trying to label or explain them. That might look like journaling where you don’t edit yourself, or just sitting with a feeling like it’s an awkward roommate you’ve agreed to peacefully co-exist with.

Also: listen to your gut and your head—don’t just default to one. Sometimes your Moon is whispering the truth while Mercury’s throwing a slideshow presentation trying to convince you otherwise.

And don’t worry if people don’t always “get” your emotional process. You’re not broken; you’re just processing life through both intuition and intellect—and that’s actually kind of a superpower... once you stop letting them argue in the group chat of your mind.

Moon opposite Venus

Ahhh Moon opposite Venus—you sweet, conflicted little cinnamon roll. This one’s the emotional equivalent of wanting to hug someone and ghost them at the same time. On one side, you deeply crave connection, affection, and beauty (thanks Venus), but on the other, your Moon is like, “I need safety, comfort, and emotional honesty, not just flowers and flirty emojis!”

So here’s the tea: you might feel like your emotional needs and your relationship style are always in a bit of a standoff. Like, you want to be loved so badly... but when someone actually starts loving you, your Moon gets suspicious like, “Wait... what’s the catch?” Or maybe you’re being super giving and sweet (Venus things), but low-key resenting it later because your deeper emotional self (Moon things) wasn’t really on board.

You can come off as charming and lovable—and you are! But sometimes people fall in love with the Venus side of you, and they don’t even get to see what your Moon really needs. And that can leave you feeling weirdly lonely in relationships, like you’re showing up but not fully seen.

Balancing this opposition means getting super real with yourself. Ask: "Am I being nice and accommodating because I want to, or because I’m scared they won’t love me if I’m not?" And when emotions rise up, resist the urge to smooth it over too quickly. You don’t always have to be the peacemaker or the pleaser. Sometimes you need to throw your Moon a blanket, some tea, and say, “Alright babe, tell me what’s really going on in there.”

This aspect is a classic setup for learning about self-worth. You’re here to figure out how to love yourself enough that you don’t trade your emotional truth for approval or affection. And once you start owning both sides—your deep emotional sensitivity and your love of pleasure, romance, and aesthetics—you become that person who’s not just attractive, but emotionally magnetic.

Moon opposite Mars

Buckle up, babe, because your emotional world is running on adrenaline and vibes. This aspect is like having your feelings drive a race car with no seatbelt—fast, reactive, and occasionally screaming out the window.

So what’s going on here? The Moon is your emotional core, your instinctual needs, your inner softie. Mars? Mars is your drive, your anger, your “get out of my way, I got this” energy. When they’re in opposition, you’ve basically got a cosmic tug-of-war between wanting to feel safe and wanting to punch a wall—figuratively (hopefully).

You might find that your emotions flare up fast. Like, someone says the wrong thing and you go from “I’m fine” to “OH REALLY?!” in 0.5 seconds. But here’s the twist: a lot of the time, the anger is covering up vulnerability. Mars wants to fight, but your Moon just wanted a hug... and now everyone’s confused, including you.

This can make relationships feel intense. You want connection, but when someone gets close, you might instinctively push back or get defensive. It’s not that you don’t want love—it’s that your system is primed for fight-or-flight, not cozy cuddle sessions. (Though secretly, you totally want those cuddle sessions. Don’t lie.)

Balancing this energy means finding healthy outlets for Mars—like movement, assertiveness, or even yelling into a pillow if you have to. You need to express your emotions through the body, not just in your head. Otherwise, that emotional tension builds up and boom—outbursts.

Also? Learn to recognize when you’re reacting to a now moment versus an old emotional wound being poked. Moon-Mars oppositions sometimes bring up stuff from the past—especially around feeling unsafe, unheard, or not in control. The trick is not to go full rage mode when your inner child just needed some reassurance.

When you start working with this opposition, not against it, you actually become a total powerhouse: emotionally brave, fiercely protective, and capable of taking action in alignment with your true feelings. You just have to get past the reflex of turning every emotion into a battle.

Moon opposite Jupiter

That’s the emotional equivalent of saying “just one cookie” and then suddenly you’re three episodes deep into a rom-com marathon with the whole box gone. This aspect is big feelings, big reactions, and a tendency to turn everything into either a soap opera or a TED Talk—sometimes both, in the same conversation.

See, the Moon is your emotional needs, your instincts, your private, cozy self. Jupiter is the cosmic hype-man—he wants more, bigger, better, now. When they’re opposite each other, it can feel like your emotions are on a rollercoaster with zero brakes. You feel things deeply, but also might blow them a little out of proportion. Like, “they didn’t text back” suddenly becomes “I guess love just isn’t real anymore.”

This aspect can also make you super generous—emotionally, materially, all the things. You're probably the type to give more than you really have sometimes, whether it’s time, energy, money, or love. You want to help and be there for people, but then your Moon's like, “Wait… who’s here for me though?”

And don’t even get me started on overindulging as emotional self-care. This placement loves comfort food, comfort spending, comfort people—whatever gives that short-term oooh yes feeling when you're emotionally low. But then… regret. And maybe a stomachache.

So how do you balance it? Two words: emotional moderation. Jupiter loves to go overboard, so you’ve got to create a system that checks in with your feelings before you act on them. Like, "Am I really sad, or did I just forget to eat lunch?" "Do I need to send this 5-paragraph text, or am I just spiraling a bit?"

And gratitude is your secret weapon. When Moon and Jupiter are out of sync, it’s easy to feel like nothing’s ever enough. But when you slow down and actually soak in what you already have—emotionally, materially, spiritually—you become an absolute magnet for abundance, in a way that’s grounded and sustainable.

Moon opposite Saturn

That’s deep. It’s like your inner child is quietly clutching a blanket while Saturn stands over them with a clipboard asking, “And how exactly do you plan to justify these feelings?”

This aspect can feel like a constant internal tension between wanting emotional comfort (Moon) and feeling like you don’t deserve it unless you’ve earned it (Saturn). So yeah, fun stuff. Cue the emotional restraint, the “I’m fine” mask, and that little voice that says, “No one’s got time for your feelings—be strong, get it together.”

You probably learned early on that expressing vulnerability wasn’t always safe or welcome. Maybe you had to grow up too fast. Maybe you were the responsible one when you really just needed a hug and someone to say, “It’s okay to feel this.” So now, there’s this adult-y Saturn vibe that tries to “manage” your Moon instead of feeling it. Think: emotional tightrope walking in a windstorm.

You might not cry easily, or when you do, it feels like a failure. (Spoiler: it’s not.) You could even push people away when you really need closeness, because Saturn whispers, “Don’t be needy. Be strong.” Meanwhile, your Moon is screaming into a pillow.

But here’s the powerful truth of this aspect: you are emotionally resilient. You can handle deep, heavy feelings—and still function. You just have to give yourself permission to soften. That doesn’t mean being messy 24/7—it means allowing your inner self to feel without immediately judging, fixing, or shutting it down.

Balance starts when you recognize that emotions aren’t weaknesses. They’re signals. The Moon wants you to nurture yourself; Saturn wants you to grow. You don’t have to pick one. You can build emotional security—but it starts from inside, not from checking every box on Saturn’s to-do list.

And relationships? Yeah, they might feel like work. You may test people before letting them in. You might even feel like you have to earn love. But when you find people who can hold space for your emotional walls and the tenderness behind them? That’s when everything shifts.

Moon opposite Uranus

The cosmic equivalent of needing a hug but then flinching when someone touches you. This is the signature of the freedom-loving feeler. You want a connection... but on your terms. And your terms change every five minutes.

Your Moon wants emotional security, routine, and people who understand you without needing a decoder ring. Uranus? Uranus wants space, unpredictability, and “don’t tell me what to feel!” energy. So when these two are facing off, you get this wild internal dance between craving closeness and bolting the second things feel too emotionally intense or boring.

You probably grew up learning to emotionally self-soothe, maybe because caretakers were unreliable or emotionally unpredictable. So now, when someone gets too close or expects too much of your emotional side, your instinct is, “Nope! Gotta go!” Cue sudden mood shifts, relationship zig-zags, and that mysterious vibe you give off like you're emotionally available until you're absolutely not.

But here’s the thing—you’re not broken, you’re just wired for emotional independence. You’re not meant to do emotions the traditional way. Your emotional rhythm is unique, electric, and yes, sometimes chaotic. You feel best when you have space to be, and when your relationships are based on trust, not control.

Balancing this aspect means learning to sit with discomfort instead of instantly reacting to it. Don’t ghost your own feelings. Don’t bail the second someone tries to emotionally connect with you. Ask: “Is this real discomfort, or just fear of being too seen?”

And let’s be honest, you need stimulation to stay emotionally engaged. Same-old, same-old just doesn’t cut it. So build that into your life: create a routine that allows for change, be around people who give you freedom and depth, and give yourself permission to feel weird without needing to explain it to anyone.

Moon opposite Neptune

Welcome to the emotional fog machine. This one’s like your heart is trying to tune into a frequency but keeps picking up static, movie soundtracks, and someone else’s dreams. It’s beautiful, poetic, and deeply intuitive—but also confusing as hell.

The Moon is your emotional baseline, your need for safety and realness. Neptune? Neptune floats in on a dreamy cloud with glitter, illusions, and zero regard for boundaries. When they’re opposite, it can feel like your emotional reality and your perceived emotional reality are in two different dimensions. One wants to feel secure and grounded... the other wants to believe in fairy tales, soulmates, and “maybe if I just manifest it harder…”

You’re probably super empathetic—like, almost too much. You absorb other people’s emotions like a sponge and then wonder why you feel overwhelmed for no reason. You cry during commercials. You fall in love with potential. You give people the benefit of the doubt way past the expiration date.

And here’s the sneaky bit: this opposition can make it really hard to tell if your feelings are yours or if they’ve been shaped by fantasy, projection, or someone else’s energy. You might have this ache for something you can’t quite name—a longing for deep, mystical connection. But when things get too real? When flaws and disappointments show up? Cue disillusionment and emotional withdrawal.

The key to balancing this is one word: discernment. Learn to sit with your feelings before acting on them. Journal them, paint them, cry them out, whatever—but check in: “Is this truth, or is this wishful thinking?” And don’t be afraid to ground yourself. Nature, structure, therapy, real talk with trusted people—these are your anchors.

Also, protect your energy like it’s your phone battery at 2%. Just because you can feel everything doesn’t mean you should. Emotional boundaries are not only allowed—they're necessary. You’re not here to save everyone. You're here to learn how to stay open-hearted and protected.

Moon opposite Pluto

Okay, we’re officially in the deep end. This one doesn’t just feel emotions—it dives into them with a flashlight and a shovel. You’re not here for surface-level anything. You're wired for emotional intensity, transformation, and truth… but whew, it can get a lot.

The Moon is your emotional foundation, your need for comfort, connection, and inner peace. Pluto? Pluto is the shadowy planet of power, control, transformation, and the whole “let’s burn it down so we can rise from the ashes” thing. Put them opposite each other and you’ve got a cosmic tug-of-war between wanting emotional safety and being magnetically drawn to emotional danger zones.

You might experience big emotional swings—like one minute you’re fine and the next you're deep in a spiral that started with someone looking at you weird. This placement makes you feel everything, and not just your own stuff—you pick up on undercurrents in other people, too. The intensity is real, and so is the urge to control it—either by keeping people at arm’s length or pulling them in so close you accidentally smother them with your emotional x-ray vision.

There's also a tendency to attract (or be drawn to) people and situations that push your emotional buttons—because your soul knows you’re here to evolve. But growth doesn’t have to be a full-on emotional demolition every time, okay?

The trick to balancing Moon opposite Pluto? Emotional honesty—with yourself first. Learn to say, “I feel this intenselyand that’s okay,” without needing to either suppress it or act on it right away. Create safe spaces for your emotions to move through you. Journal like your life depends on it. Talk to people who get it, or at least won’t try to tell you to “just calm down” (you deserve better than that, tbh).

Also, work on trust. You don’t have to be hyper-vigilant or try to emotionally manage every situation. Let people in, little by little. Let yourself be vulnerable without needing a power dynamic or a test first.

You’re not “too much.” You’re just operating at an emotional depth that most people haven’t even snorkeled in yet.

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What do your guides love about you?

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Pile 1

Lovers, Temperance R, Hierophant, Empress R, 2 of swords R, 7 of swords, 8 of pentacles R, 9 of wands R, Knight of pentacles, 2 of wands + Moon

Your guides/spirits love the fact that you are very strategic and knows what you want whether or not you follow their guidance or anyone's expectations of you. It's like they notice all your hard work, your dedication that you put on your goals whether or not their is a result at the end or that it was worth it. The essence of it stems from you being true to yourself and your values, taking all the time, all the strength and willpower within you to get where you want to go. Despite your fears, your doubts, your worries and sorrow, you try to get back up, to stay put together and not let life get on you. Yes you do mistakes, you fail, you learn or you find another path that feels more appealing to you in the moment but what matters is that you stay true to who you are and what you want. You have this ability to act even if you don't understand anything, even if you're scared and confused, you always find a way to get yourself out of here regardless of it the process of it all is worth it, you left this confusing situation behind you and your guides love you for that. They love you not only because at the very least you respect yourself and have your own belief, but also this journey you're on (with or without their help) makes you who you are and they find beauty at watching you finding new ways, strategies because it demands time to think, efforts to have and patience to keep pushing through even if at the moment and/or at the end it will lead to nothing or another path you weren't expecting. Your guides don't mind you following your own path although they would have preferred you to follow their directions, they like to see you coming out of your struggling path and still choosing what your mind and heart desire rather than following something that don't align with you at the moment. It's like they're supporting you although they know you could have choosed another path, followed their instructions and have it easier, but they are rooting for you regardless because they care for you and believe that you will find it eventually, what you are looking for. It's not a question about feeling alone, or being unworthy it's a question of being yourself despite the limitations in front of you, choosing free will over destiny and structure. They think it's beautiful that even if you fail, you still get up and work.

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Pile 2

Empress R, Chariot, King of Swords, 5 of cups, 6 of swords R, 8 of pentacles R, Page of pentacles, 8 of wands, Magician + Queen of cups

Your spirits are in awe and in love when you are in a learning phase of your life and take it with open arms because you tend to go straight ahead in it without knowing what's awaiting you but still having a sharp perception of what might happen during, even if you are not sure about the end. Often times, you are scared to continue but you never give up which leads you to more opportunities coming your way, helping you and guiding you during the lesson and you're not closed to those. You take them with reason, a clever mind. Similarly to Pile 1, you're not the best at everything and make mistakes, have regrets but compared to Pile one, when you do learn your lesson you get out stronger and more capable than ever. You feel powerful and more determined, when and if you look at the past you're not as regretful as you were during the learning phase, instead you're happy you went out of it and understood what was working and not working for you. It's not a will based on hope for the better, it's moe based on you wanting to discover yourself and your limits more and right after enjoy the journey you went through. Deep down you are a learner, an intelligent and rational learner who craves a grouned and practical approach to life, there is this strength knowing that there is something to gain (whatever the gain is) that makes you unstoppable. Your guides love to see it about you, it's likfe they're watching a movie and are interested in knwoing what you will learn, how you will use your knowledge for your good, how creative and smart those moves were. They seem truly observant of you, cheering and being proud when you have more tricks in your bag than you had before entering a new phase in your life.

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Pile 3

Lovers R, Star, Emperor, Magician, Devil, 6 of pentacles, 10 of wands, 3 of cups, 7 of wands, Queen of Pentacles R, 4 of pentacles, High Priestess + Knight of pentacles

I think you're the type of person to be too giving to your detriment even sometimes, you are way too generous and think of others before thinking about yourself and it seems that when you do you don't feel good about yourself because you feel like you're being too greedy or egoistical and unconsiderate of other's feelings and well being. Surprisingly for you Pile 3, although your guides really love that you care for others, that you think of them they're asking you to stop and focus on yourseld, to have boundaries and create a safer place to yourself because it has been too much lately. You've been thinking of giving too much of your time, your mental and emotional well being to others, disregarding your own. You are a true friend, a good one, a great partner and considerate family member but sometimes it's important to say stop and actually stop. "You're good" "You don't have to prove yourself" too much/everytime. You are capable of being enough for yourself as much as others, and you'll be more successful if you put more time in yourself because you'd be able to give more and better to your surroundings. Don't let some thoughts making you feel that you won't be loved if you don't make others happy before your own happiness. It's not entirely about balance, it's knowing when to give, how much to give and to whom you give. Sometimes it's okay to say no, sometimes it's okay to give a bit, sometimes it's okay to give to A person rather than B person an sometimes it's completely okay to not give everything. It's also fine the other way around, to give a lot to B and not A, to give a lot at a certain time, etc. It's just knowing boundaries. If you're currently learning that, your guides are more than happy and proud, if you're not, your guides want you to understand that, they still love you because you're giving but they'll be so much more proud if they see their human being healthy.

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this one made me want to cry

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When a problem is disturbing you, don't ask,

« What should I do

about it?»

Ask,

«What part of me is being disturbed by this?»

- Michael Singer

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Healing doesn’t mean forgetting. It means remembering without the pain, learning to breathe again, and giving yourself permission to live fully.

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How one encounters reality is a choice.

Martin Heidegger

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"When the basis for your actions is inner alignment with the present moment, your actions become empowered by the intelligence of life itself."

- Eckhart Tolle

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— Summertime sadness

a summer pick a pile tarot reading

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Sometimes… Our hearts start to race too fast, the chest feels just too tight. The thoughts become louder and more confused, each one of them trying to convince us that they’re the ones telling the truth. And all we want to feel… Is just peace and reassurance. Two arms that hold us tightly, a voice that whispers to us words of sweet comfort… Giving us all the needed answers.

And yet, it happens so rarely. We face it all alone. And this summer… Once again we will need to be our own guardian, as we step up to protect us from others, or from our own mind…

A season has passed since the beginning of this year… So seemingly little yet enough time to start to have doubts about all our plans, the chosen paths, that we still weren't able to make work, no matter how hard we tried.

The bitter realisation hits, and so does the quiet surrender and tired fear of what will happen next… In the second season of this year, the one that we imagined completely differently from what it looks like now, when we can see it on the horizon.

So how on earth will we be able to survive it, when we are already so tired and broken, feeling so cold and alone… While the nature around us blooms, being taken care of by this world, almost mocking us for all the failures and stagnation surrounding us..?

Slow down. Allow this sadness and tiredness to overwhelm you. Stop holding it in… And feel it truly, listen to it, as your heart will call you to that one pile that speaks to it, holding the message that you need to hear.

-Pile One,

the four of wands, the three of cups, the ace of swords.

Your steps are so fast, so chaotic now. They are rushing you, pushing and pulling you, from one opportunity, one solution, to another, before you realise where you are looking or where you are going, before you can stop them and force them to slow down… But did you really lost control over them, or did you let go, letting the frustration and fear caused by this stagnation overwhelm you, while silently hoping that one of many things you are resorting to would work?

This journey, this situation, is barely on its beginning. And yet so many months have already passed in front of you before you even could manage to make your second decisions. Before you could make any progress, achieve any result, find any confirmation that this one is really worth the wait and hopes…

And now it is already summer. A season that should've seen you coming glowing with victory and enthusiasm for what's ahead… Not with shoulders bent under the weight of failed plans and expectations, and the jealousy for the satisfied and proud voices of others for their journeys, that you can already hear…

It really shouldn't be such a big deal, you know it. And yet this change of seasons feels so definitive. Your ability to live well the next months so dependent on the success of the last ones… You just imagined it differently, the plan in your head was much more specific and neat. Perfect to the tiniest bit. And now you will need to keep on going, to work, to worry, to rush. Because if you stop for just a moment, trying to live up to that idea of summer that you've had in your mind, everything will just collapse, being so fragile and little to be able to sustain a few carefree months…

But, fortunately, things don't work this way, the events of our lives are rarely so specific in their failure or success. There are so many things that are halfway done and already good to be enjoyed. While others, although being kind of confusing and shallow, still are not enough to disturb or destroy what we've created so far.

You think that you didn't accomplish anything, that there was no progress, no victories on your end. That every single person around you did something, and so they fully deserve this period of calm and joy under the sun… But you too deserve it. You have a project, you have something that you are working on, regardless of how much progress you made so far. It is enough. It is enough to feel proud. It is enough to feel that reassurance of a work that is being done.

So don't start to condemn yourself already now, to that full of work, worries and pressure, summer. Don't mourn already the fun plans and relaxing days that you won’t have this time. And don't feel the frustration or shame, because of how little you did compared to others. Because it is not true. It is not real. That failure that you are convincing yourself that you are.

It's just a different type of journey, of a process. It just has a different pace than someone else's, or that you expected when you started it. But it doesn't in any way condemn it to be a loss, something to be ashamed for. Nor does it mean that it will never give you anything, unless you run from one place to another in search of a different way to save it and make it work.

It is fine. You. And this journey. Even if there is still so much to do, even if you weren't ready to be at this point in your life by summer.

A change of season is not a deadline, it's only a different phase that is meant to help you, being dedicated to something specific. In this case, it is to remind you to slow down and breathe, to relax for a moment. To step aside and wait for a while, allowing this journey to complete its process. To allow all the seeds that you planted with your dedication and effort… to finally grow, instead of being suffocated by your worry.

You can step aside. You can wait a little before doing another step or making a decision. You can slow down in some moments and then speed up again as you work on it. Nothing will go worse or collapse if you stay one day outdoors, with your loved ones. Nothing will burn to the ground if you eat an ice cream in a park, or swim for a few hours, resting. Actually, these little moments will only help you, more than any search for another way would ever do to you. Just because you too need some time and rest, some distraction and experiences that aren't only about this situation or project.

You will have your summer. You will have your fun and you rest. If you’ll allow yourself to. Exactly because of all the hard work you already did, and that is more than enough right now and in this moment, even if you convinced yourself of the opposite.

Everything is going well, everything is alright. And you can have your vacation and carefree summer. Just trust yourself, your decisions and steps so far. Trust the time that they are taking to evolve into something better and bigger. And make use of this slower pace that this situation is forcing you to have. Don't see it as stagnation, failure, or menace. See it as it is, just a moment to rest and recharge, before coming back stronger, with a clear mind, and even more ready to take charge.

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-Pile Two,

the nine of cups, the eight of wands, the seven of cups

It is so different from last year, isn't it? And it is so strange. How you can be the same exact person, and yet you feel much stronger. How there are so many same situations that haven't been resolved, that are still trapped in this overwhelming stagnation… And yet you are kind of okay with it. You are over it, you somehow accepted and surrendered. Enough to not allow these situations and problems, these in a sense failures, to stop you from trying something new in the meantime, as you wait for them to evolve. It's almost like there is a new realization in you, the one about the time and the life that keeps flowing regardless, the one about you that have the permission to flow with them too, even if there are some things to which you feel still tied.

It is good, it is refreshing, to feel this way. For the first time in so many years you don't really have any fear of the new season. You don't see the deadlines, you don't hear them mocking you or rushing you. You see only something different and something new. Something that you genuinely want to try and explore, not allowing yourself or others to limit you anymore…

Or at least this is how you feel about it in one moment, in the grand scheme of things when you are looking at this new season getting closer from the horizon. But when it is indeed here… When you actually need or can get up and choose, start something, focus on it, looking away from all your not finished projects, fears, doubts or concerns… It kind of vanishes, that enthusiasm, optimism and readiness. And your body becomes stiff, the mind empty, or perhaps filled with that old and well known judgemental voice.

And it is just a shame. To realize that you are so strong and confident until the moment comes. Even if it is only about one season or one project. Even if it is only about an idea or a routine. It is a shame that all this energy seems to be just smoke that goes away as soon as that famous door of opportunity opens…

But can you really blame yourself, for slowing down unconsciously your pace in some moments? You’ve got through a lot. You managed a lot. No matter if it was hardly won battles or the process of accepting their losses. You managed to grow while staying true to yourself no matter what you were overcoming, no matter what lessons you were learning… It is new to be here and feel so different for once about this season, about this phase of the year in which you usually just observed others and their adventures, their fun stories… Trying to imagine how could it feel to be so relaxed and free, from the responsibilities or burdens, enough to have something new to look forward…

You need to still get used to it, you need to feel it truly. That freedom and possibility of choice that you have now, that you earned. So don't be so fast to feel regretful or frustrated because of this one step that your body seems to be unable to do now. Give it time. It will be fine either way, even if you don't choose a new path to go onto right now. One season, in the grand scheme of things, seems very little, its true. But still it is more time that you ever had just for yourself, or on which you actually had the control over. So you can go a little slower. You can dedicate first some time to just adjusting and wondering, exploring different ideas or desires of yours. You can just follow the flow, not resisting the events nor forcing them. You can be here for one more moment, in this sort of a middle ground between one journey and another, allowing yourself to be cuddled by your little victories and opportunities ahead that won’t run away no matter how much time you will rest and do just a sweet nothing.

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-Pile three,

the ten of cups, the king of cups, the two of swords.

Things didn’t exactly go like you expected… Your life doesn't really seems enough ready for this hypothetical new and exciting start… And the voices around you, their words, their judgment hidden in their ‘’advices’’ are not making it any easier to accept this failure… Or to find any strength and courage to continue to hope for it, even if the things are becoming so tough around here.

But, among all those mean, or, for some reason offended by your choices, voices… There are a few that are a little sweeter, a little more understanding, more patient in this waiting of seeing your growth and victory in all these battles. There are those that are more silent, perhaps, but still so close and caring. Still fresh and delightful, when they give you relief as they heal your scratches, convincing you that it is still possible to make it through, that everything is still okay no matter how it seems now…

They might be a friend, a family, a partner… They might be your own voice, a little phrase found in a book or film, a message hidden somewhere on the internet… But no matter what form they have or where they came from, they are still worth it, to be heard, to be believed as they whisper to you words of comfort and faith in your steps on this journey.

It is not how it was supposed to be. It is taking longer than expected, with so many moments in which you are simply unable to do anything or control it. It is so uncertain and confusing, still keeping it a secret about if it was worth it. And it does lead the way to all the doubts and questions, letting them right into your mind, allowing them to take control of your body that becomes so anxious and frenetic, as it looks for any other way or something else that could save it and make it work in time for deadlines and needs that are coming too close now…

But there is no use in this chaos in which you are trying to find some answers or comfort in. It is only tiring, draining, and annihilating. To your health and the one of your dreams and passions that you are trying to manifest by forcing them. It is frustrating, it is scary, it is simply unfair. I know it. But consuming yourself about it will not make it any better, it won’t resolve it.

As all those messages, sweet words, signs from this world or others, might sound cliche and kind of boring… They are true. You are doing your best, you are doing well. Not for this situation, this grand plan and its manifestation or for the comparison with any other person and their progress… You are doing enough for yourself, for what you can control and what you can do with what you have, with how you can make use of it. And even if it is so little now, compared to what it could've been, it is still worth it, to remain and to have faith, to celebrate even this little progress. Instead of declaring your loss, your inability, your lack of fortune or skill, your deservedness…

It won't be such an easygoing summer, just because you will not be able to escape your own heavy thoughts and the spirals in which they drown you… But it can still be a good summer nonetheless. It can be still a good season, with beautiful memories, peaceful moments, exciting news and discoveries, and long awaited progress… You just need to have a little more understanding. For your self and this journey. The way you go thought it, with all its ups and downs, and the way it evolves when you can't control it. It is important for you, so believe in it and respect it. Respect the way the things are unfolding enough to wait a little more. And respect all the hard work you did so far for it, enough to not judge yourself and your progress.

It will eventually work out, as it always does. And in the meantime the only real thing you need to do is to go easier on yourself, and trust those kind voices that keep believing in you and in your goals even when you have a hard time trusting them. Because they know something, they see something more than you do, and it is your strength, resilience, and deservedness, that will never pass unnoticed.

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