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*scrolls far back into my blog* oh yes…i was suffering quite vigorously here

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hey sorry for getting really pissy at you earlier because I could hear you chewing. see I have a condition called [remembers pathologizing my behavior is unhelpful] it's actually because I hate you, specifically,

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when the relatable fictional character commits suicide

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i seriously can’t do this anymore

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You aren't going to be okay ever again

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when you grow up being suicidal your whole life, it's hard to be anything else

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just got into a screaming match with my dad, should i kill myself??

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me making an extremely personal vent post to my thousands of followers

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when it’s really bad again and it’s still way better than it used to be but it’s still really bad. and you do all the right stuff and you try and try and it still really hurts but it’s working but it still hurts and you go see the beautiful majesty of nature and your soul is so close to being at peace but your mind is still in pain. and it’s better but it’s still bad. and the sun is setting.

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knowing you don't care makes me nauseous

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first base is murdering you. second base is ressurecting you from the grave. third base is murdering you a second time