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Oh to be loved out loud like this 🫶

so high school 🏹

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Look at all the smiling faces in the crowd. 🫶 light pointing in an arrowhead leading is home.

taylor donated $250k to operation breakthrough in kansas city (x)

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An integral part of my healing journey.

An excerpt from the Eras Tour book - Taylor Swift

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The most cherished memories of are my late grandmother and great aunt baking.

You should be starting a recipe book. I don't give a shit if you're only 20-years-old. The modern web is rotting away bit by bit before our very eyes. You have no idea when that indie mom blog is going down or when Pinterest will remove that recipe. Copy it down in a notebook, physically or digitally. Save it somewhere only you can remove it. Trust me, looking for a recipe only to find out it's been wiped off the internet is so fucking sad. I've learned my lesson one too many times.

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I live on an empty bar on a stool. Constantly checking the door if he will find me. Logically he cannot find me since he’s blocked on every platform known to man. I am not ready to venture out my safe neighborhood bar bubble.

no, YOU live in a society, I live at the restaurant, sitting in the corner I haunt with my hair pinned up sitting cross-legged in the dim light with glass shattered on the white cloth

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Six months ago my life was entirely different. I don’t give myself enough credit. I don’t like people seeing me vulnerable but here I am. My demons and scars in the open. I’m terrified.

northern hemisphere babes we made it to the longest night of the year. we made it. for the next 6 months, every day will give us a little more daylight than the last. let's go. take my hand. climb out of the darkness with me

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Walk with my head held high I have lived over a thousand lives this year. I’m ending on a high note. Crimson lipstick 💄 with the confidence that it’s given Taylor Swift in all of her eras.

#TSERASARCHIVE:

BEJEWELED behind the scenes (1/2)

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“I would burn the world just to keep you warm” I’ll walk through h3ll on living feet for you.

"Would you peel an orange for me?"

I would peel a pomegranate for you.

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I don’t miss you. I’m gonna sparkle for myself from now on.

I miss you, but I miss sparkling ✨

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Oh how I want to have this type of power.

How it started how it's going

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One of my first gifts of 2024. I have SO many feels about it.

Last year I was in an abusive relationship. the relationship lasted just shy of four long years. I tried so many times to desperately leave each time I was stomped on… “I love you with all my heart” he literally just grabbed me for asking a question, verbally attacked me, unmentionable abuse.

Fast forward to April 2024. I reached out to a good friend that they forbid me from having in my life. My partner was away for the weekend.

I sent a text. “I miss you in my life” not knowing how that text would be recieved I sent it anyway. I was terrified the receiver was someone extremely important to me. I am not calm I pace. I got a response back.

“Um same, I have some many board games that you never heard of”

We start chatting again like no time went by (in reality it’s been 5 years since I have seen him) I’m back in the rhythm, the smile comes back to my face. My partner returns for the weekend. I keep texting my friend. “Kelly that was a stupid choice” I don’t mention the abuse. I just listen to their advice. I secretly make plans. I gather more advice.

“Someone should meet me at the movies”

I explain my guilt of saying no to something I desperately want. Nothing would make me happier than sitting in the theater with my friend again.

“Kelly that was a stupid choice” referring to me moving into my partners dwelling too early, my other friends have told me similar advice. His words carry more weight.

My partner and I go to a family wedding (his side) a month later. My partners family ask if we’re getting married. It was in that exact moment I don’t want to be in this situation anymore.

I breakup with my partner the next day. On my final 5th breakup attempt. I’m not taking no for an answer this time. I’m sticking to my demands. I’m leaving. I don’t want to be friends. I don’t love you. You don’t care about me.

Christmas 2023 my partner gave me a PURPLE gift (cup with bath set) my most hated color is purple. My favorite color has always been pink… I would have thought after almost 4 years they knew the most obvious question. They never paid attention.

I have never been a gift list person. I have always wanted experiences since I have been young. I always wanted the giver to understand me without telling them.

I recieved that.

Christmas 2024 ✅

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Ash Avignone via Instagram stories, 12/19/2024

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It took me almost 4 years to bolt.

when emma falls in love + the bolter

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This is all I want in life. Someone to fight dragons with. Is that so hard to ask!

THE LYRICS ON HER ARM SAY “I HAD THE TIME OF MY LIFE FIGHTING DRAGONS WITH YOU” IM SOBBING

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THE DETAIL ✨

Details of Taylor Swift’s latest Speak Now gown.

The gown was custom made by Nicole + Felicia. It took over 2,100 hours to complete.

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Please don’t be in love with someone else……

*sits in the corner at the restaurant where you left me patiently waiting*

please don't have somebody waiting on you...

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Mentally I’m here.

ttpd in the summer aesthetic moodboard