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someone take me out please

Dear Forgiveness, I saved a plate for you.

Frank Bidart, Half-light: Collected Poems 1965-2016 // House, M.D. 3.20 "House Training" // Hamilton // Touch Me from Spring Awakening // Rosemerry Wahtola Trommer, Gift

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his face betrays him CONSTANTLY

shout out to the 1000 yard stare wilson does when he's desperately trying not to laugh at something house did in case it encourages him

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Definitely a real House episode:

Wilson: house, you need to stop taking so many painkillers

House: you need to stop cheating on your wife

Wilson: pshhft. I'm not cheating on my wife

House: sure you do, at least according to your new socks *holding a pair of socks*

Wilson: wh- h.. how did you get that

House: peeped into your sock drawer while I was doing your wife

Wilson: *rolls his eyes and snatches his socks* it was one dinner, with a colleague. I am not cheating on my wife

House: yeah, you take all your colleagues to [fancy restaurant name]? It's a nice place, kosher, good wine, even better steaks. I'm jealous, why did you never invite me? are you breaking up with me? *sarcastic puppy dog eyes*

Wilson: House-

House: I thought we had a good tuing going there, that's a shame, even bought new underwear *holding a thong that was definitely left in Wilson's office*

Wilson: *snatches the thong and frantically looks around to make sure nobody saw* ...unbelievable. you can be a real asshole sometimes, you know?

House: takes one to..... *stops mid sentence, tilds his head for a second, then starts walking away*

Wilson: what, you're breaking my heart and then walking away? I thought we had a good thing going on. *scoffs, then looks back at house to see he's still walking away* wait, where are you going?

House, shouting over his back: WE NEED TO CHECK THE PATIENT'S ASSHOLE

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huh

huh.

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It's important to push back as hard as possible against the idea that the outside world should be entirely comfortable and should feel completely safe (which is meaningfully different from actually being safe) because when this goes unchecked you end up with people who think that the sentence for being annoying should be death. This is maybe the most apparent in how people talk about drug use and homelessness; I spoke with a woman this summer who told me that she hoped her neighbors overdosed and died to "teach them a lesson" because they have frequent overnight guests, something which is objectively mildly annoying and not meaningfully dangerous. Unhoused people are incarcerated, displaced, brutalized, and left for dead because they annoy people and offend people's sensibilities. The inability to just walk away from an inconvenient or unpleasant situation, to just manage annoyance and inconvenience and discomfort, kills people all the fucking time.

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i love all of you people

what makes me laugh about the trikey fandom is that although years have passed and people come and go, the og's are still active. like yeah this is such a small group of fans we could all fit in a bus, but there will always be like three to four bloggers who will never not get off the fucking bus

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Respect trans people or I'll fuck your halloween pumpkins this year

Little gift for @wolfertinger666 !!! FT. My fursona, VHS / Ouija

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and only one of us is right

if you ask a normal person, the plot of House is about a narcissistic doctor who gets into silly hijinks while destroying the lives of everyone around him. If you ask a gay person, House is about him and his best friend playing the world's most casual game of gay chicken and they are both losing HARD

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why does House look so cute here? are they flirting? probably!

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fuck.

"i need you to tell me that you love me."

so house doesn't tell him. instead he gives up his entire life just to be with him for five more months.

the king of burning bridges burned every single one except the one that led to wilson.

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ofc he deleted that voice mail about wilson's apartment . gregory i diagnose you with wanting that man in a nasty nasty way syndrome . unfortunately it is chronic

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GOD I NEED HIM SO BAD IM FUCKING MENTALLY ILL BARK BARK ABRKARB NAKBRKBANB

She’s a maaaneater (literal)

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:3

me: I’m homesick

the suspiciously Gregory house shaped bulge in my stomach: we need mouse bites

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GOD i hate them

thoughts on house and wilson and queer repression

i'm endlessly fascinated by the way both these men are so overwhelmingly repressed yet it plays out in such different ways for each of them

to me wilson is someone who is repressed in such a way that he's constantly fighting his feelings for house/attraction to men in general - while house's brand of repression has resulted in house burying his feelings so deep he isn't even aware of them

so when people mistake them for a couple (and when wilson catches house jerking off) wilson gets flustered and nervous bc deep down he doesn't feel secure in his straight man status.

house is chill and makes gay jokes and doesn't mind pretending they're a couple because, unlike wilson, he has successfully convinced himself he's a straight man

in fact, at this point i very much see house's gay jokes as his own way of continually proving to himself that he's straight

"see? look how comfortable i am with my straightness! i make gay jokes every day. i don't care if people think my best friend and i are a couple. i can talk about men being hot. i'm just that secure."

(there's also the fact that wilson is obsessed with being "normal" and house actively tries to be as edgy as possible - but still, the frequency with which house's brain seems to instantly, specifically go to gay jokes in a given situation is...sure something. and there's a whole other conversation to be had about the way comphet has affected them differently in the sense that wilson still clings to the Straight Man American Dream concept whereas house let go of that a long time ago. but that's another post).

anyway, i feel like another reason house is able to be more comfortable than wilson is - despite the repression and in his own weird way - house sort of has acknowledged his attraction to men?

the thing is, he's done it in such a way that he can logic his way out of admitting he's queer. of course he admired other guys' asses in the locker room in school - all guys do that, right? yeah he's thought about sex with nearly every single coworker regardless of gender - but hey, all that says about him is that he's a perv. maybe he looks at the man sometimes when he watches porn - whatever, he was looking at the woman too and that's all that matters. he's enjoying the thought of wilson in a porno because it's funny and it's embarrassing to wilson that's it there's no other reason he's so enraptured by that film (stop thinking about it)

tl;dr:

wilson's repression is more active and his attraction to men lies just below the surface of his subconscious - deep down he's insecure in his straight man status, which is why he gets so flustered every time somebody mistakes him and house for a couple

in contrast, house makes gay jokes on the daily because he's buried his repressed feelings so deep in the ground he doesn't even feel threatened by them

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Actually daddy you're being kinda needy can you shut the fuck up for a bit, kitten's got a banging headache.

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