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I’m playing thru Halo: Reach’s campaign rn <3

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I’m playing Honkai: Star Rail

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Whitney’s breathing treatment machine.

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Fortnite has rock band haha it’s called… FESTIVAL MAIN STAGE.

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“Biotruth”

Something that’s an emergent property of biology and thus immune to criticism.

Like holy crap wtf.

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I broke my glasses by getting myself punched in the face so I’m fixing them with JB weld. I found a pair of metal readers in the parking lot of Walgreens and broke off an arm. I’m debating putting JB over the hinge to make it stronger. JB quick sets so much quicker…

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Tactics to Avoiding Accountability

So I stayed sober today, my drug of choice can be got on Amazon and I have some, but I didn't do it. Whitney is the reason I stayed sober so we can have our nice little date on Saturday where we're going to get paid for donating plasma and go to Goodwill. She says she doesn't want to tell me not to do drugs because she doesn't want me starting to resent her which is nice, she's respecting my free will but my deviant mind goes straight to well if I want to break up with her I'l just get high and be a jackass. She SHOULD want me to stay sober, and I SHOULD stay sober, and if I'm not I could and SHOULD hide it but I'm just trying to figure out where my heads at about my relationship with Whitney. I love her (don't tell her that) I love her but what if I shouldn't? What matters? What's real and what's perception, what's me and what's my reflection? Relationships matter. Does getting high matter? Exercising my free will and getting high? Does that body buzz matter? I enjoy the waste of 2 days. I enjoy the passage of time, the existential dread just melting away. But am I self medicating and is that important? Should I eat sugar? Yes. Smoke cigarettes? No. But will I?

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Breakfast

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Whitney took me to Wingstop and they wouldn’t break her $100 bill so I ended up getting it. I super don’t mind, I said something about going dutch when we went in but she wouldn’t have it, she wanted to treat me which was so nice! Neither of us are rich but I’m just glad I thought to put some cash in my wallet earlier. And I’m glad she got to keep her $100 bill. I really didn’t want her to pay.

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So I left on a whim to go put money on the netspend so Allyster can call me. And Walgreens is closed! But I’m in for the kill now. I’ll go to South County on the 73, run some my errands hit the Dollar Tree and MAYBE walk the mall… I have a sore throat so maybe this adventure is ill advised but it’s good to get out. It’s good Sean. Haha great and good. Grood.