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tears off my coat to reveal a tshirt underneath that says I HEART 1-5

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I wish my job paid better bc against all odds I enjoy being a receptionist a lot. but unfortunately it pays like ass

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Merry “Almost” Christmas!

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reblog to dilute prev in the soup

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“I don’t want to be a burden” you’re more like a relief, a gift, a blessing actually

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hi whatever you’re going through you’re not alone

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If there's sexual abuse subtext no there isn't, if there's allusion to sexual abuse you're ruining it for everyone else by talking about it, if there's a metaphor for sexual abuse you're reading too far into it and it's actually a metaphor for anything more palatable, and if there's on-screen sexual abuse? Well that's exploitative torture porn, of course.

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it's wild to me that yoohankim isn't the default popular orv ship because like. obviously yjh and kdj are batshit insane about each other. but neither of them would exist without han sooyoung. if she didn't love them with the intensity of a dying star, yoo joonghyuk would've never even come into existence, and kim dokja would be dead. if joongdok is batshit insane, then han sooyoung is the reason for it, and she's just as batshit insane about them in the process

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When I was a server, I worked with a girl that I'll call Beatrice. She was nice enough, but many of my interactions with her left me scratching my head and thinking, "Surely, you cannot be this clueless?"

I would often help her balance out her cash and tips at the end of the night - a feat for which she thought me a wizard. Our chef loved to mess with her and once convinced her that steak wasn't dairy free because it came from cows.

But really the icing on the cake happened one night when she ran up to me, clearly in distress, and said, "Oh my god. I was thirsty, so I took a drink, but then I swallowed an ice cube! Am I going to be ok?!"

I froze. I blinked. I stared into her eyes that were saucers of fear and concern. "Yes, Beatrice," I said, "Ice cubes are just frozen water. Your body will melt it into water in your stomach."

Her shoulders dropped as she sighed with relief, "Oh thank god. I was so worried I'd have to go to the hospital." She sauntered off with a spring in her step, all earthly anxieties assuaged in that moment.

I stared after her, and then promptly got chided for forgetting to bring bread to a table.

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Lt Tisarwat has a plan which is “hack into Sword of Gurat, and kill Anaander as much as possible,” and Breq is making fun of the simplicity of this plan, which is rich for someone whose main plan ever is “kill Anaander as much as possible”

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Taking the DIES key to the OMEN room

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orv bookmark draws, pt. 4: conversations - chps 216 and 370 [parts 1 - 2 - 3]

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babygirl i will subject you to my interests

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compilation

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tell me like you used to

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thinking about mudclaw again as he lives forever in my heart. i think so many people are wrong about him. him and onestar are in reality two sides of the same paranoid coin and both of their actions are explained most by fear than anything else, which makes sense bc windclan was (still is?) the lowest-ranking of all the clans and constantly shit on in different ways by the other three especially in the tpb era. but of course instead of realizing that there's a sense of constant sunk cost fallacy and NEEDING to get to the top. tallstar is clearly mudclaw's father figure (at least like . the way i interpret things. what with shrewclaw's death and their interactions esp in winds of change) and mudclaw to some extent idolizes tallstar because he equates him- and leadership, and power, and etc- with the idea of windclan and the very ideal of their clan society. he certainly sees tallstar as fallible and doesn't agree with his decisions (and later becomes like almost annoyingly aware of tallstar's mortality) but i think it's in an 'only i can say that about him' way.

so of course when tallstar changes his mind and demotes mudclaw at the last possible second before mudclaw achieves (what is in his mind as) The One Path To True Success mudclaw feels a visceral sense of betrayal, not only because that was his father figure but also because it kind of flies in the face of everything mudclaw had led to believe was Worthwhile- all of it meant nothing, as does much of the system of the clans themselves do. but instead of willing to consider that (even if his subconscious sees it like A Little) mudclaw spirals into justification until he's ultimately turning on everything he once held dear to justify this One Perfect Concept in his mind of How Things Ideally Should Go. and then his own gods turn on him to kill him! as he dies in the same pointless battles that killed both his father and grandmother! fucking insane!

and the REAL tragedy is that even IF mudclaw became leader he'd fall apart into a paranoid wreck, just as much if not more than onestar did, because ultimately he and onestar have the same rampant paranoia and fear of reliance that dooms both of them. for all intents and purposes until near the end onestar wasn't too bad of a leader by clan standards; windclan certainly became much more self-sufficient and hardy under his leadership (thunderclan be damned lmfao) and for having been elected amidst civil war there wasn't That Much dissent going on besides like crowfeather or whoever thinking onestar was being a jackass. mudclaw not only should have never been deputy, there's no universe where he could've achieved his own definitions of success ad prosperity because he was born not only in a clan that will never fully escape its position as the bottom of the pecking order but in the shadow of a leader who possessed traits that mudclaw could never have and who didn't even want the same vision of windclan mudclaw did.

so like ! damn all that was for nothing ! and he was killed to make a fuck ass BRIDGE! And hes trapped inside a horribly written wildly christian children's book series FOREVER!!!!!! Insane!!!! Insane!!!! I am going to think about this freak forever!!!! in short