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Title: Watch Me

Rating: M

Word count: 38,381 ; 4/5-6 chapters [WIP] [It will be 5 unless the word count gets truly ridiculous...which is always a possibility]

Summary: "I still can't stand you." Or so Lily Evans tells James Potter, repeatedly, throughout a series of hookups their seventh year, until it's a claim she can no longer make.

read on ff.net

read on ao3

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I'm at a loss for words to have made it this far. ❤️ Thank you for all the love, friends.

Final Round of Jily Awards

It's time for the final round of voting! You can view all of the finalists here. Congratulations to all of the fantastic creations!

Rules for voting:

Please send me a message or an ask on tumblr after you vote. I'll still contact anyone who doesn't, but you messaging me makes this go so much easier.

One vote per category.

You may only vote once

You do not have to vote for every category

Voting will be open until December 24 at 11:59 pm EST.

Ready to vote? Click here, and don't forget to message me after!

Good luck everyone, and happy holidays!

💞Ava

For transparency, some notes on voting:

The voting in almost every category for Round 2 was so close, Even if you didn't make it to Round 3, you should be exceedingly proud of yourself.

There were 79 total votes this round, and no votes were voided! There were a few people who voted for more than one creation per category, but I worked with those people to correct their votes.

My goal was to have 3 fics, 3 people, and 5 art in their respective categories for the finals. Many of the categories worked out to these number. There were several ties this round, and rather than try to break the ties, I just brought the additional fics into the finals. Angst, in particular, had a 3 way tie in 3rd place, so all five fics made it to the finals. Other categories with ties were: AU One-Shot, Drabble, and Smut.

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Title: Watch Me

Rating: M

Word count: 24,912 ; 3/5-6 chapters [WIP] [I knew it would end up being longer...]

Summary: "I still can't stand you." Or so Lily Evans tells James Potter, repeatedly, throughout a series of hookups their seventh year, until it's a claim she can no longer make.

read on ff.net

read on ao3

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Watch me update:

Chapter three will drop tomorrow! Expect some Sirius and Lily brotp time to honor my brotp-ship (brotp-hood?) with @relyingonoldships (although she's also brotp'ed like this entire fandom and THAT'S FINE WHATEVER).

But I know we're really all here for the Jily, so here's a snippet under the break. So far, I think this is my fav chapter to date.

            A stray chuckle escapes his lips as his mouth curls sardonically. “True, but you know me. I love a good battle. I live for inserting myself into situations that have nothing to do with me at all. It’s one of my favorite hobbies. Ask me what my others are.”

            “Quidditch, I suppose. Dueling. General mischief making. Refusing to listen—”

            “You.” His fingers curl over the back of her hand, and—without warning—he’s cradling her hand with all of the delicacy that she never would have expected from him. Bold, reckless, carefree James Potter holds her hand as though it’s made of the most fragile of glass, the most precious of metals, the rarest of jewels, and it takes her breath away. “I was going to say that you were my favorite hobby.”

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Title: Watch Me

Rating: M

Word count: 16,910 ; 2/4-5 chapters [WIP] [I knew it would end up being longer...]

Summary: "I still can't stand you." Or so Lily Evans tells James Potter, repeatedly, throughout a series of hookups their seventh year, until it's a claim she can no longer make.

read on ff.net

read on ao3

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You and CH Darling are my two fav fanfic writers 💋

That's such high praise! ❤️

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at what time do you usually update/ which timezone do you refer to

You're giving me way too much credit, anon. ☠️ Even when I have a consistent update schedule down to a day of the week, it's rare for me to update around the same time.

But today? Soon! Within the next half hour.

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Watch Me update:

Expect chapter two tomorrow. Will it be full of jealousy and pining and bitterness? Yes, because we're inside the wants and whims of @relyingonoldships now and I aim to please her while everyone else suffers.

(I'm not suffering. I'm having a great time.)

A short snippet under the break. ❤️

           “I just—” One hand breaks free, as if on its own accord, and he pushes it through his hair. Curls stand up on end, and he makes no attempt to fix them. “He���s holding your hand, Evans.”

            She waits for him to go on. He doesn’t.

            “So?”

            “So—how am I not supposed to hate that?”

            It is, unquestionably, the most vulnerable thing he’s ever said to her.

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Title: Watch Me

Rating: M

Word count: 8,328 ; 1/3-4 chapters [WIP]

Summary: "I still can't stand you." Or so Lily Evans tells James Potter, repeatedly, throughout a series of hookups their seventh year, until it's a claim she can no longer make.

read on ff.net

read on ao3

It's not the Christmas smut I spoke of, but...it's smut. Gratuitously and unapologetically and dedicated to @relyingonoldships in honor of her birthday month. Everything that follows, good and bad, is her fault. Love you, bestie. ❤️

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Voting: Round 1

It’s time to cast your votes for round 1! All of the categories–fic, art, and people–are in one airtable form this time. Voting is open from now until December 8, at 11:59 pm EST. 

Rules: 

Every person who votes must have a tumblr account. You may not share tumblr accounts, you may not let someone else put your name down, you may not just put your AO3 name down. You must have your own tumblr account that I can reach you at. 

I will contact every person who votes to confirm that I received a vote for you. (Alternatively, you can send me a message or an ask when you vote to confirm that you voted.) You must respond to this message. If you do not, I will void your vote. Since we are not using google forms and collecting emails, this is necessary to ensure fair voting. If you do not send me a message when you vote, please allow 24 hours to receive a message from me. 

For each category, you can select three entries. This is only applicable to Round 1, but you do not have to choose just one (yet). 

You do not have to answer for every category, though I encourage you to! 

Each person may only submit the form once. Subsequent entries from the same person will be deleted. 

If you have any questions or concerns, please send me a message (not an ask) and I’m happy to address it. 

Ready to vote? Get the form here! 

Congratulations to all the nominees, and good luck! 

💞 Ava

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my brain: you really need to work on London Has Fallen or one of the six original pieces on deck or your Law and Order: SVU fanfic

also my brain: ...but remember that pointless Jily Christmas seventh-year smut you wanted to write when it wasn't Christmas time but now it's Christmas time??

Someone stop me.

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Title: London Has Fallen

Rating: M

Word count: 38,945 ; 3/? chapters [WIP]

Summary: In 1945, Gellert Grindelwald defeats Albus Dumbledore in a duel that decides the fate of the global wizarding world. Forty years later, as a new dark lord rises, a chance meeting between Lily Evans and James Potter changes that world forever.

read on ff.net

read on Ao3

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Is Bought abandoned. Or will you return some other time later? I hope you do continue. It has the best characterisation of Lily

I've received, with no exaggeration, at least a few dozen asks almost identical to this. I won't bore you all with posting them all, but hopefully this will answer the question. Read on or don't, but this is the last time I'll probably talk about this for a while. I neither expect a response to this nor particularly want one, tbh. Please don't leave me hate.

Inspiration is difficult enough under the best of circumstances; inspiration under fraught circumstances comes even more difficultly. Watching Bought and fics like it explode the Jily fandom several months ago really upset my ability to write for a long while. I'm only now getting back into the swing of it. A lot of that came from really nasty, vitriolic abuse I received in my inbox that I'll never post because it never should have been sent. I think that sort of reaction, sent repeatedly to any author, would probably discourage even the strongest of writers.

I still think Bought and fics like it have a place in the fandom and deserve creation. I also think that people are well within their rights to dislike them and not want to read them or interact with the people who create them. In the very first chapter, I was explicit about the content of the story for that very reason--so people understood the plot and the triggers and could make their own decision based on their own life experiences as to if they wanted to engage or not. I don't think the people who were offended were wrong; I also don't think that the people who enjoyed reading it--or, in my case, writing it--were wrong either. I do think it's wrong to spew hate at anyone regardless of what "side" of this they fall on--and I hate that there are sides, because I consider fandom a place where people should be able to create and interact as they see fit without feeling targeted one way or another.

I know I came to this space in 2020 as a place of healing after I lost my parents, and it's meant a lot to me to have a space of escape from the ongoing legal and personal ramifications that still continue. Although that's my personal story, I know a lot of people also see this as a safe space and I'd never want to contribute to taking that away from them. But the only person who knows what makes a space safe for you is you. (A general 'you,' obviously, anon.) There are things frequently discussed in fandom that I purposefully avoid. As a sexual assault survivor, I don't engage with fics that deal with any sort of theme of sexual assault. It's not good for me and I know it, but I think those fics have a purpose--even those that might glorify it, which was an accusation frequently given towards the fictional, magical racism in Bought (although I could write an entire separate essay about why I don't think that's true). I curate my experience accordingly, because only I know my triggers, and what upsets me might not upset another sexual assault survivor or another woman or another reader generally. I'm not trying to say that fictional sexual assault and fictional racism are the same, just as their real-life counterparts are not. What I'm trying to say is that your life experiences and triggers and squicks are valid, but only you know what they are.

As an author, I feel a responsibility to warn you about what you're going to consume before you get into a fic, which is a courtesy that most traditional media doesn't extend. As a reader--or a follower or a member of the community--I view it as your responsibility to decide if you want to engage or follow or interact. If not, please block me. It doesn't and never has hurt my feelings. In fact, I'm all about it. Protect your mental health and make this space safe and happy and enjoyable for you.

I still really love Bought. I love Lily's courage and her internal conflict and the sheer messiness of the entire situation. I love the idea of redeeming a man who irl doesn't deserve redemption, and I think that there can be learning done in seeing a fictional character come to reckoning for the choices they've made in a way that most people irl will never face. I think there's catharsis in that. I hope to come back to Bought someday, although not now. If and when that happens, I hope the people who find the fic distasteful will have taken steps to keep my content from reaching them, just as I hope that the people who enjoy it will be excited to see it return. That's it, really.

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I've gotten a few asks about my update schedule for London Has Fallen.

My answer: there isn't one and there's no one here to stop me from writing 7k words one day and editing 14k words the next and then spending the next 4 days doing nothing but baking and watching Survivor. Rinse and repeat.

I have no schedule now. It's chaos, basically.

That being said...tomorrow seems a good day for the first Lily POV.

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Title: London Has Fallen

Rating: M

Word count: 29,006 ; 2/? chapters [WIP]

Summary: In 1945, Gellert Grindelwald defeats Albus Dumbledore in a duel that decides the fate of the global wizarding world. Forty years later, as a new dark lord rises, a chance meeting between Lily Evans and James Potter changes that world forever.

read on ff.net

read on Ao3

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London Has Fallen: Chapter Two Snippet

Planning to drop either this weekend or early next week!

“We’re shagging.”

That's it. That's the snippet.

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Friends. I have so many messages in my inbox that it stopped counting how many are in there. (I seriously didn't even know that was possible. In screenshotting and deleting these, the number somehow went up?? What even??) And that's not to mention the responses on ao3, ff.net, and in my DMs. (As to the latter, I've done my best to respond to everyone--if I haven't and you'd like to chat, please do DM me again!)

This is just a quick note to say that I'm so humbled and gratified by the response my return has gotten. In the several months' break I took from Tumblr and the fandom, I continued to get messages periodically--most of which were so lovely and kind and I'm so grateful for--and I didn't expect it. The anonymity of the internet allows people to dip in and out at will, and I not only assumed that people would move on from me and my fics with ease, but I was also 100% fine with that. Every sweet message of support proving otherwise surprised the hell out of me. It still does. I'm still fairly convinced that 80% of my kind anons are one person on a single-handed campaign to bring me back (you know who you are), but...what a campaign if so. And I'm thrilled to be here and to write again.

I've gotten some questions about if I'm back back, like for good, and that is indeed my plan...at least for the next several months. I'm expecting my first child early next year (she's kicking the shit out of me as I type this!), so I can't predict how life will change and how my writing will change with it once she arrives on the scene. But, for now, I'm so excited to dive into London Has Fallen and explore that fucked up, chaotic world with you all.

I've gotten inquiries about updates on other fics. London has Fallen is my priority right now, but I'd never say never! I'd especially like to finish Eighteen Again, because I can so clearly see the finish line and know how it concludes. But, for now, I'm just vibing and writing what sparks the most joy, and I love all of you who are keen to take this journey with me. ❤️