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“how about you tell me what’s been going on in your life recently, noona?” he suggested, suddenly seeming to regain all his excitement as the thought struck him. “have you done anything fun recently? is there anyone special in your life yet?” he waggles his eyebrows obnoxiously at her after that last sentence, before laughing at his own childish behaviour.

she cooed at the others answer, trying to fight the laugh that threatened to escape.”oh how cute.” her face immediately began to grow warm as she placed her hand over her face in chagrin.”do you want to die? you’re doing this on purpose aren’t you? its not nice to tease your elders especially when they offer to buy you food.” she sniffled her hands coming to cover the span of her face.she tried to ignore the heat on her ears, imagining them to be a stark red against her blonde hair. “i don’t really know i never really receive compliments so i wouldn't know what to do. i guess i would probably just run away because i wouldn't be able to deal with the embarrassment.”

areum huffed trying to rid herself of the sticky residue of the embarrassment in her mind as she began tapping away at the cellular device in her hand.”of course! i have a show coming up at university if you want to attend, we can make it into a night out or something ya know go out and view the town.” areum tilted her head to the side listening as she cringed at his words, trying to count the time in her head. she felt a little winded as she realized a crucial fact. “you’re quite childish so i don’t really think anyone would mistake you for being older then me but sometimes you really sound like your 60 years old. wow i cant believe im almost 30. you’re going to have to roll me around pretty soon.”she crossed her arms, mouth agap. she was shocked to put it in the least. “hey now you must really want to fight. my apartment is actually really clean! there may be sheet music scattered in weird places but its still clean, i could eat off of my floors. not that i would do that but its a option. my feelings are oddly hurt right now.”she gave the boy a mocking glance ensuring she was in fact teasing him.

she nodded immediately agreeing with what he said. she had personally experienced that fact that he would eat anything that was placed in front of him.” i wont disagree on that, its actually scary how true it is.you would probably eat dirt if it was placed in front of you. okay i’ll take you up on that offer”despite receiving obvious permission to pick anything,she still managed to have a small panic attack while ordering the food. she finally settled for something quite normal.”no but what if you have a doctor who isn't very good at math, how would they know the correct dosage to give you? isn't it exactly proportional to your weight and height so if they can’t calculate that then you might get more than you need.” she began to get quieter after the last sentence as she contemplated what she said. it sounded quite intellectual when it was in her head but now as it hung in the air she found herself thinking about her life and what it has come to.she could for the nth time that day feel the heat clawing at her skin. she should really learn to keep her thoughts to herself. maybe she should start writing up her will now because she truly felt like dying. she quickly grabbed on to the conversation change trying to forget about what she had just said. “work makes you sleepy? i really hope your not going to work falling asleep.don’t worry i wont leave, i cant pass up food,you know that.” she gave a crooked smile in return glancing at the clock on her cell phone. “it should be arriving in a couple of minutes, you know how fast delivery is near here.”

she bit her lip glancing up in thought.” nothing really, i mean besides all of the things that i have already told you about.oh yea i might get another job since i’m going to be done with school this year. i’m trying to find one where i can play my violin but that’s a really long shot but i did hear that they are looking for a music teacher at this school so i might apply there. if that doesn't work out i might just get one of the convenience store jobs nearby.something fun? like drinking and waking up in the middle of the sidewalk fun? no i haven't done that but i’ll tell you first when i do. what about you?’ she choked on her spit, blushing again. it seems all she ever did was blush which was actually very much so accurate.she began to cough loudly trying to calm down the racing of her heart.she tried to form a coherent sentence around the fit of coughing she was experiencing.”are you trying to kill me,how did that question come up? my heart it too fragile for this i almost had a heart attack.” areum rubbed her cheeks trying to will away the scorched feeling that was spreading to her temple.”no i don’t but who knows. what about you? i want to meet her and ask her why and how does she deal with you. wow she must be really strong.”she laughed behind her hand at her bad joke, patting his shoulder.

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minkyung doesn’t fight the urge to twirl a strand of hair as she returns to the counter, making sure the cashier sees the couple ring on her finger before she clears her throat to get the barista’s attention. it’s with a much friendlier smile that she recites her usual offer: “hello! got time to pose for some pictures? it’s just a casual thing; a way for me to practice, really.” after a beat, she bites her lip, keeping the question of ‘should i already know you by name?’ to herself for the time being.

areum currently was wishing the day somehow passed quicker.the humid air inside the cafe hung around her head and created a second layer on her skin and it was quite unpleasant. the muted conversations from the customers were heard throughout the establishment and she could make out distinct words from each conversation.she sighed and looked over to the person ordering, immediately rolling her eyes as the boy coyly began to flirt.a pang of sympathy fluttered into her chest for the unknown girl behind the badly delivered antics.the boy was known to flirt with anything that he considered to be beautiful and interesting and looking at the girl she fit the criteria perfectly.another poor soul to fall into his trap. she shook her head and returned to her work.

she couldn't shake the feeling of eyes following her. the hairs on the back of her neck stood up as she looked around the cafe trying to catch the person but she always came up empty handed. she rubbed her arms scoffing at her own ignorance. she should really stop being so paranoid. a figure began to make her way towards her and quite quickly she noticed the familiar face. it was the girl that the cashier had been flirting with. she suddenly had the strong urge to apologize on the cashiers behalf.

never in her life felt the cold fear that grasped at her throat as it did now. her voice caught in her throat as she stared at the girl in front of her.had she recognized her? after all of her time trying to escape from her fathers shadow had she someone managed to slip through the cracks? she listened harder,a almost stiff smile on her lips.ah sweet relief. the tension in her shoulders faltered as she actually gave a genuine smile. “wow i never been asked to do a photo shoot before. i guess i could do it, i mean it does sound really interesting. i get off of work in a couple of minutes if you don’t mind waiting.” she tilted her head toward the cashier, her lips curling in a apologetic smile.”oh by the way i’m really sorry about that guy, he just really likes to flirt with really pretty girls.”she snorted as she glanced at the clock.only 5 minutes to go.

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all that glitters

@sbhaewoo

there relationship could be described in one word and it would domestic. the way they almost seemed to carry the same values and ideas and the cozy atmosphere that followed them left areum feeling homely.it was almost like they were the same people, just one entity. it actually took a while for her to feel this way about the other due to her childish antics and ways. from the beginning, areum wasn't quite keen on the girl and wished to quite frankly never see her again. her simple presence made her want to grind her teeth into dust and disappear into the shadows.it was quite silly really and incredibly childlike but areum considered it to be her true and honest feelings about the girl and refused to change them. that was until she heard her play.

it was actually a quiet day, a sunday morning of fresh linen and blue skies and she was as usual being her incredibly nosy self but this time she was actually mindlessly walking and not really searching for anything.then the most beautiful tune she think she may have ever heard in her short life reached her ears and she had a new purpose. time to go stalk someone.she walked to the grand piano that was sitting in the second floor. she peaked around the corner and her soul may have left her body at the person playing. she seemed to play so effortlessly, almost as if she was asleep behind the obsidian wood and was just playing in her sleep.a sound left her mouth and she kind of maybe ran skipped out of the room because she felt tears coming and no way was she going to get caught crying over something so silly.while she sat in her chair back at her apartment and she sat looking at the flower covered wall as her interest peaked beyond her imagination. she groaned and slammed her face into the pillow. here she goes again.

it started off very small really; leaving praising notes on her door or going as far as to greet her with a bright smile. she noticed quickly the girl was quite timid,and seemed to need a little push to open up.lucky for her, areum was a very stubborn person. she then began to become much more bolder and invite her out for lunch , a simple and innocent day event, the girl was very off and on about those things and there were times where she agreed and those when she didn’t. those where she didn’t she found herself oddly hurt and wanted to hurl herself out the window in embarrassment,not to be dramatic though.however, their breakthrough came a little late. they were sitting in her apartment and chatting and honestly areum was very comfortable, to think that not so long ago she had wanted to do with the other and her gentle presence and she condemned herself for her poor attitude. they had found out that they were so very similar not in taste but personality wise. the girl was like a fully bloomed flower blowing in a field of weeds,she was unnecessarily graceful and one of the nicest people areum thinks she has ever met in her life. she had a positive soul that surrounded other in a mellow aura. how quickly they became friends they soon became the best of friends and even went as far as to create quirky nicknames for each other (a idea from haewoo because of their choices in music instruments but areum could admit the anime was amazingly adorable). they had managed to overcome the simple obstacles and found themselves on the other side and really areum was insanely happy that she had found her playing the piano and got over herself because she wouldn’t have met such a wonderful person.

this is how she finds herself now, currently hanging from the small couch, trying to block out the background noise of the television.she was insanely hungry and due to her not receiving her paycheck, she was unable to go out and buy groceries. a groan left her lips as her stomach whined in protest. she needed to eat and she gazed at the small pink device sitting on the table. was she hitting rock bottom at the moment? probably. it wasn’t as if she isn’t accustomed to doing such a thing from the girl as they usually do this type of thing all the time. where one person would come over for dinner and vice versa so she shouldn't feel so stuffy about it but, areum was a prideful person and this was actually tearing it and setting it on fire. she sucked it up, eat or starve act your age, and typed a small message to her friend. 

[text ►kousei] have you cooked anything??

[text ►kousei] can i come mooch food from you

[text ►kousei] i might actually be dying in my apartment 

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Solar

@sbjeonhaeun

areum was always one to be super conscious of her musical prowess. there were a select few that she actually allowed the opportunity to witness her playing the small instrument and those where people she trusted with her life.however, one night she found herself in her small apartments, the windows open and  playing her violin-carelessly may she add- and worries thrown into the bitter busan wind. the next thing she heard was a small almost timid knock on the front door and the hairs on the back of her neck stood up. she quickly realized her mistake and scrabbled around the apartment in horror. had she disturb someone?she slowly opened the door,her heart feeling like a brick in her chest. what she hadn’t expected from her little stunt was that she would gain a fan of sorts. the small girl ,she had learned that her name was haeun, was almost hell sent in her books at first. despite not being personally acquainted with the girl,she hated her. how dare she listen to her play her music and so carelessly embarrass her like that? areum could admit she was quite petty at the time and wishes to never speak of those times.the small girl almost seemed to bring a storm around her everywhere she went and quite bluntly areum was not the one to enjoy such a thing. she found herself being the rudest she had ever been, even going as far to slam the door in the others face when she so graciously came to compliment her on her playing.she never felt so childish in her life as she did when she faced the mirror and realized what she had done.

despite this, it came as a surprise as she slowly began to find herself becoming acquainted with her and her quirky attitude.one thing she had learned quickly that the girl was incredibly consistent. even with areum’s poor attitude the girl continued to talk to her as if it didn’t occur and deep down areum was thankful. she wouldn’t know what to do if the girl somehow became hurt by her childish antics and she suddenly had a spoof of interest. another thing was she was amazingly charming. her presence left little to be desired as she seemed almost as bright as the sun in the sky. every time areum was in her presence, she found herself unintentionally losing the days tension in her shoulders and carelessly throwing her head back in careless laughter.almost instantly had her motherly instincts latched on to the girl and seemed to not let go. she was so small-smaller than she was which is quite the miracle- and so innocent and she wanted to protect her from the bad of the world.little by little she began to find herself become more immersed in her company and even going to seek it when not given and she sighed. never was she one to hold grudges and in the span of almost 2 weeks she found herself someone else to dot over. 

this is how she currently found herself hanging from the edge of the couch with a pained look on her face. she was unbelievably bored and the spring air that seemed to chill her apartment.she looked at her phone in intrest as an idea came to her mind. maybe she could ask someone to accompany her to lunch or something? she quickly pulled the phone from the table and tapped animatedly on the flat surface.

[text ►haeunie] wanna grab something to eat

[text ►haeunie] of course me being as nice as i am i will pay

[text ►haeunie] this one time tho

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she hadn’t asked for the job of continuously looking after him, though something in her had stirred when she saw him, and for that he was thankful, but placing his problems on others was something he tried not to do, even if their relationship had extended to something more than just patient and nurse. “and stop nagging me so much, mom,” he says in attempt to listen the mood.

she sighed as she began the familiarized process of addressing his wounds, a scowl on her face. it was a a known part of her personality to worry about the well being of others to the point where it restricted her of sleep. a small tick appeared near her temple eye and she honestly  thought about putting more pressure on the tender wound.she jumped at the hiss that escaped the others throat. ah maybe she did put too much pressure without knowing.”sorry, i tuned out for a minute. yea but you got hit and you know how that makes me-angry. you know i can’t help but worry about you, i just don’t want you to get hurt or go to prison. what if one of those guys you fought had a weapon? what if they would have done something more than fighting? what if something bad happened to your hand? you know how you love to draw, god i don’t even want to think about that.” she finished the small treatment trying to ignore the bubbling of emotions threatening to overcome her.

despite the small time that she had managed to squeeze her presence into the man’s life, she had grown accustomed to the biweekly patch ups and nagging that were certainly promised on these days. he had almost managed to grow weeds where they didn’t need to be and yet she was fine that they were there. it created a certain beauty to the atmosphere. areum clicked her tongue as she surveyed the injuries over trying to spot anything that she had missed.she snorted at the poor attempt to mask the scar as she grabbed his chin and held his face straight. she then began the same process of bandaging the small cut. a curt laugh escaped her lips at the supposed insult.”i have to, it seems like you don’t even listen when i do nag you.you know how you get when you drink. at least take me with you when you go so i don’t stay up having a heart attack when you leave. i could be like one of those designated drivers except i’m not driving, i’m keeping a child out of trouble.”she glared sharply at the man to accentuate her point.

she successfully cleaned and sterilized the wound, sighing as the weight seemingly lifted from her shoulders. it was in fact minimal damage done and it was easier to fix that the previous tomes. areum pushed the small box to the side and placed her hand on her chin, a grim look on her face.”so what started it this time? alcohol? competing? was it you or the other person? i have a strong feeling it was you, no offense you know i’m kidding.”

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%

%“curious text” 

[text ►hwannie] are you ready to go??

[text ►hwannie] if you take like 30 minutes doing your hair like last time

[text ►hwannie] ….are you testing me right now??? cause this is mean and i am hurt

[text ►hwannie] i’m busting down the door get ready to fight.

[text ►hwannie] i’m lying, are you okay?!!??? Are you sleep???

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⁇ ø %

⁇ “drunk text”

[text ►kousei] woonie theres a pupy in the srteet

[text ►kousei] IM GNNA GTE IT

[text ►kousei] im taking it home wth me

[text ►kousei] (img) look i got a new puppy!! fck im cyring 

[text ►kousei] im gonna get kicked out... O WELL

ø“late night text”

[text ►kousei] i’m going to the store do you want anything??

[text ►kousei] if i don’t text back in like 5 mins call the police

[text ►kousei] give them a cute picture!! 

%  “curious text”

[text ►kousei] woonie wanna grab lunch?? my treat~

[text ►kousei] you can here me cry about this violin that i seen today

[text ►kousei] that thing was more than i would make in this lifetime

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$%ツ

$ “accidental text”

[text►soobin] i could actually destroy you with my pinkie pls

[text ►soobin] wait wrong person god i am so sorry!!

[text ►soobin] god i’m so embarrassed but HIIII!!

[text ►soobin] don’t involve the police i was kidding i promise~

% “curious text”

[text ►soobin] i always wondered this but how did you learn to draw

[text ►soobin] like did you just like pop out and drew well

[text ►soobin] teach your noona because she is helpless

[text ►soobin] i can’t draw simple stick figures

ツ “excited text”

[text ►soobin] SOOOBIN-AH 

[text ►soobin] I PASSED THE TEST

[text ►soobin] I REALLY PASSED IT!!!!

[text ►soobin] Lets go out and celebrate! My treat!!!

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Divine

@sbjaehwang

their friendship was something that was truly unforeseeable and yet quite ironic. areum being the way she is does not easily partake in the it act of social situations however, it seemed that she had to when her eyes trailed over the bruising and marks adorning his skin. it took approximately four times for areum to lose her patience with the man. the first time they crossed paths, she was wary of him. it was night and she just so happened to pass him walking the streets and her heart quickened when she took in his bloody knuckles. she clutched her purse closer to her side trying to flip through her mind for the past self defense classes she took when she was a teenager because in no way in hell was he going to kill her. to her great chagrin, he simply walked past her and down the street. she wondered if she should tell him that his hands were in fact bleeding because it seemed he didn’t know.she shook her head and made her way to the small store.

the second time they met she thinks that she may have had a small heart attack. she was going down the small staircase in order to check her mailbox when they passed each other. she noticed that he had a cut on his lip and a bruise on his jawline. her immediate response was to drop everything and run because the words danger! danger! were running through her head so loud and clear but she ignored them. their eyes met and she quickly placed her blonde bangs over her eyes and speed walked down the stairs. it wasn’t her business. she didn't do it to him. she tried to nip the budding feeling of guilt licking at the sides of her mind as she turned the corner. she slammed her head against the wall and began silently cursing under her breath. this was not what she signed up for when she moved here. just in case though she walked to the corner store and bought the biggest first aid kit they had. ya know.....just in case.

the third time they met he wasn’t hurt. in fact areum was the one that was hurt-emotionally at least.she had somehow managed to miscalculate her expenses for college and may be forced to take another semester off. she walked up to the bar and sat on the cold stools trying to ignore the buzzing around her and the almost hot air sticking to her skin.she wanted a drink. a familiar face just so happened to be the bartender for the night and a chant of “what the fucks” and actual screams were playing in her head so loud she actually couldn’t hear the music. the beats of the place were causing her bones to vibrate as she ordered a simple glass of soju. now quite simply areum knows her limit in drinking but yet the eyes of the stranger caused her to drink more than she really planned on that night. she wasn’t quite sure what happened after her fourth drink but she suddenly finds herself waking up on her couch with a killer headache and a wish to die. a note lays beside her head and she finds herself unable to read it due to the almost waves of embarrassment she feels.she lays her head down and wishes for death. 

she did in fact end up reading the message later on and she wanted to crawl in a hole because she wished she ran played in traffic. in a neat print was a simple get well and she was really ashamed of her behavior.she also was thankful that the stranger had taken her home. ah there was that guilt again.she stares out the window and wonders if the jump down will actually stop her from thinking.

the fourth time they met marked the end of her amazing patience because what the actual hell is this guy doing to himself. she was sure there was a special place in heaven for her and her huge generosity. she snorted at that thought. she had been walking back into the apartment, a grim look on her face as she had finally escaped the cold clutches of university. she had passed him and instead of turning away she stared straight on with a determined look.of course not at all seeming mean considering he could easily step on her but as solid as she could be at the time. his knuckles were again adorned with blood and scratches and his lip was in fact busted and she wanted to pull her hair out. she had marched over and grabbed his wrist. she had one foot ready to dart if he started swinging at her. a shrill cry left her lip as she began to nag to other trying to seem cool despite the cold feeling seeping through her chest. she was going to die. her life literally flashed before her eyes and she was going to die today for touching this guy’s body.”what is this,why are you always hurt? this isn’t good for you,you could get a infection then what would you do? die? not on my watch. do it elsewhere. i don’t want to be haunted.”she had dragged him up the stairs into her small apartment, barking orders for him to sit down as she got the first aid kit from the bathroom and began to work on his injuries. one thing areum was also known for is that once she starts ,she never stops until she runs out of steam. so for the next twenty minutes or so, she forced the poor sap to hear her nagging and she really wanted to strike the back of neck.“do you know how bad i felt watching you get hurt and i couldn’t do anything about it? i almost lost my mind. at least if you get hurt tell me and i can fix it for you.” when she had finished sterilizing the wounds he immediately left and she felt at peace until she remembered oh that guy gets hurt on daily basis. her smile slipped from her face. she needed a drink.

that event led to a series of other which resulted in her current position. she was sitting cross legged in the man’s apartment, holding the his hand in order to apply the disinfected spray. she glared at his face across from her to get her point across. “what did i tell you? i told you to stop the shenanigans and yet here we are again. what if you got hurt worse this time, what if something bad happened to you? every time you go out it seems you get hurt. i swear hwang-ah i’m going to lock you in the closet or put some bubble wrap around you.” despite her nagging speech, she really was worried as she began to look over the bruises adorning his skin and the scratches on his hand. “i know you don’t want to hear this from me but please just be a little careful.please.”

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Lets play a little game - a text message meme! This is just a fun little thing to get people interacting with new faces. Feel free to post and send these until next Sunday, but be advised it doesn’t count for activity, just for fun! PLEASE send to everyone so that everybody gets included as equally and fairly as possible! Send “✆” for a MORNING text. Send “✉” for a text that WASN’T SENT. Send “☎” for a RUSHED text. Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text. Send “✿” for a SUGGESTIVE text. Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text. Send “✘” for a HATEFUL text. Send “#” for a RANDOM text. Send “@” for a SCARED text. Send “&” for a LOVING text. Send “%” for a CURIOUS text. Send “ツ” for an EXCITED text. Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text. Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text.  source!

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with that said, he let his head thump down onto the table, closing his eyes for a moment as he stifled a yawn. “sometimes i think they shouldn’t make us take all these irrelevant classes if they don’t contribute to our major,” he mumbled. “i mean, you play the violin. it’s not like you’re going to need to know how to calculate all this…stuff.” he waved his hand vaguely at the papers on the table, his head actually resting on a few of them. “they should just let us do what we really like to do.”

she laughed quickly catching onto the tone of his voice.her eyes immediately lit up with mirth as she placed a finger to her chin.”well that’s not true, i also like you when you buy me food. Of course you will always be my favorite, they don’t help me with my wretched math homework. top marks to you for;for now.”

areum hummed as she tossed his words around in her mind, her lip quirking down at the corners.”hwan-ah you know you need to give yourself more credit, you’re quite amazing if i do say so myself. let your noona praise you once in a while. hmm yea, its quite challenging at first but it gets easier if you began to understand the basics. i’ve been writing it so long that its almost a second nature to me. maybe i should just use a previously written one to save time and work on the second part. ” a quick blaze began to settle under the skin of her cheek as she registered his words. areum was never the one to digest compliments well hence why she always tried to avoid them. her shoulders began to rise as she protected herself from the imaginary threat."ahh thank you.... you know if ever wanted to hear me play you could just ask, I don’t mind really. why do i always feel like the younger one when i come over? it’s starting to take a hit on my pride.”

at receiving approval, her hands quickly moved across the screen of the phone trying to place the order for the food.”do you have any requests or preferences?”her eyes trailed over the boy with his head down, taking in his slumped shoulders. her hands instantly began to comb through the mass of hair, a fond smile on her lips. he was so similar to a child it was uncanny. she felt almost like a mother dotting over her child. “maybe to get the weak ones out first? weed the ones that won't make it out. we do use some math in classical music but only the basics, no adding letters and whatever is on this worksheet.” she pointed to the paper in disgust as she ran her free hand through her own tousled hair. “i wouldn't complain if they got rid of it though, i mean i graduated high school thinking i was getting away from it only to return back to it in college.  its really sadistic how they did that. its never going to leave me alone. ah you look tired, am i getting in the way of your sleep? i apologize, i should have asked before i came over and disturbed you. i can leave if you want me too,i don’t want to be a hindrance.”

Prisms

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rose colored

@sbchaeyeon

she was dazed. everything prior had not shown signs of such a thing to occur. there was significant amount of sunshine and the air seemed still. however when she looked out the small window near her bed, she had seen blankets of smoke pilled onto every surface possible.a blizzard had somehow abruptly swept through the area and caused it to look like a ghost town outside.usually during this time of day she could look out and see people rushing to their destinations yet no one seemed to be outside.little particles of snow were still falling from the murky sky and only adding onto the pesky mounds of snow that were sitting on the pavement. from the looks of things, it also took out the electricity with it. areum groaned as she gotten out of the bed, her feet hitting the chilled floors. thankfully the light from the window illuminated the room enough for her to navigate her way around without breaking a bone. she flipped the small light switch on the wall just in case she was wrong about the power outage. she wasn’t.

a sigh escaped her lips as she leaned against the wall in defeat. the chilled air in the room was causing her to lose feeling in her finger in toes; she just wanted to go back under her blankets and go back to sleep. it seemed quite impossible due to the freezing temperatures. maybe she should go and steal warmth from chaeyeon. as the name registered in her mind she felt the world tilt a little too far to the right. chaeyeon. she was afraid of the dark.

she found out about the others fear unexpectedly. on one of their movie nights, a power outage had occurred and caused the room to fall into a sea of black. areum felt the other girls hand  vice around own so tightly that it became a little painful. areum looked over in the dark and how almost ghostly her face seemed in the darkness.a little too pale. a smile fluttered on to her face. it seemed the girl was afraid of the dark. how cute. another reason to add onto the impossibly long list of things that she loved about girl.her immediate response was to raise their joint hands to her cheeks and place a small kiss upon them. “it’s okay, it should turn back on in a couple of minutes. remember that i’m her okay, i wont let go of your hand.” she mirrored her response by playing with the small strands of hair that fluttered out of the ballerinas neat bun. they had stayed awake, whispering secrets and other nonsense to each other, describing their events of the day, and telling about their aspirations until finally the lights were returned and sighs of relief were filling the air. she resurfaced from that sea with a deeper understanding of the other. 

a gasp escaped her lips as her hand grabbed for the phone on the nightstand, quickly scrolling through her contact list. chaeyeon. areum had to call her to make sure she was fine. she was met with a automatic response and a no signal looming over the top. she cursed again and began to make her way out the door, not minding,not knowing, the fact that she was in fact barefooted and in her sleepwear. she would leave that embarrassment for later.

areum quickly made her way through the familiar route to the others apartment, her heart beat ringing in her ears. all of the worst possible scenarios popped into her head making her pace quicken a bit. was she hurt? was she crying? she wanted to scream at the worries that felt like a weight in her mind.a mantra of the girls name signaled around them all. when she finally made it to the small wooden doors, her civilized side fled out the door as she began to bang as hard as she could on the aged doors, forgetting that she in fact had the pass code to the door.again, another embarrassment for another day. her voice cracking as she yelled the dancers name.”yeona-ah are you okay? you’re not hurt are you?” when the girl opened the door she quickly buried her face into the crook of the dancers neck, trying to push off the ill feelings that ailed her. she was just being incredibly silly. her arms tightened around the waist of the girl taking in her homey scent. the tension quickly released from her muscles as she embraced her.again she felt the words on her tongue. no it wasn’t the right time.apologies were whispered into her skin as she wished she could do better, be better.

she quickly began to notice that something was off.a almost foreign feeling seemed to loom in the air. she didn’t trust it. it felt almost suffocating,as if invisible hands had a vice around her throat. the hairs on her neck stood as she tugged at the nightgown she currently had on.”i wasn’t really dressed for this to happen so excuse the pajamas.i would have hated for my neighbors to see me, they would think i was crazy.” she shook the two pigtails on her head laughing.

they spent the rest of the day snuggled in blankets, hands lanced in an invitation. she told her about her daily events,about her future plans and wishes,how she was saving up to go on a small vacation to jeju during the spring, anything to keep her mind away from the idea off the looming darkness that was yet to come. as quickly as things began to settle, the sun began to peak through the curtains, casting rays of rose colored hues into the room yet they stayed in the small apartment. as quickly as the day began, the sun began to set over the horizon and the lights began to diminish in the room. never once did her hand leave the others, promising her that nothing bad would happen while she was there. everything seemed fine when they laid down for sleep. the air seemed to had settled and the snow stopped failing from the sky. it led them to believe that maybe tomorrow the mess that was happening would be cleaned up.however that idea fell into shambles when she awoke the next morning.

when the next day arrived she felt different. she seemed to almost taller than when she arrived, her limbs longer, her hair reaching farther down her back. that should've been the first sign to what had occurred but she just pushed those thoughts to the back of her head blaming her nerves. she looked at the strand of hair twirling on her collarbone, noticing that it was a gorgeous mahogany color. she dismissed this a little slower as she became a little skeptical. okay maybe she drunk something funny. that had to be it or maybe she lost her mind. the last one seemed more realistic. the final nail in the coffee was when she looked over to the girl next to her, a gasp getting stuck in her throat. why was she looking at herself? it was an exact carbon copy of herself peaceful resting near the window. a shrill scream filled the room as she surveyed her own body, picking up the tattoo on her arm.she knew those tattoos. those were chaeyeon’s tattoos. had she died in her sleep? it didn't make any sense for her to be in this position, strangely looking at her own body in someones eyes. she watched the memories play across her eyes, a twitch appearing near her temple. these weren't her own memories  by far, it seemed they also inherited each others thoughts. it was a surreal thing-to see the way she looked at things. well of course her mind would be as beautiful as she was. she shook the girls her own body, panic thick in her voice. “yeon-ah wake up, something weird is happening! I think i died in my sleep! you look exactly like me, i look like you.oh my god are we both dead? do we call the police? i don’t think they can help us . ”

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in the end, the time seemed to fly by. honestly, seunghwan thought he might have confused more than helped with his fumbling explanations — a university professor he definitely was not. he let out a sigh of relief when they finished a particularly hard question, and a “huh” of surprise escaped him when he looked up at the clock. “it’s getting kind of late,” he said in surprise, brows raising as he looked over at areum. “do you want to stay for dinner? we can call in for pizza while we finish the rest of the questions, and then we can — i don’t know, just relax or something.” he smiled; it would be nice to relax after a whole day of schoolwork....

she smiled as the boy became flustered at her words. ah there was that childlike innocence that she wanted to protect. he seemed almost too pure to be in such a world, in such a place. she began to feel like a lazy river as the tension in her muscles dissolved. her nerves seemed almost foolish now as they feel back into the same childish banter. “oho look at that blush, how cute. okay, i'll take your word for it.”

areum whispered words of thanks as she grabbed the crystal glass filled with a molasses colored liquid.she placed the glass to her lips, quickly throwing back the substance.she set the glass down, cupping her cheeks in her hand. ”yea, you know how absolutely helpless i am in math. i took one look at the paper and knew i wouldn't be able to do it so now i’m here begging for help from my favorite dongsaeng.”

the violinist hummed in acknowledgement as she gazed at the design on the screen. despite being incomplete, the work itself was really beautiful. a surge of pride flooded through her like an ocean.it was unusual how quickly the other had weeded into her life. how quickly her maternal instincts began to flare up when she was around him. it was no doubt that he was going to go far with his aspirations once he left the small shoe box apartments.”i would nag you on that but you’ve always finished your assignments on time and you’ve probably had enough for about a few more hours. you get a free get out of jail card today. this is really beautiful, i can guarantee you that you’re going to get a perfect grade on this. i’m proud of you. classes? um yea i had music theory and musical performance classes today. i have to find someone to do a self written duet with for a big assignment. i don’t know how i’m going to do it, i mean i can’t talk to other people without having a small heart attack.”she watched the boy make small notes on the paper, trying to figure out any specific techniques that she was missing. 

the petite woman stretched her arms over head, mentally cheering as most of the worksheet was complete. currently the haze that was once covering her mind seemed to be less potent. she was understanding the gist of how to do the assignment due to his meticulous teachings. she glanced at the clock as he pointed out, a gasp leaving her lips.” time passed so quickly it felt like i’ve been only here for a  couple of minutes. yes please that sounds great, god it feels like my brain is fried. you want me to order? really thank you for this,your amazing. i was so scared i was going to fail this class because of this assignment. if i can do anything to treat you for this please tell me.”

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and indeed, chaeyeon did feel exhaustion in her limbs. as much as she loved dancing, as much did it wear her out after a long week. but there was no way she would ever miss out on a night with areum. or morning. or any time of the day for that matter. as the night sky was finally dominating, the sun’s last warming sun rays weren’t keeping chaeyeon’s skin warm anymore and even a sip of the hot chocolate didn’t do its full magic. with the blanket still over her shoulders she rose from her seat and took a few steps, only to turn around and stretch her hand out towards areum. “let’s go and watch something silly.”

“and I don’t think I could have fallen for you any faster’ ...

they were walking on a fine line.hands clasped on the other and the strings of one of their hearts trying to tie loose ends on the other. they were a hairs end away from what they truly wanted and yet no one pushed the limit of the glass. every time the idea of such a thing occurred to her, she was immediately floored with all of the possible outcomes of the situation.how such a simple act can cause negative repercussion that she wasn’t mentally prepared for.so many times has she thought about what it would their life be like if one chose to push past the boundaries. how she would be able to lay kisses up her skin and watch her love blossom across her skin like roses. being able to watch the sunrise bath her in millions of diamonds every morning.whisper messages of love into her ear. so many things she wished she could do and yet a simple three words denied her such freedoms.

i want you.

areum eyes scintillated with mischief as she pursed in her lips. “here i was thinking i could get the easy way out of this. i wouldn't leave you for all the money in the world, don’t worry.” the weight of the words settled on her tongue again. it was such a excellent time to say them and yet they wouldn't leave her mouth. how much of a coward was she to allow terror seize her body just from the words? it wasn’t as if they were not true. she knew she loved the girl, quite early on actually.watching her push a piece of whiskey colored hair behind her ear and curl her lips in the most faintest way had made her realize her deep infatuation for the girl. it had felt like a truck had ran her over and she was dazed and confused. never had she been physically or emotionally attracted to someone in her life and yet this petite woman caused her life to turn into something so unusual, yet so painfully beautiful. her eyes met the others, eye lashes framing pools of spring rains. was she aware of her feelings for her? was it so fragile that it could not be sensed by the other? 

i love you.

areum followed the others movements and began to rise from the small chair. a groan escaped her lips as she began to feel the muscles in her legs protest at the movements. she grasped the blanket tighter around her figure and grasped the hand in a natural response, making sure to curl their fingers together tightly.”oh good choice,watching some awful movie and eating all night, you know the usual. my place or yours?” 

as she grasped her hand areum came to a conclusion; chaeyeon was something very solid. she was so potent in nature that when she was present, her scent lingered in the layers of her skin and settled into every fiber of her being. she was a moving force, something so great in power that it appalled areum. it seemed as if her whole world revolved around watching the seasons change on the contours of her body. she was spring during winter. a bloom that broke through a blizzard.she was beauty in the most unusual place. 

god,i love you so much.

Somewhere between crazy

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Taeyeon in Madrid | Beauty +

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...once that was done, he turned back to the shorter woman with a bright smile. “i’ll get you a drink. what do you want?” he asked, already wandering off in the direction of the kitchen.

areum couldn't quite understand why she was currently having a small heart attack. many times have they scheduled studying sessions together with the sole purpose of passing knowledge to one another and yet here she was acting as if she was meeting the boy for the first time in her life.it was just such a foreign thing to her to be able to call someone a friend. growing up, she was always a outcast. her peers always choosing to isolate her from themselves, seeing her as a bird in a cage so she was unable to become acquainted with anyone, much to her extreme displeasure. she looked up as a figure appeared in the doorway, eyes taking in his disheveled hair and his eyes seeming tired. he looked as if he was working all day. the hairs on the back of her neck raised as her natural motherly instinct grabbed at her. she wanted to reach out and smooth his hair back into place.she was quite aware of the his work ethics and how he easily tended to immerse himself into his work. 

she stepped into the small apartment, looking over the small knickknacks that adorned random surfaces. his home was surprisingly organized for a boy of his age, another thing that had always bewildered her. heat pooled in her cheeks as she knew at her own home there would be sheet music scattered across the floor. she looked back to the other taking in his taller frame.she smiled as she seen him rush to clean the papers laying on top of the table. it was a sign of being human after all. ”jeez every time i come to see you, you seem to get taller and taller. you wont be able to fit into the door of your apartment if you keep it up.” She said jokingly trying to break the ice, something she always done before she nagged him. “you’re not overworking yourself again are you? you know what have i told you about that.you need rest like everyone else.” she shot him a stern gaze, trying really hard to seem threatening despite the quite obvious distinct height difference between the two. if anything did come down to it, he could quite easily beat her. she really tried not to dwell on that too much.

she continued her small survey of the apartment, admiring the thoughts that went into the decoration of the place. it was clear how much he loved his desired pathway looking around the place. would be a master of his field. she sat at the newly cleaned dining table and looked up from hearing his inquiry, trying to steady her thoughts. “anything you have will do, i’m not really picky. look the reason i’m here is i kind of need your help with this really important assignment but if your busy i can leave. i don’t want to keep you from your own work.”

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