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I woke up with the thought of people being a temporary home. I can’t remember the last time I slept and opened my eyes knowing right beside me is the most permanent refuge there ever was.

how can a person be a home and a calamity at the same time (via daaamnpaolo)

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Attachments. How to not tie your strings to someone you had the most perfect moment with? It’s like an automatic mechanism. Once you meet a person, every part of you clings onto that someone. But the saddest part is, when you decide to cut all the ties and let that person leave, you’re also letting go of yourself. You’re now soul-less. Days will pass by and the nights will grow colder. You lost your warmth. You lost yourself in the process of being deeply in love with someone even though you know you shouldn’t. It’s not forbidden nor a bad plan but it’s something you could give a try but will never work out.

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//  iiwanan na kita kahit di tayo magkasama tatapusin ko na kahit di tayo nagsimula //

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After All

I found someone who understands me well

He knows how to listen to my nonsense issues

He knows when to stop speaking and when to continue

He knows how efforts work to make me feel how he feels

He is consistent

He is vocal

Never I had met someone like him

Maybe he is is the one

And now, I dont know anymore If this we're all illusions

The person I found for unknown reason

The person I've thought I've wished for Maybe these were all for a show

Maybe, people do really get bored

And this boredom won't really last

That will made them realize they need to go

Perhaps we're all these people Living someone behind

After all the good beginnings Things should really not end nice

How funny all of these is

Forgetting everything

Starting again from the beginning

With different people and places

Maybe, no one is really meant to stay

And everyone should accept that

Reality isn't good at all

And everything will be just a memory after all.

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She scribbled so hard on the paper

that she puked ugly words

- her secret to beautiful art

- K.L

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The poison leaves bit by bit, not all at once. Be patient. You are healing.

Yasmin Mogahed  (via alunit)

The poison kills bit by bit, not all at once. Be patient. You are dying.

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Going Back

Tight chest Catching breath Suppressing tears Hoping it won't show anyway If I can go back From the very beginning I will never ever again Give my number to a stranger

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Sometimes

Sometimes you're happy Sometimes you're not Sometimes you're lively Sometimes you're not Sometimes you're embracing life Sometimes you're embracing death I don't know what's more scary To live this kind of life Or to end it all at once.

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The Stigma on Depression

Depression of course is never a joke. It's never a want of a person. It's never a way to attract people. It's a disease that even a doctor wouldn't see at a glance. It's so deep that even the person experiencing it wouldn't know it at first. It's so deep that even when you're too near, you won't even realize it. Depression is a secret. A secret that you want to tell to someone but you can't. It's a secret that you want to spread yet you're scared. It's a secret that is killing you little by little. A taboo secret. At first, it feels normal. On the second day it will still make you feel normal. On the next days, it will make you restless, sad and deep. Until you'll accept that being restless,sad and deep is normal. Normal because you can't do anything about it. Normal because you think that everyone do experience it in their life. Normal because you would hear everyone about their struggles and you would think that yours are all shallow compared to them. And then one day, someone would knock on your door. Trying to talk , trying to ask, trying to say you're not normal like what you think. But it won't heal you. Asking for help wont heal you. Talking with people won't heal you. Opening up to them won't heal you. Trying to change won't heal you. Smiling won't heal you. Laughing won't heal you. Pretending won't heal you. Accepting will heal you. Embracing that you're sad, you're broken, you're suffocating , you're dying will heal you. How? Because you'll realize that it's not normal yet it's normal. Because you'll realize your tired. Because you'll realize that it's time to take a rest. It's time to come back home. Because the only person that will heal you is your own self. You're the only person that knows who you are. You're the only person that will swim the deep sea to carry the suffocating you under the depth of your soul. It's only you who could revive your self. It will never be anyone except you. Living here is hard, but loving your own self will make all things better.

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A Destiny or a Reality?

Would you believe? If things are happening right on your face What you wished is granted Prepared beside your knees Maybe a destiny Maybe an effort But who knows what it is I shall just thank for it.

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Stop

How should I stop? Stop myself from speaking Stop myself from doing Stop myself from feeling Is life really this wicked? To let us feel things we don't wanna feel

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How to Revive an Old Soul

How to bring back the old you? The one that is innocent. Deprived from the real world. The one that doesn't care at all or even shy of all. If there's any way, I'll buy to remove these wounds and scars from the battle.

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