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Not even adding anything else. Just showing y’all this.

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my cousin is 14 and is dating a girl while living in the same shitty ass city i live and me a 18 year old haven't dated a girl in a year...what am i doing wrong???

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sometimes i see pretty girls or someone that is definitely my type and i start to daydream about how would it be if i dated this girl or how would our relationship be like? and then i come back to reality and im still single :(

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Have y’all noticed that when we’re talking about lesbians in a positive way people usually don’t like using the word lesbian, but when it’s about something negative they can’t stop using lesbian lol

For example, people love to say that phrase “if lesbians can control themselves around women so can men”. I’ve never seen people use another word (besides lesbian) when it’s about comparing us to men.

Also when they’re talking about predatory people they suddenly have no issues or discomfort using the word lesbian…

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omg yall soooooo im "friends" with this girl in my school we're really close but last year when we were in the same class, she tried to kiss me but i was so shy and i didn't realize what she was trying to do so i got surprised and we didn't kiss but I've been wanting for about a year to try to show her that im interested but our relationship is so friendly it took a while till today that i finally showed her my intentions aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa im so nervous.

she also showed that she wants it too, im so excited!!!! we'll see each other at monday im really nervous, actually everything about kissing women makes me nervous and excited im also really happy.

oh god i love loving women

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dude im surrounded by straight people i need gay friends i can't live like this anymore

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You want to know a LGBTQ+ fact that is not centered in the US?

The equivalent of the slur dyke in Brazil is “sapatão”, which literally means “big shoes”.

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STORY TIME

ok, in 2020 i started to question my sexuality (i was 14), i have never ever thought about my sexuality before but anyways, by the early 2020 i thought that i was bi, and my best friend thought so. but in 2021 i was having problems with accepting that I was really bi because i felt like i didn't feel a single thing for real life men, and i was getting a little bit frustrated because i couldn't believe that i was a LESBIAN!! that sounded like terror for me back then.

sooo by june ig of 2021, i finally accepted that i was a lesbian, because i could tell that women were my thing and uk it was different when i was with a girl. i also came out to my family in 2021, it was not something to scare me (but still did tho) because i have 2 gay uncles and one of them is married. my mom wasn't really happy with me being gay but she have nothing to do about it.

ok, here comes my least fav part.

in August of 2022 i started going out with a lot of friends, like 11 teens walking around (now i hate this so much goddammit), and some of em had friends from other close cities and they started hanging out with us. one of this guys had interest in me, and i knew it, it was too obvious. my friends started telling me that he's nice and that I should give him a chance, i wasn't really comfortable with because it was making me confused and i hated it. but everyone was so genuine about it so we kissed, it was weird i didn't like it, but he was really nice, but i didn't like him in a "i like you kiss me" way, it was more like a "you're nice to hanging out with" way but I was too confused about everything. (one sign of my lesbianism)

it didn't last because i didn't like hooking up with him, it was weird and there was no feeling at all, also I wasn't the one to start the kisses. anyways I stopped going out with everyone, now is just 3 people that ilsm, and they're better anyway. now 2023, I'm thinking im bi, i started texting this guy but after some days I wasn't liking it because he always wanted to send "weird" pictures and i didn't like it (another sign of gayness), then one day something happened and i was pissed! I wanted to get out of my house but I had nobody to call to meet up, so i called him, and I wasn't waiting for but he kissed me and I regretted instantly, we stayed out for like an hour and I got home, we still kept in contact for a few days and I stopped responding him because I realized that i don't like kissing men, actually i hate it. and now I've been thinking about my ex gf and how i loved her, and now I REALLY accepted im definitely a fucking lesbian.

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talvez seja só da minha parte que existem lembranças

e tive que perceber isso dolorosamente

ao me enganar para acreditar que alguma coisa você ainda sente

mas eu estaria somente negando o resultado

de tudo que você havia causado

no meu pobre coração

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i wanna paint your nails while listening to our playlist. I wanna look into your eyes and kiss you non-stop. i need to be in your arms because i can't be distant from you. i want you to say that im the one you love and ill ask you to prove it so that I can feel all of your love. i love you girl

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I'm in desperate need of affection and cuddles

It's pathetic lol

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i wanna have gay friends, sometimes i feel so left out because i can't relate to this friend that crazily made out with her boyfriend last weekend.

and i wanna talk about the first girl that i truly loved but none of my friends will understand why am i still attached to her after all this time and how shitty she made me feel after switching me for that ugly looking ass man.

but also i can't blame them, everything's so fucking harder because i live in this small shitty city, so i have nothing but live like this until i get the chance to get tf outta here.

the last time that i was hooking up with someone was the exactly girl that i was talking about, and it was months ago and honestly i don't think that i'll meet a girl that is not straight, which is quite impossible to happen because, as I said before, it's a small city.

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i want lesbian friends!!!

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Happy weekend to lesbians only

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então eu te espero.

sei que pensar em fazer isso é loucura

mas talvez assim o nosso amor dura

e você parece ter esquecido da minha existência

e eu não te culpo

porque eu sei que sou pura insistência

mas você não parece feliz com ele

ou eu digo isso porque queria estar na pele dele

mas também não quero viver

esperando pela sua volta

porque sabemos que eu sempre

vou esperar até morrer

com a esperança que você não vai deixar isso acontecer.

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toda noite.

toda noite me pergunto

porque você que tanto me ouvia me trocou tão facilmente

e agora eu sigo escrevendo sobre ti tristemente

com a esperança de que

você voltará pra mim algum dia

mas no fundo eu sei, você sabe

que o nosso tempo voaria

e ali acabaria.

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saudade.

lembro de você naquela noite fria de outubro

te conheci ali

cheiro de bebida e roupa preta

te observei indo na direção do banco vazio

e logo a segui

linda debaixo da lua

e o seu cabelo cacheado desarrumado

para os pés naquele momento tinha observado

e os seus olhos castanhos encontraram os meus

e então, tão inesperado

senti o seu olhar nos lábios meus

você pergunta

"posso te beijar?"

meu corpo congela e me inclino a ela

meu corpo se estremece aos toques dela

e para o corte da minha felicidade

ela se afasta e me olha com um sorriso

que logo me enche de saudade.