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Relatable actually...... I'm pretty sure this period comes in everybody's life...... Love the quote......

“When the worst that can happen has come and gone And you’re still standing, remember that you won.”

— Joan Bauer, Almost Home

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Unlikely Fascination

Part 1: "Fond of You"

I was 3 years old back then. At that point in time, nobody could stop me from crying. My mom and grandma, after a lot of "hurly-burly," managed to stop my unceasing crying temporarily. A cool breeze of peace was blowing all around. Suddenly, a sound.

Mom and grandma went to investigate it.

"Go away, you nasty cat!" said Grandma, spotting it.

It was a civet cat. And now that I say it, it’s a vivid memory of that time, as it was the first time I learned about the existence of civet cats.

I was kind of fascinated, evident from the fact that I was giggling.

Who knew that I would become so fond of it?

As I grew older, I became more and more fascinated by it. And my elders were getting more and more angry with me about this. This was quite surprising. Nobody in my family liked cats, and neither did I. The 3-year-old me would have rather played with her German Shepherd than fed a cat. So how could I even be fascinated by such a "nasty" cat and want to pet it?!

Well, people said that was supposed to be an obvious question.

But don’t they all know that love is something beyond all logic and reason? It's completely fine that I don’t like the sweet, well-behaved house cat; instead, I like a wild species. Is that not what love is about?

But I was too young at the time to argue and defend myself. I just remained quiet with a disgusted expression, my mind completely unaffected by their reasoning.

People say that I was born to rebel. So, the little, cute, innocent, introverted Sambartika protested—even if not in the way she does now. To prove that it wasn't "nasty," whenever I was asked about my stuff, like, "Who will eat the chicken soup?", "Who will wear this cloth?", or "Who will do this?" my answer was, "Bham biral korbe" (The Civet cat will do it) instead of "I will."

I wanted it to befriend me. Believe me.

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Unlikely Fascination

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Absolutely loved it!

“It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.”

— André Gide, Autumn Leaves

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Remember the saying, 'one man cannot make everyone happy'? You are who you are, a unique individual. That's the supreme truth, who loves you or who hates you, it really doesn't matter.....

“Before you ask why someone hates you, ask yourself why you even care.”

— Tiffany Alvord

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"A Pessimist is an experienced Optimist" - Collected

Optimism is like a beacon of light and Pessimism is like a dark tunnel. Who wants to get inside a tunnel? Everyone dreams to have the light: its warmth, its shine and its fame. But life is a "Balanced Wheatstone Bridge". The potential difference at the balance point is always zero. Similarly, in life the resultant of worst and best experiences is also zero. If you want to get sunlight, you have to experience the days of thunderstorm and lightning. Initially, we are afraid of thinking such things. So when in reality we have to go through the "dark" phase of life, it appears even darker, absolutely impossible to survive. And that is the time when you are forced to be a Pessimist. Thus Optimism gives way to Pessimism. Because if you don't understand what is the intensity of "Bad", you will never understand the magnitude of dreadfulness of its consequences. And then you'll not know what is the value of "Good", thus, you'll be unaware of the difficulty you've to face to achieve it!