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saw this on twitter and wanted to save it here

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Yeahhh

God

So

She felt pressured in text, person asked if she could host implying sex. She said I don’t know, maybe if I feel it

Went on hangout

Got asked to suck dick

Sucked dick via free will

Stopped because jaw pain

Person did not ask again for suck, asked if they had a friend.

I genuinely don’t think that that’s assault. Sorry but, maybe I’m just being an asshole, but I don’t get why that excuses them to treat me the way they have

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They let the appointment fall through. I screamed, sobbed and fucking raged when I found out. I found out, of course. Which means soph hadn’t checked the humane society website once. They never checked their email. I checked and the confirmation email was sent weeks ago. They just don’t fucking do anything. They aren’t capable of doing things

Kind of astounding soph asked me “if”(not an if, they clearly expected me jump to chip in lol) I wanted to help pay for a new bong,,,,when I’m paying maybe 50 bucks depending on if soph doesn’t get their pay stubs in time, or half of the remaining amount after soph pays their 25. Why are they more okay paying for a bong then getting a necessary operation for their cat, who is their responsibility. Like,,,,it’s like pulling teeth getting them to pay for the cats balls getting chopped.

Like,,,they know I’m trying to smoke less, why would I contribute to a bong? Especially when we have a perfectly usable big bong, it’s just needs to get the glass inside removed. Like,,,it’s an unnecessary purchase. A different bong won’t be any easier to clean?? They’re all equally hard??? Like,,,they’re easier to clean when you just,,,clean it more often, not letting the build up build up.

I truly don’t know why they need another bong, and if I fucking dared point that out they’d throw a fit.

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“Our communication is stressing me out” bitch, you are stressing yourself out, I’m not doing anything but being kind and supportive. I feel awful(not really) that I’m not there for S but tbh,,,I don’t think I could handle helping them right after an assault. It’s too much for me. And that’s not a bad thing. Soph is just really intense in a way that’s hard for me to handle in a way that doesn’t make me feel bad.

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Jeeesuuuusss chriiiiist! Fucking chillll! Just chill!!! Stop thinking I’m constantly attacking you!!! You’re never having a good day! Like never! So I can never handle with with anything but kids gloves! ???bitch you can’t

“You just seemed so happy when I said you didn’t have to help” “yeah I thought you were being considerate so I said thanks” “so I’m being inconsiderate by asking?” Goddddd, I just fuckingttt, I can’t do or say anythingggggg!!!! Anything I say that isn’t cheery and happy and even then sometimes it upsets them! I have to Fucking coddle them constantly! They are my best friend and I am sick of it!!!

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It sucks when they don’t believe what I’m saying and what I’m saying is that I’m here for them, and love them and am not going to abandon them. The almost full dismissal hurts

,,,,make me feel like a villain for not missing you after what? 3-4 days? When we live together and I normally saw you like? Everyday challenge. Soph completed that challenge

“I guess I’m used to people lying to me I guess”

“You can abandon me if you want”

That’s classic bpd, I’m so glad K told me that when Bpd peeps feel pushed away/abandoned they do the same in response. Soph felt hurt I didn’t say I miss them, soph quietly pushes me away by saying I can abandon them.

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I felt so pushed away I almost cried. Like, literally, I felt like a bad person for not missing them. We live together, we normally sleep in the same room, they’re basically with me in spirit at all times, I don’t,,,am I bad for not missing them?

,,,,make me feel like a villain for not missing you after what? 3-4 days? When we live together and I normally saw you like? Everyday challenge. Soph completed that challenge

“I guess I’m used to people lying to me I guess”

“You can abandon me if you want”

That’s classic bpd, I’m so glad K told me that when Bpd peeps feel pushed away/abandoned they do the same in response. Soph felt hurt I didn’t say I miss them, soph quietly pushes me away by saying I can abandon them.

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Like,,,,I saw him literally yesterday???

,,,,make me feel like a villain for not missing you after what? 3-4 days? When we live together and I normally saw you like? Everyday challenge. Soph completed that challenge

“I guess I’m used to people lying to me I guess”

“You can abandon me if you want”

That’s classic bpd, I’m so glad K told me that when Bpd peeps feel pushed away/abandoned they do the same in response. Soph felt hurt I didn’t say I miss them, soph quietly pushes me away by saying I can abandon them.

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,,,,make me feel like a villain for not missing you after what? 3-4 days? When we live together and I normally saw you like? Everyday challenge. Soph completed that challenge

“I guess I’m used to people lying to me I guess”(lying about missing them by saying, “I missed you too”)

“You can abandon me if you want”

That’s classic bpd, I’m so glad K told me that when Bpd peeps feel pushed away/abandoned they do the same in response. Soph felt hurt I didn’t say I miss them, soph quietly pushes me away by saying I can abandon them.

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Do not be fucking snippy with me when you start talking about the thing and continue talking about the thing tonight hi I suppose I was in the wrong one why my name is because they see your interest and I mean that they didn’t want me to continue speaking even though I asked that like 3 times

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,,,,eating food isn’t a great reason to not preheat an oven and toss a frozen meal in for me. They just forgot, it isn’t that they’re eating, it’s that they forgot. Just fucking admit it, Jesus Christ

“Did you know that I was eating” no, how could I? You didn’t tell me? And even if I did,,,,,your mouth and hands can work at the same time??

I just,,it’s, they forgot for like,,,40 minutes

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It’s very nice to be validated that it’s not me making things up, soph jus has been unpleasant lately to you mental and physical pain. Doesn’t make the behavior okay, but makes me feel not crazy and more sympathetic

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Also,,,,they are like,never having a good day, which means I have to walk on eggshells

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Kind of astounding soph asked me “if”(not an if, they clearly expected me jump to chip in lol) I wanted to help pay for a new bong,,,,when I’m paying maybe 50 bucks depending on if soph doesn’t get their pay stubs in time, or half of the remaining amount after soph pays their 25. Why are they more okay paying for a bong then getting a necessary operation for their cat, who is their responsibility. Like,,,,it’s like pulling teeth getting them to pay for the cats balls getting chopped.

Like,,,they know I’m trying to smoke less, why would I contribute to a bong? Especially when we have a perfectly usable big bong, it’s just needs to get the glass inside removed. Like,,,it’s an unnecessary purchase. A different bong won’t be any easier to clean?? They’re all equally hard??? Like,,,they’re easier to clean when you just,,,clean it more often, not letting the build up build up.

I truly don’t know why they need another bong, and if I fucking dared point that out they’d throw a fit.

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Soph has decided to be a fucking pill tonight. God forbid any of us don’t agree with them

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What the actual fuck is up with soph this morning. Just because you woke up on the wrong side of the bed doesn’t mean you get to be rude to me???? Be nice. What /about/ my energy? I feel fine. You’re snapping at me and making me feel bad for speaking