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I tried to take US politics seriously for like, 3 seconds, then I just gave up. Just make America GAY again, bruh 💀

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Dracula, Tod Browning, 1931 

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So long as something invoke enough reaction in me, I am going to draw; I am a free speech absolutist in that sense.

Whether you think I am critical of these politicians or not, I think it is purely your projection.

But what I can say is-- I have a hunch I am going to make fun of Elon Musk at some point.

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I'm so sorry for making a stupid Elon Musk vs. Vampires joke.

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Friend's zombie project

one of my bestie on X asked me to draw her zombie design in a art game project-- this bad guy is on the n@zi zombie/antagonist side. IDK what his superpower is, I think it's stealing Allied organs and stick them to his behind, but really? +Both amused and horrified+

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Some more good things in life for Christmas.

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How would you like Tangerine's gifts? Merry Christmas.

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edit- ah it is not actually an official poster of the live event.

I'm just a stupid black metal fangirl you know.

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for I am death

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Have you ever painted 1931 Renfield?

Hey, actually, no O_O So I decided to rectify that problem. Thank you anon!

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Sorry for the little ad here :)

MERCH!

OK guys I finally received some items! I currently have the Montgomery x Rommel standee and the Model postcard in stock. Well, at least pay me a visit at my little store!

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merch page.

If you are from outside Taiwan, I'm sorry, I can only process your order with google form and Paypal :(

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Sorry guys for lack of posts here; I've been literally drowning in my WWII side of fandom stuff :S

The Desert Eden

Neither this post nor Rommel is sponsored by Estee Lauder, I swear. This digital drawing is my attempt to capture the scent within this tiny bottle.

Some time ago, my friend mustered some money to get me this incredible perfume sample-- it must be known that this Esteee Lauder perfume series is mad expensive, and we are both very broke. Immediately, its name intrigues me-- DESERT EDEN.

At least based on its Chinese namesake 檀沙玫瑰, DESERT EDEN's notes are built upon very heavy rose-- which might lead many perfume lovers to believe it as mainly for women, and be shocked when it comes out too strong, unwearable even.

On Fragrantica, this perfume is marked as for MEN and for women. It is not one of those nondescript unisex type deal, with notes like fresh citrus, sweet amber, harmless vanilla or neutral musk— something any gender could wear and no one is offended. If the perfumer manufactured this bottle the inoffensive way, it could only end up purely feminine. It's a bouquet of roses after all.

Somehow, Estee Lauder made rose incredibly masculine. There's leather and iron, anger and strength in it. It's a bottle of roses in harsh climate adorn in thorns, ready to hurt, maybe be hurt, unique and brutal-- uniquely brutal. If your body odor/temperature cannot handle aldehydic types like Chanel no.5, I highly do not recommend. Except if you are born a man, maybe try out.

IDK, the DESERT EDEN just reminds me of Rommel, regardless of its name. I wear it with caution or else my colleagues are going to water-hose me down. I know shipping Montrommel (Montgomery x Rommel) too hard is part of my obsession with it, but what the heck.

This desert is their garden of Eden, where enemies could just be enemies, no intrigues, conspiracy, ideologies and politics, where surrender rather than needless massacres is the ultimate prize.

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"You are my black sun, master."

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It is like 100th time I see how being self-critical ruins an artist; it can definitely be the no.1 obstacle to progress. I am very lucky... or dare I say, unlucky, to not have this problem. You see, when my right hand is overworked and needs a rest, I do art practices with my left hand. You have to NOT CARE how ugly anything looks to be able to do that, using your non-functioning hand just get some art concepts to stick.

I have Asian parents who absolutely despise art. When my father found out high school me tried to do flip animation using the home printer, he had me stood in front of him and lecture me on art is a waste of time, I am wasting printer paper, and gods will punish wastefulness. Talent is a gift from gods; it stands to reason that it is rare among humans, how the hell do I think I have that? Wake up you have no talent. Go study and get straight As.

I never had a chance to go to art school, everything is self-taught after I moved out and become a working member of society. That means I learn to draw really, really, really late in life, after adulthood. I am never critical of myself, because "I suck, I have no talent" is my default mentality. If I want to draw XX realistically, I will get there no matter what. Whether my XX is good enough is irrelevant, because I just suck, but at least I get my XX.

Artists should understand the power of not give a shit, is the power of progress-- even if you got that power from a horrible family, and that's the magical part-- it still works even if this mentality was formed under toxicity.

Nowadays I own two blogs, this one and the wwii one; I tentatively showed one of my art in my family group chat (a "normal" one of course). Immediately awkwardness came over the chat, and everybody straight up ignored me. That's because I objectively don't suck at art, so my family can't tell me my art sucks ass in good conscience. Yet my parents hate losing face, so they remain silent, pretend they do not see my art at all. They sulked for a few days afterwards, so I never brought it up. Being wrong about their children is a big embarrassment moment for Asians, and it is the kids' problem, not theirs.

Wow thank you mom, dad, for the art skills and a lifelong mental health black hole.

Let's see something more lighthearted. I laugh so hard every time cuz it is so accurate LMAO.

hello! if you're a self-taught artist, do you have any beginner tips for overly critical artists?

my partner has really cool art ideas but hesitates to put them on paper. he used to draw back in highschool but stopped. i really want to get him drawing again since he gets all excited and shiny when he talks about his ideas but he's very self-critical.

how could i gently push him back to the pencil? im thinking of having an art date with him to try and start the flame but how can i encourage him that it doesnt have to be perfect on the first few times?

i dont have the mind of an artist or their anxieties so im hoping other artists could help him out.

idk if it makes a difference but he's studying to become a licensed physical therapist and i told him that it sounds really convenient to know how to draw with his course (like anatomy)

thank you! any advice would help

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Ah I couldn't find the high resolution version of my photography series; I really had a bad habit of not backing things up properly :(

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Ah I dug out my very old drawings of some OCs :)