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someone said this and it's a good ass point so i am repeating it here: consider the reason why sam left before the show was actually because of dean. HEAR ME OUT. dean always go to bat when someone disrespect him, and especially go ballistic if someone disrespects sam or their family, but when it came to john? dean took that on the chin. he didn't say shit when john was disrespectful and abusive and shitty to dean, and that was probably extremely hard for sam to watch because that's his brother. the man who actually raised him and taught him to be better than this. so that was probably some of the influence as to why there was so much tension between sam and john because sam hated the way that their father treated both of them, but mostly dean.

sam knew that dean's weakness was always standing up for their father, because dean is still holding onto the father that they had before mary died, but the hunter john became is the only kind of father sam has known. which is why sam always stood up to john, always looked like he couldn't get along, because he hated the way that john, the man who was supposed to raise him, was treating the person who actually raised him.

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♡ TARA YUMMY via tiktok ( tarayummy )

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Cillian Murphy as Dr. Jonathan Crane / Scarecrow BATMAN BEGINS (2005) | dir. Christopher Nolan

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JOEL MILLER in every scene — 3/?

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i feel like i should put a disclaimer that on weekends i usually try to not be here, and spend my free time after the workweek to just get my apartment in order, get super zooted, and use the time to get back into my other hobbies like pottery, sewing, etc!

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MICHAEL B. JORDAN starring as ERIK KILLMONGER | BLACK PANTHER (2018)

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THE UGLIES FEATURED ON EDEN: the fungus eventually takes over the entirety of the host that they harbor, as the person infected no longer looks human nor have any conscious thoughts.

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S01EP05  /  S01EP16  /  S02EP03

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thinking about hal this morning and how she was never really shown how to properly love, not even truly by her own mother who abandoned her during her trial for the murder that her mom committed. thinking about how hal, even at the end of the world where nothing is guaranteed, will still keep people at arms length and unfortunately knows how to close herself off so that no one can really get a glimpse into her and who she is, because to hal, understanding someone means weaponizing that intelligence to hurt the person later. thinking about the first time if hal ever truly does love, it's a long road and it feels hellish and she hates it but knows that loving her and to be loved only feels that way.

also thinking about how her best friend, miles, is the only one who continuously shows up by her side and will call her out on her bullshit.

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i promise i haven't forgotten anybody, i just have been doing a fuck ton of healing and self reflections (that i didn't intentionally mean to do but i like it its fine) this past two weeks lowkey and just spending time in my home with my animals and just try to be more present and slow down and i have found that it is doing tremendous for my mental health and emotional regulation <3. i hope you are all doing so so so wonderful!!!!!! be kind to yourself especially during these awful times right now.

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unfortunately i did it: @earthfascinate

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unfortunately i did it: @earthfascinate

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tell me how am i to survive this?

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no no i am thinking about him because imagine the ultimate shock when you have spent your entire life researching and neck deep in papers and never holding a weapon unless it's a knife to peel an apple with, and then you are in the thick of literal actual war a month later.

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re: last post. picturing just him in the scenario like clarke and lexa where they discover that they wandered into what looked to be a zoo at one point in time, and they get afraid because what the fuck is lurking in the woods then if these animals are out? versus this guy who would realize that they are standing in what used to be a zoo, and then just geek out and want to explore and want to figure out the history and see if he can figure out the story, until immediate threat suddenly comes and he's like ohshitwegottarunohshitohshitohshit-

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"He likes you. Usually he bites."

Drew Starkey in Queer (2024) dir. Luca Guadagnino

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also my ocd has been outrageous this past month and stuff so i have been having the urge to deep clean and fix all aspects of my life (on here, my apartment, my finances, etc.) and that's the main reason why i have been so spotty on here and ooc. my brain won't let me sit down and relax until i feel like i have everything the way that i "want" them to be, thus why i spent my three day weekend deep cleaning and organizing every corner of my apartment instead of getting the chance to sit down and relax.