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i've been so fascinated with how sociology and linguistics work together that i'm questioning what my major should be when i get to college again.... my choice for the longest time was psychology but oh my god society is just so FASCINATING......

unfortunately it's hard to find jobs in linguistics and sociology from what i'm aware so sticking with psychology it is

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ending another year single, sigh, where are the other lesbians and enbys :(

just being silly though, i got closer with some of my friends this year and that is irreplaceable to me :) i love them all more than anything

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i miss my cat

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unfortunately i'm full of joy and comfort. and love. i guess. i want to be around people and find the reason for life in it or something

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something about slow blinking at my friend (cat body language for "i love you") because i'm bad at being vulnerable and saying it out loud

gives me joy :)

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hmmm do i sleep or bug my friend to see if they want to talk to me (my anxiety says they do not because they are tired) (i don't actually know if they are) (but what if..)

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oh i am getting so tired, so comfy... but i can't sleep, because what if my friend wants to talk to me today!!! can't risk it, i will take any opportunity to talk to them!!

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because the truth is. i do want to be held and i do want to be loved. and i want to hold and love too. find me someone who will understand this and choose to be with me anyways. let me pour myself into them.

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i don’t like being perceived but i do love being adored

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If I’m honest, my favorite form of showing love is by soft touch. I wanna massage your neck or run my fingers through your hair. I want to kiss your temple and lightly stroke your shoulders. I’ll let you rest your chin on my shoulder. Let me be gentle with you because we both know it’s needed.

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vent about the election, warning for mentions of suicide

i don't usually pray but when i feel like my world and everyone i love is in a state of limbo right now, it feels like a right thing to do

my life can fall apart so easily soon, all because of collective ignorance. i don't think my friends will continue living if he wins, i don't think my brother will, hell i don't know if i will. i just want to have the people i love be safe and if this weren't such a hell hole excuse of a country than i wouldn't have to be worried about that.

i don't want to go to school tomorrow. i wish i could bring my knife to protect me. i think i might be sick if i have to listen to some of those people in my classes, actually. i'll choke on my voice when im forced to sing god bless america in choir, knowing my director who had helped me so much doesn't believe me or anyone i love deserve to be human.

i fucking hate this world, i hate this situation, i hate how im driven to this point of considering my humanity and my life going forward constantly.

i have a pride flag on my wall and i feel sick looking at it, because my love for myself, who i am, and those like me doesn't mean anything to anyone. at the end of the day, they don't know me, do they? i'm a hypothetical.

i'm just so tired.

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having a platonic crush can be so entertaining sometimes because like do you even know i would kill a man for you if you asked

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my son is so pretty in the sunlight <33

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blinks at you (i got bored)

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pros of doing plushie photography:

cute photos

can use them for a game i'm playing

my beautiful children can go outside!!

cons:

getting outside with my parents seeing me and thinking "what the heck are they doing...??"

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> tell my parents i want a diagnosis for autism

> "why?? why would you want that?"

> "if i don't then adults will think im wrong and lying and insane if i tell them im autistic"

> "no nobody does that you're just anxious"

5 mins later

> "are you sure you're autistic? you're describing normal things. do you know what confirmation bias is? are you trying to get diagnosed just so you can get sympathy?"

how funny guys

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head scritches>>>>>>