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something I feel like people miss while reading stormbringer is this line from the second chapter when Dazai and Verlaine met:

'Nevertheless, Dazai continued to slaughter his enemies and serve the Port Mafia in order to force himself into an even darker place.'

So, "why does Dazai stay in the mafia for so long?"

Because he wants to be in a bad place. He wants to commit these atrocities to further dehumanise himself. He wants to alienate himself and is determined to convince both himself and everyone around him that he is a terrible thing, the 'black wraith of the Port Mafia' who had no empathy or sense of humanity.

That's why he stays in the Mafia, that's why he works so hard in the Mafia, that's why he does what he's told. He's an automated killing machine capable of planning out and causing mass destruction, and his fuel is self-hatred.

He doesn't take pride in his 'accomplishments' in the mafia because, again, he doesn't actually want to succeed in the mafia, he wants to prove he's a bad person. He's not in the mafia to try and find a reason to live anymore, his reason for that is Chuuya, he's realised he's not going to find it in the mafia, even if he's not going to admit it until the dark era.

He probably feels a sense of guilt and disgust, but refuses to acknowledge it because he thinks that as something inhuman, he isn't meant to feel things like that, and the more he does, the further he removes himself from any sense of remorse, until he doesn't feel it any more, and probably still hasn't processed even in the ADA.

He stays in the mafia, and does the things he's told with such accuracy and deadliness because he thinks it's the only thing he can do, and he can use it to prove he's no longer human.

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*Sirius and Regulus in Reg's dorm imitating Walburga for jokes*

Regulus: If you go outside, I WILL BEAT YOU!

Sirius: If you stay inside, I WILL BEAT YOU!

Regulus: If you try to hide, I will find you.

Sirius: AND I WILL BEAT YOU.

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Just realized ima 10/10

On the ph scale

Cus I'm basic as fuckkkkkk

(And I'm so happy about that)

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why do i imagine the batfam finally meeting the league and then one of them going 'how the fuck do you have so many kids?' and little shit Jason goes 'well, when two people love each other very much...' and because Bruce doesn't wanna listen to this, he tiredly reminds Jason: 'you're adopted' which naturally means that Jason is going to dramatically pretend that this is the first time he's heard that and how could Bruce keep this from him, much to the horror of the league and the exasperation of Bruce

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WDYM I THOUGHT YOUR NAME WAS 'incorrectbatfam' I feel lied to !

i feel like your name would be something from a dnd game like urgoth the destroyer

or alex <3

have a nice day :)

Guess my name in the reblogs (wrong answers only)

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you know what.

if this gets 2k notes by 2024 i’ll stay

update yall are going fast.

change it to 10k.

if this gets 10k notes by 2024 i’ll stay

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Keep the flame going for those we have lost to suicide. 

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I swear 2023 has been crazy life I spent the better half of the year obsessed with one fandom that for the last month have gone through like 3 fandoms

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”havent i given enough? given enough? always the fool” is regulus not sirius. because regulus followed the rules. he stayed quite he never spoke out of turn. he did what was asked of him with little to no hesitation. he hated it but that didn’t mean he acted out. but in the end it got him no where in life. no brother. no friends. nobody to love him.

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OK so I'm brown so I don't really celebrate Christmas but merry Christmas yall

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That's so sweet of you here have a digital hug 🫂

Let's spread some joy!

Reblog this post and tag a friend or mutual to give them a chocolate Santa :)

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Sirius “Spend the rest of my life with what could have been” and Regulus “I will die in the house that I grew up in” Black

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Yep

Shout out to ipsygrace she Single handedly wrote the best fic ever go check her out if u wanna read an amazing fic retelling the hunger games from peeta's perspective (if u haven't already)

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It's here

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you can find it on ao3 btw I forgot to do add that just search ipsygrace hope this helps

Shout out to ipsygrace she Single handedly wrote the best fic ever go check her out if u wanna read an amazing fic retelling the hunger games from peeta's perspective (if u haven't already)

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Shout out to ipsygrace she Single handedly wrote the best fic ever go check her out if u wanna read an amazing fic retelling the hunger games from peeta's perspective (if u haven't already)

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Same

It's the return to my hunger games phase for me